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“I honestly don’t know what to say to that.”Mai’s response did nothing to make things any better. After a week of watching Keli pick up Evanne and an empty weekend with nothing to do but grade papers and clean, I’d hoped things would get better. Yesterday hadn’t been any little bit better.Today had been downright awful.“I mean, I thought you’d had an awful week, but today…” She shook her head. “I couldn’t imagine it. Probably why it’s a good thing I’m not a teacher.”I rolled my eyes. “Yes, Mai. It’s a good thing you’re not a teacher.”“How did you handle it? I mean, any kid being upset over a bad grade would be hard, but the kid whose dad you dated?”I winced as I remembered the way Evanne’s face had crumpled when she’d seen the red marks on her homework. It hadn’t been an actual grade, but I’d marked what was wrong so that the kids could follow along while I showed the correct work and answRelated Chapters
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ALECHow did things get so out of control so fast?I had to admit that coming here had been a mistake, but when Keli had told me that Evanne had seemed upset when she’d come home from school, and then I’d found her crying, her homework crumpled up in her hand…I snapped. My little girl had been hurting, and I’d needed to make it right.Now, I saw that the way I had done things had been wrong, but I had no way of stopping what I had put into motion.“I’ll leave,” I said, “but I’m going to speak to Principal McKenna about this. Evanne is smart, and there’s no reason she should have done so poorly on a piece of homework.”Lumen’s eyes flashed. “I always give my students the chance to ask questions, and if Evanne doesn’t understand something, she asks. I can’t read minds.”“Then how do you explain the mistakes?”“I wasn’t there when she did the work,” Lumen reminded me. “I encourage my students to ask for
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LUMENI had to admit, out of all the possible things I could haveimagined Alec saying, this wasn’t even close to being on my radar. As soon as he said it, however, so many things made a lot more sense, not the least of which were Evanne’s homework issue and Alec’s irritation at going to a new restaurant for dinner.“I struggled in primary school,” he continued, the internal struggle he still felt coming out in his voice. “But I hid it well enough that I was nearly seven before Ma realized what was wrong. She helped me until she passed, and that year, the teachers felt for me enough they were laxer than they would have been otherwise.”He’d been Evanne’s age when his mother died, I realized suddenly. I couldn’t imagine having a student in my class who not only lost his mother but had five younger siblings to help out with as well.“When we moved to San Ramon, Da enrolled us in a good private school, one tha
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ALECI couldn’t believe how close I’d come to losing this, to losingher. The thought made me tighten my grip on her, made my exploration of her mouth rougher, needier. After a week without her, my body ached for hers with a desperation I’d never known with another woman. I wouldn’t push her into anything, but if she was willing…“I need you, lass.” I broke from the kiss only long enough to say the words, and then my lips were back on hers. When I felt her stretching to reach me, I lifted her, and she wrapped her legs around me.“Yes,” she breathed against my mouth. Her teeth scraped my bottom lip. “Bedroom.”The rush of relief that went through me was almost as strong as my desire. I kicked off my shoes and somehow managed to shrug out of my jacket before heading for the short hallway that led to Lumen’s bedroom. She squirmed in my arms, her hands moving across my shoulders, my back, up my neck. Fingers in
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LUMEN“Fuck! I have to go!”That certainly wasn’t the reaction I’d expected after mind-blowing sex less than ten minutes ago. I tried not to be hurt as I grabbed my blanket to cover myself.Then, suddenly, Alec was there, crouching by the edge of the bed, stark naked but completely unselfconscious about it. He put his hands over mine, his expression serious.“Believe me, lass, the last thing I want is to leave you alone in that bed, but I’m already enough of a shite father for thinking with my cock instead of remembering my little girl’s at home, upset.”Understanding hit me, and I immediately shook my head. “You’re a great father, Alec. You made a mistake based on something that’s been hurting you for a long time, and you weren’t in any condition to explain things to her. You needed…time.”He didn’t look like he believed me, but I’d noticed that he was one of those people who tended to be harder on himself th
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Alec: I shared my deepest secret with Lumen, hoping things will be better between us. But I can’t catch a break. My life blows up again when my daughter goes missing.Lumen: To say all hell broke loose is an understatement. When Alec’s daughter went missing, so did Soleil, the girl I mentor in foster care. It stung when Alec said finding his daughter is more important than some random runaway. But that’s just one more person telling me I don’t matter.With people they love in danger, Lumen and Alec must decide where their loyalties lie and hope for a future together.ALECWHEN I’D WOKEN THIS MORNING, I’D FELT LIKE EVERYTHING HADchanged. Some of it made me uneasy, but in other ways, it was as if a weight had been lifted.I had told Evanne last night about my dyslexia and explained that the mistakes on her homework had been my fault. It seemed that Lumen had been right when she said that a good portion of the reason Evanne had been upset had been because she hadn’t und
