We arrived early at the Golden Dragon Restaurant located in front of Bacolod City Hall. It's located in the heart of the city, five minutes ride from our place. The ambiance is totally Chinese; the intricate golden dragon motif with a red background, the music, the waitress uniform, and the lantern hang beautifully in each partition with silk curtains as a facade. The aroma of Chinese food triggered my voracious appetite. I composed myself and gazed at Ayah Isabel walking separately from me. She's nervous, I thought, but she's calm, calmer than me. We are seated at the corner of the restaurant so that I can see who's coming inside the restaurant. I ordered two glasses of coca-cola soft drinks for a start and we waited.
Danielle Gustilo came ten minutes past eleven in the morning. She's wearing a sleeveless red dress that suits her milky white skin, and a red leather clutch bag that blends with our environment. She looked at me first, then, shifted to Ayah Isabel, then sit down in front of us, as if sizing up the situation and controlling her emotion. Her face was serious. I started the conversation to break the silence. I asked her in a low voice, which I also do not know what to do. My heart kept on pounding but my heart was telling me to go on bravely with this situation. "Danielle what would you like to have, soft drink or mineral water?"
She did not speak at first, only looking me squarely into the eyes. Then in a minute, she said, "Just water for me please."
I called the server, ordered mineral water, and asked Danielle, then Ayah Isabel for their food. Both women refused to eat. I said, "Okay I'll order for taking out." A minute had passed; still, both of them did not say a word. Only, they were looking at me while I was ordering food. I sensed the broiling emotion between the two women who loved me, but, in different ways. So, without saying a word to them I called the server, "Waitress, please, this is for takeout. Give me one order of Honey chicken with ginger shoots, one order of pork pickled mustard green noodles, and one order of wonton noodles. Have it ready, please.
" The server nodded, "Okay sir, anything else, sir?"
"That's it thank you," I said naturally.
The waitress served our drinks and water to Danielle. I observed each one of them while I was sipping my drink. I made a move and started the conversation edging sideways looking into Danielle's pretty face and thinking, to tell the truth once and for all.
"Danielle, I'll tell you the truth about our relationship.... even before the two of us... before we met...Ayah and I are living together.... while we're attending school. She helped me a lot with my tuition and everything. Both of you loved and helped me for what I am right now. Despite the fact, that each of you, wanted me to finish my course. I'm thanking you both for that matter. The problem right now concerns about the three of us...," my words trailing into the air with nothing to add...my mind turned tumbling down...my voice suddenly halted without a sound. The fear suddenly engulfed me all over knowing that this time was the best time to finalize the situation.
While I was thinking solution for this triangle, Danielle Gustilo stood up suddenly and said, "I think you know that Marco, I love you from the very start when I saw you. I promised myself that only you could own my heart, nobody else, forever. I wanted to be with you, always, every second of my life. I love you more than my life. Say, what I'm going to do, say it, Marco! I'll do it for you!" Danielle started to cry hysterically while some of the restaurant guests are looking at us.
"Danielle, you know me, and...I love you! But I loved Ayah Isabel too!" I said to pacify her anger.
I noticed Ayah's looking at me intently, drained, I sensed her feeling. I looked at her. I signaled to her, only Ayah knows what to do. She's nervous and afraid. I had to back her up to talk, to disrupt the conversation, to erase the tension, because I had no courage to melt my feeling, in front of these two women who loved me. At last, I heard Ayah Isabel talk.
"Danielle, I understand your feeling and situation towards Marco. Not only had you who loved Marc truly, but I also loved him ever since..." Ayah Isabel started to cry also. I saw her tears falling down her cheeks.
The anger Danielle was showing now that with all her might shouted at me, "Marco! You're a liar! You fooled me!" Danielle shouted at me continuously and threw the red leather clutch bag and glass of water in my face.
The blood spurted and oozed continuously from my forehead Ayah Isabel panicked while calling for aid. The restaurant worker was very quick to reach the ambulance parked outside the Restaurant. They carried me to the ambulance and brought me to a hospital nearby. A few stitches, two-inch-long, from my forehead, were carefully bound up. I stayed at the hospital for three days. Ayah Isabel took good care of me and watched me closely.
A day before I was discharged from Doctor's Hospital; Danielle Gustilo appeared in my room together with Ayah Isabel. I was expecting her, I knew, but my ego as a man boiled inside of me, especially when Ayah Isabel was around. I hated the situation but I was the one who made it. Ayah Isabel went outside the room concerning Danielle, as what I expected from Ayah's character, to give space for us to clear things. She understood all along.
Danielle angered me so much, and she's not welcome at all. I kept my silence looking at the window. I knew my decision.
