She blew out yet another sigh and stared at me. It was like something had finally clicked in her mind and her eyes hardened. It looked like she'd finally seen me for who I was.
"Reniella, you're lovely, honestly," she bit out. "I'm not sure if you've been told this before but you just have this vibe around you. You've got these eyes and this little smile that makes people feel like they should confess their entire life story to you. But I can't risk spilling any more secrets than necessary, I hope you understand."
She brushed me off and turned to her friends.
Without kicking up a fuss, I put the can back onto the kitchen island and stalk off. My eyes were heavy and I didn't feel like investigating anymore. I couldn't go upstairs to any of the rooms but I didn't want to stay downstairs on my own anymore either. As nice as Deshawn's company was, I couldn't talk to myself all night.
Just as I thought of looking for Ross, Raven stumbled into my arms. Alarmed and breathless, her classic vanilla perfume was replaced by the stench of weed. She pulled at my arms roughly towards the door.
"We've got to go, the police are on their way here."
"What? Why?" I demanded, eyes wide. The last time the police had turned up to a party was when Deshawn died. As Raven pulled me through the herd of people, flashes of blood spread across my vision and blurred facts from fiction. I tried my best to take a look at my wrist and peer at the words 'Reniella De Vega' I had scribbled down earlier to offer relief. Raven's hand was in the way, though.
"There was a party a couple of streets over that got shut down and all the crackheads have come here instead. I can't have the police phoning my mother, Rei. Even if it's just weed on me, you know what she's like, 'marijuana is a gateway drug'," she mimicked. "She'll literally lock me in the shed for the night, you know she will. And my brother will laugh so we have to go right now."
The pleading in her voice was what propelled my numb legs forward. Greeted by the icy bite of wind outside, we didn't stop to acknowledge it. Holding on tightly to one another, we fled in search of raven's brother's car parked on the curb and then threw ourselves inside.
As I waited for the engine to warm, a knock sounded on the back window. At first, I thought it might have been Deshawn but was proved wrong when Raven snapped her head around to take a look.
Ross Rivera, looking as shit-faced as you could get, flopped inside the car. His dark brown hair stuck up in all sorts of directions and a rosy red had blossomed at the apples of his tanned cheeks. He stuck his head through the gap between the two front seats and directed a boyish grin my way.
"Bambi, you magnificent creature, I've always loved you the most. In fact, I-"
"Cut the crap, what do you want?" I interrupted.
His eyes turned beseechingly to me. "Reniella! Pretty, pretty please would you drive me home? The feds are on their way and if my dad is awoken in the middle of the night again because of my dumb ass, he'll be fuming. He'll send me away to military school and I'll never survive there. Say you'll drive me, please! For old time's sake. I'm really quiet too," he ranted. Then, in an attempt to prove his maturity he threw himself against the back seat and pressed a finger to his mouth.
"I'm a good boy, promise." He smirked behind his finger.
I turned to Raven in question, it was her brother's car after all. She just shrugged lightly.
"Fine, but be quiet." I agreed.
He grinned widely and hugged the back of my car seat. "Thank you, thank you, thank you," he chanted and I pulled the car out quickly before the flashing lights of police could catch up.
"I can't believe those little shits ruined my commemoration party," Deshawn complained quietly from the back where he appeared on the other side of Ross. As he caught my eyes in the rearview mirror, he grinned.
A strong emotion that I couldn't put my finger on crawled its way from the pits of my stomach and up my throat, choking me. Just the sight of Ross's large home split my mind open, letting the taunting memories of Deshawn's dead body ooze through and blur my vision. Luckily I had stopped the car or I was afraid I might've carried on going within my daze and crashed it somewhere.
"You should walk him in," Raven advised as Ross's blatant intoxication seemed almost dangerous.
With a deep sigh, I obliged. We got out of the car at the same time, night had fully taken over by now. The confident moon cast dark shadows over us and Ross threw me a grin while we walked to his house.
"Thanks for driving me home, by the way. And now walking me to the doorstep, you're such a gentleman, Bambi. How can I ever repay you? My very own prince charming," he sang out.
"Shut up," I muttered and rolled my eyes, suppressing a smile. We neared the doorstep and flashes of the police carrying a body bag through this very same front door barreled towards me. My amusement sobered.
Ross turned his back to the door and gave me a soft smile. As if he could feel the thick emotions as they peeled from my body, he enveloped me in a hug. It wasn't the same sort of silly hugs that he used to give me where he'd squeeze too tightly to annoy me. It was identical to the hug he gave on the night I found Deshawn. With his hand at the back of my head, it felt as though the two of us were clinging to hope. After a moment, Ross pulled away and turned to the door. Before he could open it, it was pulled forcefully from the other side to reveal Mr. Rivera. Ross's dad.
"Ross," his deep voice echoed.
I visited the Rivera house a lot when I was younger but I never got used to seeing Mr. Rivera. He was a tall and burly man with a dark brown beard and matching hair. Normally, he wore tailored suits but tonight he showed off his custom velvet robe.