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LUMENI HATED LEAVING LIKE THAT, BUT I’D MEANT WHAT I SAID. SOLEILdidn’t have anyone else to make her the priority. Me not going with Alec didn’t mean I wasn’t worried about Evanne or that I didn’t feel sick over how upset Alec was. I wanted him to find her. It was just that we both knew Keli wouldn’t hurt their child, and there were so many people who could – and would – hurt Soleil.Last week, Soleil had gotten caught stealing a pregnancy test, and she’d had security call me. After I’d picked her up, and she told me what she’d taken, I’d bought a test for her myself and waited while she took it. Fortunately, it had been negative. Right then, I’d made a promise to myself to find out who’d she’d been sleeping with, but I hadn’t been able to get it out of her yet.What if the guy was, as I’d feared, an adult? Could he have convinced her to run away with him? I knew all too well how many kids in the foster system were tra
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ALEC“ANSWER THE FUCKING PHONE!” I HUNG UP BEFORE I SHOUTED THEwords, having enough presence of mind to want to keep Evanne from possibly hearing me yell.It had been two hours since I’d gotten Keli’s text, and I’d been waiting at the house the entire time, continuing to call and text but getting no response.In all honesty, I had expected her to show up at some point, perhaps making me wait a while simply to see me squirm. Perhaps she intended to use this as a way to ‘convince’ me to rethink my decisions regarding custody of Evanne and my relationship with Lumen.If that was her goal, she would be sorely disappointed. If anything, this proved that I could no longer trust Keli to do what was best for our child. For some reason, the rational woman who had cared so well for our daughter the first eight years of her life was gone. I suspected it was a combination of Alessandro having broken things off with Keli and
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LUMENI WOULD’VE ASKED MYSELF IF TODAY COULD GO ANY WORSE, BUT I WASscared of how the universe might respond.Soleil was still missing, and I’d been out until well past midnight looking for her. I would have stayed later if I’d had anywhere else to look or if I’d gotten another lead, but I’d exhausted more than just myself. Not only had Soleil not been at any of the places I’d looked, but no one there had seen her. I hadn’t even gotten the slightest hint that anyone was lying.I showered after I’d gotten home, hoping that it’d be enough to relax me into the right frame of mind to sleep, but I’d still laid awake for most of the rest of the night, which meant when my alarm went off, I’d been just as tired as I had been when I’d gotten into bed.Things just continued downhill from there.I’d spilled coffee on my skirt and had to change, but my only clean skirt didn’t match my blouse. By the time I finished changing, I
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EOINI’D JUST BEEN READY TO CALL ALINE WHEN A TEXT CAME THROUGHthat she was coming back and we needed to talk. I went back and forth between anxiety and relief while I waited for her. We couldn’t keep doing this.Our lives were linked, and we didn’t have the luxury of waiting until we had our shit figured out before deciding to start a family. The baby was on the way, and no matter what she and I disagreed about, I had no doubt that we were on the same page when it came to being the best parents we could be. To do that, we needed to work this out sooner rather than later.Since I didn’t know if Aline had her key, I unlocked the door and then spent the next fifteen minutes or so pacing from one end of the living room to the other and back again.When she came in, I wanted to just blurt out an apology and explanation, but I also didn’t want to come on too strong. How the fuck did people do this? How did they know what to say or how to say it? I didn’t know the ans
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EOINTHE MOMENT THE WORDS CAME OUT OF ALINE’S MOUTH, I COULD SEEthat she wanted to take them back. Not because she regretted accepting my proposal or didn’t want to live with me, but because blurting it out like that had been like dropping a bomb.Now, we were just waiting for it to explode. I could read it on their faces. I read it on her face too. She realized the impact of what she’d done.And then Freedom turned on me, her expression furious.“What the hell did you do?!” She pointed at me, her clear blue eyes flashing. “How dare you take advantage of her when she was upset! Out on her own for the first time and vulner–”“We’re engaged,” Aline cut her off, clearly deciding to get it all out now that things were in motion for a confrontation. “And I’m pregnant.”Freedom’s jaw dropped, and her face went white. Aline’s jaw tightened. “So, back off.”“What?”The word came out as a whisper, confirming for me that Aline had never spoken to Freedom that way before.“Eoin is m
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EOINIF I DIDN’T QUIT SNEAKING LOOKS AT ALINE, SHE WAS GOING TO CATCHme and want to know what the hell I was doing. Then I’d be put in the very awkward position of either lying to her and her figuring it out or telling the truth and pissing her off. Neither scenario ended well for me.She’d agreed to tell my parents about our engagement and the baby, and I was going with her tomorrow to spend Christmas Day with her family. Both of those were things that I wanted, but I kept feeling like some other shoe was going to drop and ruin it. That she’d suddenly recognize the fact that she could do so much better than me and decide that, while she might want the baby, she didn’t want me along with it. Or she’d think about how pissed Freedom was going to be when she saw me and realize I wasn’t worth the headache.Death wasn’t the only thing that could take someone away.So, I kept watching her, paying close attention to every expression, to every shift in body language.I’d been worried at Marti
