"You are weak. And weakness only gives birth to regrets. All you can do to prevent that is to keep your head down. Don't look them in the eyes. Don't breathe a word in front of them. Don't let them know you exist. There is salvation in inconspicuousness. That's why you must go. There only the dead live, no names, no past, no histories. And when you are there, I'm sure you'll be able to forget..."
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My name is Seraph. And right now, I'm looking at something of a murderer, who admitted to her crime without the slightest reservation. Honestly, I don't even know why anything at all shocks me now. When I came here 2 months ago, I never expected anything to throw me off guard but every morning I open my eyes, I come to question if the world I live in isn't a dream. Oh but its real alright. If nothing else, at least this woman, sitting in her comfy chair with her legs crossed on the table, isn't something I'm even capable of dreaming up.
"Lady...", I couldn't help it, I had to ask again, "Did you just say it's the truth?"
"Sure", she smirked, focusing singularly on my bafflement.
"Oi guys!", I had to ensure everyone else present there was listening the same thing I was. Even though, they looked like they didn't yet acknowledge my presence there.
"Seraph, why do you have to be so loud in the morning?", it was Deli, clearly not a morning person even though she'd get up before everyone else.
"Well...Ms. Deli, did you hear what she did?", I pointed at the fiend sitting in her chair like a little spoiled kid.
"Yeah I heard. And so what?"
"It's alright kid. She's got reasons", this time it was Sight. He trusted Lady more than anyone. He was one of the nicest people I knew, regardless of his intimidating demeanor and fathomless height.
You don't have to remember these people. Even though they went on to become unforgettable for me despite my back breaking efforts, no one needs to remember them.
In any case, let me give you a picture of what this crisis is.
Two months ago, I arrived here for work. The process of acceptance was painful indeed, especially considering I had no idea what kind of work I was applying for. I simply wanted to get a job in the capital. My father had one connection which was never disclosed to me. In any case, it was through this connection that I got to apply for this work. All this is unimportant now that I'm here.
This is a small group of...odd people and the workplace is a church, an antique, like the ones they used to build in caves. You couldn't tell it apart from a green mound from the outside. It is quite spacious, mostly cold and dusty. The Lady's table is set in place of the altar. And whatever god that church was build for once is now gone.
Its always grey here, cloudy and grey. This is what our world is like. There are continents with inclination to magic, some places where the geniuses built their own empire of science, some parts where the free reign. There's poverty and there's war and then there's gods and angels walking the land. Oh and there's also Russia, though no one talks about that.
In any case, let me explain the current situation I find myself in. One day prior to this little squabble with these group of strange beings, the most venerable Lady was involved in the assassination of the leader of our greatest benefactors, the military. In fact, we are an underground organization of 9 people, known only by the top brass and selective members of the military. We do the dirty works in the cleanest ways and in return we get to be what we are.
But considering Mercae, our country is a stratocracy, Lady might just have pushed us all into hell. However, as you just witnessed, no one seems to care enough to ask her about it.
The truth of the matter is, General Bardock, the assassinated man who is yet to be buried, was the one that managed to pull Mercae out of war 7 years ago. The whole country was burning when he took charge and he built a magnificent castle out of that ash. Indeed, there were none who'd have anything but praises to say about him. And now, I stand before his murderer.
In his last hours, he stood on a podium on the Gran stage of the capital. All the top officials of the country attended the ceremony which was in commemoration of 7 clean years of success after the war. His speech had mesmerized all who heard him. He was, indeed, quite eloquent. And then, when the excitement was at its peak, walked in Lady. Right through the front door, with all the pride and tranquil one could muster, as if walking down a red carpet. And then she stood right in front of the Gran stage.
They say a red eyed devil came in with golden hair flowing like a horse's mane and pointed its finger like a gun at the General's head. And the time stood frozen as it moved its hand like the action of shooting a gun. And there it was, the General's head was blown open. There was barely anything recoverable.
The story ends there but I can assure you it is highly exaggerated. For one, Lady isn't red eyed, no one is. Her hair isn't quite golden, just blonde. And too wavy and shaggy to flow like a horse's mane. Though I can imagine her usual devilish smile as she killed the man. However, I know she doesn't have a gun embedded in her hand. So what I need to inquire of her is how she managed to kill him.
At first I didn't believe that it could be true.
"Lady", I approached her this morning, "Have you heard the news? What is happening?"
