Santiago grabs Weston's hand. “I need to see you for a second.”
Weston darts an apologetic look at Jose before going outside with Santiago. “What was that?” “You're screwed, man. Fucking screwed.” Santiago paces around. “What happened?” “That guy with a tattoo that I saw coming out of your room is the Big boys’ commando.” “Big boys, a cult?” “Yeah. The fucking second to the most notorious one in the campus,” Santiago answers. “That's bad.” “Worse than bad. If he comes to see someone in your room, then you're totally screwed.” Weston chuckles. “I had no idea you were this scared.” “Listen me, Weston, the Big Boys' don't take no for an answer.” “I don't have anything to answer for. Why are you this scared?” “Don't you get it?” Santiago asks, a frustrated look on his face. “Sorry?” “If the commando came to your room to see that creepy looking roommate of yours, it only means one thing: your roommate is a member of the cult.” “Come on. Tell you what? Another guy invited me to another shitty party. What would have you said if you saw the two of us together? You'd have thought I was already a member.” “That's different, Weston. Totally different.” “How is it different? Because I'm new here?” “No. No one knows the second in command of the big boys’ commando.” “It's too early for us to know them now,” Weston says. “It's not too early. Are you even listening to me? I just said the Big Boys are the second notorious group and no one knows their second in command.” “San, I think you're already overthinking this.” “Let's go look for a house outside the campus.” “Is this a joke to you?” Weston asks, his voice laces with anger. “Our lives are more important than all this shit.” “Like hell, they are!” “So let's go look for a house outside the campus. For your sake. Anyone in the Big Boys is a suspect since we really don't know who the—” “Let's talk about what you came to see me for.” Santiago's lips part in surprise. “What…?” “I don't suppose you came here to talk to me about my roommate.” “You've totally lost it, Weston and I ain't going to have anything to do with you ever again. You can go ahead and die, I have no fucking hand in it.” Santiago swears and walks off, raising dust with his feet as he walks off. Weston bites on his lower lip. What the fuck just happened? Did he just lose his temper because of a shitty topic? “Weston?” Jose calls. Weston glances at Jose, a smile on his face to conceal his damn anger. “You're okay?” Jose asks. “I'm cool.” “It seems your friend doesn't like me,” Jose says, walking over to Weston. “Well…he's just…don't mind him.” Jose nods. A smirk flashes across his face when Weston isn't looking. Seems Weston already trusts him, Jose thinks. For now, he'll concentrate on getting Weston to trust him. After that, he can proceed into initiating Weston into the Big Boys without Weston suspecting a thing. All these should be planned with care. Weston is a top dog he shouldn't miss. “Not a lot of people like me,” Jose says and sigh. “Come on, why will you say that?” Jose shrugs. “My parents are dead and I am here thanks to a scholarship. Like…sometimes I think the biggest mistake I have ever made is to come here.” “Come on, don't say that.” Jose pretends to wipe tears off his face. “I try my best, Weston, but…I can't…I just can't help the feeling. I do my best but I just never fit in with everyone else.” “Hey, man, stop. You're just like everyone else. You're cool. I mean it.” Jose nods, pretending to be very sad. “You know, I do two part-time jobs to be able to get my basic needs met but still…all I ever get right is to read. Other than passing exams, I don't get anything right.” “Do you know how many people want to be intelligent but are not?” Jose shakes his head. “Thanks for the advice, you have lifted my spirits.” Hell, he's getting close. He can't believe Weston actually falls for that. Who the hell is intelligent? Why does he need to be intelligent when he can easily bribe the lectures to get him the highest score in his department? “What should I get for you? I'm going to the convenience store.” “No. Don't worry, I don't need…” Weston stops when he notices the dejected look on Jose's face. “I know I'm poor but…I just wish—” “Buy me anything you want,” Weston says. That seems to lighten up Jose's face. “I'll be back tonight. Remember…I'll advise you not to go to any of those parties tonight, but if you want, you can go, but…it's dangerous.” “Thank you. I really do appreciate it,” Weston says. Jose smiles, adjusts his cufflinks and leaves. Weston's phone rings. It is Lorette calling. “You'll tell me you don't know who your roommate really is?” Lorette asks. “I can't believe San already told you.” “You really don't know who Jose is?” “I love playing games, homie. I want to play his game with him.”Lorette seems to sigh in relief at the other end. “You scared the shit out of me.” “I saw the mark behind his hand. Watch out for single line tattoos on the back of the right hand. They belong to BB." “BB for big boys?” Lorette asks. “Yep. By the way, we're still going to that guy's party?” “From the few information I have been able to garner, he is the guy with the highest population of students here and he's pretty cool. I think we should start with him.” “Where should we meet tonight?” *** At exactly seven p.m., Weston gets out of the room, locks the door. In his black shirt and crazy jeans with gold chain, he walks to the campus gate where he planned to meet Santiago and Lorette. Lorette seems to be trying hard to turn down a guy. As soon as she sees him, she leaves the guy and comes over to him. “Where is San?” Weston asks, glancing around. “He called me just now, he has a stomach upset.” “Did you eat something bad? Shouldn't he visit the hospital?” “H
“For goodness sake, Weston, you can't do this…unless…well, it's your choice. If you succeed in getting an answer to my questions, I'll make you second in command to me but if you end up failing, let's not cross paths.”Weston nods and goes out. He took a packet of gum from his pocket and chewed it. Liam must really think he can't succeed in finding those answers for him to have promised him a position as his second in command.Weston blows the gum in his mouth. He summons the damn crazy resilient spirit that took control of him ten years ago that made him flee from home at fifteen.He can do this. He will do it. Whatever it takes for his father to acknowledge him as a damn precious child. He can't wait to see the fallen look on his father's face when he finally tells him, ‘hey, dad, I took down all the damn bad guys. You're okay now? Now, piss off.’ Just thinking about it sends adrenaline coursing through his body.“Are you okay?” Lorette's anxious voice tears the smile off Weston's
