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Euforia 41. Fire in Your Heart
Who could have ignited this fire in my heart? The warmth like in the flames made me come back, understanding what warmth is.That heat ignited the fire in my heart. I was burning in that flame. It felt like my life was filled with burning heat.Is that how the world basically works?I don't know the answer to that either. Where do I always want to find out the answer. Whether in books or the internet?It's basically an overwhelming sense of curiosity. That overwhelming feeling... where I wondered to myself how I could overcome it.I feel happy as well as scared in a feeling that doesn't end.***"Are you alright Nakamori?" called out Haejin, Nakamori's classmate.Nakamori was a little surprised to hear Haejin's voice. He was so preoccupied with his own thoughts that he didn't even notice the existence of his seatmate.Haejin, who was confused, then placed his hand on Nakamori's forehead. He tried to feel through the back of his hand, ascertaining if his friend was okay."Are you sick?
Euforia 42. The Old Me and the New Me
Nakamori could feel her body being held tightly by the woman, then plunging freely downwards.The girl knew that just closing her eyes would not solve the problem. But still, she closed her eyes and hoped that no pain would come to her. Even though it was impossible because it was clear that when she was about to fall down there would be tremendous pain waiting for her.***A woman extended her hand towards Nakamori. "Come here," the woman said, trying to pull Nakamori along.As if hypnotized, Nakamori followed the woman into the flames.The heat from the flames burned Nakamori's entire body, making his skin melt along with the hot flames.If today you burn and make me lose your entire world. Will you stop fighting? Will your dreams and hopes just disappear? This blaze that is so hot, will one day be extinguished in the end.There is no point in letting yourself and your dreams burn out. In the end all of this, is a story of how to maintain a dream so that it does not just disappear.
Euforia 43. Irene in Wonderland
Until finally when Nakamori's hand, almost touched the stranger's shoulder. The woman simply disappeared from before his eyes and... everything went dark. Nakamori again felt a strange sensation around him. He fell down and into a very dark hole."Crazy!" Nakamori was completely disgusted as he fell back into the strange sensation.Disgusted, he finally let himself fall into a long, dark hole. It was like a long, endless tunnel.Nakamori didn't care where he fell. He just felt fed up, closed his eyes and wished that everything would go back to normal.***"Irene... Ireneee!" A faint voice called out a name.Nakamori tried to open his eyes that felt so heavy. His head felt incredibly dizzy. It felt like he had just gotten off a gripping roller coaster ride."Huweek ...." His stomach felt so queasy and sure enough it wasn't long before he threw up, letting the contents of his stomach all out."Are you okay?" Someone tried to help Nakamori up. "I'll take you to the bathroom," he said as
Euforia 44. Slightly Backward
"I'm fine, Saeran!" said Nakamori firmly. "If you're still worried about me, you can take me to the hospital right now."Hearing Nakamori's words made Saeran a little surprised. But he still acted calmly and felt he was used to dealing with it."It seems like you've been feeling depressed due to fatigue lately. Well I know, that both of us are in the toughest phase. Completing our research project this time, is really draining as well as emotional. I can understand your stress," Saeran said with a genuine smile."Project?" Nakamori did not understand where Saeran was going with this."Yes. Of course, the research project for the 2001 Oksi-Zoe serum, I think this project is harder than ever. So I hope you'll be patient. But don't worry, I'll take care of you Irene." Saeran was still showing off his calming smile.Okay, all of this was really too confusing but... Nakamori himself was convinced that he could not completely act like an amnesiac. Inevitably he would have to adapt to all th
Euforia 45. Between Reality and Falsehood
Nakamori eventually ended up at home alone and at the moment, he is pensive in the small garden behind his house. He is still trying to think carefully about the strange events that happened to him.The current situation was really dizzying. He had absolutely no clue about the strange events that had happened to him. Continuing to think about strange things like this, did not make her find a way out but only made her mind even heavier."Irene. Hey I heard from Saeran that you were sick. So I decided to come here because I wanted to see you. Are you okay? You look a little pale." Suddenly a woman appeared in front of him carrying a paperbag.Nakamori raised his head and looked at the woman's figure. "Ah, it's okay I just feel a little dizzy." Nakamori then smiled slightly, he didn't recognize this woman but somehow he felt familiar with her."Really? I doubt it, to be honest I'm a bit worried about you." The woman then sat down across from Nakamori, "You must be feeling stressed becaus
Euforia 46. Explanation
"No, you don't. How could I possibly trust you!""I just want to make things easier. I promise I won't make it difficult for you. Anyway, don't you want to know all these oddities?"Strangeness? Of course it was an important matter that Nakamori currently needed. Although he could not believe in the figure of the little boy, but his already unbearable curiosity made him not want to miss this opportunity.Seeing that Nakamori seemed to be interested in knowing more, the little boy did not want to miss this opportunity..."I'm on your side. Keep my word," the little boy said confidently.Nakamori finally relented, he decided to listen to the little boy speak.***"Are you the figure I saw last time?" Nakamori vaguely recalled the figure that terrorized him back then."I didn't mean to make you feel that way." The little boy then extended his hand. "Now let's get officially acquainted. My name is Poppy and yours?" Poppy deliberately asked that question, even though she knew the answer be
