I remember looking up the mountain as we traversed down the valley. I had an ominous feeling about something that I couldn't exactly explain. Chopper was way ahead of me, he didn't consider my condition to be worth worrying about. I was trying to be careful but the lack of pain which I had been thinking a blessing earlier, now only served as a numbing feeling and that was not very reassuring.
It took us two hours to get down and then we waited to see the Colonel. It took surprisingly long before we got to do that. And somehow Chopper, as if foreseeing this predicament, had gone to sleep. He was woken up by the knock on the door. Col. Erele would now see us.
Erele's room was vacant unlike the first time we walked in here but the amount of mugs on the table told that some people had been attending there.
Soon as we walked in and the wooden door behind us clicked it's closing sound, I could see a flying Erele thrown across the room amidst a tiny storm of papers from his table. He had not yet had the time to take a breath to greet us.
"Chopper-san!", I shouted, perhaps a little too loud as he busied himself in locking the door just barely. I was expecting attention from outside, surprisingly enough, it never came.
Erele was now being dragged to a chair in his half delirious state.
"Chopper-san, what are you doing?"
"Seraph, this time you just stay and keep watching."
Something about the way he said it made me cease from all questions and interruptions.
"Well, soldier boy, I am here to offer you help. What do you say to that?"
At times like these, I really had to wonder if Chopper wasn't mentally unstable though I seldom questioned anything at such times.
"You...", Erele was concious enough to talk, "You damned bastard. So that whore really did manage to find you."
"Isn't that the truth?", Chopper grinned, "Then again, you knew she would, didn't you? You wanted someone to use as a shield wall and you knew that she would lure someone in. Too bad, you are too dumb to accomplish something like that even in the next million years."
"You are going to regret this. You've destroyed so much. If only you'd let that useless lad of yours die..."
"Oh don't give me credit for that. I wasn't the one that saved his life", Chopper looked my way briefly, "I'm here to put an end to you. If this plunges Ildia into another war, then so be it. That's what's good for it in that case. It should have happened sooner. You've enjoyed peace for far too long. That's all you get, tough luck, isn't it?"
"What would you know?!", Erele exploded, "We built this place from ash! We picked up the bones and built our homes. You've no right...no right whatsoever! You don't know about Ildia! This land is what we lost everything for. They died..."
He was under the spell of hysteria as he continued, "They all died and I...I went from one to the next and then...to the next and I...and then I tripped...I fell and I...I saw it. Down there...everyone was..."
"You fell", Chopper said, "You've been falling since then. This dream isn't over yet."
"Chopper-san", at this point I couldn't hold myself from speaking up, "what is he talking about?"
"Seraph, do you know that Halen means salt?"
What a random thing to say! I thought, and was about to speak up when I remembered.
"I can see their reason though. It's all the gold in this mountain. I can't just let these people be stripped away of their rightful fortune, can I?"
That's exactly what Erele told us. And old man Emir was a salt merchant.
"Then...but what does that prove?", I was still unsure.
"There is neither salt nor gold here. There's rocks and more rocks and more rocks...layers of rocks on top of each other. You asked me about that old merchant you went to the capital with. I left him halfway to Halen. Do you know why?"
The old merchant? Emir!
"You left him? What does that mean?!"
"Seraph, the people of Halen don't care about Ildia or the capital or anything at all. Haven't you been able to tell? They only care about their own miserable lives. They are no better than some foolish insects and that's the kind of fate that suits them anyway."
"Why...what's wrong with caring about their own lives? Don't people deserve to live?", I was a bit lost.
"The capital provides for Halen and the people smuggle arms to the enemies. Because if they weren't miserable enough, the capital would stop caring about them. And this barracks...they haven't lifted a gun in so long, they've basically forgotten how to use it. Seraph, there is nothing but deceit in this land. These people are giving the enemies access to those parts of Ildia where they couldn't reach otherwise. Who do you think prevents them? Do you think someone stands between them?"
Wolfe! That was the first thought that came to mind.
