Back to the end of 2019,A student named Neo. was a member of the volleyball team at Bhina Bhakti High School.New Year's Eve, a night full of joy with sparkling fireworks in the sky. The young man, who was frustrated because he always failed to pass the civil service exam, sat on a bench in a city park and took a deep breath. There is no happy life after hurting others, that's what is depicted in the life of Yuda's former high school friend.10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, Duerrr..,The fireworks started to celebrate the new year. Everyone crowded around to watch the excitement of the fireworks that shot up into the sky one by one. Yuda stood under the lights of the city park, smiling at the sky. Occasionally, his eyes caught sight of Neo. Some friends came and took Neo's hand to join the party, enjoying a cup of beer and the company of some pretty girls. Neo got into his friend's car, Yuda rushed back to the parking lot to follow the black sedan Neo was driving. Stop at a bar to con
"Isn't it better for you to just die than to live to be such a fool," was the last thing Yuda said to his former classmate named Anthony when he was in one of the painting exhibition rooms. "Even he is dead, because of you," Yuda whispered in Anthony's ear.Anthony rushed to check his cell phone and got the news that Arkez, the man Anthony had been dating for 3 years, had died after jumping from the 4th floor of his hotel room. Anthony screamed hysterically.A friend who experienced sexual violence as a teenager, to make him choose the way of life to be transgender, so he can get out of his dark past and have a new life, now in front of Yuda.But no. Not that easy ..,Anthony used to be part of the volleyball team in high school, he looked dashing on the outside, but only Yuda knows Anthony's deviant life. Because there was a school in junior high school.That night... When Yuda was on his way home after studying together at Mario's house, he passed a friend's house to return the b
The provocateur who always makes people feel nervous, that man is now in the trunk of Yuda's car.His former classmate was named Leo, his demeanor matched his name, as if he wanted to be a king somewhere, even though what he did was not serious. Leo became the student council president at Bina Bhakti High School. Arrogant and relying only on good looks. The strengths are only good at socializing and can tell people to be quiet, even if only in a bluff. Although Leo was seen by the other students as a strict leader, he was really just a rude jerk. That night, November 4, 2016,Finally, a friend came to see Yuda's condition in the hospital.Leo came to visit Yuda in the hospital, but instead of coming as a school representative to see Yuda's condition, Leo approached the bed and stared at Yuda sharply. Then he pulled Yuda's chin and let go hard. "Someone like you deserves this," Leo said, munching on an apple. "I have nothing to do with you, you better go!" snapped Yuda. "Okay, I ju
'Can I have a normal family, I want someone to protect me when I'm helpless, when I'm trapped in sadness, and when...' What was heard then was no longer his thoughts, but the sound of a heartbeat from the monitor in the operating room. 'Why are you doing this to me ....?'Yuda was lying in the operating room to remove two bullets lodged in his back. Fortunately, his life can still be saved.March 15, 2020, at that time...,After leaving the hospital, Yuda could only lie in bed. His body was not as strong as before to do anything.His mother underwent psychiatric treatment at the hospital so that she would not be prosecuted for shooting Yuda. All this advice from his father until finally the house was completely quiet. His father never returned to visit Yuda at home, leaving only a credit card for Yuda to use for his needs. The wind that blew through his bedroom window ruffled the curtains here and there. Cold air slowly filled the room. Yuda shed tears slowly, hurting himself repea
Yuda slowly realized, then slowly opened his eyes. He saw blood coming from his hand after touching his head. Yuda got up and staggered up the stairs to his room. Some madness began that Yuda created to make him laugh and cry alone. Through the lonely night, his strength still holds on to his obsession to kill anyone who hurts his heart and body. ***The next day, Yuda went to the hospital where his mother was being treated. Knowing his mother's room, Yuda went there. Yuda saw his mother in hysterics, surrounded by many nurses, screaming self-blame. Yuda immediately approached his mother and hugged her tightly. Eventually, his mother began to calm down.Yuda stared at the blank look in his mother's eyes as her mother kept saying the words, "Please forgive mother, forgive mother..." The same words were repeated over and over again."Mom, let's go home," Yuda said. His mother shook her head and refused Yuda's invitation."I'm alone, Mom," Yuda added, still whining as he knelt before
After being severely beaten by Yuda, his father collided with Yuda's remaining energy. Finally, the commotion brought the security guards to the area. Several people pulled Yuda's hand to stop him from hitting his father again."Bring him in!" his father ordered the two guards holding Yuda's hand, and Yuda was herded into the house. His stepmother and two stepsisters retreated in fear when they saw Yuda. They all went straight into the room.His father then tied Yuda's hands and told him to sit down. "Did you know that?" his father said, frowning and sharpening the knife in front of Yuda's eyes. "You lied to my mother, damn it!" snapped Yuda. "What am I supposed to do? She doesn't want a divorce, so this is all I can do, I hate stupid women who are always obsessed," his father said, pointing the knife at Yuda's neck. Yuda smiled, then kicked his father's leg with his foot until the knife sliced through Yuda's neck and blood slowly flowed out. Yuda smiled when he saw his father's
