He shook his head slightly stubbornly, unconvinced. Before he added anything else, I hastened to say:—But I think the real reason was because they loved you, Azazziel. They wouldn't have endured all that if it hadn't been like that.I saw him furrow his brow and shake his head in another stubborn denial. However, a couple of seconds later, a barely perceptible half smile appeared on her face, although it was fleeting.Azazziel looked up until his eyes focused on my face."Stop looking at me like that," he muttered bitterly. I don't need you to pity me. I only told you so you'd stop fucking bothering me.I frowned. I wasn't aware of exactly how I was watching him, but I immediately stood up and crossed my arms while looking away."I don't pity you," I lied, trying to show disdain."I feel like I have to apologize for the bar," he said. It almost seemed to me that she resorted to it in a desperate act to change the subject and forget everything before. It partly worked, because I immed
-Jealousy? —I inquired when he did not complete the sentence."No," he replied, with complete conviction and a bit of harshness. I have never felt jealous of anyone.—And what do you call the scene you created?—I'm selfish, like you said. "She," he shook his head in a nod filled with certainty. It's that, nothing more. I don't want you to get confused, or get your hopes up.A sharp pang shot through my chest, but I refused to let him feel it. I nodded as my eyes returned to the window, watching the raindrops hit the glass."Whatever you say," I murmured, grateful that my voice didn't break or show any emotion, and praying to myself not to bring it up again.But he continued talking.—What I'm trying to say is that... despite how strange you make me feel, and that for some reason I can't act with you the same as I do with the rest of the world, I'm not trying to have a relationship. I do not want that. I don't know what it's like to have an affair with a human, and I'm not interested
I swallowed hard in an attempt to dissolve the lump that suddenly formed in my throat. Shock, surprise and confusion wreaked havoc inside me, and I didn't know what to respond.I turned sharply, turning my back on him, and strode down the street."He's lying ," a malicious voice whispered in my mind. «He is not going to give you your soul back. "He's not going to undo the pact, he has no reason to, he doesn't give a shit about you . "I shook my head to silence the voice. But a dizzying sensation, more violent and overwhelming, gripped my chest and prevented me from continuing to walk. I remained motionless, standing in the middle of the street, flooded by both the rain and the images that shook my mind.Something came over me at that moment. Something unknown vibrated in the center of my chest and pulled me in the direction he was fleeing from. The weight of what had happened today hit me more abruptly than the cold of the atmosphere. More devastating , because it was a betrayal of
—So… —Nat's voice was heard calm but cautious through the cell phone—now you are fully aware that you like him.I closed my eyes, pursed my lips and took a deep breath."Yes," I muttered."That you like it, like it," she insisted, as if to be sure of what she had heard.I swallowed hard, because that statement alone made an uncomfortable weight settle in my stomach. I leaned back, letting my entire body fall onto the bed."Yes..." I repeated in a low voice, emanating defeat."But you don't want to be with him," he pointed out.-No.I shook my head, as if she could see me."Oh, woman," he sighed, "who understands you?"I also let out the air trapped in my lungs, while my eyes swiveled to different points on the smooth white area of the ceiling, as a form of distraction.“I don't know, Nat.” My lips twisted into an involuntary grimace. I don't even know why I'm telling you this.—Because I'm your friend, duh ! "She," she exclaimed with so much energy that she forced me to move the cel
-Not now! —She interrupted me abruptly in her haste—. Ask him, if you want. See you, Ams. —And he hung up, without giving me time to say goodbye.I let out a dismayed snort, as I looked at the device with the broken screen in my hand, and in the corner of which a black strip was already visible that obstructed the clarity of the image.I stared absently at the ceiling again and stayed like that for a while, still feeling the painful pulsations attacking my head. She also had a slight discomfort in her stomach, but she wasn't sure if it was from too much alcohol or from the realization of what had happened the night before.After Azazziel told me that I should go inside because I was too soaked from the rain, the first thing I did was dry myself off and, immediately after, curl up on the edge of my bed, with my arms wrapped around my knees, and I stayed still. that position for a period that seemed eternal to me.The flurry of my thoughts seemed to get worse every time I went over what
It didn't take a genius to figure out that they were getting ready to go somewhere, but I still asked:-They are going out?Mom immediately turned around on her stool and nodded enthusiastically, looking strange—and somewhat comical—with just one eye shadow."We're going to dinner with a colleague of your father and his wife," she replied with a wide smile, and the expression lines at the corners of her eyes appeared on her face. But we won't be back late."That's great..." I made a somewhat nervous gesture, and before I regretted it I added: "I'll go out too."My father snapped his head around, directing his attention from the sleek appearance of his tie to my face.-Again? —She blurted out. The accusation in her tone was palpable."Frankie..." Mom murmured in a disapproving tone, looking at him condescendingly."You went out last night," he insisted in my direction, ignoring him. One of his eyebrows rose in rebuke. And you arrived quite late."Y-yes, but..." My teeth gripped my lowe
Those words threw me off balance.I blinked, seeing a more noticeable concern than before appear on his face. However, far from moving me, what she told me caused the anger that I was trying to calm out of respect for him to increase in an unhealthy way."What do you think I do?" —I asked, with shock and rage seeping into my tone—. Do you think I'm going out to get high or something?"You went out drinking last night," he replied, placing both hands on his hips in an accusatory gesture. Blood immediately covered my face and revealed the shame that statement caused in me. And you're not even twenty-one yet. Do you know how much trouble you could get into for that?"Please, Dad," I huffed, fully aware of how much he hated us doing that in front of him and in the middle of an argument, because I considered it rude. No one waits until twenty-one to start drinking.Surprise took over his features, and at the same time it also crossed my insides, just because I knew that, not long ago, I wo
I turned on my axis, encountering the figure of Akhliss at a disturbing and almost terrifying closeness. I leaned back on instinct, but then my back collided with someone else's torso. I had to turn and look up to see Khaius, who was immediately more cautious than the devil and moved away to give me personal space. Something suspicious flashed in his amber eyes, especially the way he lowered his head and looked away from me. Akhliss, for his part, had a radiant smile on her face.—Did you hear everything? —I murmured, feeling how the anger from before was overshadowed by shame."Just parts," she replied, shrugging nonchalantly. I tell you? I'm very curious.I looked at Khaius, who continued to look at the ground strangely. When he noticed my scrutiny, he grimaced in apology."I... I can hear a wide radius away," he said under his breath. Immediately, a half smile that emanated discomfort appeared on his lips. Plus, they were screaming.“I agree with your parents in some ways,” Akhliss