I Have Lost My Humanity

That's Suicide

"Damn, how does it feel to be rich?" BJ asked Bella with a covetous look as he stared at the supplies.

"Get rich yourself, and you'll understand," Bella replied with a blank stare.

"I don't know if that was an encouragement or a diss, but I'll take it as motivation," BJ chuckled while responding.

"Your motivation should be based on survival right now," I said to BJ.

"This should last us up to two weeks at the very least," Bella's father voiced out.

"Enough time for this whole situation to die down since the military is already handling it," my mother spoke with a relieved expression.

"It should last us longer if Father wasn't such a good samaritan," Collins blurted out.

"What did you say, young man?" Bella's father's face turned dark as he grabbed the right ear of his youngest son.

"It's true, father, ouch," He winced in pain while speaking.

"Shut up!" Bella's father landed a heavy knock on Collin's head in the next instant, taking everyone by surprise.

"Please spare him. He is just a child," my mother and BJ's parents pleaded on behalf of the disrespectful Collins.

I couldn't give a fuck, if anything... I would have loved it if Collins got a slap to spice things up. He never showed me any respect since I started dating his sister anyways.

After a week passed, the contents in the pantry had reduced significantly.

We realized that it might not last up to two weeks like we expected but we still wondered why the current situation hadn't been absolved.

The CCTV showed us the multiplication of infected on the streets so it was not a good decision to step outside.

While I was thinking of what we could do to get more supplies before the current one ran out, I heard a loud voice from the living room.

"You all, you need to see this!"

It was my little sister's voice.

Worried that something might be wrong, I left the room I shared with BJ and Bella's brothers.

She was in the living room with Bella watching footage on a laptop and we all gathered around her.

On the screen was a live video of a man who had left his home to get food.

He had a wife and two kids who were relying on him. There was no way he could let them starve so he had to go out and get food.

"The authorities keep on saying we should stay at home, but how do they want us to survive?" the man asked as he looked into the camera.

"Huh?"

The app was called 'Live bird' which allowed its users to only take live videos.

I wasn't a fan of social media but BJ used it frequently when he was at work or was doing something fun. I only have a few social media accounts because of work.

Now, one 'AwesomeJoshua56' was using it to show the world that he could do something useful for his family.

"Didn't they say the military was on their way? Where is he going?" Bright asked.

His brother was quick to answer. "Won't they be fighting too?"

"Even though—"

"Will you two keep quiet?" Bella scolded with a cold tone.

The two of them immediately shut their mouths knowing how scary their big sister was.

For a few minutes, the only voice we heard was the man who was now saying that he just stepped into the street.

In the comments, people asked if he was carrying a weapon while others advised him to return home.

For the first one, he showed us an axe he held in his hand. It looked sturdy and I hoped he was going to get what he wanted in the end.

"Okay, I can hear nothing," the man said. His face was full of perspiration.

I didn't think he had even killed an infected before. I thought he was only desperate to do something.

"He looks really scared?" BJ's father stated.

"Who wouldn't be?" Emma and I knew just how scary it was coming face to face with a crowd of infected humans.

The man continued, ignoring the comments.

He slowly began to walk down the street and there was no infected around him.

I noticed some at the corner of the screen but they didn't seem to see him.

"Here's one thing I've learned watching these people and from the zombie movies I watched," the man said in a low tone and everyone perked their ears attentively.

"If you're silent, they won't notice you. Now, where I'm going is just down the street. If I'm able to get food for my family, it means that you all can also do it and we can—" He didn't finish his advice...

An infected had spotted him.

"Kiiooouuhhhyyyaahhh!"

The infected snarled as she began to run toward him.

Comments began to rush on the screen advising the man to return to his home but instead, the man began to run in the opposite direction.

"He's going to the store at the end of the street!" Collins shouted.

We could hear the large intake of breaths as the man ran towards his target.

I was earnestly hoping he got in there and sighed in relief when the man opened a glass door and then shut it behind him.

It was the only obstacle between the man and the infected. Through his camera, we were able to see the infected as they hit the door which looked strong enough to hold them out.

"I'm inside!" the man said with a laugh. "Now, I only need to get food."

From what we could see, the man hadn't been the first visitor to the shop. Some windows were broken but fortunately for the man the infected were not smart enough to jump and climb through since the windows were a bit high up.

The contents on the shelves had been carted away but there were a few items that the man began to pick up.

"Canned beans? Well, still something to eat. Oh, what do we have here? Two packs of spaghetti! Wow. I'm so glad I came here!"

He continued and I moved away from the rest. I could feel eyes on me and saw Bella staring at me.

She patted my sister's knee and then rose from her position.

I slowly raised one eyebrow before saying, "No,"

"I haven't even said anything yet," Bella chuckled lightly as she arrived before me.

"Okay, what did you wanna say," My nose wrinkled up in suspiciousness.

"I wanna go out there and get more supp--"

"No!" I cut her off before she completed her statement this time.

"Babe,"

"I fucking knew that was what you were thinking," I shook my head while thinking in my mind, 'I have a crazy girlfriend,'

Bella's siblings watched as their sis turned submissive whenever I spoke and wondered, 'How is he doing this?'

"If anything I and BJ should be the one plotting anything like this," I said to Bella as I embraced her.

She completely melted in my embrace while also embracing me back. Her sibs stared in disgust while the others had looks of envy.

'What does she even see in him?' Collins thought internally.

I always considered myself to be quite handsome so I would have murdered him if I knew of his thoughts.

"I and Emma will make plans to go out there and get food,"

Her eyes narrowed. "Go out there and get food? Can't you see the crazy number of infected out there?"

"Eh?"

"Huh?"

"Uh?"

Everyone stared at Bella wondering internally if this same scenario didn't just play out a second ago but in reversal.

"If we go out, we could get more food. Some shops are—"

"Dustin, that's suicide!" Bella hotly whispered.

I was honestly a bit surprised. Out of everyone, I thought she was going to support it since she just suggested going a while ago.

"You... you... but you just said you wanted to do that," I said while pointing at her.

"That's because I'm stronger than you," Bella retorted.

"..."

She smiled knowing she made a point after all she was more skilled in combat whereas I had never truly been in a fight.

However, I felt intellect was better than physicality so I was sure I knew better than her.

"And that's why I don't want to let you go," I said, deciding to use another approach.

"If you get hurt, who is going to protect us?"

She chuckled. "You sneaky little..." Bella voiced while rubbing my hair.

"Also, it's hypothetical since they said the military is on the way. I'm sure they will work something out. The man over there—"

"Oh, my God!" Bella's mother screamed with her hands over her mouth.

"What?" Bella yelled as we swiftly moved over to their position.

The others had looks of horror as they stared at the laptop screen.

From the sounds of screaming and snarling, I could already predict what I was going to see. The view immediately confirmed my thoughts.