I bought two tickets going to Bacolod City and asked Ayah to come along to the opened shop, trading some ready-made lady's dresses and shoes.
"Which one do you like? I think that one with a flowery design, do you like it?"
"Yes Marc, I love that one. By the way, where did you get this money?"
"Remember the money your parents gave to us, I put some in my wallet. Okay then, get it and change your dress at the fitting room, over there and I'll select shoes that suit you."
We finished buying things for Ayah; bought some food delicacies and went onto the bus. I selected the rear seats for us both. I embraced Ayah to rest on my left arm and she falls asleep. A few minutes later, sleep kept on bugging my nerves that I started to close my eyes. But suddenly, my vision focused on a man standing near the ticket booth. He's the man from the chapel! I closed my eyes again, and spotted him, to be sure. Yes, it's him!
I hastily edged down the seat with Ayah to cover us from a man's view. I woke her up slowly, whispered about the man, and waited for almost an hour in a reclining position. In my mind, I am sure that I was his target, not Ayah Isabel or her family. I kept track of my past, questioning who had done such horrible acts killing innocent people?
Passengers started to come in, one by one, some in groups, and the air-conditioned bus was half-full, rearing to go, for a scheduled time. The bus helper began to shout, 'Bacolod, Bacolod, Bacolod City, last chance to get your ticket...there's still more seats... more seats...Bacolod..." Just a minute had passed, and the bus moved from the bus terminal up to the crossroad where we ate our supper. It went to the right side of the crossing going north, where I glanced outside and saw the vastness of the sugar cane plantation even though it was dark. I closed my eyes to reminisce the story of my mother to me when I was young.
"It was the 30th day of September 1954...my birth date...and my grandfather's place...It was at the center of the sugar cane plantation where I was born at the small barrio named Tabu, in the town of Ilog, province of Negros Occidental. At that time, my pregnant mother and father were there for vacation, and to ask my grandparents for a parcel of land, to be cultivated for our use. The reason why my grandfather built that way was that he could see at once who was coming from his house and who the robbers of his most precious wealth were; sugar cane, mangoes, jackfruit, and other fruit-bearing trees.
The house had a second-level section wherein my grandfather used to stay when he was not on the field. The lower portion of the house was made of wood, with a concrete floor, where the kitchen and dining area were separated by the wooden partition intricately designed with the old carvings - a large area where nobody knew why my grandfather modeled this way. The upper portion's roof was made of coconut wood with a knee-leveled wooden wall, and things that were close to his heart; shotgun, deer-skin leather carpet, tobacco pipe, and vernacular. It was he who ran the family business wherein my grandmother was supporting him by keeping records of his transactions. They lived happily with their four children; three boys and the youngest, a girl. It was my father – a second child - who dreamed of becoming a soldier.
He wanted to be released from the usual way of farming and breeding animals. He decided to be a soldier was the only way to fulfill that dream. He was brought to Manila for Army Training. The Philippine Army division in Quezon City – the capital of the Philippines – assigned him to another area, near Manila, where he met my mother. They loved each other very much and young to know what's the real meaning of life. They eloped, lived together, and my father gets sacked for absences without leave (AWOL).
They lived in the poverty-stricken place in Manila on their own accord to face the realities of life. My father could not sustain the rigors of living in an unsustainable basic way of family life. They moved to Bacolod City, found a job as a driver of a soft drink Company through the recommendation of his newfound friend, and stayed for more than a year. He was transferred to the town of Hinigaran for the Company's newly opened warehouse. It was in this place that he spent his family life, spending time with his three children; until I came to life as his fourth child..."
"Marco, Marco wakes up!" I opened my eyes instantly when I felt Ayah's hand and her call.
"Why, what happened?" I asked with bewilderment.
"You're snoring loudly like a boar. All the passengers are clamoring for it. Look at them.....look!"
I straightened up and looked at them; some faces were smiling, some were angry, and I noticed two passengers were just sitting still in their seats. I whispered to Ayah, "Forget them, they're all ugly wild cow," while mimicking with my face. Ayah wryly smiled at me, but ashamed to the passengers, "You slept for an hour I think and it seems that you're dreaming something?"
"No, Ayah, it's just...I'm tired," I lied to Ayah. "Where are we now... town of Binalbagan?"
"We are approaching the town of Hinigaran. Do you want to visit your family?"
