"You freed me from the pain," he said, half smiling. When I told you about Zeross and Aeriele, I told you that over time I had started to get used to where I came from. For a while, I myself felt like I was fitting in… But I wasn't. "He," he shook his head, still holding my gaze. I have always felt that I had to stay there because I had no other option, because I would never have been able to obtain a place in Heaven, nor here on Earth. I lived for many years with that thought in mind. I was not aware that I was a captive of an existence that was destroying the few feelings with which I had come into the world, until I met you. You freed me from that, you were my redemption. And I would love to be able to do the same for you…” His eyes took on an untamed shine, one that made me feel like my insides were shaking. However, the gesture was fleeting, since a shadow of sadness suddenly took over him. But I know I won't be able to do it. I know that I can never be a positive aspect in your
"Me too," I muttered.It was true. She was tired of trying to act strong and pretend that her presence didn't provoke all kinds of feelings in me. He didn't want that, not when he no longer had the strength or the will for it.He shook his head again, and then moved away enough to look me in the eyes, which surely must have looked as scared as I felt. His, however, suddenly shone with that sinister, dangerous, and ferocious glow that used to terrify me.“You are going to walk with your eyes closed down a path that you know will end up destroying you,” he assured, and the warning was so explicit in his sullen voice that I froze. In complete darkness you will give your heart."I don't want to hold back anymore," I said and had to clear my throat to continue, because my voice trembled. All my life I have avoided doing so many things for fear of the consequences, and I have missed a lot of opportunities that could have done me good, just because the possibility of it ending badly tormente
Returning to reality was harder than I had thought.The last week was the strangest of my entire life, for several reasons. It was overwhelming , because I had never shared so much time with Azazziel, and at the same time it was disconcerting and surprising, since I could never have imagined how affectionate an individual who came from Hell itself could be.On the one hand, there were also embarrassing moments, because I would escape from him when I needed to be alone, or like when I wanted to take a bath and I had to be careful that he wasn't going to spy on me in the shower. I couldn't always expect good things from him... And yes, it was romantic, like nothing had ever been before in my life, because he went out of his way to try to make me forget everything that caused me so much pain and kept me entertained in different ways. He kissed me until he put me to sleep and accompanied me in my sleep at night, but he was always considerate enough not to try to go any further during my t
My stomach tightened when, finally, after several minutes standing like a lunatic on the porch, I opened the door to enter the house. The same one in which I had grown up, in which I lived for all these years, in which I shared indelible memories with the people most dear to me... The same one, but it no longer felt like my home .The ball of matted black fur and carmine eyes—which, by now, was considerably larger than when it was given to me—came running from the far corner and sat down when it got in front of me, wagging its tail happily. The eerie silence of the house let me know that Anthony was not there, something I did not like. I took the puppy in my arms, appreciating the supernatural ardor he emanated, so similar to that radiated by the demons who had given him to me, and I went to the sofa to sit him next to me. A vague thought occurred to me that, if my father had been there, he would have scolded me for putting the dog on the couch.A stab of pain shot through the center
—We just wanted to make you feel better. "She," she smiled apologetically. I'm aware that it was an idiotic impulse on our part.—No, it was something very tender.— Tender … Yes, because when you think of demons, you think of “tenderness . ” Akhliss shook her head disapprovingly. There's something very wrong with you, girl.I pursed my lips, not knowing how to respond.I reached over the coffee table to grab the remote control and turn on the television, solely with the intention of covering the silence, trying hard to lessen the feeling of unease that invaded me. The devil extended her arms above me to reach the cub that was lying next to me, and then she made a frightened face.—Your dog is obese! —He exclaimed, lifting him up in suspense. How much are you feeding it?—I-it's like he always wants more. —I felt a pang of shame—. And then she makes a strange face and I can't deny her...The demoness looked at me with a raised eyebrow.—So you give anything to anyone who makes a dog f
—Tell him you love him.A dizzying emotion settled into my system.—What ? —I whispered, doubting my own hearing. An incredulous laugh burst from my lips. Are you kidding me? Don't you think your cousin annoys me enough that you should do it too?Suddenly, a hint of anger surged through my chest. She shook her head calmly.—I'm not fucking with you. I assure. Tell her, and you'll see how scared she is. Works with any daemon."I-I don't..." I stammered, unable to utter a coherent word. The devil laughed at my reaction, which gave me the courage to continue. I don't even know if what I feel is love.It was not entirely a falsehood. In those moments my feelings were so overwhelming, confusing and unreal, that I couldn't—nor did I want to—proclaim it as something specific. They had a reason and a name, but I didn't have enough courage in me to admit it out loud. Much less in front of her… or him.I wasn't strong enough.-You will notice. At some point, when you least expect it, you will k
In the end she put on the channel I wanted and I was finally able to relax and enjoy what I was watching."I usually entertain myself with other types of activities," she said naturally and with a certain trace of surprise with herself. Like having sex with strangers and stuff... But you know what? “She” turned her head towards me and a warm smile spread across her face. This is fun too.I smiled back.Ignoring my mind's warning, I settled on his shoulder. Surprising me, she carefully placed her head on top of mine. It was undeniable that this was not normal at all. Maybe it wasn't even a good thing. But, at this point, did that matter that much?Right now, this felt like a safe place. One where I could let that weight I was carrying rest, and forget about the rest of the world for a while.~*~*~*~I prayed that it wouldn't start raining at that moment. Not when I was on the sidewalk, walking down an unfamiliar avenue toward a place that—I was sure—I had never set foot before.I took
But then, just as I was about to speak, Azazziel leaned towards me and connected his lips to mine. In that simple gesture I perceived such a fervent desire that I was not able to resist and returned it. Immediately, the world around me lost focus and became diffuse and imprecise. The doubts from a second ago turned into smoke when his tongue searched for mine and I felt the light minty taste of his mouth.My heart skipped a beat and resumed its irregular and violent rhythm. I felt his hands place themselves on the lower part of my back to press me against him. I, for my part, raised my arms until they surrounded his neck while he put me on the balls of my feet, as if we were not close enough to him. As if, despite there being no space between us, we were trying to reduce it even more.A growl reverberated in his chest as, in a fit of bravery, I tangled my fingers in his hair and pulled at it a little. His lips parted a couple of centimeters from me, his warm breath mingled with mine.