It was a weekday.
I was alone in my home.
With my arms spread wide and my legs hanging loosely from the end of the sofa, I looked up at the ceiling. I had nothing to do. In other words, I was bored.
“Aaaah~I want to die~”
I wonder how many times I have repeated this. Even now, I had this strong urge to jump off this building. No doubt I will die if I were to jump fourteen floors down.
“No.”
I scolded myself. I can’t be selfish. The voyage that we swore to undertake. We had promised we would die together. She can’t die before me and I can’t die before her. She had said she will come to get me. She would appear before me. And no matter how long, how excruciating and how painful living is for me, I will wait for her. I will keep falling down as long as I don’t reach where she was. But, still…
“Come fast, Hayami. Don’t make me wait any longer.”
I stretched my
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