"Regardless of how pure everything looks, that old man for example, expected to get robbed or should I say, make his delivery. The one thing that stood between him was the forest bandits. If he had taken longer to get home, he couldn't make the deadline. And thus he needed someone to act as bait, buy him time to make his run. But when he turned in without the delivery, well, who knows what happened to him? And what happens afterwards, that's all you need to see."
"Wait, Chopper-san, what about Eso?"
"I managed to confirm the fact she wasn't a pure maiden. Wonder how I did it, who knows", Chopper smirked suggestively, "Maybe this guy would know, wouldn't you Colonel?"
"Go to hell!", Erele tried to spit on Seraph but it ended up falling on his belly, "You don't know what Ildia did. It's not a land of pure souls. But we just want to survive. You are just too haughty to see that."
"Oh believe me, old man. I do know what Ildia did. Now if you'll excuse me, I've got a man to look for", he shoved the picture in Erele's face, "Tell me what you know about him."
Erele tried being stubborn but perhaps realized there was nothing to be gained from that. He spoke shortly.
"Fennerick. That's him. General Fennerick. He...he's the devil", Erele took a pause, "His village is south of here. He destroyed it completely. Some say, he ate the flesh of all it's residents. One night, they just all turned to bones and nothing more. Not one of them was left. And then he...he left. He's not...he's..."
"That's enough", Chopper stepped closer, unsheathing and then pointing his strange looking blade at Erele's head, "You've done a great service, Colonel. Do you have anything to say before we part ways?"
"I just...I...tried. I want to see Halen but I can only look from afar because I couldn't protect it. My home...mother...and everyone else...and now, it's all going to..."
Chopper opened a window of Erele's room which presented a full view of the mountain path and Halen.
My eyes were open wide in shock as I looked at the spectacle.
"It's burning...", Erele's last words left his mouth.
I turned my head to look at him but all I saw was shreds of human flesh, nothing salvageable. And I also saw Chopper's blade, covered in blood and his face, beaming, his eyes glistening and a pure white descending upon him.
We saw Halen burn. The closer we got to it, the clearer the screams and sounds of collapsing got and the more they intensified, the more the hope of salvation faded away. The barracks was mostly vacant too, people who had been too afraid to go back to Halen, had finally taken the plunge to make final attempts for saving their hometown.Once again, I lagged behind Chopper, watching his strong back. Somehow his sense of justice and morality came off to me as very raw and coarse. I don't think I could perfectly agree with many of his decisions."Chopper-san", once we stood outside Halen, watching it burn, I asked, "was this the only way?""No", he looked unfazed, "but this was the fastest.""Then what you said back there...do you really not care at all?""Yeah. Selfishness isn't a sin but it is worth fighting against. There's a chance that none of this needed to happen but the collateral damage is too much to ignore. Sometimes avoiding trouble isn't an answer.""What about Eso and grandf
Chopper led the way, opening the door and entering, barely cautious. I followed him keeping my guard up at all times.There was barely anything intact inside the building. Upon entering, I noticed that the roof had caved in and we were bathing in the sun that was rather mild and cold today. Inside presented to us an image of an ancient sanctuary. It was revolutionary inside compared to the outside, in that it was filled with life. With vines covering most of the rubble and grass growing in corners and between tiles, I could tell it wasn't a natural growth yet somehow it didn't feel bad.That peace was short lived though. Soon, we found ourselves standing in front of a tall, dark haired, noble looking man. Despite his impressive gracefulness, he still appeared conniving to some degree and even in all the charm he possessed, something about his disposition was utterly disgusting. I couldn't quite tell you what it was. Perhaps the fact that he stood on an elevated place, among the rubble
