TALKING TO SHADOWS: DEAR ISRAEL

Chapter 4

Chapter 4

DEATH AT MY DOOR STEP, ALMOST

KELLY.

no matter what I did, my mouth could not open, there was no sound coming from my lips when I was literally screaming in my head,

Why couldn't I open my mouth and eyes, I tried to move my hands but as expected, they where glued to the bed, I couldn't move a single muscle of my body,

I was feeling sofforcated, even breathing was becoming difficult has I felt I was running out of oxygen,

Help!, I tried to scream but no words left my lips, if i stayed like this for a minute longer, surely I was going to meet my death,

Was this the end of me, dying just after losing my baby to go knows where, why couldn't I feel my body except my lack of oxygen, yet I could not feel any arms of a person holding me down, what exactly was holding me down?

Just when I felt I was going to die any moment due to lack of air, I heard the door to the room open and suddenly, my body was released from whatever was holding me down making me take a long deep breath

"Mrs Williams are you okay?" Hearing that question, I opened my eyes and looked at a nurse standing before me

"Am not fine, something wanted to kill me" I said in panic

"Calm down Mrs Williams, nothing like that will happen" she said with a surprised face

"Where, were is my husband?" I asked coughing a little bit

"Mr Williams informed us he was going to get you some food" she replied

"Are you okay?" Was I okay, I almost freaking died, how was I supposed to be okay after what I just experienced?

"Someone was trying to kill me!" I said in a voice louder than normal

"Mrs Williams, I understand you just lost your baby and it might be very traumatic for you but I can assure you nothing is trying to kill you" it was no longer the fact I just lost my baby but what just happened a few minutes ago, somebody or something was trying to kill me

"Please rest and the Doctor will be here to check up on you" she added standing up to leave

"Please no, don't leave me alone, its going to come back, its going to kill me" I cried, the nurse looked at me in confusion

"Nothing is going to kill you Mrs Williams, I will just call the Doctor to come and check up on you right away" when I saw the was going to leave me alone again, I panicked and tried removing the drips that where connected to my body

"Mrs Williams what are you doing!" The nurse said in alarm has she immediately rushed back stopping me in time

"You will hurt yourself" she said, I was a Doctor, I knew exactly that but how could I stay in this room knowing fully well I could lose my life due to unknown reasons

"Don't,,,, Don't leave me alone in this room, am a full grown up woman there is no reason I would tell you something is trying to kill me if its not the case, besides am a Doctor" I said trying to make her understand

"You are a Doctor?" She asked surprised

"Yes Doctor Kelly MacGregor" I said since I didn't use my husband's name much, upon hearing my name, the face of the young nurse beamed

"Doctor Kelly MacGregor, oh my Gosh, I don't believe its you and am seeing and attending to, I have heard a lot about you in the field, you are like one of my idols", well this would have been a very good compliment if I was totally in a different situation but not now, not after I almost lost my life

"Am, am glad to hear that" I said in a flat tone.

"What really happened to you, how come you are behaving strangerly and in this hospital?" She asked taking a seat at the edge of the bed which was a relief to me, she might have forgotten I had lost my baby out of excitement

"I had a miscarriage" I said

"Oh, am sorry for your loss" she said giving a faint smile

"But how come you came to this hospital for treatment, no offense and I really love that I have met you in person but your hospital is quite big and has most of the best doctors in it, why choose this hospital?" She asked, honestly I didn't even know how to respond to her

"I don't know, someone pushed me off the stairs, I woke up in this bed with my husband telling me the doctors had found me outside this hospital passed out and believe me, I have no idea how I got here" I said, I thought the young nurse who laugh at my explanation but no, she looked deep in thought for a few seconds

"And do you know who pushed you?" She asked

"I don't know who or what pushed me, everything is just so strange and just now before you entered this room, I couldn't open my eyes, move my body or open my lips to scream for help, I couldn't even breath" I explained, even to my own ears, the explanation that I was giving seemed stupid but I wasn't in the mood to make up a story even if I was only talking to a mare nurse

"Did this just recently started happening or its been happening for a long time?" For someone her age and appearance which looked to be not older than 21, she was matured

"This started happening the night I lost my baby, that was the time all this craziness started, before I woke up, I had a strange nightmare which felt soo real, I just don't know what to think of this, you are probably thinking am crazy but am not, I don't understand how I got to this hospital without my car when I had passed out at home and alone in the middle of the night, I can't even understand why I had that dream" I said honestly

"Mrs Williams, can I suggest or say something?" The young girl looked hesitant but I encouraged her with my nod.

"Maybe this isn't a physical problem you are facing, I mean I studied your report since I was assigned to observe you, it clearly states that you had a miscarriage not because you fall from the stairs as you said but because you took some wrong drugs" what!!! I took some wrong drugs, I didn't take any drugs unless I was feeling some pain which had never been the case after the early months and besides, why hadn't jimmy mentioned this when I explained to him that I was pushed?....