“It's actually the other way around."“What?."“The Anderson Cooper Andersons, that I knew very well, always knew when someone had a crush on him, even though a tiny crush, he would know. He was an expert in reading emotions and body languages, even if they were faint. “ I watched Asher's face, he thought about it for a long while before he said. “I thought I knew him, turns out that I didn't know him, I only thought I did." " Anderson is like that, a wolf in sheep's clothing, smart yet acts like he's naive. “" What happened after the both of you got married?. ““A lot of things happened."“Tell me, we have time."“We do, don't we?."“Yes, we do." Then I thought about it. Why would I tell him now when I could just postpone it. It would leave him no choice but to meet up with me another day, maybe there might be a chance that we would become fond of each other.“I would have told you now, but I don't feel comfortable spitting out the truth now, I'll leave it for another
“What I'm going to tell you might put you off, everything. But the truth is vital in starting up a relationship." I told Asher." You want that don't you, you want us to have a relationship. “ " Shamelessly I do. We're lying naked under this cover.“" And I still want you. “" Maybe you might not want me after I tell you my story. I pray you do. “" Bridgette, tell me, we'll see where we go from here. “ He told me brushing my arm with his fingers. I stared at the thin air and I tried to hold onto the memory of what happened after I and Anderson got married. After we were declared husband and wife. " Our wedding day was...Grand like we had planned. I called a bunch of my friends from school, my aunts and uncles and cousins that I had never even seen before had attended it, the friends I had lost contact with came just to see what an Andersons wedding would be like and they were not put off, all their mouths were held open through out the celebration. Only that Anderson only had
“Mark, sweetie, do you want to touch your neice?." I asked Mark who was playing with his spoon. He had looked at me but when he saw I wasn't offering him candy, he turned away and foucs on playing on his spoons. I laughed and then Velvet reappears into the living room.“So you're saying you didn't find anything?." She asked me.“No, I didn't."“Not even a lipstick mark in his boxers."“I didn't try that, I didn't search for it." I said frantically. She smiled and she went to Mark." Come on sweetheart don't put that into your mouth. “ She was saying to him." Maybe I'm just overthinking. He comes home drunk and then what?. “" Hopefully, you're just overthinking it. “" How are you so happy living alone?. “I asked her." I'm alone, but I'm not lonely, they're too different things. “" Sometimes I just smile at your excuses. “" You mean to say explanations. “" That's not what I meant to say, I was in my right senses when I said that they're excuses.“ She turned to me and she
“I'm deeply sorry miss. I thought that we could save your daughter but we couldn't. she gave up. I'm sorry but we tried all we could to save Eloise." The doctor said. I looked at him, he was wearing a small forwn but it wasn't enough to show condolence, was it?. Apart from the frown there was no other emotion playing on his face. I looked at Anderson, I saw him cleaning his tears. I wondered why my eyes were so dry. I felt guilty for not crying. After a while I was scared that if I didn't cry now, I might not cry after, I feared that maybe until I die, I wouldn't even cry and it made me feel like a witch. But I cried that night. I was laying down on the bed staring at the ceiling and then the death of Eloise seemed to take more life from the darkness in the room and it made my heart sore and bleed. I could almost see her when she was grown up, if she had been given a chance at life... I could almost smell her soft hands when she would have been done with playing in t
I had landed safely in Hawaii. It looked more different from when I had last gone. It looked more serene and tranquil. At night I was shivering like a lamb abandoned in winter. I had wrapped myself with the blanket but still I felt cold and freezing. When morning came I had stopped feeling cold but I felt terribly ill. I didn't hesitate to go to the hospital.“Have I caught an infection?." I asked the young doctor. " I'm afraid not, you didn't catch an infection. You just caught cold. “" But I didn't do anything that would lead me to catching cold. “" Did you just deliver a baby?. “ He asked me. I looked down at my feet and then at his, before I looked at his eyes." Yes, but I had given birth to her on the seventh month, she died. “" I'm sorry. “ He told me." Thanks. “ For some reason I was put in the maternity ward. They said that they would let me go before evening, they wanted to see if I would generate a cough but I didn't before evening and they su
In the morning, the nurse had come with the baby and she had brought him for his mother to suckle him. When the nurse had left and the baby was full. I stood up and I held the baby. She didn't want to let him go but I was determined.“When your husband comes, maybe he might not come but when you get home, tell him that he had suffocated the baby. The money in the envelope is enough pay you off for everything. ““The universe wants this, this is fate, I can't stop fate.“ She said crying. I saw her peek into the envelope. She held the big fat envelope to her chest, started to cry and then turned away. I held the baby to my chest and I left the hospital filled with happiness. Whoever the universe was or wherever it was, I thanked it cheerfully. Holding a living breathing baby felt very good. Holding a living breathing baby that was yours felt very dreamy. I kissed the top of his head and he purred like a small kitten. The woman that I had employed to nurse
“Why are you leaving, where are you going?." I shouted after him. I took my clothes from the floor and I chased after him. “What's wrong?." I asked him when I met him downstairs.“It's nothing. It's just that, I think you should leave."“Why?."“I don't feel like having you around."“I told you that it would put you off but you insisted on hear it, this is exactly what I feared would happen."“That was more than putting off."“Don't push me away."“I'm sorry."“But you said you loved me."“I didn't say that."“What?."“I said I didn't say that I love you." " Then what did you say?. “" I said that we could build a relationship. “" Aren't they both the same thing?. “" No, they're not.“" Asher, don't do this to me, why would you lead me on and then let me go. “" I didn't lead you. “" You did. “" I'm not interested in you Bridgette, I never was, I'll never be. “" Asher... “" Bridgette please, just leave. “" Who have you ever loved, your whole life, have you ever loved?.
From outside the pub I could hear the music playing, I couldn't pin down the lyrics, though. I looked to the windows and I saw streak of light escaping and fading off Into the night. I walked into the pub, dancing peoole were painted blue, green and red by the light. The strong lights…. It was almost blinding and the alcohol that hung in the air made it harder to breath. I knew that I wouldn't spend much time in the pub. I skimmed through the crowd of hormone enraged people to find the pretty lady from the other night. I caught sight of her and I felt my shoulders relax, a smile spread across my cheek and I felt lighter. She was at the corner of the pub serving some drinks. I watched her walking back to the bar when she was done with serving the table and I followed her.“Hey." I said and she spun around, a smile appeared on her face when she saw it was me.“Hi sugar. “ She said placing the tray on the counter. The bartender took the empty cups and I watched him replace