"What's with the concerned look? My description they have, barely matches me. Another billion centuries and they couldn't catch me", she laughed proudly, like always.
"No you don't understand. That isn't the point. The people that know about us would surely know where to look. You can't let this misunderstanding go unattended", it was sometimes hard to get through to her.
"Misunderstanding?"
"Of course! You didn't kill him, right?! Someone's faking you!"
"What's that, Seraph? When did I say I didn't kill him? Sure it was me! I killed him", she was as calm as ever.
In that moment, she looked into my eyes like a stranger. Cold and distant. Sometimes, I forget that after all, I really didn't know anything about her.
"What...are you saying? Lady, why would you...?"
"Why, huh?", she fell into an effortless thought for a second, "No reason".
"You killed him in cold blood?", I had to compose myself.
Her yes was in the form of a cheeky grin before she proceeded to become comfortable in her chair and empty worktable.
I'm a man of principal. I don't think everyone ought to live. But I don't think people should die left and right just because someone could kill them. That's just a bleak world where power rests with the wrong people. Maybe I'm able to say that because I'm weak. I wasn't born with gifts or any abilities like most people. But that doesn't mean I'm below any other human. The strong aren't the only ones that get to make rules and then break them as they wish.
"Why are you all okay with it?!", I couldn't bear any longer to stay silent, "She said she's a murderer! She admitted to it! Oi! You all heard it right?!"
I guess I wasn't the only one that flipped a switch. Well Deli, she flipped the whole table.
"What, Seraph?! You got a problem?"
The look everyone had in their eyes at that time...like the look of a hunter. If I could, I would have barged out of that place without a second to waste and never look back. I was scared, very scared. They were overwhelming, like a dark cloud hanging over me, ready to engulf me.
"Well, well", Lady did break the tension and saved me from the waterworks.
"If you want to know something then go find out. Yeah, that's right!", she had had an idea, "Seraph, this is your first assignment. You solve this murder mystery. You and you alone. You'll have 6 months. Look in every corner. Don't leave a stone unturned. But if you fail to find an answer after 6 months, I'll send you to where I sent Bardock. And you can ask him yourself what you want to know. How's that sound?"
She was surely entertained and I, well...I signed my own death certificate that day. The culprit asks me to solve a mystery that isn't really a mystery. Real irony! In any case, that was the beginning of what would be the most treacherous, memorable and longest days of my life.
I think bad people are needed to exist. I didn't know this reality before I came here and its not hard to accept that fact. Its hard to actually be the bad guy. The people that live to be that, are not praiseworthy in the least, but their burdens bend their backs and they are always looking down. Its so easy to call them bad people because you can't look them in the eyes.My search for any and all clues would prove to be futile. I went around the Gran stage and figured this much that he was sniped on Lady's signal. Beyond that there was nothing. The killer could just have been a hitman working for chump change. With Lady, you really can't tell what is what. At one point I thought of giving up but then the thought of my impending death kept me going. You never know you are madly in love with life until something threatens to take it away.That evening when I went back to the church (that's what we called it), everyone was in as light a mood as possible."Maybe its time we start taking
On our way to our destination, about which I knew next to nothing, Chopper seemed completely oblivious to the fact that I was his companion. I knew Lady had intended for me to get the ropes of our work with this mission but I began to wonder if that would be possible. Sure enough, we travelled by foot. We took some shady routes to get there and sometimes, I wasn't even sure if we were going the right way.On the seventh night of our journey, Chopper sat me down around a campfire and said it was about time he explained the gist of the whole ordeal. It appears he had finally deemed me worthy enough to do so."To the south of Mercae, is the country of Ildia, a small strip of land separating this continent from the next over. Now, we dare not leave our continent...for now anyway. As for Ildia, that country is dealing with the remnants of the history. I assume you at least know about the War of Giants?""Yes! I-""Good, 'cause if you didn't, I wouldn't have considered you real. When the th
Things went according to plan and we travelled with a caravan for the next few days. These people were gypsies and I barely ever heard them speak. They had taken to trading in the recent few years but it didn't look like they were doing very well. They told us the caravan would rest in the capital before moving onwards to the next continent. It seemed they travelled the whole world. I suppose such a journey despite bad business was still worth it. Chopper decided we'd stay in the capital until the caravan took off in three days.The capital of Ildia, unlike Mercae, wasn't the center of opportunity. There were two kinds of people that occupied the city. The rich and the oppressed. It looked like one of the smaller cities of Mercae, at least to me. Chopper wasn't surprised at all. He was accustomed to places like these. My Ildian accent was subpar but he spoke like a true native and so he did most of the talking wherever we went. We booked a room at the inn but I noticed that Chopper n