I was in a daze for what seemed like a billion centuries after that. I thought my soul had been sucked away and I was making my way into the demon's belly but then I noticed I could see Chopper crashed on the ground. He had managed to push me away and prevented my soul from being devoured. Chopper was on the ground and bleeding heavily but he was still conscious, I believe, at least way more than I was.I think I tried to call out to Chopper at the best of my ability but it probably only came out as a mumble because he didn't even look my way. I noticed at some point that Azag was talking with him about something. I tried to focus my vision, sharpen my hearing, gain control of my senses, all the while looking at Chopper. If only he wasn't hurt this bad...if I had done something...no if only...if only I was stronger. I wished Chopper wasn't hurt this bad.And then I closed my eyes because I knew he wasn't gonna make it and the thought of it made me terribly sad. I felt like something u
Somehow, Chopper managed to drag me out of that place. There were ample supplies for dressing in that town. We took shelter in one of the vacant houses and treated our injuries. Chopper had lost his arm and every time I looked at it, I was in pain. He, having exhausted himself, went to sleep soon after. I foraged for some food and managed to find plenty of it. I thought it would be better if we had a nice meal before leaving and maybe even pack something for the road. It had begun to rain outside. When Chopper woke up, we had a hot meal which tasted heavenly. It is indeed true that hunger is the best spice."Are we leaving, Chopper-san?", I asked him over the meal."Yes""But what about...Azag? He's still at large. We haven't-""Lady said we have to kill Fennerick. She never spoke about Azag. So we're done.""But even so, isn't it too careless?!""I'm returning you to Lady tomorrow. Don't make me repeat myself."I truly felt like a baggage that he just wanted to get rid of.We set out
"..."He could vaguely hear some very distant noises. He had yet to gain the ability to see perfectly but he noticed a silhouette through his half delirious state of mind. He tried to sit up or take control of his senses but that was beyond help."...sen!""Corsen!", he finally distinguished someone calling that name, "Corsen! Is he awake?"The silhouette moved at the sound and approached the door as he lay in his bed, watching it. He focused his vision a bit more. The silhouette was bright red or so he imagined."Could you keep it down?", the silhouette opened the door and scolded whoever was making a ruckus of it. She said some other things which he couldn't distinguish.He struggled to lift himself up, having gained a considerable percentage of his conscious."Ah!", Corsen noticed him and moved towards him, "You're awake...Jack!"He looked at Corsen's face who was leaning down to check on him. She had the reddest hair he'd ever seen. She shone like a sun engulfing the desert on the
"Why are you sitting here? I thought you wanted to see His Majesty", Corsen hung over him before he knew it, "Though this is somewhere I expected to find you.""I didn't come along to see the King", Jack lifted his gaze from the endless garden spread before him."You're doing well so I thought it'd be nice to let the King know of your services", Corsen sat beside him on the little stone fence, "Do you miss this place?""Aren't you supposed to be in court? I thought the King summoned all his knights", Jack avoided her question."His Majesty probably just wanted to see Wolfe. He trusts him so much after all. I doubt he'd notice I sent in a proxy.""Corsen", Jack paused for a thought, "Are you happy here?"Corsen looked at him, then moved her eyes back to the endless flowerbeds."Yeah", she nodded, closing her eyes, "Now that you're here.""I don't get it", he replied, looking at his hands that felt fresh and light as they were now unbandaged, "Even if you say we were lovers, I can't rem
"Corsen", Jack called her name as they walked through the thicket with Corsen leading the way."I know", she stopped moving, putting up her guard."We need to get down", Jack slowly approached her.There were hostiles nearby. A part of them had been expecting that. Corsen and Jack had gone to the castle to deliver Wolfe's message to the Lord. The tensions rising in the country could not be ignored any longer."How many are there?", Jack whispered to her.However, before she could open her mouth, a horse jumped over the tall bushes they were hiding behind. The two looked back in shock as a white horse neighed. The master holding its reins smirked, conceitedly."What? Are you Beasts just hot air after all? Hiding like that, how pathetic!", he laughed.This young man was clad in bright steel armor and his golden hair shone brightly in the sun. Still, the look he carried in his eyes was of utter disgust."Knights of the Round Table", Corsen said as she stood up straight, facing the man."
