Eron, the last Collector, covered his ears as the earth heaved and shook as if in great agony. This explosion was too loud, even with the wards set on his ears. His wards explicitly filtered out loud sounds like explosions. He was an expert at sound-based blending. Of course, even wards couldn’t handle everything. Tapping and blending weren’t all-powerful art.
The war this time was one of the worst. No one had seen it’s like for thousands of years. And the explosions that not even his wards could handle seemed to reflect the ferocity of this war. Of course, no one had fought against the dragons in known history. They were like gods to men, and in some ways, they were. But soon he would be the one to become a god.He crept forward, trying to be as inconspicuous as possible towards the frontline where the battle was most ferocious, and as he did so–he collected as much Drogen as he could, filling himself to the brim. With the amount of power he was holding right now, he could sunder a mountain with the flick of his wrist.Eron expanded his spiritual sense, fused with the sensory zone, using the power within him that twisted and turned—a tempest that beckoned him to act. A sensory zone gave him a perfect awareness of his surroundings. He could see and feel everything happening within its range. He was too close to the frontline for his comfort. Anything could hurtle towards him, and he wasn’t a god yet.Eron felt something behind him. He spun on his heels and saw a man that seemed to be carved out of wood and vines and leaves. It had emeralds for its eyes and ferns for its hair. Vines erupted and undulated around the thing, ready to attack him.‘A Vineling,’ Eron thought, twisting his mouth in disgust. It was one of the beings on the planet he hated the most. He waved his hand, creating a sonic–boom that no ears could hear, shattering the Vineling as if it was glass. He did not give the thing a second glance and walked onward to his destination. Eron did not want to waste his time on such a frivolous thing. He had more important things to do today.A few minutes passed by as he walked onward. He had already killed three Vinelings and seven Stonecreepers. ‘Why did they have to get in my way? Today of all days,’ Eron thought, a bit annoyed. Treacherous things, Stonecreepers were. Hard to detect, they could blend into the stones. But to his sensory zone, they were just sitting ducks. He spotted another and waved his hand at it, sending it to the Kingdom Come.With something like a snarl, he continued on his way. Every obstacle he faced was like an annoying itch he had to scratch.As he walked further and further, the amount of Drogen shooting into the air was getting thicker by the minute. Previously, the drogen in the environment was just a thin, dying mist. Now, however, it was like a bellowing cloud roiling around him. Of course, the energy didn’t obstruct his vision. He could see both the energy and his surroundings.He walked forward, collecting all that power into him. That was why his kind was called the collectors—and he was the last of his kind. A dweller could tap into the Well of Drogen, and filter and blend a very limited amount of the energies within to create spells. A collector, however, couldn’t tap into the well. They had to collect the residue of spells and use it as the source of their spells. A collector could collect Drogen into themselves almost perpetually—there was a limit to it—and release all that power at once, making them very dangerous. Fearing the powers of a collector, the five Empires had come together to cull the mankind of all the collectors in the world. And he would see their fear come to life today.As he got closer, the earth shook constantly. And the sound was almost unbearable. He increased the power within his wards to filter out the sounds.A bolder the size of a mountain top came flying towards him at an incredible speed. There was no time to dodge, so he stood his ground. Tapping into the power within him, he blended fire law and wind law just to create something similar to the sonic blast. He added a touch of earth into it to empower the spell. He punched the incoming boulder whilst releasing the spell. The boulder exploded into a dust cloud. He waved the dust cloud away with the simple wind.Now that he was close to the Dragons’ Valley, he could see everything that was happening. Well, not exactly. He was still too far away. However, he used a spell that could enhance his eyes to see everything. Eron saw that the amount of Drogen in the environment had increased again. Now it was like a thick jelly. Giggling like a fool, he collected them all. He watched the war unfold. More than a million Dwellers and other species, all clad in various coloured armour, commanded by the five emperors, were showering nasty spells at creatures of various shapes and sizes, The Dragons’ army—there were only a thousand of them. After more than an hour of booms and bangs, the dragons’ army was dead aside from the dragons themselves.But just the thousands of those creatures had taken out thousands upon thousands of their enemies. It was incredible. But the