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How My Life Was Ruined 097: The Past
Although it was still raining, the density had decreased considerably.In that rain, without caring that her body was wet from head to toe, a girl was walking.Her whole body was wet. Including her face. What looked like drops of rain trickled down her cheek. Or maybe it wasn't rain. It could well have been her fat tears rolling down. But no one could tell. Even the girl herself wasn't sure.Not caring in the slightest about the gazes of the people around her, she strode towards the hospital.She asked the receptionist at the entrance to give her the room number of the person she was seeking.Although reluctant, the woman gave her the room number.She walked towards the elevator but it showed that it was engaged.Not able to bear waiting anymore, she decided to take the stairs instead.Since the rain couldn't penetrate the roof of the hospital, she was now sure that what had been wetting her face wasn't rain but her tears.She had heard the news.That Kageyama Kage had tried to commit
How My Life Was Ruined End of Volume 2
This here brings an end to the second arc of the series 'Fakeness and Family'. This volume was sort of a bridging arc. At first, I had planned this volume to be the same length as the first one but when I continued writing it become far longer than I had originally planned. In this volume, some light was shed on the fakeness that our protagonist had and the complicated family relationship he has. But, we still don't know the full story yet. There are many things we have yet to know. Why exactly does Kageyama hate his mother so much? Why did his father die and why does he blame himself for his father's death? What is the sin he speaks of? And more importantly, who is this girl - Hayami? And why did Kaya refer to her as non-existent? There is something even more pressing here. What will happen afterward? All of these will be answered in the next volume which will be the final installment of this series. And sorry but, I think you guys will have to wait till next month for all t
How My Life Was Ruined 098: The Past - I
I looked her straight in the eyes and replied in all honesty. “I am sorry, Hamasaki.” For a moment, her mouth opened a little then she closed it tight. Her thin glossy lips then went on to form a thin smile. A smile that said that she knew this was coming. Her hands were clasped tightly in front of her and all she could do was look on at me with her loving gaze. But, I didn’t avert her gaze and looked straight at her. This was the least I could do to respect the determination and courage she showed despite knowing the end result. A strong wind blew, and her long hair was sent flying in the air, blocking her face. She turned around and then she ran. Although her face was hidden by her long, lustrous hair, I was sure I had seen it. A drop of tears that contained a thousand painful emotions. “I wonder how many times has it been now?” I said as I looked up at the sky with my expression blank. Maybe eighteen? No. It should have already crossed twenty by now. Twenty. The number o
How My Life Was Ruined 099: The Past - II
A man in his early forties came wobbling through the front door.He hastily opened his shoes and threw them toward the wall. They bounced off the wall and fell on the floor upside down. He put his right hand on the wall as he supported himself as he walked.I was still there rooted at the end of the steps.His footsteps were loud and heavy. I hated this man. And of course, I hate to talk to him. But if I don’t talk here, the loud thumping will continue and this is for sure going to wake my mom up. She was tired and she needs rest. For the sake of her respite, unwillingly, I spoke to the drunk man from the spot I was in.“Hey, pipe it down, old man. You will end up waking mom up.”Upon hearing my harsh words delivered in a cold tone, my drunk father slowly looked up at me with his swollen, red eyes.“Oh, my son.”When he said that, I could feel blood rush to my head at an unbelievable speed. Hearing him speak, I felt enraged. I hated him. I hate his face. I hate his voice. I hate his e
How My Life Was Ruined 100: The Past - III
The room was silent now that the storm had passed.My mom was still lying on the floor. Her hair was still a mess with tears staining her beautiful and lovely face.I slowly walked towards her and crouched down to gaze into her eyes that were cast down.I gently held her quivering shoulders and brought her close to mine, hugging her tightly.The quivering stopped and I heard the sound of faint sobs escaping her lips.“I am sorry.” She said.“No. Mom, why are you apologizing?”“It’s all my fault. Because of me even you have to suffer at the hands of your father. I am sorry. I am sorry, Kage!”The tears burst forth like damn and she wrapped her arms around me tightly.“No. Stop it, mom. It was not your fault. It never had been!”It was all his fault. All that bastard’s fault. She had nothing to be blamed for. It was my dad and his drinking habits that were the cause of it all.This had been a daily routine for us now. Day after day, I was made to witness the same scene again and again.
