Back to the end of 2019,A student named Neo. was a member of the volleyball team at Bhina Bhakti High School.New Year's Eve, a night full of joy with sparkling fireworks in the sky. The young man, who was frustrated because he always failed to pass the civil service exam, sat on a bench in a city park and took a deep breath. There is no happy life after hurting others, that's what is depicted in the life of Yuda's former high school friend.10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, Duerrr..,The fireworks started to celebrate the new year. Everyone crowded around to watch the excitement of the fireworks that shot up into the sky one by one. Yuda stood under the lights of the city park, smiling at the sky. Occasionally, his eyes caught sight of Neo. Some friends came and took Neo's hand to join the party, enjoying a cup of beer and the company of some pretty girls. Neo got into his friend's car, Yuda rushed back to the parking lot to follow the black sedan Neo was driving. Stop at a bar to con
"Isn't it better for you to just die than to live to be such a fool," was the last thing Yuda said to his former classmate named Anthony when he was in one of the painting exhibition rooms. "Even he is dead, because of you," Yuda whispered in Anthony's ear.Anthony rushed to check his cell phone and got the news that Arkez, the man Anthony had been dating for 3 years, had died after jumping from the 4th floor of his hotel room. Anthony screamed hysterically.A friend who experienced sexual violence as a teenager, to make him choose the way of life to be transgender, so he can get out of his dark past and have a new life, now in front of Yuda.But no. Not that easy ..,Anthony used to be part of the volleyball team in high school, he looked dashing on the outside, but only Yuda knows Anthony's deviant life. Because there was a school in junior high school.That night... When Yuda was on his way home after studying together at Mario's house, he passed a friend's house to return the b
The provocateur who always makes people feel nervous, that man is now in the trunk of Yuda's car.His former classmate was named Leo, his demeanor matched his name, as if he wanted to be a king somewhere, even though what he did was not serious. Leo became the student council president at Bina Bhakti High School. Arrogant and relying only on good looks. The strengths are only good at socializing and can tell people to be quiet, even if only in a bluff. Although Leo was seen by the other students as a strict leader, he was really just a rude jerk. That night, November 4, 2016,Finally, a friend came to see Yuda's condition in the hospital.Leo came to visit Yuda in the hospital, but instead of coming as a school representative to see Yuda's condition, Leo approached the bed and stared at Yuda sharply. Then he pulled Yuda's chin and let go hard. "Someone like you deserves this," Leo said, munching on an apple. "I have nothing to do with you, you better go!" snapped Yuda. "Okay, I ju
'Can I have a normal family, I want someone to protect me when I'm helpless, when I'm trapped in sadness, and when...' What was heard then was no longer his thoughts, but the sound of a heartbeat from the monitor in the operating room. 'Why are you doing this to me ....?'Yuda was lying in the operating room to remove two bullets lodged in his back. Fortunately, his life can still be saved.March 15, 2020, at that time...,After leaving the hospital, Yuda could only lie in bed. His body was not as strong as before to do anything.His mother underwent psychiatric treatment at the hospital so that she would not be prosecuted for shooting Yuda. All this advice from his father until finally the house was completely quiet. His father never returned to visit Yuda at home, leaving only a credit card for Yuda to use for his needs. The wind that blew through his bedroom window ruffled the curtains here and there. Cold air slowly filled the room. Yuda shed tears slowly, hurting himself repea
Yuda slowly realized, then slowly opened his eyes. He saw blood coming from his hand after touching his head. Yuda got up and staggered up the stairs to his room. Some madness began that Yuda created to make him laugh and cry alone. Through the lonely night, his strength still holds on to his obsession to kill anyone who hurts his heart and body. ***The next day, Yuda went to the hospital where his mother was being treated. Knowing his mother's room, Yuda went there. Yuda saw his mother in hysterics, surrounded by many nurses, screaming self-blame. Yuda immediately approached his mother and hugged her tightly. Eventually, his mother began to calm down.Yuda stared at the blank look in his mother's eyes as her mother kept saying the words, "Please forgive mother, forgive mother..." The same words were repeated over and over again."Mom, let's go home," Yuda said. His mother shook her head and refused Yuda's invitation."I'm alone, Mom," Yuda added, still whining as he knelt before
After being severely beaten by Yuda, his father collided with Yuda's remaining energy. Finally, the commotion brought the security guards to the area. Several people pulled Yuda's hand to stop him from hitting his father again."Bring him in!" his father ordered the two guards holding Yuda's hand, and Yuda was herded into the house. His stepmother and two stepsisters retreated in fear when they saw Yuda. They all went straight into the room.His father then tied Yuda's hands and told him to sit down. "Did you know that?" his father said, frowning and sharpening the knife in front of Yuda's eyes. "You lied to my mother, damn it!" snapped Yuda. "What am I supposed to do? She doesn't want a divorce, so this is all I can do, I hate stupid women who are always obsessed," his father said, pointing the knife at Yuda's neck. Yuda smiled, then kicked his father's leg with his foot until the knife sliced through Yuda's neck and blood slowly flowed out. Yuda smiled when he saw his father's
'Will I be able to be the child you truly love?'Yuda's mother threw down the gun that Yuda had given her. Then she looked at Yuda for a moment."Are you going to lie to Mommy?" his mother asked, then walked away. Yuda followed his mother's footsteps. "Mom trusts Dad more than me?" said Yuda, pulling his mother's left hand. "Of course he likes his mistress, because he was seduced, your father couldn't have betrayed his mother before, he's a good man, that only bitch is flirtatious," his mother said, talking about Bella, his father's mistress, whom his father had not married, but his mother didn't believe that there were other women in his father's life besides Bella and his mother. His mother then withdrew her hand from Yuda's grasp and left the conversation.Annoyed, Yuda went to his room, but did not find the gun his mother had thrown on the floor. Yuda smiled when he realized that his mother had secretly taken the gun back. "Mom, don't let him ruin your life anymore," Yuda mutter
'Mom, I want you to die... sometimes... but I also want you to live... afterwards,' he said.Yuda came out of the room and immediately ran to his mother's room. He broke down the bedroom door, and sure enough, his mother was lying on the floor covered in blood. Yuda then carried his mother's body and got into the car to take his mother to the hospital. The doctor finally performed surgery to remove the bullet lodged in his mother's left chest. Yuda stood outside the operating room in panic and fear. Even though he repeatedly wanted to see his mother die so that he wouldn't be tormented in this life, he felt afraid as his mother died before his eyes.After 3 hours of waiting, the doctor and nurse finally came out of the operating room. His mother was then taken to the recovery room, and his father came in as a guardian after receiving a call from the hospital. His father looked away when he saw Yuda, then pushed Yuda's body so that he fell to the floor and became a spectacle for the ot