Euforia 47. Plans that went awry
"None of your business Lily. Stay out of it!" Poppy pushed Lily away from her."I know you actually care about that girl. But if you trap her in a place like this, isn't it too dangerous?" Lily the little girl looked worried."You want me to do something now? I can tell by the way you're talking that you want to ask me to do something," Poppy snapped. She sensed where this was going."Send her back to where she came from. You can still protect her in other ways. It's too dangerous to let her linger here. You know yourself, this dimension is very unsafe and filled with chaos." Lily leaned closer to Poppy. "Can you just listen to me this time?"Poppy sighed, she turned her face away from Lily. "From your words it makes me feel as if I'm a guardian angel, even though you know I'm not someone who works for charity like an angel. I am darkness and can even bring someone to destruction. Just because I want a little bit, a little bit of care, you just tell me to be good like you," Poppy said
Euforia 48. Emergencies
Arriving at his doorstep. Nakamori felt that his heart was not at ease. For some reason he felt something was off. He tried to open the door of his house and how surprised he was to find a strange figure inside his house.The figure looked like a human skeleton but had black wings.Nakamori bit his lip, trying to remain calm despite his racing heart. He slowly entered his house, carefully observing the strange figure inside. The figure seemed to be floating in the air with the eerie curves of its black wings."Who are you? What are you doing here?" asked Nakamori in a trembling voice, but still trying to show courage.The figure didn't answer, but simply stared at Nakamori with lightless eyes. His mysterious presence made Nakamori feel scared and uneasy. He tried to remember the lessons from his father on how to deal with dangerous situations, but in the presence of a supernatural figure like this, everything seemed so absurd."If you want to harm me, please leave this house now!" Nak
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62. Dia yang Datang dalam Keputusaan Final S1
"We have to go!" Poppy tugged on Lily's hand, trying to lead her away."Why are you in such a hurry?" Lily was confused as to why Poppy seemed to be in such a hurry, she wasn't usually like this."I'll explain later." Poppy quickly took Lily running along with her.Lily, who was confused, just followed Poppy's wishes and let herself run with Poppy.But when they both tried to run, they avoided something. But finally they suddenly stopped."Doggone it!" Poppy growled. She then pulled Lily and hid her behind her body.A skeletal figure with black wings stood in front of the two and seemed to be preventing them from leaving."I'm not sure that you two decided to run away. Shouldn't you be punished for trespassing?" The skull flew casually in front of Poppy and Lily."I've never even felt ruled by a strange creature like you. Have you forgotten that I am a high existence?" Poppy showed her high self-esteem.The skull laughed, the sound of its laughter was so strange that it sounded like t
61. The blood I drew
I raised my hand and saw that there was blood there. My hand was covered in blood...I don't know where the blood came from. But... I'm very familiar with this feeling.My heart raced as I looked at my bloodied hands. It was very difficult for me to ignore that feeling, as if I had experienced it before. Then, my memory suddenly felt so shocking.I vaguely recalled stabbing someone and leaving them seriously injured.This blood on my hand seemed to symbolize that memory again. The pain and sadness associated with that loss felt so strong within me. I felt an emptiness in my heart, as if nothing could fill my life again.The blood on my hands reminded me of a wound that hadn't fully healed. But underneath the sadness, I also felt an indescribable connection to the person who had left. There seemed to be a tenderness amongst this blood, sweeping away the sadness in my heart. I felt a sense of calm in this sadness.Looking at my bloodstained hands, I remembered that life is a journey fill
60. Absence of Feeling
"Lily I will never really leave. However, remember this one thing: you"Lily I will never really leave. However, remember this one thing: you can never purify me. You're only trying to cause yourself more harm by forcing me to live according to your wishes." I stared at Lily as if she were just a dark shadow in my heart.I hate reality. I hate miracles. But I always knew clearly why those feelings were so lingering. The answer was only one: it was because of my incompetence that things were difficult. And I started blaming everything. That's how I made my heart hurt less.***"I told you. Isn't taking care of humans the same as making things difficult?" Poppy gave Lily a disappointed look.Lily laughed bitterly. "I knew that. Even before you told me. But how could I possibly let my feelings pass me by?""You're stupid." Poppy tried to help Lily up. She glanced at Lily's scar. "You might ignore it. But I'm sure it must hurt like hell.""It doesn't hurt because you're showing me you car
59. Indecision