How My Life Was Ruined 101: The Past - IV
“Shit!”I said as I hurriedly jumped out of bed.Maybe it was because I had gone to sleep quite late yesterday, I wasn’t able to wake up on time. I had set three alarms at 6 o’clock, 6: 30, and 7 am. And I had – somehow – managed to miss all of it. I didn't know I had this extraordinary talent.The time currently was 7: 45.My school started at 8 o’clock sharp. That meant I had less than fifteen minutes to freshen up, get ready, have breakfast, and head to school.I ran towards the bathroom. I washed my face and brushed my teeth (well I just gave five strokes of the brush and then done) in a hurry.I went upstairs without even drying my face and put on my uniform.As I ran out of my room, I checked my mom’s room. She was still sound asleep. She must have been tired of all that happened yesterday. Without waking her up, I went back to my room.Since mom was still sleeping, that meant no breakfast was made.I had some extra money with me so I decided I will buy something at the convenie
How My Life Was Ruined 102: The Past - V
When lunch period finally rolled over, I excused myself and went to the cafeteria.Since I hadn’t eaten a proper breakfast, I bought a heavy lunch.My plate full of all the available dishes in the school canteen, I made my way to the empty seat on the left by the window side.I immediately started wolfing down the lunch.When I finished, I was completely stuffed. Although I didn’t have my stomach sticking out, I stroked it gently.“Gosh, I don’t think I can move for a while.”I decided to stay there until the lunch period ended.As I was watching other students play on the ground through the window with my elbow on the table and chin resting on my palm, someone settled in the seat in front of me.“May I sit here?”“By all means.”Horikita-san sat on the seat with two cream-filled bread and a can of milk.Seeing that I couldn't help myself from asking.“Will just that be enough?”She immediately understood what I was getting at.“Yeah. Even this is more than I usually eat. I didn’t get
How My Life Was Ruined 103: The Past - VI
“It won’t be stopping anytime soon, will it?” I said as I looked up at the sky that seemed white now.Since I had woken up late today and didn’t have time to browse the internet or watch the television, I hadn’t been updated about the weather today. And as such, I hadn’t bought an umbrella today.Horikita-san did propose to go home together but I politely declined. Our houses were in the exact opposite direction. She had insisted that she was okay with first dropping me home and then going on her way, but I tried my best to get that idea out of her brain. It was no easy task but I had managed to convince her somehow.I put my right hand outside the classroom window and let the heavy drops of rain hit my palm. As the drops made contact with my palm, a cold sensation ran up from my arms to my heart calming and soothing it.Yeah, that’s why I love rain.No matter what I am going through, no matter what I am feeling inside when I touch the rain and when I let it seep into my body and sou
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Afterword
If you are reading this afterword instead of reading the story, then, please go and read the story first! However, if you are here after following the gruesome journey and the end of Kageyama Kage, then, I have to thank you from the bottom of my heart to have given this novel a chance. Now, then, about this story. You know, we humans, are contradictory in nature. In the little things we do and speak, there is always a small contradiction there. We might fail to notice them, but it doesn't mean we don't contradict ourselves. Similarly, we humans, also go through our fair share of hardships and pain. It is inevitable. I have had my fair share of them and you all have too. This story, 'How My Life Was Ruined', is a story where the contradiction is exaggerated - no - overexaggerated and at the same time, I (being the overthinker I am) took the various problems people around me faced and converted it into a story. A story where we don't see a redemption arc. A story where all that await
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130: The End And The Beginning
Furukawa Maya and Maki were in the Director’s room.The atmosphere was gloomy and heavy.No one said a word but they both knew what was on their minds.“So we failed to save him.” Maki was the one to say that sentence. She clenched her fists and bit her lips. She had failed to save the person her dear sister had been trying to protect. As a sister, she had failed to fulfill her duties and that realization left a bitter taste in her mouth.“No point in beating yourself over that. The moment Kaya died, everything was as good as hopeless.”That had been the last straw.Kaya had been the one to have held Kageyama down to this world. She had cast chains on him and shackled him. But when she died, the chains came off and he plunged to his doom.No, even after that, there was still a chance to save him. If not for the girl, Hayami. The girl that didn’t exist. The girl that never existed in the first place.“Hallucination, was it?” Maki spoke.After Kageyama’s death, the Director told her abo
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129: After The End - III
Aina had been hurt by the news of Kageyama Kage's death.The shock was so much that when she first learned of the truth she ended up fainting on the spot.Even after regaining her consciousness, she hadn’t been able to stomach the truth. The fact that the one she had loved was no more in this world had left her unable to think of anything for a long while.She continued to think. Day and night without an ounce of sleep.Why? Why did Kageyama end his life? She knew why he did. She knew of his whole story. Any normal person would have ended his life long ago if they had had to go through such hardships and pain. The fact that Kage had managed to act like a normal person when he had such a heavy history dragging him down was nothing sort of miracle.But, still, there were many questions she wanted to know the answers to.Like, why did they allow Kageyama the opportunity to end his life?Hadn’t the Director assured her that they were trying to prevent that from happening? She had seen tha
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128: After The End - II