For a couple of seconds, there is silence. “Am I starting to hear strange words in my head?” One of them asks.“Right? I'm not the only one who heard that?” The guy with the cigarette asks.Weston comes out from behind the wall and strides to them. “What could he have done to deserve such beating?”“Come here,” the guy with the cigarette says. “Come here and get on your knees beside him.” Weston chuckles. “Are you some gods…oh…you must be another damn leader of some shitty group.”“Are you drunk?” One of the guys walks over to Weston in a bid to grab him by the collar.Weston dodges, the guy almost lost his balance but he holds himself right in time.“Get on your knees while I'm still being kind,” the guy with the cigarette says.“You still haven't answered my question,” Weston says as if he isn't the one the guy with the cigarette is talking to. “What could the boy have done…” Weston kicks backward at the guy behind him, sending the latter crashing against a wall. One of the guys
He looks relieved. He nods. “You're right. Friends are the ones who can deal best with each other.” He gives Weston another hard look filled with satisfaction before walking off with the other guys. Friends? Santiago? What the heck are they talking about? Is there another Santiago in the campus? Weston tries to make sense of what they are saying but it just doesn't sound all that meaningful. They must have said that to pacify themselves and make it less hurting that the boy they were supposed to be picking on just slapped their commander. The thought elicits a chuckle from Weston. The boy…Weston glances at the boy. The boy isn't shaking now but he still looks scared. “You're cool?” Weston asks. “Those guys, they won't hurt you, right? They won't do something bad to you, right?” The boy asks, fear in his eyes. Damn. Who sent a boy this young to college? Weston is tempted to ask the boy of his age but he doesn't. That might sound a bit rude of him, instead, he shrugs. “I'm not sca
Weston waits. There is a little silence before Lorette says: “I give you two days to sort this shit out.” Quickly, Weston returns to the staircase and pretends like he's just coming. Lorette comes out of the door. She looks quite startled seeing Weston. Weston waits for her to say something. She doesn't. She just smiles at him and race past him. He takes a deep breath and walks inside the room. Santiago is pacing around the room. He stops when he sees Weston. “Hey,” Weston says. “Bro, I'm so sorry for what happened yesterday. I guess I totally lost it because of the stress of moving here. I mean, it's nothing compared to my room.” He gestures at the empty takeout cartons on the ground. “Something up with you and Lorette?” Weston asks. “Not really. She…” Santiago shrugs. “She gets bitchy sometimes.” He walks to the closet. “You're going to the lecture room?” Th
Weston opens the door to his house, gets his arms ready for his daughter to rush in as usual.“Daddy is home!” He says, expecting his daughter’s usual shrieks of laughter but there is none. Instead, there is something else. Something strangely different in the living room.A luggage. Weston looks at his girlfriend, she is looking at him with those murderous glare he's grown used to for a couple of months now. He looks at his daughter.“Guess what I got you today, Han?” Weston stretches the package bag to his daughter.Just as his daughter is going to collect the package bag from him, his girlfriend collects it and throws it across the room. “Is this what your mates are buying for their kids?” She looks at him, anger written on her face.Weston tries to smile. “Come on, babe, it's Han’s best candy.”“Yeah. Of course, it's her best candy. It's the best one you can ever get for her. You've bought it for her so many times that she has mistaken it for the only good food in the world,”
Weston's eyes dart to his daughter. He lets out a breath of relief. The girl doesn't seem to be listening as she is engrossed in a video on her small phone.“Let's talk inside, babe,” Weston says, already going toward the room but his girlfriend 's voice stops him.“My mother will be here in less than two minutes to take us away.” Weston stops right on his track. “What?”“She promised to give me another chance as her daughter, so don't bother telling me any bullshit about how things would be better later on.” “You can't…do you think you should do this without informing me first?”“For a man who didn't get past high school, who can't make his brain figure out how to make money for his family, I don't suppose you'd understand if I told you earlier.”Weston wants to just go to her and shout into her damn ears to stop talking to him that way but he doesn't do that. He can't do that. He can't lose control in front of his kid.“When are you going to be back?” Weston forces himself to ask.
Weston has no idea how many minutes he spent standing in a position after the car drives off, all he realizes is his feet moving him back to the house.It's been ten years of regret. Ten stupid years. After everything that has happened in the past ten years, Weston knows he made a big mistake. Would his life be better than this if he had not ran away from home ten years ago? His legs lead him inside the room. He looks around. Has he really been living in this place all these years? How the hell has he managed to live in this store while he allows his girlfriend to use the master bedroom? Even after everything he did to satisfy her, she decided to go? To leave him now that his money's all gone? Now that she has squandered everything that is left of him? Weston smiles sadly. He opens a drawer and takes out a card from it. He caresses it, his heart beating fast against his chest.Should he do this? Should he go? His phone beeps. He checks the message. It is a reminder from the loan