'Will I be able to be the child you truly love?'Yuda's mother threw down the gun that Yuda had given her. Then she looked at Yuda for a moment."Are you going to lie to Mommy?" his mother asked, then walked away. Yuda followed his mother's footsteps. "Mom trusts Dad more than me?" said Yuda, pulling his mother's left hand. "Of course he likes his mistress, because he was seduced, your father couldn't have betrayed his mother before, he's a good man, that only bitch is flirtatious," his mother said, talking about Bella, his father's mistress, whom his father had not married, but his mother didn't believe that there were other women in his father's life besides Bella and his mother. His mother then withdrew her hand from Yuda's grasp and left the conversation.Annoyed, Yuda went to his room, but did not find the gun his mother had thrown on the floor. Yuda smiled when he realized that his mother had secretly taken the gun back. "Mom, don't let him ruin your life anymore," Yuda mutter
'Mom, I want you to die... sometimes... but I also want you to live... afterwards,' he said.Yuda came out of the room and immediately ran to his mother's room. He broke down the bedroom door, and sure enough, his mother was lying on the floor covered in blood. Yuda then carried his mother's body and got into the car to take his mother to the hospital. The doctor finally performed surgery to remove the bullet lodged in his mother's left chest. Yuda stood outside the operating room in panic and fear. Even though he repeatedly wanted to see his mother die so that he wouldn't be tormented in this life, he felt afraid as his mother died before his eyes.After 3 hours of waiting, the doctor and nurse finally came out of the operating room. His mother was then taken to the recovery room, and his father came in as a guardian after receiving a call from the hospital. His father looked away when he saw Yuda, then pushed Yuda's body so that he fell to the floor and became a spectacle for the ot
When luck is never on your side in real life. Sometimes it makes people more comfortable to enjoy life in their dream world and reluctant to return to real life.A strange old man Yuda didn't know came by. He offered him a job as a substitute for his deceased son. Yuda smiled. 'Is this a profit from someone's death?' Yuda thought."Why do you want me as a child?" Yuda said with a frown. "There must be something that made you do this, I can't believe that kindness comes to me without a reward."The old man smiled and moved his wheelchair to his desk. He opened the drawer and took out several sheets of paper. There are also some photographs. "Sit down! I'll give you a choice."The mysterious old man said. Yuda pulled a chair behind him. He sat down and sipped the hot tea on the table. It seemed as if it had been prepared for him. "He is my son. The son I love and cherish so much. He's the most precious thing in my
'Am I that crazy?'Yuda banged her head against the wall again and again until her forehead was bleeding. Then two men she didn't recognize entered the room. They forcefully broke down the door. The middle-aged man behind it surprised him. After waiting so long, his father finally arrived. "Damn it, first wipe the blood off your head!" his father said, throwing a handkerchief from his pocket at Yuda. Yuda took the handkerchief and wiped the blood from his forehead. Then he leaned against the wall to catch his breath. "Do you like this place?" His father leaned closer and touched his chin. Then he pulled hard. Yuda stared into cruel eyes that never changed when his father looked at him every time they met. There is no feeling of warmth and peace. Just sharp eyes filled with hate and worry. "Are you still the same? Acting as you please and hurting other people with your mental illness," "Does Dad think I'm crazy too?" Yuda said, trying to stand up and remove his father's hand fro
Back to cleaning the training room, saw all the men boxing. Yuda heard an agreement from one of them. If the winner wins this time, they will be released from this place. Yuda eavesdropped and concentrated on listening to the conversation of the men standing in front of him. They are complaining about the interest on their debts, which is getting higher and higher, so that they inevitably come to this place to become Zack's men. They get involved in illegal gambling and eventually become hit men. Recently, one of them told how he had brutally killed a woman. He shot several bullets into the woman's chest until she died. The mission was none other than a conspiracy with the woman's husband. To let his wife die without getting his hands dirty. The husband was a general. Complaining that his wife was too possessive, it finally fell to Zack to plan the assassination.But Zack only wrote off 35% of their debts. The male assassins standing before Yuda received debt reductions that were disp
Yuda got up, panting and staggering, and walked away from the man who was asking him a lot of questions. Entering the room, Yuda looked for an inhaler in a pile of clothes. His emotions were fuller as the man's words replayed in his mind.Questions about Sarah's whereabouts. Was he just a figment of my imagination? Yuda wondered. "No way, she's been talking to me since yesterday," Yuda muttered.After a strong inhalation, his breathing stabilized. Yuda stood up and left the room. Searching for Sarah's whereabouts. As he entered the dog kennel, he heard only the sound of a dog barking, Sarah was nowhere to be seen. He staggered into the hallway looking for Sarah, who usually surprised him. But only well-built men passed by, looking at him with strange glances. It could be seen that Zack was leaving in a hurry, Yuda was chasing after him to find out about Sarah. It seems that he didn't hear wrong when Zack said that Sarah was his sister.
