I started to feel it... Consciousness. It was like a surge of light entering me, powering my body, it was as if I was nothing but consciousness and without comsciousness, i was nothing. I, consciousness started to fill my body, the darkness and the void had started to tear apart from me and I was now born into a new light, this light was almost blinding, but I couldn't fully control my eyelids so I had to wait a few moments before I could finally control parts of my body that felt very foreign. I felt for my fingers, I tried moving them. It became easier the more I tried, I wringled my toes, then my lips... It felt dry and chapped. I tried licking them, I tasted something, ehat was that? My body felt dry and my throat felt patched, it was like nothing I had ever felt before, the pain that enveloped me. I started to remember it all. My father shooting once, then missing, I tried to raise my gun but he was faster, how could he be so fast... He was a better shooter than
I stood there, at the door way, as if planted to the ground. The stranger had his bag on his laps and he was staring at me. He was awake and I never planned on meeting him awake. I didn't know what to do next, it would have all been easier if Noa was here to talk to the stranger.“Hi, I'm Darwin, please, can you tell me where I am." He said, his voice was deep and song-like, he sounded like Noa. I was still watching him, his skin had taken his normal whitish glow. He was healthily tanned. He had developed facial hair, it made him look rougish... All in all the stranger was good looking. What did he say his name was?. I didn't get that part right. He turned his head to his side and he stared at his bag that was now laying on his temporary bed. I watched him fidget with it before bringing out a small book. He read through it and he frowned, it was a tour guide book and he couldn't read it. Was it supposed to help im situations like this?. “Do you speak any English?." He asked
While i was walking back to the house i could see that Kai was not outside. I felt that vibe, that somone was in, maybe a visitor. But we rarely had visitors. I walked to the house and i dropped the game on the ground. From where i stood i saw Kai, he saw me to but he didn't acknowledge my presence, surely there had to be a visitor in our house. I stood in the door, Noa was talking to someone, i could see his back, he was sitting on our couch. Suddenly he turned to me and i got lost in his icy blue eyes. Not just his eyes... Not just his eyes but something else. His details, it was as if i was staring at myself in the mirror but how come i had blue eyes, but it wasn't me. It was the stranger. For a very long time nobody spoke, if i were to break the silence what would i say, for long i had been trying to see what the stranger looked like when he was awake, i saw what he looked like and my mind couldn't wrap around it.“Hi." He said and it made me smile. But he didn't
“Noa," Kai said sternly. “Keep your voice down." " Welcome home, mother. “ Kai said. " I'm sorry, i'm so sorry i left you both without an explaination and i'm sorry it took me this long to return home, it took too long to pay back my debts.“ Their mother said." Where have you been?." Kai asked. " With the medicine man. “ She answered. " Bullshit. You're fucking lying, don't think you can leave and just return with your same shitty lie and think that we'll take you back.““Noa, you've changed, you've grown so much and i understand your agressiveness, and i know it's my fault." Their mother said. " You weren't expecting a grand entrance, were you?. “ Noa said harshly. I understood him, he was a sweet boy, he was just angry right now. “Noa, I don't want to tell you to bring your voice down again, it's your mother you're talking to." Kai shouted. Now all three of them were crying. I could see that Noa was about to say something. “Why don't you both just keep quiet and we'l
“Ará, what were you doing at the bar last night?." He started like an overprotective boyfriend. “I went to have a drink." I told him. “A drink, it seemed like you had more than a drink."“It was just a drink Toby." “You were drunk, what if I wasn't there at the exact time, you didn't even know where you were going, what if someone else got you..."“I'm fine now, thank you for helping me." I said with a small smile. He hasn't really changed much. He uses to fuss over me then and he's still doing it now. “You don't have to say thank you, we both know I would always love to be of help to you.""It's been like what, six years?." I asked him." Long enough for you to forget who I was. “" Tobias, I didn't forget you, you just changed so much. “" You also changed, a good change and I could still recognize you, no matter what. “ He still had that look in his eyes, the I-want-you-badly kind of look. I was not comfortable with him staring at me like that, I looked around the roo
“It's been ages." He said smiling. He hadn't changed much, he just got older and more beautiful with age. He looked neat and poise.“I never thought I would see you." I said to him.“Like they all say, it's a small world."“How have you been?." I asked him.“I've been good. I'm still good, how about you, how have you been?."“I've been good too."“So, did you continue acting?." He asked me.“Uhm, no, no I didn't."“Why, what did you do after getting your degree?." “I got married." I told him. It wasn't at all a lie.“That's interesting, to who?." I wondered if I should tell him. I could hear my heart beat in my ears. I fell back into my chair, trying to sit more comfortably and I rubbed my hands against the hard wood table. All the other workers had gone and the cafe was a little busy. I looked around at all the people but never seeing their faces, just scanning them.“To Anderson, I got married to Anderson." I finally spat." You mean Anderson Cooper Andersons, my then roommate
