Sasha sat down on the armchair and the fatigue that had stuck to her all through displayed itself on her booed shoulders. The dim and steady lighting of Kingston made the outside view across the windows resist calm and was as disturbed as her mind.
She has wasted the day on walking on the tight rope and trying to be loyal to Marlin while at the same time having increasing affection towards Seth. The nature of her life was rapidly compromising her and she saw the ragged seams threatening to burst open at any given time. She took her heels off and tried to relax by closing her eyes, she needed that moment of solace so badly. But the tranquility she searched for was peace and she could not find it. The apartment she found so comforting in any other night felt so claustrophobic tonight. She received a call and this disrupted the quite moment that they had. She woke up and then turned a little and looked at the screen. It was aPhoebe was still for a moment and ended her comments with more of an assertion that brought a lingering feeling of incompleteness. Seth breathed in sharply his anger to the brim and ready to burst at any moment. He looked at her and observed the lady sitting in front of him with her hands well arranged on her lap while having a war inside her. “You can’t do this anymore?” Seth’s tone was biting as if he was amused by my weakness. “What specific thing is it that you can’t Phoebe? Living in a comfortable environment having anything that you desire at your fingertips?” Phoebe was surprised at the way he said those words, but she ensured that she kept a stiff upper lip. “That’s not what I said, Seth. I’m talking of this fake joviality where one rubs on the other only for everything to be a facade of all is well when it is not. You are not the man I married anymore. You changed” “Changed?” Seth laughed bitterly. ‘You really believe I’ve turned into a different person? Oh, you don’
After a few moments Phoebe started to compose herself. In her thoughts, she replayed all moments they had together as a couple thinking of the good and bad times they had. She glanced at Seth, and he looked furious and in pain. She realized that although he was well put together outside, inside he was as saddened as she was.“Seth,” she tried to say something but her voice is not stable. “I did not try to bring you down and make you feel inferior to everyone.I had my reckless moments that affected you; but regardless of that, I always stood for you Seth and you know that.Yes I ran away because I thought I could live a life without you but I was wrong.”Seth cut him short with a head shake, his face even more rigid than before. “You got straight back into my life because of the riches I possess now, you didn’t come back for me; you came back because I now have what you seek for.”‘Well that’s not true,” Phoebe said in defense. “I came back because I had to, Seth, I want to be with you
She was simple and pure in his otherwise messy life that seemed to be full of troubles. She was also sincere and sweet, which meant a lot to him because such was a company he was not used to. He required that more than ever before, perhaps because he is a cynical city guy who can’t take the country life anymore. Days later, he was in the bar when she appeared to be standing just outside waiting for him to arrive and her looked happy to see him.“Seth!” she said aloud and her tone was soothing, sexually provocative. She gestured to him to come closer and she smiled wasting no time in waving at him. He had no choice but to smile back and felt even some of the burden off his back.:”Hi, Emma,” he said when he got closer to her. ‘I appreciate for your meeting me as requested on this short notice.’‘Of course,’ she said although her eyes were full of concern. "Is everything okay?"Seth frowned and bitterly remarked still shaking his head in denial: ‘No not really, it has been a hectic nigh
Emma continued, “ Seth the feelings I have for you are likely beyond friendship. But I never plan to intrude into your life, let alone all that is happening to you at the moment”Seth’s chest pounds heavily, he finally opened up a small, true smile on his face. He inclined forwards and for a second the both of them breathed with their faces close. City lights were on around them and the mild light fell on their faces. “Emma.” He exclaimed with a strong face.He focused on her lips, nodding and smiling gently, ‘You are welcome, I needed to hear that so much you know’.***Phoebe approached Gloria’s apartment as tears rolled down her cheeks; her eyes were puffy, and red. Phoebe went in through the back door using the spare key she had with her.The two sisters stare at each other in silence for a moment before she slumped down on the couch and put her head in her hands. Gloria being her sister, noticed her uncomfortable state
Tears choked Gloria and she went on, “I saw how he would stare at you, Phoebe He cared for you so much and I didn’t see it beyond the color of his skin Indeed, I may have contributed to the downfall of your relationship.”Obviously, they both felt the pain in each other’s embrace Phoebe held her and was aware of how heavy it was for her. “Gloria, it’s not about what we can or cannot do in the past,But it is about learning from our mistakes and making amends to right all the wrong that has been done.”Gloria wiped her cheeks and sniffed, her crying having just started. “As I said I just wish I had realized it earlier maybe things would have not been this bad by now”They both remained quiet for a few minutes lost in their own worlds. The room was filled with their low weeping; the failure and the grief could be felt by everyone in the room.Then, Phoebe could not remain silent any longer. “Gloria, you being a woman, do you have think Seth will get
Phoebe sat on the edge of her and started her day’s narration. “I was at Elegance Couture today trying to get some clothes, Then a handsome man named Christian was checking through the clothes rack as well and was looking for a gift for his sister and then asked my opinion on the dress that he was buying.“Oh come on Gloria, do not disgust me with that look,” phoebe said to her lightly hitting her on the shoulder.“Sounds like a typical pick-up line,” Gloria cut into the conversation with a smirk on her face.Phoebe laughed. “Somehow tho, but he did listen to me and we started discussing fashion, work, life in general He is a corporate lawyer you know.”Gloria had a look of glee in her eyes. “A lawyer, huh? Fantastic. And then what happened”“We talked more about ourselves and after clearing the bill he said he’d like to take me for coffee, and we spent hours talking in this small cafe like we have known each other for years.”Gloria
Raw emotion welled up in phoebe’s cheek she stare at Seth listening to his words. “You actually expect me to thank you for letting me stay here? Isn’t this suppose to be our house? I don’t feel like I am living in your house where you can do me a favor. And Marlin? Don’t you even dare to include him on this… This is between me and you, Seth.”Seth moved a step closer to her and his eyes had yellow flames. “I am not dragging him into this. You have been engaged in defiant behaviors and eccentricities such as leaving the house vwithout informing me for days You also know how dangerous the outside world is particularly for you.”Phoebe frowned at him and folded her arms even more across her chest. “Dangerous? You are talking about the real world? The world that I have to survive as a wife to a husband who has not cared to spend time with me for the past few months? Do not try to guise your self-concern when all you have been doing for the past few days are neglecting
Phoebe, was preparing a meal in the kitchen and the place was filled with aroma of fresh vegetables, food in all sorts of preparation, and numerous kitchen gadgets cluttered the room. There was the smell of garlic and herbs sizzling; she was slicing vegetables with a graceful dexterity. Baking and cooking was always a kind of an hubby for her, a way to tune out the world and focus on a plate of delicious meals that she is making. Today, she felt that the urge to make something special for herself.The troubles that had been happening for the last couple of weeks had overstressed her emotionally. From her breaking relationship with Seth to the feeling she is beginning to nurture towards Christian. Most of the time she was in doubt each time she had to make a decision or feel something. This certainly gave her anxiety but in the kitchen she felt she always had some degree of control.Phoebe was abstracted by a pot of boiling sa