We were standing downstairs In the parking lot when they arrived.“They're here, baby.““I swear I don't want to go with them.““You'll be fine with them."“They look too scary."“They look professional, they're very effective, have it in mind that you'll be safe."“When are you going to be back."“Tomorrow."“Promise me you'll be back by tomorrow."“I promise you."“When you come back, promise me that you'll tell me everything."“I don't think I can do that."“Darwinson, it's me Ará, your one and only love, trust me."“Ará, I trust you, I do, but I don't want you to see that side of me."“What side."“The violent side."“Would it scare me."“Yes."" Is it enough for it to make me leave you?. “" Even if you want to leave me, Ará, I'm not leaving you. “Then she laughed. And she said. “If you don't want to tell me, it's fine, but you'll have to tell me one day, you have to open up, opening up is key, you told me that with your own mouth." " I love you. “ I told her. " I mean it. “S
“That's the last thing I want to do, I don't want to listen to you, Mandy. You lie, you're so good at lying that you are invincible."“Darwin, I have something to tell you. It's not a lie, believe me."" What is it?."“Mark had told me something."“And what made you think I want to hear about it."“Because it's a big secret, your family secret."" My family has too many secrets Mandeline, too many. “" This one is a must to hear and you have to hear it, c'mon, stop being stubborn and just listen. “ Then she caught my attention or maybe she could just be lying, she was desperate to live, she would do anything to save her life right now.“Now I'm curious." I told her. “I know, I know you'll be curious, if you hear it, the simple information, it would change your life forever, literally."" My life has been changing too much these days... And now a cun artist is promising me that it would change forever. “" You'll be the judge. “" You know what?. “ I asked." What?. “" I don't thi
We all have our demons, are we a part of them or are they a part of us. That wasn't an important question, the important question is who is a slave to who... Most times we are being controlled by our fears and we try as much as possible to run away from them and then they tell us to face our fears and we should do it while being scared and that in a very short while, our fears would be nothing. Then it leads me to ask, what are fears if not constructs of our own mind, our own imagination. Now it brings me to ask again, who's side is the mind on, is the mind on our side or is it just acting on its own, without our help, is our mind a part of us or are we a part of our mind. It is true that we act the way we think and that's why self limiting beliefs are damnation unto men and then these words: “I think therefore I am or I act therefore I am." Has been debated for years, Rene Descartes wrote at length about it. But truly somethings are not meant to be explained and some cases
It was 11:35 and Darwin was still in bed. I was in the room with him but I wasn't on the bed, I was sitting in the chair that was set in front of the window. He had arrived very early in the morning. I had woken up to see his arms wrapped around me. Something I really really loved. I loved it so much that it drew tears from my eyes. But I couldn't help but feel insecure, what if he leaves me, what if Mandeline comes back and he fancies her again and then he feels he loves her and not me. But love doesn't work that way and Darwin doesn't tell lies. He loves me and I love him, and I have to learn to trust him, I have to bring down my walls and let him in. It wouldn't be so hard... Would it?He also has to tell me anything, he has to trust me too. Unless the both of us would be wasting our time together. Are we together? Are we a couple or a pair… what the actual fuck are we.Although I wouldn't say we were intimate with eachother, we haven't had sex with eachother in
It was night time. The weather was cool and the sky was lovely. The dark sky was lit with countless stars. It was like a gloomy painting. Darwin was driving the both of us to a bar. He had asked that we go to a restaurant on a proper date but that was going to be boring, I didn't want to bore him like I did the day I took him to my gallery. So I decided that we go to a bar. He told me that there was a place he knew, that was where we were going. The memory of the day I took him to my gallery flashed before my eyes. Truly that day I was nervous and I could hardly make words to say to him. But now, we didn't need to speak to each other. And I knew it. His hand was holding mine.“Darwin. Both hands on the wheels."“You Said?." He asked me playfully.“I know you heard me. Clearly."“Okay boss." He said and left my hand to place his hands on my thighs. He rubbed it up and down, the sensation was just too much, it was overwhelming. My breath caught in my throa
A few months before. I woke up from sleep with a neck ache. It wasn't so bad, it wasn't good either. It's been weeks since I've been waking up with a lot of things. Back ache, knee ache, head ache, tooth ache, feet ache.... Sometimes I even get torn out of sleep by muscle pull. Severe muscle pull. Honestly, I was too young and too beautiful to be having bad experiences like that. I stretched a little on my bed before I went to the bathroom to take my bath. I didn't want to go to work today. I didn't want to, I just felt too tired to get up from my bed. It was my work that was making me feel bad, I worked at a textile company. The pay was good, but, it was tiring. I had to stand long hours just to over look and supervise some certain things. But God knows I now deserved the change I had been praying and begging for.I got dressed and I took the bus to work. Last two weeks my car broke down and I just haven't had the time to fix it, I didn't even know what the pro