human army didn’t relent. They attacked the dragons with renewed vigour. Lightning stabbed at the six dragons from the clear sky. Showering spells shattered the land beneath the dragons with a deafening explosion strong enough to level more than a mountain.Fire Dragon Ember—with its gold and red scales, with spikes like a burning flame running along its back, roared, drowning the Dwellers in a sea of gold and blue flames. The land was reduced to molten lava. Of the dwellers drowned in flames, no sign remained.Wind Dragon Zephyr—white like the moon soared into the sky, bringing whirlwinds in its wake, shredding thousands of its enemies apart.Earth Dragon Aaron—stumped hard on the earth, and it rang like a huge gong. Spikes erupted from beneath the thousands of Dwellers, impelling them to their deaths.Water Dragon Tasi, blue like the ocean—followed by Ember and Zephyr, soared high into the sky, circling each other. They roared together. It almost sounded like a song to Eron.The sky darkened. Storm clouds roiled and churned with unprecedented fury. The wind howled, hurling boulders and uprooting trees into the air. The humans managed to stay afoot, obviously using some kind of spell. But it wasn’t their lucky day. Purple lightning the size of a tree trunk stabbed at the humans with a deafening boom. Thousands of lightning began to decent upon them like a spear of heavenly judgement. It filled the land with the crescendo of thunderclaps. None of the humans stood a chance against the lightning. Those who were struck died instantly.‘Such Power,’ Eron thought. He continued to stare at the unfolding war, mesmerised.A few minutes after the lightning strikes, the humans erected a barrier. The lightning strike exploded harmlessly many feet above the army. The lightning strikes seemed quite useless now. No single person should be able to produce a barrier like that. Low-level humans could not converse their spell together, which meant humans at the higher level of advancement must have come together to erect that barrier.After a while, the lightning strikes stopped, and the sky cleared. Not even Dragons could maintain a spell as powerful as that for long.Using the mayhem of lightning strikes, a group of dwellers had circled around the valley, behind the Spirit Dragon Elani, green like a jade—who was being protected by the Space Dragon Stellar. Wherever the Space Dragon looked, the midriff of the humans seemed to warp and twist at an unnatural angle and rip themselves apart, humans’ innards spilling everywhere.The Dwellers who had slithered behind the spirit dragon struck with several nasty spells. When the dust clouds settled after multiple booms and bangs, only a pile of bones and mush remained. The space dragon roared in fury and the humans who had killed the spirit dragon were ripped apart. They did not stand a chance.With the spirit dragon who had been healing and enhancing the bodies and spells of the other Dragons dead, the army of the Dwellers was finally making some progress against the Dragons.After quite a bit of struggle, the dollars manage to fell the wind dragon. It crashed into the ground, shaking the entire valley.Thousands upon thousands of Dwellers threw themselves at the stone dragon, who looked like a statue of a dragon, carved from marbled stone. The stone dragon had the strongest defence, and they had to sacrifice thousands just to remove a chunk of flesh from the dragon. But after sacrificing a lot of their numbers, they managed to remove enough chunks of the dragon to kill the thing.The Water Dragon was killed rather unceremoniously. Out of the million-strong Dweller army, only seven thousand remained. The only one now leading them was the emperor Javah of the Seraphim Empire. The fire and space Dragons, who were still alive, roared. Both sides were at a standstill before the final clash.Eron decided it was time to make his grand entrance. After collecting so much Drogen, his mind had expanded to an extent. He could now do things that once required his time and effort almost instantaneously. It had almost been nearly two thousand years since he had held this much power.Shaking his head, Eros streaked forward like a comet, trailing smoky white light behind him. He then landed like a feather in the breeze between the two dragons and the army of the Dwellers. It had taken him less than a few seconds to land there.“WHO ARE YOU?” Space Dragon, who was blacker than the night, demanded in a booming voice that was louder than a thunderclap.“IT DOES NOT MATTER WHO HE IS,” the Fire Dragon roared louder than the Space Dragon. It was an impressive feat, even for a dragon. “HE LOOKS HUMAN ENOUGH TO ME.”