Fourteen days before today. The weather was cool, too cool.I was sitting on the sun lounger but it wasn't noon, it was night and it was cold. I was watching my pool, I just sat there staring at it. I watched how the lights bounced off the water, staining everything else in it's reach. It gave everything around it a gloomy colour, it stole colour from the moon and painted my legs a kind of satin like silver. It could make a good masterpiece. At first my aim was to watch the pool, they said it relaxed the mind and reduced stress, but my mind couldn't help but think. I kept thinking of Darwinson. Then a tear escaped my eyes.I cleaned it violently. I couldn't keep crying over Darwin, I've been crying since what happened this afternoon.“He said he loved that girl." I said to myself. I looked up at his house, I could see his window, it was shut and his room was dark. Was he in that house? He's been going in and out of the house, ever since the pretty girl cam
“it would be good to find love, wouldn't it be?."“Yeah but not unreciprocated love, the kind of love that exists in both parties, that kind of love would be good."“Yeah, it would be something that I could dream of all day. I would be blessed to finally fall in love."“Have you ever been in love before?."“No, not once."“Why?."“I would say I didn't have the time to love I had focus on building a good life for my partner and I didn't want my kids to suffer what I had suffered."“That's sweet."“Thank you."“It's funny that I don't know your name and I feel that were friends already."“Yes, we're friends, tell me your name first and then I'll tell you mine." " My name's Ará. “" No last name?. “" I prefer not to use it, I prefer not to mention it at all I just go with Ará.“" You have a beautiful name. “" It's french and it's pronounced Ay-ray, it's funny cause it's only a three later word. “ I watched him laugh, he had a charming laugh, he was sweeping me off my feet already.“wha
Two months later. It's been two months since the arrest of my dad, it's been two months and a lot of things have changed. “We've found her sir." " Tell me you're joking Daniel. “ I said, hearing the desperation and surprise in my own voice. " I wish I could but I'm serious, we've found her. “ Daniel sounded more happier than me. " That's great news. “" She's going to be meeting with a certain Sir Edwards at a hotel in Los Angeles. She was hard to find but we found her, sir we did it. ““Good job Daniel, good job."“Thank you."“We missed Hensley two months ago when he came to London but I swear we'll get him, when is she meeting with the man?."" Tomorrow's evening, I'll send you all the necessary and even the unnecessary details. You can get to Los Angeles before mid afternoon tomorrow, can't you?. “" I can. “" We'll get Hensley sooner than we expect. ““I trust that would happen." When night came I went to bed feeling very happy.When I slept I had a dream; I was
“Oh I'm so foolish Darwin, I got married to a man I just met. “ As soon as the words left her mouth it came straight to my heart and pierced it. “You're married?." I asked her. She started to cry again. I held her close to me. This was all my fault. I left her and another man came and took her away from me. “Please, stop crying."“I'm sorry. I can't stop crying, Darwin I hate him so much, so I left him, I had to."“It's fine you don't have to explain." We layed still for a while, we could have layed there forever as long as we we're together. Time seemed timeless as if it were merely a foolish factor and it didn't exist. Her head was on my chest and her eyes were shut. “Darwin." She called me.“Yes?." “Did you miss me?." She asked me.“To hell, I missed you so much."“Did you think of me?."“Yes."“How much."“Too much."“Dee, tell me what's going on with you."“You called me Dee."“Yeah you don't like it?."“I do, I really do, it sounds sexy coming from your mouth.
“We can do this together, get divorced let's go anywhere together, just forget about him."“I would love to get divorced but the question is would he sign the divorce papers. I know him, he's very stubborn, too stubborn in fact."“Trust me Ará, and I'm serious when I say this but trust me, he would, if he doesn't want it the easy way, he would get it the hard way. I'm not joking about taking you back."“I'm scared of him Dee."“Don't be scared of him, I'm here now, things have changed, now that I'm here, you're safer than ever." " This feel like a dream. It would be all wrong if I wake up tomorrow morning and you're gone. “ she said. “We're going to be together, no matter what we'll be together at the end, when you wake up, I'll be here, this isn't a dream, it better not be."“I want that, I want us to be together."“It would happen, Ará, I love you.""I love you Darwin, I do, I love you more than anything in this world. I want you bady but I'm confused, what if you leave me again.
I went to bed that night thinking of Darwin. He was literally right beside me. I turned to look at him, he was fast asleep. I touched his hair, and then I ran my finger across his eye brows and I couldn't help but place a kiss on his lips. It's funny how we met, it is a strong sign that we were meant to be together and things would actually change for the better. I wore a big smile on my cheek and eventually I fell asleep. I was greeted with a dream that was scary and also frighteningly vivid, as if I was standing there and seeing everything by myself. And as much as I tried to, I couldn't wake up. I could see everybody but they couldn't see me, it was like I was reliving a memory but this time I could witness it from another perspective. The dream goes thus; Ash was angry, I could see how her skin grew red, I saw her hands shook at her side and her lips quivered. Then she ran up the stairs, I followed her. Her tiny feet made loud thomps on the wooden stairs.