The news of Kageyama’s death had saddened both Yamamoto and Ito.For Yamamoto, Kageyama had been a good friend. He even considered him his best friend. That was how much he trusted and not to mention admired him.Kageyama had been his savior. Crushed by the guilt that he hadn’t been able to save Yua back then and unable to take any action, he had already given up. The one who gave him the push to take action and make things right was none other than Kageyama. If he hadn’t come into his life, then he wouldn’t have been able to do anything. He would have most definitely remained frozen as always while he watched Yua suffer more and more every day and he kept lamenting. Kageyama was his hero. And so he was for Yua as well.Yamamoto knew that Yua was in love with Kageyama. Although he was hurt, he didn’t hate him. In fact, he thought it was inevitable that she falls in love with him. He had saved her from what seemed like an impossible situation. He had dragged her out of that muddy world
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127: After The End - I
The news had made headlines across the country.No matter which channel Nakamura switched to, everywhere, it was the same news, the same grisly spectacle and the same pain of having lost someone important assaulted her.She shouldn’t have been surprised. He had tried to end his life once. It shouldn’t have been surprising that he would try to do the same. What was surprising was how short the interval between his attempted suicide and death was. She had expected the authorities to take some action to prevent that from happening and they did take action and kept him under surveillance but he had somehow managed to escape and end his life.She turned off the TV and sat on the floor facing the veranda.A cold wind blew and sent her hair flying. She looked to her right. There was no one.If he had been alive, he would probably be outside on the veranda.If he had been alive. But the fact was that he wasn’t.Nakamura knew that Kageyama had wanted to end his life. She always had thought tha
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126: The End Of The Story
“Finally.”I muttered as I stood on the edge of the rooftop holding hands with Hayami.The cold wind ruffled our hairs.I was battered. Bruise covered my body here and there and there was also a gun wound on my lower leg. Hayami had ripped her skirt to tie it around my leg to prevent blood loss. Although I found it hilarious that she was trying to prevent the blood loss of someone who was going to die soon, I didn’t speak a word and let her do her work.“We can finally die.”Although I had wanted to go in a grand way, this was good in its own way. It gave me the adrenaline rush that made my spirit pump even more.Suicide?No.Don’t term what we are about to do with something as petty and cowardly as suicide.It was the only good thing that I was going to do ever in my life. Everyone should be overjoyed that I was about to remove a corrupt and wretched existence from this world.My life, not only was it meaningless, it was sought with suffering, pain, chaos, betrayal, deceit, and every
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125: The Escape
I went back and sat down on my earlier seat.My mom came out of the bathroom after a few minutes.Her face was wet. She probably washed her face so that she could hide the fact that she was crying. But her red eyes gave it away. The pain was still there in her face.I handed her the towel lying on the sofa. She dried her face with that and shortly after the old hag came in.I took out my phone and started scrolling through the feed on social media. Though I was still paying keen attention to the old hag.Hmm.Just then I noticed the two of them make eye contact. It was nothing unusual but it definitely caught my attention.The time was 3 in the morning. I ended up staying awake all night today.“Furukawa-san, why don’t you stay till morning? You probably are hungry with all the speaking and work. I will whip up something quickly and you can take a short nap to give some rest to your body till the morning.”“Hmm.” The old hag seemed to be thinking about her proposal and eventually, she
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124: I Have Never Hated you
For the next five minutes after my mom dashed to the bathroom, no one spoke. I feel like these long and short stretches of silence in the middle of conversations were happening a lot to me. Was it a meaningful silence or a meaningless one? Did the silence speak louder than the words or was it just and merely silence? I don’t know.“She sure is taking long. What must she be doing?” The old hag broke the silence with a meaningful question.“Yeah, I wonder what.”Although I knew what she wanted to hear from me, I played the fool. I knew what she was doing in the bathroom. She was without a doubt crying her eyes out hurt by the scathing words of her own son.The old hag gave me a smile as if she had seen that coming.“Putting aside your words that you being born itself was the root of it all, don’t you feel angry?”“Angry? Why?”“If you hadn’t learned what your mom had been doing, things wouldn’t have gone that out of hand. Let’s say if your mom hadn’t been cheating on your dad, if Nakamu
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123: The One Grave Mistake
After calming down a bit, I looked down to the dining area from the stairs. The old hag was sitting there waiting for someone. And I knew that someone was me.“Hayami, you go wait for a little longer.”“Hmm. Okay~” Although, she seemed reluctant after I gave her a kiss, she went back to the room. After hearing the click of the door locking, I made my way downstairs and sat in an empty chair facing the old hag.“Why are you here?” I asked.“We heard from Aina's parents that she had run away from home and would like our help to search for her. That’s why I am here.”So I was right that she had run away from home without telling anyone.“But, why are you here? How did you know Aina would be here?” Did she know beforehand that the only place Aina will head to after running from her home under the current circumstances will be my house? I could think of the old hag arriving to that conclusion. She was quick-witted after all.“No. We just followed her path.” She continued. “We checked the C
