She was done with crying and she was now quiet. I wondered how long we would remain that way, I didn't want her to get angry and leave. Maybe if she just stayed a while, this quiet, she would forget about it. Her brown hair had dulled with age, it was now a sandy brown. “I'm leaving." She announced. Then there was a loud silence.“But I have the money."“I don't care about the money anymore."“Where would you go."“It's none of your concern."“You can't just leave."“I can."“You can't, I won't let you." I felt tense, my muscles were twitching and I was trying to my best keep myself from running towards her and holding her.“It's true what you said. It's damn true, every word of it. Let me tell you the truth, please, let me." She said taking a chair from the corner and dragging it to the side of the bed I was on. She started at me, then at the clock. I followed her eyes to the clock, it said 10:15 am. “Velvet was three when my mother had given birth to me. When I g
It felt like ages since I saw Darwin, if I could place how old it felt like, I would say fifty years. Fifty years since I read that note on my bed, fifty years since I smelt the flowers, fifty years since I last spoke to him. But it hasn't been fifty years. It's been about a week. I didn't know how else to cope without him. I felt empty. I walked to the swimming pool and I went in. It enveloped me and I like the feeling of being swept away. Maybe I would like drowning. Late evening, I went into the house and I got my red dress out. One I had thought would make Darwinson get an rejection while staring at me walk, but shamefully I would wear it without him watching. I preferred to go to a bar. Going to a bar gave a frienfly feeling, always as if someone was hosting a party all the time and you were always invited. I went to the bar and I promised myself to pretend I was happy.“Hey, what would you like the have?." The bar man asked me. I stared at him for a wh
I started to feel it... Consciousness. It was like a surge of light entering me, powering my body, it was as if I was nothing but consciousness and without comsciousness, i was nothing. I, consciousness started to fill my body, the darkness and the void had started to tear apart from me and I was now born into a new light, this light was almost blinding, but I couldn't fully control my eyelids so I had to wait a few moments before I could finally control parts of my body that felt very foreign. I felt for my fingers, I tried moving them. It became easier the more I tried, I wringled my toes, then my lips... It felt dry and chapped. I tried licking them, I tasted something, ehat was that? My body felt dry and my throat felt patched, it was like nothing I had ever felt before, the pain that enveloped me. I started to remember it all. My father shooting once, then missing, I tried to raise my gun but he was faster, how could he be so fast... He was a better shooter than
I stood there, at the door way, as if planted to the ground. The stranger had his bag on his laps and he was staring at me. He was awake and I never planned on meeting him awake. I didn't know what to do next, it would have all been easier if Noa was here to talk to the stranger.“Hi, I'm Darwin, please, can you tell me where I am." He said, his voice was deep and song-like, he sounded like Noa. I was still watching him, his skin had taken his normal whitish glow. He was healthily tanned. He had developed facial hair, it made him look rougish... All in all the stranger was good looking. What did he say his name was?. I didn't get that part right. He turned his head to his side and he stared at his bag that was now laying on his temporary bed. I watched him fidget with it before bringing out a small book. He read through it and he frowned, it was a tour guide book and he couldn't read it. Was it supposed to help im situations like this?. “Do you speak any English?." He asked
While i was walking back to the house i could see that Kai was not outside. I felt that vibe, that somone was in, maybe a visitor. But we rarely had visitors. I walked to the house and i dropped the game on the ground. From where i stood i saw Kai, he saw me to but he didn't acknowledge my presence, surely there had to be a visitor in our house. I stood in the door, Noa was talking to someone, i could see his back, he was sitting on our couch. Suddenly he turned to me and i got lost in his icy blue eyes. Not just his eyes... Not just his eyes but something else. His details, it was as if i was staring at myself in the mirror but how come i had blue eyes, but it wasn't me. It was the stranger. For a very long time nobody spoke, if i were to break the silence what would i say, for long i had been trying to see what the stranger looked like when he was awake, i saw what he looked like and my mind couldn't wrap around it.“Hi." He said and it made me smile. But he didn't
“Noa," Kai said sternly. “Keep your voice down." " Welcome home, mother. “ Kai said. " I'm sorry, i'm so sorry i left you both without an explaination and i'm sorry it took me this long to return home, it took too long to pay back my debts.“ Their mother said." Where have you been?." Kai asked. " With the medicine man. “ She answered. " Bullshit. You're fucking lying, don't think you can leave and just return with your same shitty lie and think that we'll take you back.““Noa, you've changed, you've grown so much and i understand your agressiveness, and i know it's my fault." Their mother said. " You weren't expecting a grand entrance, were you?. “ Noa said harshly. I understood him, he was a sweet boy, he was just angry right now. “Noa, I don't want to tell you to bring your voice down again, it's your mother you're talking to." Kai shouted. Now all three of them were crying. I could see that Noa was about to say something. “Why don't you both just keep quiet and we'l
“Ará, what were you doing at the bar last night?." He started like an overprotective boyfriend. “I went to have a drink." I told him. “A drink, it seemed like you had more than a drink."“It was just a drink Toby." “You were drunk, what if I wasn't there at the exact time, you didn't even know where you were going, what if someone else got you..."“I'm fine now, thank you for helping me." I said with a small smile. He hasn't really changed much. He uses to fuss over me then and he's still doing it now. “You don't have to say thank you, we both know I would always love to be of help to you.""It's been like what, six years?." I asked him." Long enough for you to forget who I was. “" Tobias, I didn't forget you, you just changed so much. “" You also changed, a good change and I could still recognize you, no matter what. “ He still had that look in his eyes, the I-want-you-badly kind of look. I was not comfortable with him staring at me like that, I looked around the roo
“It's been ages." He said smiling. He hadn't changed much, he just got older and more beautiful with age. He looked neat and poise.“I never thought I would see you." I said to him.“Like they all say, it's a small world."“How have you been?." I asked him.“I've been good. I'm still good, how about you, how have you been?."“I've been good too."“So, did you continue acting?." He asked me.“Uhm, no, no I didn't."“Why, what did you do after getting your degree?." “I got married." I told him. It wasn't at all a lie.“That's interesting, to who?." I wondered if I should tell him. I could hear my heart beat in my ears. I fell back into my chair, trying to sit more comfortably and I rubbed my hands against the hard wood table. All the other workers had gone and the cafe was a little busy. I looked around at all the people but never seeing their faces, just scanning them.“To Anderson, I got married to Anderson." I finally spat." You mean Anderson Cooper Andersons, my then roommate