I got to work early. I normally leave my house early. I dropped my purse on my desk and just then my boss walks in.“We have a new item we want you to supervise." He said with his voice that sounded like that of a frog. “Okay boss." “Be there, now."“Yes boss." I watched the short fat man walk away from my door. Jesus, he was so annoying. At times, I pictured stabbing him with the tip of my pen while staring at his short neck. I see the bald spot on his head and I fear for my life, Jesus, would I start balding one day? Would my hair fall off. One time I had a dream about it, the dream was so bad it woke me from sleep. I was working in this textile company and every single day I came here, I lost a few strands of hair that didn't grow back, but I didn't even know it until all my hair was gone. My hair was gone and my beauty was gone and then I was nothing without my beauty. I bent my head right there on my desk and I said a very feverent but silent prayer. I needed ou
“The food tastes really good. God I can't help but suck it into my mouth. I feel like a whale right now, like I can just throw this whole plate into my mouth and it still won't be enough. I feel like I can eat this whole place and God what's that smell, do I smell stake? I love stake. Oh... I'm so sorry, I know I talk too much but you have to stop staring at me like that Mark, it's getting creepy. I thought you don't like to talk, you didn't tell me that you didn't like to hear either."“Lisa, you're literally chewing and talking, weren't you taught etiquette."“Don't mind my manners your highness, and it's not my fault that the food tastes so good."" The food tastes good that's why I'm paying a lot of money for it. “" Thanks for paying. “" You're welcome. “" Chew faster, I'm surprised you can maintain your shape with the way you eat. “" See you just said I had good shape. “" You think you have a good shape? You should look at women's magazine more. “" I prefer not to. That shi
It was morning. I woke up a little after dawn. I went out for a run and when I got back, everybody was already up. We were in my house in New York... All of us. My mum, my little brother, my elder brother Kai, my lovely Ará and me... All of us. “Good morning." I said to my mum.“Where's Ará?." I asked nobody in particular.“She's preparing breakfast." Kai said. I headed for the kitchen.I saw here there, handling some pots.“Good morning." I said to her walking into the kitchen.“Good morning." She said Smiling. “I woke up and I didn't see you, I figured you must have gone out for a run." " I did. “" Why don't you join me in making breakfast.“" Are you sure you don't want to have a cook or maybe just a house keeper and the house keeper can employ people to come and do some stuff. ““Remember what happened with Rosé..., Remember?." " I remember. ““ I don't want something like that to repeat itself and plus, I'm able to do these stuff on my own. We can just call peopl
It was late afternoon already.“You're my mother..." I whispered to myself, I figured that if I wanted anybody to hear me, I had to speak louder but I couldn't find my voice. “My mother's name was Bridgette, was it her you gave... Was I the baby?." I asked her..., My mother, my real mother. Looking at her I didn't know what to say, we all didn't know what to say. We all looked ashen and spooked. I wasn't the only heir after all, I was the child of a lovely affair. Something in me spurred, gave life to light. She was my mother... I felt as if I was another person entirely, I didn't feel like my name was Darwinson Charleston Andersons.... No, I didn't feel like I had a name but I felt that I had a past a, strong past and there was a strong love that brought be to the world... Not the strange type Bridgette and Anderson had, finally I could call them by their first names... I whispered it out “Bridgette Andersons and Anderson Cooper Andersons." It sounded good to my ears. Noa is
Once again I was making lunch while Kurtis spoke to Solo. To keep my mind away from what was happening, I decided to bury myself in poems, poems that nobody had heard.'I know but I don't want to believe, that there is no such thing as love, I know it's true that love dosent exist but If believing in it is being foolish, then I want to be foolish, if being foolish is being happy, then I want to be foolish it's not everytime in your life that you have to be wise, sometimes you know what happens next, so why not close your eyes and fall blindly into love even though it comes with heartbreak(s), at least you were once happy, at least you were once foolish. ''I have the mind of a ninety year old but the heart of a three year old, I love desperately and I care quietly, I miss calmly and I wait patiently, I want truly and I think fastly, I think deeply, I listen, I understand truly, I judge with reasons, I'm calm, my heart is stupid, my mind is mature, I won't compare myself to a lonely fl