“Yes, it doesn’t matter who I am to you dragons,” Eros said.The fire dragon opened its maw, probably preparing to engulf him in flames. Eron slashed his hand vertically, as if bored. The Dragon was sliced in half from between its eyes. The two symmetrical halves of the Dragon crashed to the ground with massive thuds, shaking the entire valley. Blood and entrails made a massive pool around the dead dragon.Space Dragon roared, and Eron felt the space where his midriff was beginning to twist. Eron didn’t panic. No, in fact, he almost laughed at the attempt. He felt for the drogen that was fuelling the spell to twist the space and collected it. The spell collapsed in on itself and vanished. Before, he couldn’t even dream of doing something like that, but with the amount of power he was holding right now—it was like a child’s trick.Eron pointed his two fingers at the head of the Dragon. A concentrated mass of vibrational energy the size of a small pebble shot out from his fingertips. When it struck the head of the dragon, the head along with half its body vanished. The Dragon slumped, spraying blood like a downpour.With that, Eron spun facing the army of around seven thousand Dwellers. He waited. As he expected, Emperor Javah approached Eron as if he owned the word. Perhaps he did, even if it was only a fraction of the world.Emperor Javah bowed to him. It wasn’t a deep bow; it was a bow shared among equals. He didn’t return the gesture. Him, equal to this wannabe emperor? Him, who was far more powerful, older, and knowledgeable? It was a Joke.“Friend, thanks to your timely arrival, we managed to survive this hurdle,” Javah said, with a deeper bow. “May I invite you to our tents? We would be most honoured. A mere thank you won’t do. We must show you our appreciation properly.”Eron didn’t reply. He merely stared at the emperor. Had his ears heard wrong? But when the emperor’s words hit home, he burst out laughing, tears in his eyes. “You think I did it to save you lot?” His laughter turned into a twisted frown. Eron Waved his hand and the land where the army of seven thousand Dwellers stood was engulfed in a sea of golden flames.When the fire winked out, there was no sign of the army. The jagged landscape had turned into a smooth and glassy plain.The emperor stared at Eris in disbelief. “Who are you? What have you done.”He didn’t reply. He was too busy relishing the fear and frustration dancing in the emperor’s eyes.Javah unsheathed his sword and screamed—half hysterical. “Answer me.”Eron looked at the emperor amused, “Do you really think you can stick a sword in me?”“Who... Are... You? How can you do this to your own kind? Don’t you have a shred of humanity in you?”“That’s rich coming out of your mouth. How dare you for forgot our kind,” Eron hissed. “It hasn’t even been ten years yet.” Eron twirled his wrist and the sword in Javah’s hand shattered.The emperor stumbled back, wide-eyed, shaking like a frightened animal. Good. This was what he wanted. He wanted to see the fear in the emperor’s eyes.“How?” Javah said. “We killed everyone. We checked everyone.”“Not me.”The emperor trembled.“Once I’m through with you, I’ll burn this world to the ground.”“Please, do not punish the innocent for our mistakes,” the emperor pleaded.Eron snorted. “Did anyone raise a helping hand when the five empires slaughtered my people? Did anyone raise a voice against it? For the greater good, you said. You people even have a festival to celebrate our deaths. No, Javah, there are no innocent people in this world.”Eron raised his hand, and the emperor screamed. The screams didn’t stop for hours. The emperor died from the pain. With a final shake of his head, Eron went on to claim the Dragonheart. The power that was guarded by the dragons. The power that would make him a god.Act 1: The Exiled Planet: Eronas Edwin work up to the dreaded sound that was a daily occurrence to him. His master was banging at the door like a raving animal. Edwin groaned, pulling the seats over his head, and used the pillow to cover his ears. It did not work. The banging continued, disturbing his precious sleep. Why must everyone in this Tribe be so infuriating? “Edwin, do you want me to break the door again? Your father won’t be happy. Wake up now—it’s already dawn.” Edwin could hear the door handle turning ominously. He knew his master, Armin, was ready to break through his door. Edwin made a growling sound in his throat. And today was supposed to be his birthday. ‘Father does not even remember, does he?’ Edwin threw the blanket—he was already sweating from the heat. “For heaven’s sake, Armin, at least let me put on my clothes.” “Is that how you address your master? You have one minute—anything more and I will break this door.” “OK! OK! Just don’t break the door.” Edwin
Edwin opened the door of the smithy and went towards the room where his twin brother worked and practised his blacksmithing skills. He opened the door of his brother’s forcing room. Ignoring everything else, he did not even notice Chris who has following right behind him. The wave of heat from the forge struck him. He ignored the anvil, forges, barrels of oil, and the other solution and forging tools that were around the room. His eyes were fixed on his bastard of a father and the most valuable person in the world—his twin brother. He heard someone gasp behind him. Edwin ignored that, too. His blood was boiling. He wanted nothing more than to twist that thick neck of his father when he saw the condition his brother was in. His brother lay there sprawled, his right hand twisted at an unnatural angle. He could see the bone protruding out of his broken arm, slick with blood. He had a blunt wound on his head, and his lower lips had split open. And worst of all, there was a pool of blood