"Marco, how are you? I'm so sorry for what happened. It's not my intention, believe me...I was disturbed with what...," as Danielle held my hand tightly.
"Don't' worry, it's done, and I'm sorry too," I said in a low voice.
"I missed you; darling...I can't sleep thinking of you..." Danielle pleaded.
"Don't touch me please...and leave. It's over, for the two of us, please leave." I commanded Danielle Gustilo to leave. She's crying, not moving at all, glaring her eyes with rage.
"No, Marco!!! It's not over yet! I love you! Marco...Marc...!" Danielle shouted continuously like a crazy lioness in distress; hysterical and in pain. She slapped my face twice, but I didn't move on my bed, only looked at her with fire, nothing but fire, and shouted at her, "Go...go...and leave me...I don't care for you anymore...I'm finished with you...go!!!"
Ayah Isabel heard my decision fully that she called the hospital guard to pacify the situation. The guards held Danielle in both arms, dragging her outside, but still, she was shouting to me angrily, "I am with you wherever you go!!! I will avenge my love for you! Marco! I love you! Marco...!"
Ayah Isabel saw everything that happened, she was crying, she was hurt, but felt the pain of Danielle. I knew...I knew her more than any woman in this world. She had a heart of gold!
On graduation day, I met Ayah's parents who attended the rites. I was happy that my parents came too, for this memorable day. I knew my father was quite ashamed, but I assured him that everything will be alright, and they can depend on me for my brother's schooling. I will help the best I can. The thing that parents wanted their children to do after graduation – a Filipino tradition.
Ayah Isabel went home to her place south of Negros Occidental for the family matter to be settled down. She wanted to stay a little longer to help her parents with their businesses. I stopped her but she's determined to proceed with her plans. She assured me of her love, trust, and devotion. She left me alone and lonely.
I continued living my life in Bacolod City, where I have had more courage and experiences to depend upon. Another thing that I wanted to do was to help my brothers and sisters. Now, as a professional person, I had the responsibility to my parents to aid whatever I could extend to them. I tried my very best to find a job, but the economic recession of our country, the Philippines continued to slow down steadily. Negros Occidental's sugar industry was on the verge of collapse due to some other problems in importation.
My savings in the bank continued to decrease as time went by, and trying to find a job that could help me survive, and could help my family in Hinigaran, Negros Occidental my hometown. I sold all the possessions that Danielle Gustilo provided for me. It's very hard for me to find a good job with the best remuneration in Bacolod City.
XXXLet me tell you what I worked for temporarily...where I started my first job...for the past months after my graduation. An amazing story indeed!I am a Chemistry graduate, right? But I was accepted as an extra news reporter for the newly founded TV station. At the end of my shift one Monday morning, Arthur Jimenez, the sports director at News TV 717, said, "Marco, this Friday night there's a boxing championship fight in the Paglaum Astrodome. You've been bugging me for a break, so here's your chance. Today, around noon, I need you to get me a three-minute interview with Billy the Kid. If you do a good job, that interview will be fed to all TV stations locally and nationwide. Getting to be heard countrywide amounts to decent exposure, wouldn't you agree?"How could I not? Man, talk about excitement! After some time, I had finally landed a weekend-only, graveyard shift job at what, with a great payment check. Hopefully, this job would provide opportunities to climb further up the ladder
Even Lydia Leynes, a beautiful lady from the north of Negros Occidental became my live-in partner, which gave me terrible problems with my job. I was out of the job instantly; I was totally broke when things got better which brought hope to my life.Edward was the one I enjoyed being with, for it gave me the freedom to reveal something deep down in my heart. He was there for me to listen to whatever I wanted to say, whatever I wanted to do with my life at the moment. He suggested working again in the restaurant. I hesitated at first, but my hopeless situation told me to accept the job.I felt down and out I missed her...them...her...XXXDanielle's father invited me to the Sugarlandia Hotel to talk about his daughter's status in life. I went directly to the place, asked for information on the counter, and sat in the lounge. I felt some doubts within me, that I couldn't explain. Is it I am afraid, afraid of what? Fear..? Fear of rejection? Or I was not ready to meet him face to face?M
I saw Edward approaching where I stood, pulling my arm, and taking me to our table."Hey Marco Fernando, what are you doing? People are looking at you. Behave my friend okay?"I only nodded and started to pour a shot of tequila, with salt and sliced lemon, and three slices of beef steak. Then, I ate the kinilaw and gulped a bowl of soup. I was satisfied and contented that I asked Edward to order more."What? Slowly, Marco, I'm not rich enough to order for more...""Hey...hey Edward my best friend...next week, I'm rich...a rich man!! We will paint the town red!! We'll go shopping, swimming, drinking...until the end of the world!!!...and...and..we'll buy everything...as in anything!!! I shouted."Hey, Marco!! Stop it...stop!! What's your problem, my friend?" Edward angrily asked. "What happened to you? Are you crazy? You don't have money in your pocket... Okay, let's go!"" Joel, bill please...how much?""One thousand and five hundred pesos sir," Joel answered."Here, two thousand pesos
