Christian stepped closer then pulled back just enough so that Phoebe couldn’t quite touch him with her shaking hand. He could see the distance that was between them as a very large one and she was trying to contain herself from crying. A part of her wanted to call out, wanted to shake him and make him look at what they were losing, but the hatred in his stare froze her. Christian’s voice came into the silence, harsh, resentful. “It doesn’t matter how much you say you love me, Phoebe.” Because I’ve come to learn… words are useless if they are not backed up by truth.” She took a deep breath and choked down the bitter taste of his words before finding her voice. “Then give me a chance. Give us a chance, Christian. Whatever I kept from you… I was scared. I didn’t want you to look at me like this as if I was a stranger. That was the last thing I expected.” He looked at her, clearly appalled and offended. “Protecting us? By hiding who you really are? That is not protection, Phoebe that i
She gazed at him with the expression of disbelief and resentment. “Now? Now you’re concerned? How dare you after all that you have done, all the harm you have brought into my life now you want to call and make sure I am okay? Seth smiled, and approached me slightly. “I know you’re angry. You have every right to be. But I didn’t do this to hurt you, Phoebe. I thought he must be told the truth.” “The truth?” She laughed bitterly, raising her voice. Seth, you used the truth to turn him against me.” You did not respect what we had. You just wanted to tear us apart.” He turned his face to the side, and shame was written all over him. I did not expect things to get this far. I thought… maybe if he can hear all of it, he would comprehend. That it would make you both closer in some way.” The tears welled up in Phoebe’s eyes once more but she shook her head to hold them back. “You don’t get it. This wasn’t your decision to make. You stole the opportunity I could have explained it to him wh
Phoebe’s heart sank. She knew that Christian’s father was a problematic man in his life, a man who Christian despised. The man was rough and unkind, and his disposition seemed to worsen after Christian’s mother abandoned the family when he was still a child. He had never hidden his disdain for Christian and Phoebe’s love, seeing her as a nuisance, a threat to Christian’s dreams and goals. And, from the facial expression of Christian, she got the impression that something was amiss. “He’s in town unexpectedly,” Christian went on to say, “and he wants to meet… tonight.” Phoebe relaxed her hold on his hand and her thoughts were still spinning. She could feel a ball of fear rising in her throat, given that Christian’s father had never been a fan of her and his interference was sure to worsen things. She knew that he wanted to come clean with her and sort things out but he felt bounded by his father’s orders. “Christian,” she started hesitantly, attempting to hide her terror. “If he’s o
But they kept coming, and coming, and coming, and each time it only filled her with this profound, impenetrable sorrow.She could recall the nights Seth had warded off sleep just to make sure he was with her when she studied, the mornings they made their plans. She had never thought about the fact that he had believed in them, that he had included her in his life as something natural and irreversible. To him it was love that was worth more than everything else, but to her it was… a phase. Dispensable. She was aware that if Seth could only see her now, he would understand that there was a lot of humor in the situation. He would see how the roles were reversed and she, the one feeling useless and left out by a loyalty that was never extended to her. She was gradually coming to appreciate that love, actual love, was not merely an act of companionship but it was about being ready to stand up for the person you loved and make them feel secure. She had not done that for Seth and now Chri
Looking into Christian’s eyes, Phoebe stopped, and in that brief moment, it seemed to the two that everyone else ceased to exist. Christian’s relaxed face was now a picture of guilt as he felt her presence in his house. “Phoebe,” he said her name again, his tone was low, but she could feel the shakiness in his voice. The blonde next to him fidgeted, stepping slightly away from him, her gaze jumping between them. This combination of sadness and anger made Phoebe’s breath come out in short sharp gasps and her heart raced. She wanted to scream, to yell, to tell him to stop and explain how he could have destroyed her only to be here now laughing with another woman. But instead she was just standing there with her arms folded waiting for him to explain what she had just seen. He tried to speak but the words wouldn’t come out right. He turned his head to the side, then back at her, as if he wished she would comprehend something, anything, but he had no idea where to begin. “Hi Phoebe, I
Then, they went round a corner and stumbled in front of an old shop that was a favorite of Phoebe. Its shelves were full of worn out novels and the odor of paper and ink was coming from the half opened door. There was something familiar about it, something that she could come back to without the sting of the memories. “Want to go in?” Emma questioned while pointing out Phoebe’s lingering looks. Phoebe nodded her head, she was feeling a certain kind of way she couldn’t quite describe as she looked at Ben. Inside the store, she ambled around the store, hands gliding over the books’ backs. She stopped at one that she recognized from the novel which she had read when she was still in her budding stage of relationship with Seth. The memories flooded back: old Sunday mornings, coffee, laughter and dreams that used to be so bright and promising. Staring into space, she almost didn’t hear the voice behind her when it spoke. “You look like you’re looking for something,” said a voice softly
Phoebe glanced at the man standing beside her. Still, the casual confidence in the way he stood was tempered by an understanding of the kind of contemplative silence she had grown to appreciate in the last couple of weeks. They both glanced at the painting once more, each was captivated by the same painting but for a purpose only they understood. “Is it not surprising how a single image contains so many narratives?” he asked after a while. Phoebe nodded, much to her surprise, she had never felt at ease with such a man before. I believe it is so because sometimes painting tells what words cannot. It embodies the sense of anticipation, of being at the precipice of a transition in life, but you know that you can’t just stay there. He smiled, looking at her, as if suddenly, he understood something. “Exactly. It means ‘the last second before the change occurs’.” And so they both fell into a kind of stunned quiet, both of them still staring at the painting. They both got it, that look i
“I would like to thank all the people who have been with me this way. To those who have stood by me and to those who walked away thank you. Every step that has been taken is the one that has brought me to where I am today and I am thankful for all of them.” The audience clapped, and Phoebe could not help but feel both happy and proud. When the show was over she mingled with people and said hello and hugged friends and other readers who have come to listen to her. Finally she was left alone standing by the door with her eyes fixed outside looking at the cool night. Christian came towards her, he was smiling but it was slight and unsure. “Phoebe,” he said softly. ‘I was going to tell you… you look happy.’ Really happy.” She nodded as her face was filled with quiet determination. “I am, Christian. I hope you are too.” He glanced down and had a subtle note of remorse painted on his face. “I am. And I’m sorry for all the things that happened. For not being what you wanted.” Phoebe the