I snorted.—Please, as if you really care what happens to me. Don't be cynical."And why do you think I do all this, Amy?" "She," she asked, her jaw clenched, furiously. But despite her scowl, suddenly the anger on her face was no longer so palpable. I neglect my position and expose myself to come here, to this damned world that I hate with every part of me, all to keep you safe. “She” narrowed her eyes and gave me a disdainful look. And you can't see it, damn it.I shook my head."It's not true," I persisted, refusing to believe him.-Oh no? And then why is it?-I do not know?! I exclaimed, so upset that my voice sounded unsteady. But you made it very clear to me that you don't give a shit about me."I never said I gave a shit about you." His tone remained sullen, but something had changed in him and I didn't know what. I said I didn't feel anything for you, and that's very different.—It's exactly the same!"No, it's not," he replied, finally releasing my hand, only to clench his fi
"No," he said dryly, redirecting his gaze to my face.The bewilderment enveloped me like a gloomy and thick mist, and confused my previous thoughts. I frowned.-Because? I demanded, although I wished I had sounded more determined. Give me one good reason why you don't want me to come back."You won't," he hissed.-Because?-Why not.-Why not?-Don't know! He put both hands to his head and closed them into tight fists in an alienated gesture. He closed his eyes tightly, and suddenly it seemed like he was suffering from a powerful migraine.I was stunned and a little afraid, since something inside me stirred when I saw him."You can't do this to me," I muttered, almost without strength in my voice. You're not going to prevent me from anything, much less something that can make me happy, that can distract me from all this shit I'm experiencing.He looked at me again, with exhaustion and torment written on his face. Her chest swelled as he took a deep breath."Well..." he murmured, sudden
I went completely blank. My temper weakened so much that I remained unable to speak any words, because nothing reached me. My whole body froze. I did not know to say. I couldn't think of how to respond to his words. The only thing I could do was stay there, motionless, holding that penetrating gaze of his.—Do you want to go back there? —He murmured severely, but now without a trace of anger—. If you want to do it, do it. I can't stop you, I have never been able to stop you from anything. Tell me that you really don't want to be here, with me, and that you want to go with him. He narrowed his eyes with a defiant look. But tell me . I want to hear it from your mouth.My chest squeezed with a dizzying impulse. An overwhelming and confusing feeling overwhelmed my common sense. And I had to be honest, I couldn't even make the slightest attempt to lie. I didn't have the strength or the desire to do it."I don't want to go with him," I responded, in a barely audible tone.A look that I cou
Azazziel looked around us, a sneer painted on his face.-Know? "She," he murmured. When you told me you wanted to go somewhere more private, I admit I thought we'd go somewhere else. Not to a park.I frowned.—What did you think? That I would take you to a motel or something?"It would have been better," he said with a shrug, without exposing the slightest guilt."I would never go to a motel with you, Azazziel," I replied bitterly, but my heartbeat had already had an abnormal reaction to that mention.His gaze met mine, and a malicious smile spread across his lips.-Never say Never.The mischievous gesture made the center of my chest do a strange flip. I couldn't help it; Ever since he told me that I was causing something to him, my heart hadn't stopped beating wildly for even a single second. The only reason I had been able to walk beside him for so long without fainting was because, deep down, I couldn't believe him. Inside, I was not able to assimilate it.I just couldn't believe t
“Try…” I whispered, frowning.Azazziel hid his hands in the pockets of his jacket and looked into the distance. His brow was furrowed, but he couldn't decipher if he was angry, about to scream in anger, or if he was just frustrated.Our steps were increasingly slower. It was likely that at any moment we were going to stay there, standing, in the middle of a park adjacent to the shore of the Willamette River , already desolate at that hour. Not a soul seemed to dare to pass by.I saw him tighten his lips."I've never done this, Amy," he said in a low, hoarse voice, still not looking at me. I've never told anyone."Was it... that bad?"I hesitated when Azazziel snorted in exasperation. He set his jaw tightly; He even swore he was clenching his fists inside the pockets of his dark jacket. I sighed and, for the first time during the night, began to feel tiredness gaining on me. Additionally, the effect of the drinks made me feel more lethargic and clumsy than normal.“Well, you win,” I m
—What are Superior Spirits? —I asked, perhaps with too much interest for his liking because he immediately looked at me ugly. Or maybe it was just because I interrupted him.—They are the demons that rule all of Hell: Astaroth , Beelzebuu and, of course, Lucifer ."B-but..." I hesitated, somewhat dazed, "I believed that Lucifer was the one who reigned there ."He shook his head."Lucifer hasn't ruled alone for many centuries," he explained disinterestedly.—And is Hell really… is it how Dante describes it ?He frowned for a second, then let out a light laugh and slowly shook his head."Of course not," he stated, a little more calmly. Although it is similar in certain aspects.-Which is it?He gave another short, muffled laugh.—It is divided into levels, or circles .—And what is it like then? —I made a colossal effort to keep my face calm as he spoke. The last thing I wanted was to look scared so that he could laugh, or stop because he thought I was getting too scared. And eve
"I believed that angels..." I hesitated and cleared my throat, "that they couldn't have children.""They don't have them," he stated, his voice hoarser. They don't go around fucking and conceiving other angels. They cannot procreate, but not because they are not capable, but because it is prohibited. —A short and humorless laugh escaped his lips, as he shook his head—. You can imagine, then, the scandal that Aeriele caused in Paradise when they learned that she had fathered a child with none other than a demon.I frowned as a doubt crossed my mind.—How did they manage to hide you from them? —I inquired.He fixed his gaze on the dark, calm waters of the river, illuminated by the reflection of the different and countless lights of the streets and buildings.—I guess covering up a love affair forbidden to Hell and Heaven was something complex, but they managed it. What they couldn't do was hide me too. He paused as he inhaled and looked up at the sky, loaded with thick gray clouds. Of
Azazziel clenched his fists and took a deep breath.—That he was someone who was tough , as an individual and as a father… I see how your parents are with each other, Amy. I perceive how, over the years, they have managed to keep intact that feeling that united them... But I never appreciated Zeross being affectionate with Aeriele. He showed no emotions for her, nor for me. Her jaw clenched again and he lowered his head. I never noticed them as if they were a... couple. And, for the same reason, I came to think that they didn't really feel the slightest attachment to each other. That maybe they just did something crazy and that I was the price they had to pay for it. Or that, perhaps, they wanted to experiment... —He wrinkled his brow with a doubtful and innately mean air—. That they wanted to create me on purpose, out of pure morbidity, to see what kind of being they could conceive. My growth was as rapid as that of any demon, but I was far from a healthy and strong creature. In fa