"Answer me!"Jack wondered what was shaking him so roughly. It interrupted his dreams and he was greatly annoyed by it."Why won't you let us be at peace? I'm so tired", he was thinking.He imagined he had said it to whatever was disrupting his peaceful time but in reality, Jack was just a husk. His eyes were open and he was breathing but he was not there."Oi!", a strong blow crushed his dreamland and sent him flying.He was finally brought back and he attempted to get up, gaining sight in his eyes and awakening his mind. But the first thing that headed to his senses was pain, unbelievably excruciating pain and he was at a loss at how to let it out. He wanted to scream but voice won't come to him. He couldn't even groan, something was stuck in his throat. He found it hard to breath and his whole body felt awfully numb."Where is she?!"Jack looked back with all the strength he had left in him."Who's that?", he couldn't believe what he was seeing.Wolfe had never looked like that bef
I would like to think to myself that this isn't the end. But seeing as her story went back to where it all started, I realized that my role wasn't saving her at all. I just made sure she'd continue to exist, eternally.In eternal suffering and forgetfulness and new encounters and the last times, in every world, she'll continue to exist.As for me, I couldn't bear to live in a world knowing she was somewhere out there, helpless and torn, just as she'd been when I first found her.When did I first find her?Who can say? I had always been talking about how I wished I'd met her sooner. In fact, I had always known her. Our existences were intertwined so much that I don't think either of us could just pull away and be happy all on our own without thinking of the other.After I'd returned Lady's power to her, I floated away in an empty space for an eternity. I was foolish enough to think that the sorrow would fade away one day. But no matter how long and far I floated away, the memory and th
It was the coldest I'd felt in ages, and there was an aching heaviness in my head that I simply couldn't seem to shake off no matter how much I walked. I don't know when, how, or why I was walking through the snow towards the top of some hill I didn't even know.For that matter, I didn't remember who I was, how I'd gotten there, or where I was going.And just like that, before I knew it, I had collapsed in a den of wolves. Luckily, it looked abandoned, so I didn't get eaten off right away. I figured it'd be a long, slow death. I found the idea of such a gentle death appealing, despite the fact that I was walking mindlessly just seconds ago.I must have passed out, for when I came to, I was stiff as a rock. And yet, I wasn't that cold anymore. I lifted my head to find myself covered in a bear pelt. Someone had been so kind as to cover me up. And yet, the pelt was rather old and shoddy. Who cared as long as it could keep me warm?I stood up, looking around, getting accustomed to my surr
"I didn't imagine we'd ever come to a crossroads such as this", I let out a puff of smoke, standing opposite her."But, as a matter of fact, I always had a feeling we would", Lady answered with her signature smirk."Sure, you did", I said sarcastically.It was surprising at first. But things made sense soon enough. Lady had sent all of us away on a mission. She'd isolated herself at Valhalla. Chopper had left of his own accord. She'd sent Sight to look for him. Deli had gone to see her children. And she bid Lubbock and June farewell. She'd even given her fur coat to June. Grim was on a mission, too. And I was looking for Jean V. to deliver her letter.It was all exactly as it had been back then. When I'd return from meeting Jean V., Lady would already be beyond saving. Back then, all I knew was that the person who sent her that blank letter was the one who came to kill her. I never ventured to find out much else.It all made sense now as I stood be
"Must you leave without fulfilling my wish, Seraph?"He had some guts to ask. I looked up at the red sky. There was nothing but barren, burnt land all around us."What else could you ask for?", I looked back at him."You look so old, Seraph", he chuckled, "What exactly did you give the others?"I looked behind me without answering his question. There was no one and nothing."What? It's a long story", I answered without looking at him."We've got time to kill", he grinned."I don't", I said, but went on to answer him anyway, "I gave everyone what they wanted.""Really?"I glared at him, "Yes, really, Grim. I took a fee, of course."He laughed."And what will you take from me?", he asked, grinning.I looked around and then rested my eyes on him."There's really nothing."He seemed to agree."So how'd you manage?""Well, Grim, you could almost call it travelling back through time. Though, it really isn't that. I split the worlds to create new ones. Time doesn't exist for me anymore. Ever