There were just three rooms in the house. It was night time and I had started to feel sleepy. I thought about Ará, it was the first time I had thought about her since I woke up. I felt guilty for not thinking of her for long... But as I thought about it, I wondered why she wasn't the first person I thought of. “Darwinson, I think my mother has something to tell us, she hasn't said anything yet." Noa said. He was sitting across from me. I didn't even notice when he had entered the sitting room, formerly I was alone in the room. He was never scared to pass down his thoughts and I admired it about him.“I don't think there's anything to tell, Noa, the fact that we look alike is merely coincidence, questionable, but just coincidence. Nothing links me here and I'm sure your mother doesn't even know who the Fuck I am.“" I find it hard to believe that anything is merely coincidence Darwinson, formerly, Kai would stress about the topic to me and still I wouldn't believe him, but now, he
“It's actually the other way around."“What?."“The Anderson Cooper Andersons, that I knew very well, always knew when someone had a crush on him, even though a tiny crush, he would know. He was an expert in reading emotions and body languages, even if they were faint. “ I watched Asher's face, he thought about it for a long while before he said. “I thought I knew him, turns out that I didn't know him, I only thought I did." " Anderson is like that, a wolf in sheep's clothing, smart yet acts like he's naive. “" What happened after the both of you got married?. ““A lot of things happened."“Tell me, we have time."“We do, don't we?."“Yes, we do." Then I thought about it. Why would I tell him now when I could just postpone it. It would leave him no choice but to meet up with me another day, maybe there might be a chance that we would become fond of each other.“I would have told you now, but I don't feel comfortable spitting out the truth now, I'll leave it for another
It was morning. I woke up a little after dawn. I went out for a run and when I got back, everybody was already up. We were in my house in New York... All of us. My mum, my little brother, my elder brother Kai, my lovely Ará and me... All of us. “Good morning." I said to my mum.“Where's Ará?." I asked nobody in particular.“She's preparing breakfast." Kai said. I headed for the kitchen.I saw here there, handling some pots.“Good morning." I said to her walking into the kitchen.“Good morning." She said Smiling. “I woke up and I didn't see you, I figured you must have gone out for a run." " I did. “" Why don't you join me in making breakfast.“" Are you sure you don't want to have a cook or maybe just a house keeper and the house keeper can employ people to come and do some stuff. ““Remember what happened with Rosé..., Remember?." " I remember. ““ I don't want something like that to repeat itself and plus, I'm able to do these stuff on my own. We can just call peopl
It was late afternoon already.“You're my mother..." I whispered to myself, I figured that if I wanted anybody to hear me, I had to speak louder but I couldn't find my voice. “My mother's name was Bridgette, was it her you gave... Was I the baby?." I asked her..., My mother, my real mother. Looking at her I didn't know what to say, we all didn't know what to say. We all looked ashen and spooked. I wasn't the only heir after all, I was the child of a lovely affair. Something in me spurred, gave life to light. She was my mother... I felt as if I was another person entirely, I didn't feel like my name was Darwinson Charleston Andersons.... No, I didn't feel like I had a name but I felt that I had a past a, strong past and there was a strong love that brought be to the world... Not the strange type Bridgette and Anderson had, finally I could call them by their first names... I whispered it out “Bridgette Andersons and Anderson Cooper Andersons." It sounded good to my ears. Noa is
Once again I was making lunch while Kurtis spoke to Solo. To keep my mind away from what was happening, I decided to bury myself in poems, poems that nobody had heard.'I know but I don't want to believe, that there is no such thing as love, I know it's true that love dosent exist but If believing in it is being foolish, then I want to be foolish, if being foolish is being happy, then I want to be foolish it's not everytime in your life that you have to be wise, sometimes you know what happens next, so why not close your eyes and fall blindly into love even though it comes with heartbreak(s), at least you were once happy, at least you were once foolish. ''I have the mind of a ninety year old but the heart of a three year old, I love desperately and I care quietly, I miss calmly and I wait patiently, I want truly and I think fastly, I think deeply, I listen, I understand truly, I judge with reasons, I'm calm, my heart is stupid, my mind is mature, I won't compare myself to a lonely fl
