I walked across the bedroom on the balls of my feet, and left the room, closing the door very carefully behind me.I took a long breath, feeling suddenly anxious, and walked down the hallway. The door to Nat's room was half open. I approached and my knuckles touched the wood a couple of times, before I heard my friend's voice:-Forward.I entered very slowly. The first thing my eyes focused on was Nat's small, thin figure, sitting at the foot of the bed, and then on Khaius, who was lying down with his upper body supported by several pillows.A gasp of surprise and excitement escaped my lips the moment I saw his amber eyes open."Khaius..." I whispered, unable to help but smile.He returned the gesture."Hello, Amy," he greeted me in a whisper.-What happened? —Nat stood up to approach me—. What the hell…?I leaned back a little due to the urgency of his movement.—W-what are you talking about?"Your wounds..." he said almost breathless. You are cured! But what…?"Oh, yes," I murmured.
"What's happening is..." Khaius cleared his throat. Asmodeus is the one we must answer to."Oh, he's like his boss," Nat muttered."It's much more than that," Akhliss said, now clearly affected. We could face Mabrax and Naamah... Not Asmodeus.—Is he that strong? I asked in a whisper, feeling a pang of dread."More than you could imagine," she answered in a low voice.I swallowed."I-you mean that," Nat stammered, fear dripping from his voice and face, "if that guy feels like killing Amy, he's just going to do it and that's it?""No, it is not so," Khaius replied harshly. We won't let it happen.—And what do we have to do now? —I asked quietly.—You, nothing. "It's serious," Akhliss told me, with a stern tone. Don't think too much about it. We will solve it.A new knot of anxiety formed in the pit of my stomach. The irrational fear of a being I didn't even know transformed into a huge monster that clung to me and prevented me from breathing easily.Fear for me, for my loved ones. The
"It's my decision," I replied harshly. He has to respect her.Akhliss squeezed me tightly, as if I were something she had to hold onto to keep from falling.For the first time, in that very human gesture, I perceived the genuine fear of the devil in me. ***I returned to the room only after Nat made sure I ate something. Azazziel continued to rest. At some point when I was away, Alexander ended up sleeping on the floor; he hoped he hadn't kicked him while he was asleep.I crossed the room slowly, straight towards the bathroom. Immediately, a gasp escaped me as I saw my reflection. Almost scared, I touched my face, testing it, as if I didn't believe what my eyes were seeing in the large mirror. Now I understood Nat's reaction. It wasn't like I had fully recovered. There was still a slight purple shadow under my right eye and the small lesion on my lower lip, but it was a pretty radical change considering how I looked hours ago.A spark of excitement fluttered within me… until my gaze
"Okay..." I mumbled reluctantly, more than clear that insisting too much meant starting a new argument. So I chose another path—: But I have other doubts, about what happened yesterday.He grimaced for a moment.-Which is it?—Did you find me thanks to Alexander? —I asked and he nodded—. And... were you the one who freed Claire to attack Mabrax? "He" confirmed it again silently, this time showing some irritation. But how?“The same way I do these things,” he answered simply, stretching an arm toward the door, and I heard the lock mechanism click. For some reason, a knot of longing settled in my stomach. At that point, much of my uncertainty had been put to rest, but I still felt strange and wasn't sure why, beyond the obvious fact. I lowered my head, and he frowned in obvious bewilderment. What happen?—It's just not easy to forget all this... Everything that Mabrax and Naamáh told me. —I shrugged, grimacing. And also she...-That?-No, nothing. I shook my head in obstinate denial. Fo
The anger that overwhelmed me was suddenly eclipsed by the fear that took hold of me.Fear for him, like I hadn't felt in a long time.An aggressive protest tried to escape my lips, but was silenced by the vehement movements of his mouth over mine. I was able to perceive the anger in her kiss, in the strength with which she held my hands and in the careless way with which she settled on top of me. Without any consideration, without delicacy as he had done this morning. Or how it had been that time in my room.Now he had no subtlety or gentleness with me.Desperation deepened in my system when I felt how he took advantage of his legs to place himself between mine, and it became almost palpable when I appreciated something foreign that, despite having never experienced it, I knew what it was about. Something hard , which caused me almost painful discomfort in the lower part of my belly.At that moment, a guttural and fearsome growl was heard, from a creature that was still small in size
Without having the strength or courage to admit it out loud, I nodded. I felt a sudden pang of dread, for it was as if he had known exactly what was going through my mind, even though I knew that wasn't possible.Azazziel pursed his lips in pain and looked away from me."I know I'm not the best guy you could have encountered," he said in a dull, almost inaudible tone. I know there are a lot of people, people like you, humans ... who would do this much better than me. That, possibly, would not make you doubt or have the insecurity that you feel now. "Him," she shook her head. I told you that time, remember? That day when I told you about Zeross and Aeriele: I can't give you what you need, because I don't know how to do it. And you deserve someone who is capable of loving you and showing it to you.Suddenly, I felt my stomach plummet.-What are you saying? I asked in a shaky whisper.He looked at my face carefully for a couple of seconds, before taking a deep breath and shaking his head
I felt a slight burning on my face. I bit the inside of my cheek, in an effort to ease my anxiety.—It's amazing how you can say something so sweet and then fuck it all up the next second.He gave a light laugh, although I couldn't interpret it as genuine.Resigned, I rested my head on his chest and closed my eyes. In that short period of serenity in which I had already been able to normalize my breathing and my heartbeat, a doubt crossed my mind. An unusual hunch danced inside me.—Why do I have the feeling that you'll leave as soon as I fall asleep? —I asked suspiciously.I could hear him laughing, this time for real."Because I think you're learning to know me," he said.I leaned on my elbow to get a good look at him, although the darkness of the room prevented me from seeing his face clearly.—But I thought…"Nothing will happen to me, Amy," he interrupted me, "don't worry."—How can I be?! I snapped, suddenly alarmed. Don't ask me to be calm!He sat up on his side, looking at me
-Why do you think that?—Because… Damn! —She growled, with her jaw tense and a wrinkle of anxiety furrowing her forehead, in a gesture filled with frustration—. It would be your first experience in this. It should be with someone like you.—What does “someone like me” mean?"A human, " he replied through his teeth, in an anguished tone as if, despite having suggested it himself, the idea tortured him.I pulled my hands away from him, feeling a painful tightness in my chest.—What's wrong with whoever wants me to be with you?—You shouldn't want this. —She shook her head—. No with me.For some reason I didn't identify, a lump formed in my throat. I bit my lower lip as a way to lessen the strange discomfort that was beginning to overwhelm me. I didn't understand why, somehow, I felt so… disappointed?Azazziel raised one hand to cup my cheek and traced caresses with his thumb.—Do you really want this? "She," she inquired in a whisper. Are you very sure?I looked up at him, meeting the u