As if suddenly, I realized that I could be anyone in that room, I could be anyone I chose to be, I could be my dad, my mum, I could be my little self but I chose not to be any of those, I chose to be Ash. I wanted to live through her pain, maybe I would forgive myself, maybe I would find peace. Maybe I would find relief through living her pain. Then I was Ash, my small body was laying on the ground and my head was in the direction of the door, I could see everybody. It felt weird to be Ash: it felt ugly. Sadness was all over my face, I told them that I was sorry but they didn't listen. Now I was dying. I wish I could've just stayed calm, I knew that I shouldn't have done all those bad things. I deserved to die and still I deserved to live. My lips was slightly open, I wanted to ask something, but I couldn't remember what. It was sad that I would die with my question... Tiny pieces of ceramic stood all around me, my blood was thick and it looked too dark to be cal
We were standing downstairs In the parking lot when they arrived.“They're here, baby.““I swear I don't want to go with them.““You'll be fine with them."“They look too scary."“They look professional, they're very effective, have it in mind that you'll be safe."“When are you going to be back."“Tomorrow."“Promise me you'll be back by tomorrow."“I promise you."“When you come back, promise me that you'll tell me everything."“I don't think I can do that."“Darwinson, it's me Ará, your one and only love, trust me."“Ará, I trust you, I do, but I don't want you to see that side of me."“What side."“The violent side."“Would it scare me."“Yes."" Is it enough for it to make me leave you?. “" Even if you want to leave me, Ará, I'm not leaving you. “Then she laughed. And she said. “If you don't want to tell me, it's fine, but you'll have to tell me one day, you have to open up, opening up is key, you told me that with your own mouth." " I love you. “ I told her. " I mean it. “S
It was morning. I woke up a little after dawn. I went out for a run and when I got back, everybody was already up. We were in my house in New York... All of us. My mum, my little brother, my elder brother Kai, my lovely Ará and me... All of us. “Good morning." I said to my mum.“Where's Ará?." I asked nobody in particular.“She's preparing breakfast." Kai said. I headed for the kitchen.I saw here there, handling some pots.“Good morning." I said to her walking into the kitchen.“Good morning." She said Smiling. “I woke up and I didn't see you, I figured you must have gone out for a run." " I did. “" Why don't you join me in making breakfast.“" Are you sure you don't want to have a cook or maybe just a house keeper and the house keeper can employ people to come and do some stuff. ““Remember what happened with Rosé..., Remember?." " I remember. ““ I don't want something like that to repeat itself and plus, I'm able to do these stuff on my own. We can just call peopl
It was late afternoon already.“You're my mother..." I whispered to myself, I figured that if I wanted anybody to hear me, I had to speak louder but I couldn't find my voice. “My mother's name was Bridgette, was it her you gave... Was I the baby?." I asked her..., My mother, my real mother. Looking at her I didn't know what to say, we all didn't know what to say. We all looked ashen and spooked. I wasn't the only heir after all, I was the child of a lovely affair. Something in me spurred, gave life to light. She was my mother... I felt as if I was another person entirely, I didn't feel like my name was Darwinson Charleston Andersons.... No, I didn't feel like I had a name but I felt that I had a past a, strong past and there was a strong love that brought be to the world... Not the strange type Bridgette and Anderson had, finally I could call them by their first names... I whispered it out “Bridgette Andersons and Anderson Cooper Andersons." It sounded good to my ears. Noa is
Once again I was making lunch while Kurtis spoke to Solo. To keep my mind away from what was happening, I decided to bury myself in poems, poems that nobody had heard.'I know but I don't want to believe, that there is no such thing as love, I know it's true that love dosent exist but If believing in it is being foolish, then I want to be foolish, if being foolish is being happy, then I want to be foolish it's not everytime in your life that you have to be wise, sometimes you know what happens next, so why not close your eyes and fall blindly into love even though it comes with heartbreak(s), at least you were once happy, at least you were once foolish. ''I have the mind of a ninety year old but the heart of a three year old, I love desperately and I care quietly, I miss calmly and I wait patiently, I want truly and I think fastly, I think deeply, I listen, I understand truly, I judge with reasons, I'm calm, my heart is stupid, my mind is mature, I won't compare myself to a lonely fl