"No Ayah, this is not the time. We have to go on with our plans. When we arrived in Bacolod City, we have to buy The Daily News, so that we have some knowledge about your family in Barrio Tuyom. Besides, Edward bought two tickets for us. We have to leave at once."
"Okay, Marc you're the Boss...."
The stillness of riding this passenger bus during nighttime muted my thoughts while holding Ayah in my arms. The new feeling that I found protecting Ayah from any dangers gave me much thought to be a responsible man. A married man, married for the love of Ayah, married for her future.
It was past ten in the evening when we arrived at the South Negros Bus Terminal in Bacolod City. All the bus passengers were preparing to disembark. We hurriedly went down from the bus, while I was holding Ayah's hand. The bus terminal was quite peaceful for this hour of the day. We pushed ourselves to hail a taxi cab when two men grabbed us from behind; dragged us towards the open door of a red car and a man pulled us inside the car. I stamped my right fist to a man's face, but he clamped Ayah's body while aiming a gun at her head where I halted.
"Okay! Okay! Relax friend..." I said suddenly. "Release her!"
A man released Ayah, and I embraced her while the man pointed his gun at us. There were three of them; a driver, the man in the front seat, and a man with a gun at the back. I observed that we were heading outside of the city. After some kilometers of traveling at full speed, the car stopped.
The man told us to calm down, out of the car, pushed us inside the house, and seated us at the dining table face to face. Two more men appeared to watch us. Governor Gustilo showed up and I realized instantly the whole picture.
"You know Marco; I offered you the best opportunity that I could give you... because I loved my daughter very much. But, you're a disgrace!" pointing his clenched fist at me. The Governor walked slowly towards Ayah and suddenly held her shoulders, "Lady I am sure that you knew about Marco? That we have an agreement? That he wanted to marry Danielle and not you!!!"
Ayah's looking at me crying. The governor turned to me shouting with fire in his eyes.
"But you ruined it Marco by marrying this girl!! That, that you want me, looks like a fool to you? Huh, Marco Fernando?? You can't fool me!"
The governor left the place instructing his men to watch us very carefully. Two men brought us to a room and locked the door. I held Ayah's tired body but she was still crying.
"You have to take a rest. Come on I will put you in bed."
"How can I Marco!! You lied to me!!" She shouted at me in despair.
"My heart is not lying to you, I love you, not Danielle, please believe me?"
"The Governor's voice still lingers in my heart Marc, but I love you too."
"You want to take a bath with me?" I asked Ayah while I kissed her lips.
We took off our clothes, directly opened the door and we savor the refreshing coolness of the water on our bodies, toweled to dry and find some clothes in the closet to wear. I smelled Danielle's perfume.
It was almost two in the early morning when I checked the room's wall clock hanging at a far distance, near the window. Ayah was wide awake and can't sleep, looking at the ceiling.
"You're hungry? I'll find some in the fridge." I stood up in bed and jumped to the floor, but I noticed the doorknob was moving. I quickly went to the door and slowly observed it. I threw one of my slippers to Ayah and she instantly sat back looking at me. I signaled to her to keep quiet. She slowly got down to the bed and tiptoed towards me. The door slowly opens but we're hiding from the back. I smelled a perfume that I used to smell before but I can't decipher.
The face of Edward came into a view and I grabbed him towards us, "What you're doing here? Where are the guards?" I asked Edward instantly in a low voice.
"Quick Marco, hurry, we're leaving..."
I held Ayah's hand, followed Edward to the kitchen and we were out in the dark. We walked hurriedly holding Edward's back who was using a small flashlight to guide us. I saw at a far distance the lights from where we came in, the guard's house of the main gate.
"Edward, where are we going?" I whispered to Edward. "Just follow me, okay friend? Trust me."
I nodded to myself, only to myself. We walked for a few more minutes just following Edward. I saw a small light from afar.
"Edward, there's a light over there. Look!"
"Keep quiet friend, he's my companion. Quick!" Edward commanded me, "Ayah, how are you?"
"I'm fine Edward. Thank you, my friend," she answered.
"Now, we're near...hurry Marco Fernando..."
"You crazy dog!!! Don't call me Marco Fernando...just Marc my friend!"
"Just a joke my friend...my King...," Edward answered smiling.
