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Chapter 18 : I don't understand him
Author: Untethered one
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Perspective: Thor Gild

........................................ Past .........................................................................

"I am a member of the Ascetic clan", from childhood I was taught to live in the ways of the Ascetic.

Our clan believed that the way of asceticism lied in rejecting ease and always opting for the difficult path. We lived in the mountains near Summerwe Volcano range , we distanced ourselves from comfort and convenience there. Although our aim was to develop strength, we firmly held the belief that resorting to violence should be the last option. This belief was even more strengthened by our refusal to embrace convenience, as violence is seen as an easy solution that we consciously avoided choosing.

Our way was to deny convenience and worldly desires, to offer ourselves to the guidance of Arngrim, "the god of Slaughter".

One of his teachings in our clan was to emphasize the idea of not healing wounds immediately. The belief was that on enduring p
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