I woke up the next morning to find the bed empty. I went to the sitting room. Solo was already dressed and he was drinking coffee.“Hey baby, why are you dressed so early?." I asked him." Mr Kurtis called. He's going to have a meeting with us today. He wants us to be there earlier today. “" Okay.... When will you be back?. “" In the afternoon. “" Good bye. “ I told him and he dropped his cup on the table." I love you sweetie, take care of Kai and yourself.“ He told me. I watched him leave.I went to the bathroom, I brushed my teeth and I had my bath. I was still dressing up when I heard the knock on the door. Did Solo leave anything in the house that he should have carried. I tied a towel around my chest. I went to the door, I undid the locks and then I turned the door open, standing there was Kurtis. He walked past me.“Jeez, Solo just left, what if you met him here."“I saw his car leave, I knew he just left, I was outside."“ For how long?." I asked him.“N
I woke up and made breakfast for Solo. While Solo was still asleep, the phone rang.“Hello." I said into the phone.“Hey baby." Kurtis's voice cut through the phone.“You called this early." I said above a whisper."I've been awake since dawn, I didn't know if would be so early, I'm sorry. ““You don't have to be, I was just worried that Solo might have picked the call." " How are you doing?. “ He asked me. “I just made breakfast... I'm good, how about you?."“I miss the hell out of you." He told me“I miss you too."“How about I come and pick you up today. My yacht is out in the ocean."“I don't know about today..." I started to say but he cut me off.“Solo is going to be done with his work soon, in two days time. I can't hold him here, surely he's going to get any contract, I can arrange that but I don't know how valid that plan would be, we literally don't have time on our hands, I've been thinking about it for so long and it's chewing me up. “" I thought about it too. “" I
I went home. As if Ana smelt it... As if she knew that I had done the abominable, she smiled a very fake smile.“Gael, you're back." She said to me. It wasn't Mrs Garcia or Miss Gael, it had changed to Gael, only Gael. But I felt good, I felt alive, I felt in love again almost reborn... I was born again. Gone was the old Gael and come was the new one. Not that they both of them had too many distinct features they didn't, they had too many in common, but this new me was the manifestation of the reborn Gael, the one that was formerly lost in being loyal... The one that had to quench her fire to fit in a type of lifestyle. “Yes, I'm back. “ I told her... My voice seemed foreign to me, it was much more bolder than the former, I was much more confident. “Hey Kai, how are you doing?." I asked Kai. “Momma." Kai said giggling. I took him from Ana.“Thank you Ana.“ I told her. She walked out of the door without saying anything. I was still in the bathroom having
The next day, after Solo had left for work. I took out those boxes, sat there in Kai's closet and I tore them. Toy train and cars that could moves with remotes... There were too many toys in the first box, too many that I wondered how Kai would play with them, all. Then in the other box were jewelries... How would I explain how I got them. I knew that I would have to come up with a new lie. If Solo asked who bought them, I would say that my colleague, Marietta gave them to Kai... She had a rich uncle no, I wouldn't say she had a rich uncle, I could say that she had a rich brother and she had a wealthy family too... And she loves Kai, should add that she also has a daughter or maybe I'll say she has a son. When Solo had come back, he had met me sitting in the living room with the two boxes on the table.“Jeez babe, what are those, the boxes are huge."“The boxes are huge aren't they... Let me tell you, come and have a sit. Do you remember Marrietta, my colleague, the funny lad
I heard the knock on the door. I wondered who it was. I was in the kitchen setting the things I would use to prepare dinner. I turned the locks, opened the door and I saw Kurtis standing there with two huge boxes standing beside him. When he saw me, he bent and he carried the both of the boxes and they seemed heavy. “Good afternoon." I said and he walked past me.“These boxes are heavier than they look." He said to me laughing. He dropped it on the table." I wasn't expecting you. “ I said to him." I know. “ He said walking to Kai's bedroom. " I was just in the office and I thought I'd come and surprise you and Kai. “ He said touching Kai's face." What's in the boxes?. “" Toys, mostly and the other things are just for you.“" For me?. “ " Yes, I picked them today myself. I'm sure you'd love them. “" Thank you, but what are they?. “ I asked him." You'll find out when you open the box. “ Kai was awake so they were playing together while I was cooking in the kitchen
“I'll be back soon." I told Ana. I turned the door and I walked out of the house. I went outside and I saw a different car, but it was black. And sitting behind the wheels was the same driver.“Hi." I said to him. He smiled at me. It didn't take long before we reached the beach. I climbed down from the car. The sun plastering on my body. The wind scattering my hair and my dress, kissing me everywhere. “Mr Kurtis will be waiting for you in the boat right there.“ The driver said pointing to a boat. It was the only boat that was there and it was big. Written on the body was 'Aqua-Marine'. I liked the name, very much. I walked to the deck and I turned around, the driver had started to drive away. This time there was no body to lead me. I saw Kurtis standing there when I was on the deck. He smiled at me. I turned to the ocean then to look at him.“Eyes like the heart of water." I told him. He laughed and stretched out his hand to me.“You look beautiful."“Than