We got inside the car and sped away from the farm. The light of the morning sun reflects the city's backdrop, as people started to move for a new day. Life in the city contoured people's minds and dreams. It really dissolved the most precious wealth of their beings, toiled each day to complete their most cherished dreams.
The waves bolted underneath the giant steel framework of the Sto. Nino Port's structure. A passenger ship M/V Don Julio was floating ashore anchored nearby, port workers loading passenger's baggage and some passengers began to embark. We found the port canteen to stay in while we were waiting for our schedule to go onboard.
"Edward, thank you, friend, you're an angel to me, always."
"Take your seat, my King, eat something, okay? Enough time to say goodbye to you and Ayah."
"How come the two of you know....."
"My friend I'll tell you. When you telephoned me to purchased two tickets, I sensed that you're in fear...exactly two tickets...You left the boarding house without a word for me. Remember, the meeting, I know you don't..." Edward suddenly stopped.
"Edward why?" I asked.
"Ohhhhh, and then, I called Joel to accompany me at the bus terminal to surprise both of you, but, we saw what happened. You know, we rent a car...I mean, part of the plan we followed up to the farm because I knew that you're in danger. So, Joel and I strategized on how to get inside the farm. We watched the guards and waited for a suitable time to combat them...one-by-one."
"You're not afraid Edward, Joel, that the Governor will discover that you're helping us?"
"No my friend, my life is nothing new, you're leaving me."
"Owwww, come on, I won't forget you. You can come to Manila anytime my friend. You see, I'll send a letter every week, just for you...and also you Joel." Silence ensued for the four of us; kept the silence as a way of letting our feelings flow within our souls. That's life and we had to face it. "You've done so much for me Edward and for Ayah too. I knew that we'll meet someday...I'll promise to you my friend, I'll get you here in Bacolod."
Edward hugged me tightly, crying silently, letting his palm entwine with mine, and whispered into my ear, "Goodbye my friend, I'll miss you." He gave the daily news bulletin to me silently, looking into my eyes and I kept it in the back pocket of my pants. "I'll miss you too my friend," I answered back. My heart ached for this kind of goodbye, for leaving my best friend, for leaving my old self, knowing that our future was vague.
I had to run from Danielle, from the Governor's wrath, from the life that I used to live. I needed changes for the good of myself, my love, and my family. Changes which I wanted for so long, but I love Ayah more than Danielle. That's the reason why I need a new environment to prolong those ambitions, to complete what I wanted now, but with Ayah Isabel; my love, my wife, my life. From what we've learned from other people; Manila is a city of joy for people coming from the province, like us.
The ship sailed smoothly towards our destination, Manila, Philippines.
XXX
It was in the year 1980, on the 4th day of October that we left Bacolod City to go to Manila.The next day, we're nearing the port of Manila, and our hearts are filled with joy for our new dreams, new hopes, and a new beginning. We were all alone to face the future. XXXIt was the last quarter of the year 1980, October that we arrived at the port of Manila, Philippines.As we came down aboard the ship, the feeling of being in Manila gave me hope to survive and fulfill my dreams. But as we walked in the crowd of different people, saw different faces; we were wondering where to go and where to stay. In our hearts, we can survive believing that someday, luck will reside in our lives. And it came suddenly..."Friend, are you the couple...I mean in the ship coming from Bacolod City?" asked a man with his wife and child."Yes, what about?" I asked doubting him."Where's your baggage, are you traveling without...I mean bag, pouch, or anything?""Why are you asking?" I angrily asked."You kn
In my mind, being a father was the greatest gift from God, a love that you can extend your innermost feeling to your son or daughter and your loving wife. It's not a responsibility but an obligation to care, love, and provide for their future. Nevertheless, as a father, you conformed to your maturity, determination, knowledge, and your whole personality to embrace your son or daughter, or children into the right path of living. If you're lacking the sense of discipline to sacrifice for them, then, and only then, you have no right to be called a father.I worked so hard to earn more than what I received from my employer; controlled my vices, learned new things about my trade, and even learned new ways to interact with people. Ayah's pregnancy brought a new life for me, to be a good father, and motivated me to dream some more.We forgot my friend Edward in Bacolod City, even Danielle, my family, and even the wrath of Governor Gustilo. Ayah's family too, she never asked me about them. Ou
