She was devastated. Destroyed. There was nothing left of her. Nothing left in her.
She was no more. The one person that she held dear the most was no more. She wept. She cried. Her eyes were burning. She had cried, and, cried, and cried. But no matter what, she won't get her back.
But more than that, it was the words that she left behind for Ito. What she had said to her in the hospital room.
Why?
Was it just her imagination?
Did it mean she had been going around it the wrong way? For the past five years. The way she had lived up until now wasn't the correct way?
Then, what of it? What should she make of her past five years of living? Was it meaningless? Did it hold no value?
Then, what about the person named Ito Yua?
The actions she undertook, the choices she made, in these five years, is what defined her today, what she is today. If those choices were wrong, if those experiences were meaningless, then did that mean h
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