"Reniella De Vega?" He sneered, looking down his long nose at me. The dark circles under his eyes were prominent and I was glad he had lost sleep over Ross's adventures. "Jesus, you two. Stand apart for Christ's sake, you look like lovers or something."The bitterness in his voice, I assumed, was directed towards me. It was probably because I was poor, far from perfect for his little boy. If I thought Zobel boys were all the same, their parents were even worse. Mr. Rivera had always been a grumpy bastard."Get inside now. You better be quiet, I'm warning you. If you wake your mother up, I swear to God, Ross. You hear me, boy? We'll talk about this later." The big man hissed through clenched teeth. He placed a strong hand onto Ross's shoulder and with a swift push, he rushed his son into their home.
"I knew for a fact that Amalia and Marco had slept with each other because he was just as nervous as she was. He knew all the little secrets before I'd even said them aloud. While Amalia became quiet upon the release of her personal details, Marco was much the opposite. He came up to me, threatened me, pushed me. The Marco I saw that day was not my best friend. He was something else. Some white knight complex had taken over him, just another white boy trying to show off his new plaything. If he thought I'd do that to Amalia, he couldn't have known me all that well. I was just-"He cut himself off and lunged towards me before I could react. His hands found my cheeks where he cupped them roughly and my face was trapped in his grasp. His icy touch knocked the breath from my lungs and it felt as though I'd been knocked over by a car. My vision glazed over and all I could see we
I gasped back to reality, plummeting from the dream world and returning to my body. Within my hysteria, I fell off the bed and landed in a pile on the floor where Deshawn once rested. Where was he? What was that?"Now you know why I hate Marco," Deshawn admitted. I saw that he was sitting on the edge of my bed, a longing look plastered to his face as he looked down on me but I knew he was thinking about his ex-best friend.Both of my wrists each had the name, Reniella De Vega written on it. Perfectly centered and readable, not dreaming."I need to talk to him then," I stated. Marco had an obvious dislike towards Deshawn, a dislike I needed to explore."I'm not letting you talk to him when he could potentially
There was a boy in my room.He sat on my cheap desk chair, leaning back as it squeaked slowly. Long legs parted and his hands in the pockets of his navy blazer. I tried not to stare for too long. Not because he wasn't nice to look at, he certainly was. With freshly faded hair at the side of his oval-shaped face and tight ringlets of lively black curls at the top, he certainly wasn't a bother.It was hard to know whether he noticed I was even there. His long, dark lashes curled upwards and sheltered his eyes that were trained down to the floor. His eyes were oddly enchanting. So brown that they drizzled to an almost fiery red, like honey. Golden sunlight filtered through the cracks in my blinds and melted against his smooth brown skin. He was enough to leave me breathless and I was choking.&nb
I wondered for a moment if I could have been dreaming but after glancing at my wrist to see my name written in messy cursive, I knew it wasn't true. Every letter sat where I'd written it earlier to prove that I wasn't in a horrible dream.I hadn't made this up, it was real."You found me, didn't you?" His voice came out in a faint whisper. It was as though the thought had been worming its way through his mind ever since he saw me and now it had finally slipped from his tongue.I nodded, "yes.""So I am...dead?""Yes.""But...you're not?"
They sounded like ghostly robots as they spoke together. Their voices weren't loud but they echoed around my mind and distracted the sane part of myself. The wind picked up and it began to whip my hair around my face ferociously. All at once, each door of the terraced houses slammed shut in my face.Before anything else could've taken me away from my goal, I rushed ahead to the shop. The bell above the door chimed as I stepped inside and I wasted no time in escaping to the sweet and chocolate aisle. For such a small shop, they had a lot of good stuff. Snatching the off-brand milk chocolate, I followed the white aisles as they led me to the counter. When I was younger, my dad used to allow me to get a pretty pink magazine for my birthday every year. I often wished times were simpler, that I could allow myself to get excited over the little things again.&n
When I slipped back into my bedroom, Deshawn was sitting exactly where I'd left him, cross-legged on my bed. My eyes scanned around the room in search of anything that had moved or scratched but nothing obvious popped out at me. His eyes were trained to the window as he watched the trees outside dance in the wind.I wondered if he was a ghost and what that felt like. I'd never had ghosts follow me before so this couldn't have been something to do with me. Death had seemed pretty angry that a spirit managed to slip from his grasp so I guessed this was a rare occurrence for him too.I circled the boy whose chest, though dead, lifted and fell with breath. I carefully pulled my desk chair forward so that I could watch as he moved, breathed, and observed life moving outside. The life he'd no longer be part of.
I woke up to the numbing feeling on my forehead as it spread around my body and made my muscles tingle back to life. Cool leather pushed against my body from the couch and was a cold awakening to the bare skin of my arms.I reached my arms up and above my head, clicking them into place. Every one of my limbs ached and it felt as though I'd been sleeping for years. Fluttering my eyes open, I recognized my surroundings as the living room. I lifted my head from the leather sofa and pain pierced through my skull. With furrowed brows, I massaged my temples and breathed deeply to soothe the pain.Just the thought of what happened earlier sent a shudder through my body. What was that? It all felt so real and scary. The blood looked real, it smelt real, it felt real. I glanced down at my wrist and saw the words 'R