That was...On the thirtieth day of December 1985, Monday that I left my beloved country Philippines, bound to Dubai carrying the reverie in my heart. I am an Overseas Filipino Worker, in short, OFW.Manila International Airport, Departure Lounge, Philippines: "Calling all passengers bound for Dubai, you have twenty minutes left to board the plane, Thank you!" The announcement nailed my ears with excitement, hope, and fear.The International Fast Food Chain of Restaurants hired us, as a group of 100 workers, to manage the stores in different places within Dubai, Abu Dhabi, Sharjah, Ajman, Umm Al Quain, Al Ain, and Ras Al Khaimah. Everyone was assigned in the whole of the United Arab Emirates, and Dubai was for me...my dream city...the City of Dreams...Dubai was young for its infrastructure, but an open city in the Gulf region with a busy commercial outlook compared to some other places in the Middle East. It has a long river that cut through the city center and the nearby places. Gov
I undressed instantly beside Vivian, went to the pool, and enjoyed the water. Every visitor seemed agitated when I approached Vivian again for another shot of tequila and a stick of barbecue. I didn't know why but I enjoyed being with her. She knew how to handle my questions with sense.Ryan Mallari introduced another lady named Susan Magtoto. We chatted near the pool for almost an hour which made Vivian Montoya act differently. I glanced at her, still grilling but now, drinking canned Heineken beer. Susan gave her mobile number and address. Left my place and chatted with another male guest.Around one in the morning, I was quite tipsy, and tried to find Vivian around the place. Glenda told me that she wanted to go home."Glenda, she left just now?" I asked."Yes, she told me to ride a taxi.""Okay, just a minute, I'll call her." I went outside the gate, and saw her on the main road waiting for a taxi cab, "Vivian, it's me Marco!""Yes, Marc, why are you here? I'm waiting for a taxi c
We traveled by taxi cab going to Al Nasr Leisureland situated near Karama Center, got inside, seated near the round-dancing floor and I ordered one mug of draught beer and a margarita cocktail for Vivian. We settled with our drinks, and she stood and asked me to dance. I smiled and said, "Okay." We continuously danced for an hour, making us perspire profusely, take our seats, and rest while drinking our drinks."Marco, I released my bad moments, I felt revived!""Yes me too, perspired like a dog, Ha-ha-ha-ha-...""Ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-...," she laughed."Let's talk something special, this moment in time.""Okay, what about? How special is that special?""About us...if we can be partners? I mean special partner?""Marco Fernando, you're too fast....what kind of partner?""Here in Dubai only...if you like, if not...then, friend?""Ohhh come on, Marco.....can you give me some time?""Of course....yes...let's dance....sweet music for us....""Okay, Marc."I held her soft hand going to the dance
The sunrise moved its cycle but I cannot sleep; took a hot bath, made a strong coffee, and listen to mellow music in my collection. My mind kept wandering from many different topics and angles. I could not decipher what I felt, or what I was thinking at that time. I doubted my true wisdom on how to balanced things into proper perspectives. I wanted to go to the Philippines now, to solve my hunches and doubts. Is it Danielle Gustilo, talking over the phone with Ryan Mallari? How come and why? Besides, I missed my best friend Edward Ramirez in Bacolod City. He's financially stable now with his fast-food business and his son Ronnie Ramirez was just promoted recently. He's leveling up his life more than me. How about my life now?I cried silently in my room and self-pity engulfed my loneliness inside my heart. I enjoyed my nightlife here in Dubai, but my true life was nothing compared to Edward Ramirez. My ego was intact with me like the water in the ocean deep. My family was damaged beca
The next day, we roamed around the Baclaran area to find an apartment for rent. We found one along Santa Rita Street and we transferred at once along with Mike Luna's family. We worked together and bought all the household equipment, utensils, furniture, beddings, and food. The apartment was huge enough for us and the Luna family that we incorporated our resources to go on with our lives.One day, Ayah Isabel wanted to talk to me personally she invited me to a restaurant. We sat down, and ordered some food and drink. She started to cry and looked at me in the eyes."What's the matter? Don't cry, tell me what's on your mind Ayah, I'm here to listen....""Marco, I'll tell you everything, what's going on while you're not here...but I believed that I've done everything that I could do...""Okay go on...I'm here to listen...go on....""When you left us, it was very hard for me to balance my new life with our children. For the first few months, you've sent money and I received it, after tha