I woke up the next morning to find the bed empty. I went to the sitting room. Solo was already dressed and he was drinking coffee.“Hey baby, why are you dressed so early?." I asked him." Mr Kurtis called. He's going to have a meeting with us today. He wants us to be there earlier today. “" Okay.... When will you be back?. “" In the afternoon. “" Good bye. “ I told him and he dropped his cup on the table." I love you sweetie, take care of Kai and yourself.“ He told me. I watched him leave.I went to the bathroom, I brushed my teeth and I had my bath. I was still dressing up when I heard the knock on the door. Did Solo leave anything in the house that he should have carried. I tied a towel around my chest. I went to the door, I undid the locks and then I turned the door open, standing there was Kurtis. He walked past me.“Jeez, Solo just left, what if you met him here."“I saw his car leave, I knew he just left, I was outside."“ For how long?." I asked him.“N
I woke up and made breakfast for Solo. While Solo was still asleep, the phone rang.“Hello." I said into the phone.“Hey baby." Kurtis's voice cut through the phone.“You called this early." I said above a whisper."I've been awake since dawn, I didn't know if would be so early, I'm sorry. ““You don't have to be, I was just worried that Solo might have picked the call." " How are you doing?. “ He asked me. “I just made breakfast... I'm good, how about you?."“I miss the hell out of you." He told me“I miss you too."“How about I come and pick you up today. My yacht is out in the ocean."“I don't know about today..." I started to say but he cut me off.“Solo is going to be done with his work soon, in two days time. I can't hold him here, surely he's going to get any contract, I can arrange that but I don't know how valid that plan would be, we literally don't have time on our hands, I've been thinking about it for so long and it's chewing me up. “" I thought about it too. “" I
I went home. As if Ana smelt it... As if she knew that I had done the abominable, she smiled a very fake smile.“Gael, you're back." She said to me. It wasn't Mrs Garcia or Miss Gael, it had changed to Gael, only Gael. But I felt good, I felt alive, I felt in love again almost reborn... I was born again. Gone was the old Gael and come was the new one. Not that they both of them had too many distinct features they didn't, they had too many in common, but this new me was the manifestation of the reborn Gael, the one that was formerly lost in being loyal... The one that had to quench her fire to fit in a type of lifestyle. “Yes, I'm back. “ I told her... My voice seemed foreign to me, it was much more bolder than the former, I was much more confident. “Hey Kai, how are you doing?." I asked Kai. “Momma." Kai said giggling. I took him from Ana.“Thank you Ana.“ I told her. She walked out of the door without saying anything. I was still in the bathroom having
The next day, after Solo had left for work. I took out those boxes, sat there in Kai's closet and I tore them. Toy train and cars that could moves with remotes... There were too many toys in the first box, too many that I wondered how Kai would play with them, all. Then in the other box were jewelries... How would I explain how I got them. I knew that I would have to come up with a new lie. If Solo asked who bought them, I would say that my colleague, Marietta gave them to Kai... She had a rich uncle no, I wouldn't say she had a rich uncle, I could say that she had a rich brother and she had a wealthy family too... And she loves Kai, should add that she also has a daughter or maybe I'll say she has a son. When Solo had come back, he had met me sitting in the living room with the two boxes on the table.“Jeez babe, what are those, the boxes are huge."“The boxes are huge aren't they... Let me tell you, come and have a sit. Do you remember Marrietta, my colleague, the funny lad
I heard the knock on the door. I wondered who it was. I was in the kitchen setting the things I would use to prepare dinner. I turned the locks, opened the door and I saw Kurtis standing there with two huge boxes standing beside him. When he saw me, he bent and he carried the both of the boxes and they seemed heavy. “Good afternoon." I said and he walked past me.“These boxes are heavier than they look." He said to me laughing. He dropped it on the table." I wasn't expecting you. “ I said to him." I know. “ He said walking to Kai's bedroom. " I was just in the office and I thought I'd come and surprise you and Kai. “ He said touching Kai's face." What's in the boxes?. “" Toys, mostly and the other things are just for you.“" For me?. “ " Yes, I picked them today myself. I'm sure you'd love them. “" Thank you, but what are they?. “ I asked him." You'll find out when you open the box. “ Kai was awake so they were playing together while I was cooking in the kitchen
“I'll be back soon." I told Ana. I turned the door and I walked out of the house. I went outside and I saw a different car, but it was black. And sitting behind the wheels was the same driver.“Hi." I said to him. He smiled at me. It didn't take long before we reached the beach. I climbed down from the car. The sun plastering on my body. The wind scattering my hair and my dress, kissing me everywhere. “Mr Kurtis will be waiting for you in the boat right there.“ The driver said pointing to a boat. It was the only boat that was there and it was big. Written on the body was 'Aqua-Marine'. I liked the name, very much. I walked to the deck and I turned around, the driver had started to drive away. This time there was no body to lead me. I saw Kurtis standing there when I was on the deck. He smiled at me. I turned to the ocean then to look at him.“Eyes like the heart of water." I told him. He laughed and stretched out his hand to me.“You look beautiful."“Than