"I will take death in any way and form it comes to me, anywhere and anytime."That had to be the most brazen statement I'd heard. It took me a bit to take that statement in."You really have no special requests? If I can, I'd like to make it up to you", I sat down and stared at his bloodied face.He shook his head."Make up for what?", he asked.He didn't know me yet to call me "boy" but I suppose that's the way it had to be.I had become better at rewriting the reality. I could write quite far back in certain cases. For example, in Sight's case, I made it so he never met Lady and Chopper on the night he killed the prima donna, Czarna Dalia.Before meeting them he didn't know anything about what he'd been doing. He didn't know what an outcast was, even though he himself was an outcast. Ignorance is indeed the greatest of all blisses. And I thought for Sight, it had to be the biggest saving.Lady was right. People who see things differently are the most dangerous of all. Especially tho
"This isn't what I asked for, Seraph", she complained, fixing her glasses on her tiny nose."I don't get what the hell it is that you want exactly, June", I was beginning to get tired."You don't understand at all", she folded her arms."You're damn right, I don't. What kind of crazy a-""One thing.", she looked at me sternly, "One thing I'm asking for is a place to be happy. Not a mother, not a wife, not a hero, not any of the other things you're trying to come up with.""What'll make you happy, exactly?", I folded my arms and leaned against the wall of Valhalla.Everyone else was off to fend the red sky off. June had been left behind in a protective barrier.She fell silent."How about Lady? Isn't she your favorite?""I could care less about her", she answered, bluntly, "I hate her.""Huh?", I wasn't sure I'd her heard her right."She does everything on a whim. She claims to understand everything when rea
"They are waiting for you, Monsieur Lubbock", a dark woman poked her head into the dressing room, "It's almost time for the show."The bajillion young ladies that were powdering his nose scattered away.His face was pink with heat and he wore a long fancy coat. It almost looked odd on his somewhat small figure."I'll be right there", he answered, gussying up in the mirror."Aww, you're leaving already, Monsieur?", some of the girls came up to him.He chuckled modestly."What can I say? The life of the greatest singer in the world isn't so relaxing, my dears.""You might be the greatest singer, but Monsieur is also the life of all women's hearts", one of the cheekier ones commented.Lubbock laughed. He didn't try to hide how much he loved being pampered like this."I'm sorry, girls. My audience awaits!"Saying so, he shot out of the room and hurried towards the stage. Backstage was always heated just before his shows. He was the one star that every theater wanted to have. But he was a
"Do you blame me for mother's death, father?", she asked, placing the empty cup of tea on the little side table.Her father wasn't facing her. He was still locked up in his study, reclining on his chair and looking out of the window at some distance lands.She sat straight, with her back erect. The weight of her gown was enough to tire her but she was made up, as befitting of a noble. She had to look all the more perfect since she was visiting her home for the first time since her marriage."Blame you?", the lord of the house spoke in his grave voice after a while, "I simply don't think you were worth her death. Esme was a wise woman. A level headed, understanding, noble woman."Faye looked at her lap."You refuse to carry out the will of the house of Vlad. You'll go as far as to commit a heinous crime to that end. I'm disappointed beyond measure."Faye pursed her lips. No one but she herself had been hurt the most by what she'd done."Vlad was born to you twice. And yet, you ungratef
"Tell you what, Seraph, this one time, I met a girl and she had these enormous scars all over her arms and legs. I couldn't help noticing her, of course. When she told me she did it herself, I couldn't help it. I killed her then and there", he chuckled to himself, "I didn't want to do it, of course. Something just came over me. It wasn't that she told me she did it herself. It was how she said it. She was smiling.""I'm sure she wasn't smiling because she was happy", I answered, with a solemn look on my face."I'm sure of that too. I was sure of it back then too. That's probably why I killed her. But do you know how many people I've saved?"He looked at my face. I stayed silent."I've saved more people than I've killed. I've been counting since the beginning. I know, for sure, that my atonement is over. At least, it ought to be. But does it look like I'm still repenting?", he asked, smiling vaguely, knowing my answer."You do.""That's because I am. No matter how many I save...the ato