For some reason, the face of the woman who had appeared many times before now began to fill my head."My mother... you want to show me how the memories of my mother aren't that scary, so that I can open up, right?"I tried to banish the image of that face from my mind, but it seemed to be getting harder and harder. I felt disturbed and anxious, as if there was something I should know but couldn't reach. I tried to recall memories of my mother, but all that came up were vague and indistinct images.I couldn't connect the dots, which frustrated me even more. "What should I do?" I muttered to myself.Just as I was trying to gain consciousness to focus on what to do, a soft voice suddenly sounded in my ear. "Mom is always by your side, even if it's only in memories now. Don't worry, open your heart, and let the memories with Mom shine in your life."It would have been a relief if it had been the real thing. But unfortunately, it was just wishful thinking. I turned to Lily and stared at he
58. The destruction of fragile lies
Just because I saw those traumatic events, did it make me falter? I feel like I'm being played, my heart and mind are really being played. I... I don't want things like this to keep happening.I stared at the mysterious figure intently. "Hey... are you doing all this on purpose to make my heart waver?" I accused her.The mysterious figure looked at me with a mysterious smile. "Are you sure that I'm responsible for all this?" she said in a low voice.I frowned, confused by his answer. "Who else could have done it? I don't understand why I have to keep being haunted by these traumatic events. Do you want to hurt or test me?"The mysterious figure shook his head, "I am not the cause of all this. I am merely a mirror that shows you what is in your heart. Don't look outside, look inside yourself."Her words made me even more confused. I began to ponder and rethink what she said. After a while, I realized that it was true. The trauma and uncertainty actually came from the decisions and atti
57. Broken Faith
"Want to see something else?" the figure asked me.I swallowed. It seemed like this figure had a tremendous influence. Not only did he show me how horrible things could happen. He seemed to open me up to see everything that didn't make sense and I always refused to believe.And it was all proven when he took me to a place. He took me to a mental hospital."Are you ready?" he asked me.I gulped once more. No, I wasn't ready. But my fear couldn't stop the curiosity inside me. I nodded slowly, and we walked towards the entrance of the asylum.We went through the dark and forbidding hallways. The atmosphere was eerie, with faint whispering voices and steps heard in the distance. My heart was racing, anxiety engulfing me, but I continued my steps steadily.The figure opened the door to the first room. I entered the room hesitantly, and inside stood several patients with unnatural facial expressions. Some were smiling madly, some were constantly trembling, some were talking incessantly. Loo
56. The woman who burned with regret
They're the ones burning in my life. I feel very frustrated. Could it be that this is one of the feelings that makes me feel restless.I myself was never sure whether I could be said to be living my life well or not. My parents, my friends, or anyone else in my life. I don't know why I feel unsure.I feel like my life is full of people who only ruin my happiness. They often make me feel emotionally up and down, and I don't understand why I can't break away from them.Maybe I love people too much and let them into my life without determining what I really want. Or maybe I was too afraid of appearing selfish if I decided to separate from them.However, I realized that life is only once and I have to fight for my own happiness. I have to learn to detach myself from the people who are poisoning my mind and determine who is worth keeping in my life.Maybe it's time to evaluate the relationships in my life and fix what needs to be fixed. I believe that by taking action like this, I can achi
55. A World in Disarray
I don't know why. But lately, I feel that I'm feeling strange. My feelings as well as my thoughts feel so chaotic, it's like I can't control myself."Are you okay?" asked Lily, the little girl I helped when she dropped her fruit basket. Since then, that little girl has been hanging out with me."No, I'm not. I've been feeling weird lately," I complained.Lily was silent, and somehow in my eyes, she looked like she knew something but didn't want to tell me.I really wanted to ask her, but the sensitive Lily seemed to be trying to divert it. It was like she didn't want to tell me and just changed the subject."Do you know something Lili?"Lily just kept quiet. But her gestures showed that she felt like she was agitated.Seeing Lily's reaction, I felt even more curious about what was really going on. However, I also felt bad about forcing her to tell me what she knew. Maybe there was some reason why she didn't want to tell me.But it seemed like Lily just felt more and more uncomfortable
54. Strange as Poison
In his subconscious, Regen stood tall with confidence. "I will no longer hide you," he told the voice inside him. "We are complementary parts of ourselves. I will become stronger by accepting you."Back in the real world, Graiss saw Regen become calmer in his sleep. The anxious expression on his face began to disappear.***"Did I speak in my sleep earlier?" asked Regen worriedly.Graiss nodded. "You were babbling."Regen sighed heavily. His consciousness was really getting worse now. He knew very well that it seemed like he was starting to realize something was wrong with himself.Regen felt really messed up. Especially when he remembered how his other self appeared in his dreams."I really feel terrible right now Graiss," Regen muttered desperately. For some reason he felt like he was undergoing a violent onslaught. The turmoil felt so intense inside his head."Are you okay, Regen?" Graiss was really worried about Regen's condition.Regen did not answer, he just held his head and lo