I edged a little to clear the monotonous tone of the atmosphere glanced at Ayah Isabel, started to taste my coffee, put a little sugar, and tasted it. I looked around again, seated comfortably ready for any issue that befalls me. I saw Mr. Gonzales scrutinize me by the way he looked into my eyes. He started the conversation, "Marco, I have been able to raise my children the proper way of conduct with themselves ever since they're young, three of them. We loved them...truly, that we gave the best of everything to them. Now, I must tell this personally, what Bryan said to us. That you and Ayah are living in without the sanctity of marriage...do you truly love my daughter?" His question made me squirm and uncomfortable.Again, I glanced at Ayah Isabel but she was not looking at me. I can see tears falling down her cheeks. "Yes, yes I do Mr. Gonzales," I said quickly without hesitation."Since you loved each other, I decided that your marriage be consummated at once. We will organize this
"Okay, stay there for a while; I'll check the surroundings first." I headed to move slowly at first, inspecting the nearby place if it was safe for us. The scorching sun bit my flesh like a scorpion's sting. I went back to where Ayah's waiting told her to move fast and held her left hand towards the rocky side of the beach. We took off our clothes totally, our naked bodies shone in the light of the sun like gems. We washed our clothes and underwear, tightly squeezed it, and spread it open on the boulder. We remained in the water for a few minutes, waited for our clothes to dry, and dressed up. Ayah and I looked for any residents along the shore or anybody who can help us. But, nothing...no one...it's a remote area. I looked at Ayah Isabel and said sarcastically, "Ayah, you're wearing heels? We're going to walk for a few kilometers away...look at you?""Yes, my feet hurt while running in the fields....," while grimacing her face."Give it to me." She handed her heels, I looked for a st
I bought two tickets going to Bacolod City and asked Ayah to come along to the opened shop, trading some ready-made lady's dresses and shoes."Which one do you like? I think that one with a flowery design, do you like it?""Yes Marc, I love that one. By the way, where did you get this money?""Remember the money your parents gave to us, I put some in my wallet. Okay then, get it and change your dress at the fitting room, over there and I'll select shoes that suit you."We finished buying things for Ayah; bought some food delicacies and went onto the bus. I selected the rear seats for us both. I embraced Ayah to rest on my left arm and she falls asleep. A few minutes later, sleep kept on bugging my nerves that I started to close my eyes. But suddenly, my vision focused on a man standing near the ticket booth. He's the man from the chapel! I closed my eyes again, and spotted him, to be sure. Yes, it's him!I hastily edged down the seat with Ayah to cover us from a man's view. I woke her
It was in the year 1980, on the 4th day of October that we left Bacolod City to go to Manila.The next day, we're nearing the port of Manila, and our hearts are filled with joy for our new dreams, new hopes, and a new beginning. We were all alone to face the future. XXXIt was the last quarter of the year 1980, October that we arrived at the port of Manila, Philippines.As we came down aboard the ship, the feeling of being in Manila gave me hope to survive and fulfill my dreams. But as we walked in the crowd of different people, saw different faces; we were wondering where to go and where to stay. In our hearts, we can survive believing that someday, luck will reside in our lives. And it came suddenly..."Friend, are you the couple...I mean in the ship coming from Bacolod City?" asked a man with his wife and child."Yes, what about?" I asked doubting him."Where's your baggage, are you traveling without...I mean bag, pouch, or anything?""Why are you asking?" I angrily asked."You kn
In my mind, being a father was the greatest gift from God, a love that you can extend your innermost feeling to your son or daughter and your loving wife. It's not a responsibility but an obligation to care, love, and provide for their future. Nevertheless, as a father, you conformed to your maturity, determination, knowledge, and your whole personality to embrace your son or daughter, or children into the right path of living. If you're lacking the sense of discipline to sacrifice for them, then, and only then, you have no right to be called a father.I worked so hard to earn more than what I received from my employer; controlled my vices, learned new things about my trade, and even learned new ways to interact with people. Ayah's pregnancy brought a new life for me, to be a good father, and motivated me to dream some more.We forgot my friend Edward in Bacolod City, even Danielle, my family, and even the wrath of Governor Gustilo. Ayah's family too, she never asked me about them. Ou