It was ...In the year 1987 on November 4, when we left the Bantayan Island going to Cebu Airport, then, to Manila, Philippines.We left the Bantayan Island by boat going to Cebu International Airport, but along the way, I still recalled the history of this island. The provincial capital Cebu was an important port known to Europeans with the arrival of Ferdinand Magellan in 1521. Its bustling port, protected by outlying Mactan island, handles most interisland commodities and was second only to Manila in International trade. Already a thriving port when Ferdinand Magellan arrived in 1521. The Spanish made their first Philippine settlements on Cebu. Was it in my blood... Spanish blood?Edward purchased two airplane tickets scheduled for the evening going to Manila. We settled in a Filipino restaurant and ate some of our favorite Filipino foods; bulalo, Kare-Kare, kilawin, sinugba na Bangus, and fresh fruits."Edward, it's too heavy for me....can you cut some of the orders?""Marco, no p
Zenaida hands me a black lace bodice. I start to get myself into it and Zenaida turns me around to fasten the row of hooks and eyes trailing up the back. I'm distracted by my hesitancy by the thought of Marco's face and all this lace. I smile. He'll orgasm on the spot. I'm helped into the gown by Zenaida and presented to the oversized mirror. 'Holy shit!' she exclaims and then slaps her hand over her mouth. 'I'm sorry. That was so unprofessional of me.' Holy shit, indeed. I turn slightly to view the back and gasp a little. It clings to every curve I have perfectly and skims the floor when I raise on tiptoes. The lining under the lace is matt, giving the delicate, intricate pattern a shimmery effect, and the deep neckline is perfect with the cap sleeves sitting just off my shoulders, revealing my collarbones. I hear Zenaida scuttle off and return. She kneels before me. 'Put these on.' she instructs. I pull my eyes from the mirror and look down to find a pair of black, sling-back Dior
AYAH ISABEL FERNANDO POVOur wedding is fast approaching created by our children; Marco Fernando Senior siblings from me and Danielle Gustilo. As much as possible I have to keep it in a low-profile event. But, my Billionaire husband wanted to be a well-known marriage of all time. Even my personal things, I want to be discreet. But, Marco accompanied me to the first-class shopping mall.My eyes are immediately blessed with masses of drool-worthy handbags, but I'm not given the opportunity to look. He walks with purpose and meaning as he drags me along behind him and when we get in the elevator, he presses the button for the first floor. I scan the store guide.'Hey, I want the fourth floor.' I would like to avoid the international collections of the first floor. They scream expensive, but he completely ignores me. "Marc?" I look at him and find his face is completely impassive as he keeps a firm grip on my hand. The elevator door opens and I'm pulled out behind him.'This way.' he says
I collapsed on the sofa when I got home. I need an early night. Tomorrow is a long day in Country Hills and I need to get in shape. My phone is ringing. I rolled my eyes as I looked at the screen, but it wasn't what I expected. This is Tom. I growled to myself. When will my phone ring and it's someone I really want to talk to?'Hi,' I moaned. 'Okay?' he greeted, with his usual confident tone.'Yes, and you?' I knew he was fine. I heard that he was out almost every night, making up for a lost time. Not that our relationship stopped him from living exactly what he wanted.'Everything is fine. I rang to greet you tomorrow. It's tomorrow, right?' I was surprised when he remembered. He didn't really have an interest in my career.'Yes, thank you. I was just thinking of getting an early night.' 'Okay, I won't keep you,' he seemed disappointed. 'I've boxed up your other stuff.''Oh, right,' 'There's no rush,' he added. 'If you're free sometimes, it's better to chase.'Do you like it? Catc
I thought quickly. 'My car has new brakes. I forgot to remove my house key.'She accepted my excuse without further question. 'There's a spare door key in the pot by the kitchen window.' He ran back up the stairs and I followed, quickly opening a bottle of wine before rummaging through the fridge for something to eat. No one takes my wish. Wine will do. 'Yes, please.' Pearl came back into the kitchen. She's already jimmy-jammed up, and I can't wait to join her. I pour her a glass while trying to morph my face into anything other than the shocked expression that I know is still visible.'I'm going to change and call Mama,' I turned around, carrying my wine. 'I'll meet you on the sofa soon.' 'Cold,' I really need to talk to Mom. Pearl is my best friend, but you can't beat your Mom when you want comfort. Not that I can tell her why I need comfort. She will be afraid.After I put on my baggy pants and vest top, I lay on my bed and called my Mom Ayah. I called Mom Ayah Isabel when I want to