The townspeople welcomed us warmly but oddly enough, Chopper didn't seem to get cozy with their hospitality. I didn't take him to be one with a nasty attitude so I assumed he might just have a lot on his mind right now. I couldn't have been more wrong. He despised that place so much, he confined himself to the room we were allowed to stay in after two days and never went out.There was a barracks, going down towards the valley where we had headed soon as we'd arrived in town. We met a man called Col. Erele, supposedly in charge around Halen. He told us about the conflict and how bad the situation had gotten because they couldn't contact the capital due to the bandits now running amuck, causing all sorts of ruckus."I've been here 7 years now", he told us, though I found him rather young, " This isn't war anymore, it's all about their revenge. We tried negotiating but they claim this part of land is their territory. And they sure as hell don't care about the people's wishes even if the
"Looters?""Yeah, even though we're salt merchants and nothing more as you can see, in these desperate times, they don't even leave us with that much. The border means nothing to us anymore, anyone can pass through and plunder us whenever they want. Even the barracks can't stop them.", the thin merchant replied as he lugged his merchandise on to a cart, preparing to leave."So what do you want me to do, Emir-san?", I wanted to confirm my suspicions."Tag along with me as my bodyguard. This is an important shipment. If I can't deliver this, I'll die of hunger. I'll even pay you with something", I could tell he was quite desperate but what made him think I was cutout for this sort of work, I couldn't tell."Are you sure you're okay with someone like me?""Of course, you look like a reliable man. Why wouldn't I be okay? I heard from some guys who came from the barracks. That man that was with you is a merchant too, isn't he? And you are his bodyguard. But since your master isn't working,
As I stood with my sword drawn against an enemy quite clearly superior to me, I declared to myself that regardless of whatever was to come from here on, I will give it my all. Even if I was to die there and then, I would've died brilliantly.I did think that and I felt like a hero as Emir cowered behind me. But now that I think about it, it was foolish."Are you expecting to deflect my arrow with a sword?", the white haired man mocked me, "And also those of all my other companions aiming at you?"Of course, I hadn't considered any of that. I had nothing to say in reply. He noticed my uncertainty."Very well. As a respectable warrior, I will give you the chance to a fair duel. Pardon me for I have only this dagger against your sword", he put away his bow and took out a small dagger. That lifted my spirit, if only just a bit.I actually wanted to thank him but he didn't give me a chance for that. He leapt on to me like a leopard. I couldn't keep up with his speed at all. I barely manage
The following few days, I stayed in bed all day. Chopper stayed with me in our room and upon my inquiries, told me what had happened after I passed out."Nothing much. I carried you and that old fart home when things cooled down", even though he knew I was asking about Wolfe, he seemed to avoid his mention purposefully."Do you think you did the right thing?""I...I think I did. I mean, there wasn't anything else to be done, was there? Because you know...well, how should I put this?...its that he-""Seraph, did you notice that man had a single arrow on him?""...eh?""You didn't see a quiver on him, did you? You know why that is?""Why?""Because that's all they need. One arrow. They were called the Beast faction of the Ildian mercs during the war. I don't blame you if you haven't heard of them though. It was over ten years ago after all. They were the King's royal guard. When things felt most dire for Ildia, they were the ones hired to protect the monarch. They possess hyper sensitiv
I remember looking up the mountain as we traversed down the valley. I had an ominous feeling about something that I couldn't exactly explain. Chopper was way ahead of me, he didn't consider my condition to be worth worrying about. I was trying to be careful but the lack of pain which I had been thinking a blessing earlier, now only served as a numbing feeling and that was not very reassuring.It took us two hours to get down and then we waited to see the Colonel. It took surprisingly long before we got to do that. And somehow Chopper, as if foreseeing this predicament, had gone to sleep. He was woken up by the knock on the door. Col. Erele would now see us.Erele's room was vacant unlike the first time we walked in here but the amount of mugs on the table told that some people had been attending there.Soon as we walked in and the wooden door behind us clicked it's closing sound, I could see a flying Erele thrown across the room amidst a tiny storm of papers from his table. He had not