I woke up the next morning to find the bed empty. I went to the sitting room. Solo was already dressed and he was drinking coffee.“Hey baby, why are you dressed so early?." I asked him." Mr Kurtis called. He's going to have a meeting with us today. He wants us to be there earlier today. “" Okay.... When will you be back?. “" In the afternoon. “" Good bye. “ I told him and he dropped his cup on the table." I love you sweetie, take care of Kai and yourself.“ He told me. I watched him leave.I went to the bathroom, I brushed my teeth and I had my bath. I was still dressing up when I heard the knock on the door. Did Solo leave anything in the house that he should have carried. I tied a towel around my chest. I went to the door, I undid the locks and then I turned the door open, standing there was Kurtis. He walked past me.“Jeez, Solo just left, what if you met him here."“I saw his car leave, I knew he just left, I was outside."“ For how long?." I asked him.“N
I woke up and made breakfast for Solo. While Solo was still asleep, the phone rang.“Hello." I said into the phone.“Hey baby." Kurtis's voice cut through the phone.“You called this early." I said above a whisper."I've been awake since dawn, I didn't know if would be so early, I'm sorry. ““You don't have to be, I was just worried that Solo might have picked the call." " How are you doing?. “ He asked me. “I just made breakfast... I'm good, how about you?."“I miss the hell out of you." He told me“I miss you too."“How about I come and pick you up today. My yacht is out in the ocean."“I don't know about today..." I started to say but he cut me off.“Solo is going to be done with his work soon, in two days time. I can't hold him here, surely he's going to get any contract, I can arrange that but I don't know how valid that plan would be, we literally don't have time on our hands, I've been thinking about it for so long and it's chewing me up. “" I thought about it too. “" I
I went home. As if Ana smelt it... As if she knew that I had done the abominable, she smiled a very fake smile.“Gael, you're back." She said to me. It wasn't Mrs Garcia or Miss Gael, it had changed to Gael, only Gael. But I felt good, I felt alive, I felt in love again almost reborn... I was born again. Gone was the old Gael and come was the new one. Not that they both of them had too many distinct features they didn't, they had too many in common, but this new me was the manifestation of the reborn Gael, the one that was formerly lost in being loyal... The one that had to quench her fire to fit in a type of lifestyle. “Yes, I'm back. “ I told her... My voice seemed foreign to me, it was much more bolder than the former, I was much more confident. “Hey Kai, how are you doing?." I asked Kai. “Momma." Kai said giggling. I took him from Ana.“Thank you Ana.“ I told her. She walked out of the door without saying anything. I was still in the bathroom having
The next day, after Solo had left for work. I took out those boxes, sat there in Kai's closet and I tore them. Toy train and cars that could moves with remotes... There were too many toys in the first box, too many that I wondered how Kai would play with them, all. Then in the other box were jewelries... How would I explain how I got them. I knew that I would have to come up with a new lie. If Solo asked who bought them, I would say that my colleague, Marietta gave them to Kai... She had a rich uncle no, I wouldn't say she had a rich uncle, I could say that she had a rich brother and she had a wealthy family too... And she loves Kai, should add that she also has a daughter or maybe I'll say she has a son. When Solo had come back, he had met me sitting in the living room with the two boxes on the table.“Jeez babe, what are those, the boxes are huge."“The boxes are huge aren't they... Let me tell you, come and have a sit. Do you remember Marrietta, my colleague, the funny lad
I heard the knock on the door. I wondered who it was. I was in the kitchen setting the things I would use to prepare dinner. I turned the locks, opened the door and I saw Kurtis standing there with two huge boxes standing beside him. When he saw me, he bent and he carried the both of the boxes and they seemed heavy. “Good afternoon." I said and he walked past me.“These boxes are heavier than they look." He said to me laughing. He dropped it on the table." I wasn't expecting you. “ I said to him." I know. “ He said walking to Kai's bedroom. " I was just in the office and I thought I'd come and surprise you and Kai. “ He said touching Kai's face." What's in the boxes?. “" Toys, mostly and the other things are just for you.“" For me?. “ " Yes, I picked them today myself. I'm sure you'd love them. “" Thank you, but what are they?. “ I asked him." You'll find out when you open the box. “ Kai was awake so they were playing together while I was cooking in the kitchen
“I'll be back soon." I told Ana. I turned the door and I walked out of the house. I went outside and I saw a different car, but it was black. And sitting behind the wheels was the same driver.“Hi." I said to him. He smiled at me. It didn't take long before we reached the beach. I climbed down from the car. The sun plastering on my body. The wind scattering my hair and my dress, kissing me everywhere. “Mr Kurtis will be waiting for you in the boat right there.“ The driver said pointing to a boat. It was the only boat that was there and it was big. Written on the body was 'Aqua-Marine'. I liked the name, very much. I walked to the deck and I turned around, the driver had started to drive away. This time there was no body to lead me. I saw Kurtis standing there when I was on the deck. He smiled at me. I turned to the ocean then to look at him.“Eyes like the heart of water." I told him. He laughed and stretched out his hand to me.“You look beautiful."“Than