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EOINTHE SCENT OF PEACHES WOKE ME UP, AND IT TOOK A MOMENT FOR MEto remember why my bed smelled like fruit. Aline. My eyes opened, my need to reassure myself that she really was here greater than me wanting to sleep a little longer. Once I saw her, I couldn’t look away.We were both on our sides, her back to my front. Her body was curled up, making her look even smaller than she was, and a surge of protectiveness went through me. I slid my hand from her hip to her stomach, wondering when I’d be able to feel the changes to her body, when the baby would start to move, how big it was right now.Was it a boy or girl? Would Aline want to know before or have it be a surprise? When would we be able to tell?I had a lot of research to do, I realized. I wanted to do this right, and that meant not leaving everything up to Aline. Some of the questions colliding together in my brain were the kind that she and I could talk about. I could find the answers for all the others myself. S
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EOINI PUT MY PHONE DOWN ON THE COUNTER AND GOT A BEER FROM THEfridge. If I wasn’t driving anywhere tonight, I didn’t need to worry about how much I drank. If I couldn’t be with Aline, taking care of her, getting a little drunk sounded like a good idea. Not so much that I’d be hung over tomorrow, but enough to take the edge off.It was a hell of an edge. Pregnant.I was going to be a father.Maybe. Aline could decide to terminate the pregnancy, but after how her parents had struggled to have kids, I didn’t think that was going to be the route she took. If she did, I’d be there with her, but even as shell-shocked as I was right now, I was hoping she’d have the baby.My baby. Fuck.I needed to sit down, but the few chairs I had were covered with shit from my storage unit. The floor would have to do. I leaned back against my refrigerator and took a long drink.I’d never really thought about being a father. My parents never pressured any of us kids about giving them
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EOINI DIDN’T UNDERSTAND WHY ALINE WOULD – AGAIN – THINK I DIDN’Twant her. I knew her family was really overprotective of her, but I couldn’t imagine that translating into any type of emotional abuse. She was a certified genius and one of the most selfless people I’d ever met. And she was gorgeous. The fact that she’d been a virgin – barely even kissed if Freedom had been right about that too – confused the shit out of me because she had to have had guys all over her.Just the thought of any other man near her made my arms tighten around her. I still had my hand in her pants, could hear her ragged breathing slow and even out…and I was jealous of men I didn’t even know, men who might not even exist.Men I didn’t want to exist.I wanted to be it for her. The only man who’d ever know what she looked like when she came.Shit.The thought should have terrified me, but it didn’t. Even though I was painfully hard, I was content to stand here, holding her, rubbing her back with my free hand.
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ALINEEOIN’S PLACE WAS GORGEOUS. AND HUGE. NOT AT ALL WHAT I’D BEENexpecting, even after he’d told me that he’d leased a condo rather than an apartment. I’d already known that he’d come from a wealthy family, so it wasn’t the cost of a place like this that surprised me. It was more that this didn’t seem like the sort of place that a single, not-quite-thirty, former military man would live. This was more of a…family home.A beautiful one, but I was starting to feel like seeing all of it, being here with him while such a large question was looming over us, was untethering me from reality. I had experienced this strange disconnect only a few times in my life, most of them recently.“Hey.” His hands were on either side of my face, his skin hot against my cheeks. “It’s okay.”I looked up at him, and then his mouth was on mine, firm pressure without being aggressive, and the contact sent a wave of warmth washing over me, pushing away thoughts of anything else.This man could distract
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EOINMY BROTHER, ROME, HAD OUTDONE HIMSELF WITH THIS CONDO, ANDI’d made a point of telling him that when he’d met me there before I’d gone to pick up Aline this morning. I hadn’t, however, told him about what was going on.I wanted her to meet my family. I knew that by now, but I didn’t want it to happen with a question mark over our heads. So, until we got those test results, only Alec knew that this was a possibility. No matter what happened, though, I wanted her to see my new place because, at some point, I planned for it to be our place.Some of my tension had left when Aline had told me that she was okay and that the IUD debacle hadn’t been my fault, but it’d been such a small bit that as we moved into Playa Vista, my stomach was one giant knot of nerves. Most of it was because we still didn’t know for certain whether or not she was pregnant, but there was still a part of it that had to do with how she felt about my new home. I wanted her to love it.I took her hand as we w
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ALINEI DIDN’T KNOW IF I’D THROWN UP FIFTEEN MINUTES AGO BECAUSE Ihad morning sickness or if it’d been nerves, but either way, it hadn’t been pleasant. I’d been able to force down some crackers, and they’d helped with my upset stomach, but I knew I wouldn’t be able to completely quell my anxiety until I had the results of the blood test. Even if I was pregnant, the waiting was far worse than either answer would be.Eoin seemed to share my sentiments as he arrived nearly twenty minutes early, and apart from the drive, hadn’t been able to sit still. Even in the car, he’d been moving, tapping his fingers on the steering wheel or on his leg, flipping through radio stations, that sort of thing.The latter would have annoyed me normally, but nothing about this situation was normal. And if I were to be entirely honest, I didn’t mind the radio being on because neither of us had said more than a few words, and I preferred the background noise that prevented a total awkward silence betw