In his room—which only had a bed, a table and two chairs, and one small closet—Edwin made a slight cut in his palm and filled a pewter cup with his blood. That should be enough to bring Jimmy back to full health. Edwin went to Jimmy’s side, who was in his bed. He pinched his brother’s nose and poured the blood into his mouth. Jimmy’s wounds healed at an incredible rate. When Jimmy woke up—thankfully he did not throw any tantrums. Edwin explained everything that had happened to Jimmy in a soft and slow voice as if explaining things to a child. “What do you do now?” Jimmy said with watery eyes. “We do as Father says. We leave this shithole of a tribe.” “But there are monsters outside the walls.” Tears rolled down Jimmy’s eyes. “I know.”“But we will die.”“I…I know.” “Tell me you have a plan.” Jimmy was practically screaming hysterically by now. “You always have a plan. When you and Chris found out about me, the two of you protected me. You hid the truths. You can do it again. You
Once Chris stopped laughing, she looked at Edwin, her lips still twitched now and then, probably with laughter she was trying to control.“One good thing about being the hair of the tribe is that you can know things, learn things. The Aether tribe is real, Edwin.” “It Is?” Edwin said.“Yes, and from what I know, the Aether tribe is not the only strongest tribe on the continent. Two more tribes rival the Aether tribe in strength, though I do not know their name.”“If they are real, why don’t we know about them?” Edwin said, apprehensively. He still did not believe in the Aether tribe. “Why is it just a rumour?”“Of course, it’s just a rumour,” Chris said in an exasperated tone.“The world is too dangerous. Even though there are hundreds if not thousands of tribes out there, we only have contact with four other tribes. The other tribes are either too far or too dangerous to travel to. The rumour flies, however, during the trade with those other four tribes. However, my father quickly su
The next day, Edwin, Jimmy, and Chris mounted the horse, staring at the vast ocean of mist that expanded to the horizon. As the name suggested, a thick veil of mist shrouded the Misty Hills. The three of them nodded to each other and urged their horse forward.As soon as they entered, the mist disappeared. One second it was there, the next it was gone. Edwin halted his horse and looked in front of him. A vast expanse of barren rolling hills greeted them.Edwin dismounted his horse and moved backwards. His other two companions followed him. As soon as he was outside the awe-inspiring zone of Misty Hills, the veil of mist reappeared and when they entered the Veil, it disappeared. All three of them exclaimed in amazement. Edwin had heard of this, but witnessing it yourself and hearing about it in a story were two completely different things. It was both awe-inspiring and somewhat scary.After gawking at everything until they were satisfied, they marched toward the krozon tribe. Following
[More Than a Week Ago][Vancorg Tribe][Edwin’s and Jimmy’s Birthday][Midnight]***Jimmy was being carried strapped to a woman’s chest. Even as the woman ran from the unknown danger, she brushed his hair, all the while murmuring, “It’s going to be alright, Gav. I’ll protect you. I’ll keep you safe.”A sudden force struck them, and Gav—or was he Jimmy, felt a burning pain in his head. The world spun around him. Jimmy could feel his mind slipping away. Something… shifted. Jimmy-Gav found himself sprawled on the ground, his head throbbing, barely conscious. A woman with blonde hair and red eyes placed a red spherical stone the size of a thumbnail in his chest and backed away.There was a flash of red and a roaring sound. Jimmy fell into the world of shearing pain as if thousands of burning needles were pressing against his skin—every part of his skin. The pain kept on rising and rising and rising. The sharp burning pain seeped into his sinew, his bones, and the marrow till it ripped his
In the smithy, Jimmy removed the bar of metal from the furnace, which was glowing with the proper heat. He placed the bar on an anvil and worked, ignoring everyone else in the room. He hammered the metal bar, producing sparks with each strike. This was Jimmy's escape from reality—from pain—this was his sanctuary. The sounds of metals, the sparks like shooting stars, gave him peace. They protected him from the constant ringing in his ears, the never-ending pain in his head. Today, however, was different. Blacksmithing couldn't protect him today. For there was a different sound ringing in his head. [An energy source has been detected. Travel east to reach the location of the energy source. Reward: 3 HP.] With each sound of the hammer, the voice in his mind only got even louder, giving him a splitting headache. The constant ringing notification in his mind was buzzing like bees and was so loud that every other sound in the room was like a distant whisper—an echo. It was hard to focus.
