“I can't stand this anymore, Amy,” Nat said in a whisper, before lifting the beer bottle to his mouth and taking a long sip. She had her head resting on one hand, with her elbow on the table and restlessness etched on her features.From my distance—in front of her—I could see how her lips tightened in a trembling grimace, full of grief. In the center of my torso, something squeezed painfully.I put a hand to my mouth and, almost unconsciously, bit my nails, a terrible habit that I thought I had overcome a couple of years ago, but at that moment I couldn't help it. I needed to focus my unease on something, anything, because I really felt like I was about to go crazy.That day, when Azazziel took me to see the eclipse on the beach, I had thought that he would stay with me... Or, at least, that he wouldn't leave so quickly again. But it was not like that. She took me home, perhaps much later than I usually arrived, but, in the end—and although I protested a lot—I didn't spend that night
What he perhaps didn't understand was that no matter how much he enthralled me with sweet words and trips to beautiful places, I wasn't going to be able to push the anxiety away from me.The affection he had for the three of them was incomprehensible even to me, and I couldn't expect him to understand it. And he didn't want me to sit idly by. But apparently he had no choice. So, that's what I should limit myself to? To wait for any of the three to arrive?What if they didn't? What if no one returned from there ?—Do you think they're okay? Nat asked, in a barely audible murmur. Do you think they are going to come and tell us that everything is resolved and that we can finally rest easy?I wasn't able to look at her and lie to her just because I wanted to try to lessen her sad face. I no longer had the spirit for it, like in the first days."I don't know," I muttered.Nat stood up with a long sigh and walked to the refrigerator. I heard a bottle being uncorked. She came back a couple s
I had to do something. Anything, anything that could be in my hands. And she was sure she would, whenever the opportunity presented itself.I didn't sleep well at all. I woke up in the middle of the morning, just like the rest of the nights since Azazziel left. He had a layer of cold sweat covering my forehead, breathing fast and heart racing.My mind kept showing me horrible, disconnected, bloody images ... Scenes and places that I had not even seen in movies, that terrified me more than anything else I had been able to perceive before. I put a hand on my chest, appreciating the painful anguish that was growing more and more inside me.I couldn't stand the wait anymore.The hours at work passed at a slow and stormy pace. Every minute I clenched my fists to try to reduce my anxiety, but no matter how hard I tried to push away the pessimistic thoughts, I couldn't. They came back to me with decisive insistence, disconcerting me even in the middle of work. Now, without Diana who could ch
An icy energy, the same one I had perceived just a few minutes ago, appeared right behind me.—So you detect our presence. —A hoarse and unknown voice reached my ears. One that made all the blood in my body rush to my feet. That's admirable, considering your deplorable nature.A gasp escaped my lips, and the calm rhythm my heart had begun to take was lost. My heartbeat echoed loudly behind my ears."So you're that Amy. " He said my name in a surly tone, as if it were something unpleasant. Everything she said about you is true, you filthy human.Slowly, I turned on my heels, and then his image struck me.The individual had the same pale grayish skin that all the demons he knew shared, denoting any absence of color in his face. He had his head bent forward, crestfallen with an examining air, with intense green eyes fixed on me. His hair fell messily over his face in unruly, dark waves, and he also looked slightly agitated.The panic I was already feeling took root in the depths of my be
—Let's see it ? —I said breathlessly. To the hell?"Don't be ridiculous," she snapped, "a human body couldn't handle it." It would be a meeting here, in your world. My king has multiple refuges on this miserable piece of land. The closest one is two hours from here.I swallowed hard, shaking my head. I couldn't believe what he was saying.—And if I refuse?"No problem," he replied in a calm tone, as if he really wasn't interested. You can continue living your pathetic life. But yes, keep in mind that he will do whatever he wants with that trio of idiots. Now, if he decides to go, he will be more pious.A horrible feeling gripped the center of my stomach. My breathing was beginning to become more and more shallow.I watched in horror as one of his legs moved forward, and I stepped back out of pure inertia."Why...why would Asmodeus want to meet me?""Because you are something we don't know," he answered immediately, and all traces of calm disappeared from his features. You are dangerou
I looked away. It felt like a pile of stones were settling in my stomach."I think it's the only way," I whispered. It wasn't until that moment, it wasn't until then, that I realized that I didn't really have to discuss anything with her. Whatever she told me, however she tried to persuade me, I wasn't going to give in. There I just realized that my decision had already been made the moment that demon explained Asmodeus' proposal to me.In a sharp, forceful movement, Nat stood up.-Only way? —He mumbled and, I didn't know why, his cold tone made me cringe—. About what? To ensure your death? That guy is up to no good with you, Amy!I bit my lip again, feeling like someone older was scolding me."I know..." I mumbled.-And then? —She demanded and her voice broke. Her eyes, flashing with rage, began to water. What the fuck do you have in your head that you always need to be sacrificing yourself for others? You have a martyr complex, is that it? You did the exact same thing for Claire and
Immediately, in a gesture that was foreign to me but that I felt I urgently needed to do, I put my arms around Nat. To my regret, the tears I had struggled to hold back overflowed from my eyes. She hugged me back immediately, squeezing me with all her strength."I'll do whatever it takes to get back," I murmured. And I will bring them back."Promise," he asked with a broken voice.—I swear... Whatever it costs me, I will return.~*~*~*~My eyelids were heavy from fatigue. I had barely managed to sleep a couple of hours during what seemed like the longest night of my life.I looked at my breakfast with some disgust, due to the knot of anxiety I had in my stomach from the previous day, which seemed to have settled permanently. Despite this, I forced myself to eat, since I had no idea when the demon would come to give him my answer. And, therefore, I didn't even know when he would feed me again.The uncertainty was devastating.I preferred to go to work only because Anthony was still dre
My mood did not change throughout the day. I no longer cared if my colleagues or even clients looked at me strangely, or what they might think of me, if perhaps any of them wondered why I looked like I was in a state of paranoia. At that time, I was completely indifferent to his opinion, because the only thing I could think about was that I was about to make a horrible decision.Something that, probably, if I came out of it alive, would leave me marked for the rest of my days. And yet, I didn't want to refuse. It didn't matter how dangerous it became, because I knew how much I would regret it if I didn't try.At no time did I stop feeling the pounding of my heartbeat behind my ears. At no time did I stop feeling like I was making a terrible mistake. But I couldn't back out. I did not want to. He couldn't leave them to their fate.I wasn't going to bear their death, just as I was already burdened with that of my parents.The passing of the hours seemed very strange to me, as if they pa