Stunned, I grabbed my clothes off the floor before running into the bathroom, closing the door behind me and flipping the lock. I leaned against the back of the door, almost naked, trying to control my ragged breathing. I looked up at the ceiling to stop my tears from falling. I am very disappointed in myself.I think I hear the sound of muffled voices coming from the room, and I try to steady my breathing so I can hear what's going on. But, nothing. No noise, no talking...nothing. Damn me for being half naked so I can't escape. Instead, I fled to the bathroom, hiding like a desperate tart. I am not comfortable with these feelings. I'm really ashamed of myself. I have been cheated on many times, and I have destroyed all the women who interfered in my relationships. Over many bottles of wine, I have condemned them, badmouthed them, and asked them for truly merciless vengeance. Now, I am one of them. I groaned, hitting the heel of my hand on my forehead. Crazy girl!When I heard the doo
He remained silent while I looked at him in shock, waiting for an explanation. I didn't get anything, except his intense green eyes staring at me from the other room. I felt like I was under a microscope, and that glass of wine was spinning in my stomach, twisting and turning as I moved nervously on my heels.'Is this some kind of joke?' I half laugh. I'm still waiting for clarity, but it won't come. I try to ignore the mass of beautiful people and frantically search my brain for guidance or instruction. It is useless. I'm not blind I'll happily volunteer that I've imagined his chest, more than once, and it's beyond even my highest imaginations and expectations. This man is beyond perfect. What will I do?He just stood there, head slightly bowed, staring at me through his long eyelashes. His eyes were piercing me, his mouth, and I could see the rise and fall of his incredible chest. There is some serious meaning; not too big, just clean...cut... perfection. If he's wrecking fully clot
"Yes, and I want to talk to you personally. Are you available tomorrow afternoon or evening?""Sister, you know that I am very busy with my job, very important or just a bonding moment?""This is very important, regarding your brother Marco Fernando Junior and your grandfather. Well, as for me, it is very important because of your inheritance. Are you interested?"Shaira Rose Fernando listen very carefully when she heard the word, inheritance. "Well, of course, I am interested to know my status for the inheritance.""Okay then, what time and place we will meet? Well, I suggest Le Jardin, a French Restaurant in BGC Taguig? We had the place on our own when we had lunch there, a dreamy place at the penthouse of W5th. Modern yet classic, I must say the irony blended well. Romantic but not boring. Complimentary slices of bread and small appetizers were served and the timing of every food we ordered was well observed (appetizers - mains). Also, there's a wine cellar where they keep some of
'Soon.' he whispered. It is a promise. He let go of my stiff thigh and got up. 'Nice to meet you, Pearl.''Hmmm, you too.' she answered thoughtfully.He stepped towards the back of the bar. Good God, he walks with purpose and it's sexy as hell. I closed my eyes to collect my mind, which was currently scattered all over the bar floor. It is absolutely hopeless. I turned to Pearl, finding the accusatory bright blue staring at me as fangs had sprouted.Her eyebrows hit her hairline. 'Fuck me, that was intense!' she spat on the table.'Was it?' I start pushing my sandwich around my plate.'You better stop with the blah-fucking-zay shit now, or I'll shove this fork so far up your ass, you'll be chewing metal. What question are you thinking?' Her tone was fierce.'I don't know,' I turned away from her. 'Attractive, arrogant and has a girlfriend.' I try for vague.Pearl let out a long, over-amplified whistle. I haven't experienced that yet. I heard about it but I didn't witness it.''What are
I turned to Herman's office to ask if he had notified Mr. Montero of the change in arrangements, but then it rang again, stopping me in my tracks. I sighed and connected the call. If Herman hadn't advised him, I would have. And if it doesn't fit, it's bad luck. I was making a mess of convincing myself that I passed on the contract because Herman was better suited for the project. I know damn well that's only half the reason'Hello.' I say, stamping my foot a little for sounding apprehensive in my greeting. I aimed for sure and confident.Shaira Rose?' His husky voice had the same effect on my fragile senses as it had on Friday. But at least on the phone, he doesn't see me physically shaking.'Who is speaking?' There. That's better - professional, businesslike, and firm. He laughed a little, and I completely passed out. 'Now, I know you already know the answer to that question because my name came up on your phone,' I cringed on the spot. 'Trying to play it cool?' Oh, the proud ass! H