Edwin’s eyes popped open. The worried face of Chris greeted him.“Oh! Thank god you are alright,” Chris said, sighing in relief. “You are alright. Right?”Edwin just looked at her mesmerizing face before answering. “O-yeah, yeah, I’m good. I’m alright. I can dance a jig if you want proof.”Chris cryishly laughed, wiping the drop of tears from her eyes. “There is no need for that. You are a disaster when you dance.”Edwin just grinned at her. His radiant face fell when he remembered his brother dropping like a sack of potatoes after emitting a flash of red from his body.“Chris, how is Jimmy? Where is he?”Edwin looked around, frantic. He was inside a tent, lit by an oil lantern. There was no sign of Jimmy.“He is fine, Edwin. A few drops of my blood did the trick.”It was Edwin’s turn to sigh in relief.“I think..” Chris hesitated just a tad before continuing on. “I think your brother is going mad. That red light must have done something to his mind. He is seeing things, hearing them.
Jimmy listened to the elder, who taught them the properties of various metals. “This is Firesteel, this is Watersteel, this is Bloodsteel…” The elder got out seven metals and introduced them to the class. These were the best conductor of said Law and amplified their effect. The elder produced another seven metals and explained about each of them; Firebane, Spiritbane and Earthbane and so on. These were poor conductors of corresponding Laws—almost an insulator. These metals either diminished or nullified the effect of the corresponding Law. Jimmy learned much in his Blacksmith class. The identities of unique metals, their source, their properties—and how and what to forge with them. How to make an object of power? It was a simple process, impossible as it was to believe. First, forge a required item, take a beast core, and after that reach out with spiritual sense to the item through the core and push the power of the core to the item—the spiritual sense was the medium to such tran
Rina repeatedly tapped the table with her index finger. This was getting on her nerves. The man no older than her, who sat opposite her, inspected the inscription on the dagger she had carved, turning it round and round in his hands. Rina scoffed. As if he knew anything about the scripts. Scripting was The Most technical art of Drogen. “You have excellent calligraphy,” the man said.Rina snorted. “A fish that can’t swim is worthless.” “Point. Shall we test your handiwork? I hope they are as powerful as they are beautiful.”The scripter woman nodded. Finally! She would earn her keep and be rid of the man soon.The runes in the dagger glowed golden. The man flicked his wrist and the dagger cut through the air and struck the wall. There was little sound. Golden lines of runes flickered across the room. The dagger quivered for a second and dropped.Her pride swelled like a balloon. She had done a better job than she had believed. “To think the dagger activated the protection formation
“Why are you doing this to yourself?” Edwin asked on their way to class. “You had to visit a healer three times this week. Please tell me what is happening with you, maybe I can help.” “I am fine,” Chris said. A wave of nausea struck her. The world must hate her. Why did it have to happen now when she had just told Edwin she was fine? If the man hadn’t caught her, she would probably be bleeding from her nose right now.“Chris, can you stand by yourself?” The man looked ready to princess-carry her if need be–that she would not allow.Chris pushed herself out of Edwin’s arms and jumped up and down to show she was perfectly fine, thank you very much. She was, and anyone who said otherwise be damned. “See, I am fine.”“You weren’t, just a second ago. I think it best to go see a healer.”Chris caressed Edwin’s hand. She did her best to make her voice as soothing as possible. What she was about to say Edwin wouldn’t like. “You needn't worry about what’s happening to me. You know how we were
Only when Chris was well away from Linden and the arena did the consequences of what she had done dawn on her. What was she thinking dunking him in the water? If Linden had taken what she had done as offence and not as a joke, she would be howling in pain for who knew how long. Perhaps forever. She must have been mad. Why did she always let the anger get the best of her? She had to learn to control it better. ‘What’s done is done,’ she told herself firmly. ‘There is no point in fretting over it.’ Aside from her horrible mistake with Linden that could have ended up with her head on a pike, her days went smoothly—with only one sour note. It was, of course, Rina. Chris asked herself a thousandth time why she was sharing a room with her. The woman had no decency at all. None. Two nights a week, sometimes three nights, the woman brought a man to spend the night with. The partners she brought were sometimes young, sometimes old. The woman changed her partners like men changed their cloth