Back to feeding the dogs, Yuda thinks of ways to do crazy things to Zack. "Why do you hate your brother?" Yuda asked, looking at Sarah who was crouching and brushing the dog's fur. Sarah smiled, stood up and walked over to Yuda. She kicked Yuda's leg until he fell over. "What do you think makes a younger brother hate his older sibling?" Sarah asked back, picking up the meat and throwing it at the dog tied to the corner of the wall."I don't know. I never had a brother.""Then you are very lucky,""He sent me here, just to feed me. It doesn't matter if I'm a girl or not. It doesn't matter if I'm allowed to be here or not."Sarah looked glum after saying this."You are a brave and tough woman, it shouldn't be difficult for you to be here," Yuda tried to stand up. But Sarah kept kicking his legs to the ground, making Yuda feel like someone who had to kneel down when she spoke to him."Shit," Y
Yuda slightly into Sarah's eyes. " Do you want me to kill your brother?" asked Yuda, as he yanked Sarah's collar."Can you do it? Like you did with Sylvester yesterday, but this time I want to see more blood.""You're insane! "You damn woman!" grunted Yuda.Sarah walked around Yuda, who was standing. She looked at Yuda from head to toe."I can help you leave this place, if you want.""I need you to eliminate him the way you see fit, do you understand me?" After patting Yuda on the shoulder, Sarah said."Call me if you want, okay?" and left.Yuda came back after completing his task of cleaning the practice room and mopping the floor for the strong men in this old building.He felt tired. After finishing work, he returned to his room, and lay on the newspaper pillows of the newspapers he had arranged.Yuda's stomach is growling in the middle of the night and he eats too much, even a little bit. At this ti
"This is a gift from your father," Sarah said."What do you mean?"Sarah laughed, then tied his four dogs to the metal fence.Yuda staggered to get out of the room, but Sarah held him back. Then he reached out his hand and blocked Yuda."Your father wanted you to like them," Sarah said, then laughed heartily. Yuda pushed Sarah's shoulder aside, but Sarah's strength was stronger than he expected."Come here!"Sarah tugged at Yuda's left hand, but he remained immobile. Then Sarah exerted more force to pull him."These are all the dogs that your father gifted you with,""I'm going back to my room," said Yuda. He then managed to release his hand from Sarah's grip.Sarah restrained him and then shoved him down to the ground."I will teach you how to become friends with them," said Sarah as he pulled Yuda.Then Sarah freed all the dog's leashes.Yuda ran away in fear, tearing the iron net. The dog continues to bark while Sarah, a crazy woman annoys Yuda, laughs."Down, fool!" Ordered Sarah.
Everyone was hysterical and one of them pulled Yuda's hand, to stop the madness."Hey you! Take Sylvester to the infirmary!" snapped one of the men who had just arrived. A man with a burly body, tattooed and covered in wounds on his face, approached Yuda. He pulled the bloody knife from Yuda's hand. Then, slapped Yuda's cheek so hard that Yuda fell down.Yuda tried to get up, but the slap he received was so hard that the pain spread throughout his body. "I'm Zack, the chief here!" The man named Zack held out his hand and Yuda grabbed it and stood up. Then, Zack kicked Yuda in the chest, throwing him far away. Yuda was not expecting this surprise. Yuda was bleeding profusely from his mouth until he had no more strength to move, slowly his eyes closed. When he woke up, he was already in bed in a room full of drugs and injections. Yuda tried to get up, but his chest hurt so much that he had trouble breathing. "Are you awake?" Zack pulled back the curtains so they could see each other
After the gate opened, Yuda realized that his life was about to change. But for now, he had no choice. His life will begin under his father's control. Yuda tries to survive and continue his crazy mission. Yuda is given a room in the basement, a secret room his father built to store some old documents. The room is full of dust and cobwebs in every corner."Stay here! Don't go into the main room, only through the back door if you want to go out!" his father said, then threw a few bills in Yuda's face. "Stay away from my family, become a parasite in this room if you still want to live, otherwise go to your mother and I will make sure that you will never be able to return to this country again!" Yuda smiled weakly and saluted his father. "Yes, sir!" Yuda said, then laughed. His father grinned, then turned and prepared to leave. "Am I not your family?" asked Yuda. His father then turned his head back and came closer. He