Linden stopped laughing, gave her a lopsided glance, and struck. Chris brought her sword before it to intercept the attack. At the last second, Linden twisted his sword, and it landed on her wrist. She almost lost her grip on her sword. Still, she powered through the pain and kept her hold of it. Chris was just glad she hadn’t yelped in pain and had just winced. That would be beyond embarrassing. They exchanged dozens of blows, and with each blow, her anger spiked up a notch. Linden had thwacked her left and right—blows that would bruise. Yet, for the life of her, she couldn’t land a single hit. It wasn’t fair. It just wasn’t. Why should she be bruised and in pain, while the other man was grinning like a fool? She knew he wasn’t using vital technique or any form of Drogen. That would have left behind a residue that she would have undoubtedly seen, being a collector as she was. So, what was it he was doing? There had to be something. He can’t really see the future, can he? No, that w
Chris watched as the heir strode towards them. The bare-chested man walked like any heir should, back straight, one hand resting on his sword hilt as if he were assuming a sword stance. He could have made any girl’s neck turn in his direction and made their heart flutter. Not hers. Her heart fluttered for someone else. Someone next to her, no less regal than the heir himself, standing there, hand poised on his sword hilt, ready to draw at a moment’s notice. The man she suspected to be Linden’s bodyguard. Tim, was it? He could do with an earful. Holding a sword at her throat like that. When her eyes shifted back to the bodyguard, her mouth went dry. Sweat glistened along his abs. She gulped. Her knees wanted to buckle. She wanted… ‘Heavens above, what am I thinking?’ She wanted to get into good graces with the heir. Not canoodle with his bodyguard. She wouldn’t mind doing it, though. It could be warming. Gods, she had always prided herself on having great control over her thoughts.
[PRESENT TIME] Chris Scoured through the sect library searching for information on collectors. She had hoped to find some record to understand her powers. Useless, there was nothing she didn’t already know. All that knowledge in here and they were all deadwood to her. Unless she broke into the restricted section of the library, there was nothing new she could learn. That meant she would have to learn everything by experiment. The thought of experimenting with her powers sent a shiver down her spine. Playing with something she didn’t understand didn’t sound healthy to her. All her classes went well, better than well actually. She was one of the best in her class—aside from a few mishaps like that one time when she had turned into a giant; it was one of the most embarrassing things that had ever happened to her. What surprised her most as she navigated through her powers was the fact that her abilities were incredibly similar to that of a Dweller and, at the same time, quite differen
Chris stood next to her brother as she watched him paint on a massive canvas. The strange amalgamation of colours slowly began to gain cohesion and shape. Slowly, the paintings began to gain more shapes and details. She saw villagers washing clothes in the rivers. Children playing near them. Why couldn’t her life be so peaceful as well? Why couldn’t she be as happy as that? Children playing in the river. This was the first time her brother’s paintings had made her feel more pain than soothing her.However, she did not blame her brother for her mood. She knew something like this could happen. She had been lucky that it hadn’t happened before. And her brother had never drawn a painting with people before.When her brother finished his art. She asked him a question. “What will you call this painting, brother? I always like it when you name your paintings. It is the most enjoyable part of all this.”“I will call this one A Vain Dream.”“Why do you want to name something so beautiful? Somet
Five Years Ago. It had been about five years since her mother died. Killed was more accurate. A band of people made from Dwellers and Vampires had killed her mother. And even after five years, Chris still wept herself to sleep. She had abandoned her in her time of need. They punished the murderers of her mother for their actions. They were flogged and tortured publicly before being killed. And yet Chris still could not feel at peace for the death of her mother—like everyone told her to do. Even though they had already received their punishment. Even though they were already dead, she still hated them for taking her mother away from her. How could they do such a thing? How could they have no regard for human life? That question always haunted her. Their death wasn’t enough. Someone else deserved punishment—it was her.A part of Chris wanted to forget about her mother. So that she did not have to hurt, so that she did not have to cry so much, so that her father would not have changed