"The interesting part of living alone in an apartment is realizing that you are nothing but just a pebble aging in an endless and baleful river." Joross sighed out of the blue.
It's almost two in the afternoon and the hallway on the second floor began to welcome its new guests and tenants. Indistinct chattering reverberated in the place, following the discordant footsteps of the two young guys walking their way to the neighborhood.
"You sound so much like my Dad," Well shot back, his tone was almost dead that it's hard to determine if what he said was a compliment or an insult. "I always think that living alone is a good thing. I just don't know if I'm explaining it right, but it makes you determine how far could you go as a person. I mean, as an independent person."
"Yeah, I totally agree with you. But..." Joross paused for a while when they reached the front door of Room 016. "Not in a place like this." He took out his apartment's key from his grey underwear and unlocked the doorknob of his for-the-mean-time abode.
Well's heartbeat intensified. "What does that mean?" he said straightforwardly before he could even think about it. Unluckily, his pal must have missed his words.
"Welcome to my borrowed house!" Joross said, loud and proud, opening his arms so wide towards the dining-slash-kitchen area.
"You got a good place, Joross. Not so big, not so small," Well said as he pounded his ass on the couch.
Joross' apartment was indeed small, but it had a nice and clean set-up that would definitely make you forget about the space. When you enter the door, an old-fashioned cupboard would be waiting with a vintage television. There's also a coffee table in front of it, seating over a circular carpet of animal print. It might only had one large couch, but that wouldn't really matter because next to it would be a six-seater rectangular table for eating. The kitchen and the dining area was separated by another cupboard where Joross had placed all of his belongings-framed artworks (surprisingly, he was a good painter), his art materials, his navy blue guitar, and other random things that could have been very important to him and to his passion.
"You never told me you are a great painter." Well slid his fingertips on one of the framed artworks. It was painted in a black and white color scheme, with a man feasting over a human heart while crying the blackest of ink on his eyes as a subject. "I don't know much about paintings and their messages, but I got a feeling that this is sad and heavy," he commented, eyes were glued on the frame.
"That's the job of every painting. You paint what you feel, and they will tell it to the world." Joross stood next to Well and lifted the painting out of the cupboard. He wiped the frame gently, and with a hint of blue on his face, he whispered, "Sorry if you find this subject too disturbing. But you see, there are men out there who put their hearts in every word they say. But at some point, no matter how heartfelt their words could be, they feel like saying them is useless especially when they belong in a society where they are judged on their ability to hold their tears. And to them, the only way to get rid of crying is to get rid of saying their words. And the only way to get rid of saying their words is to eat them."
Well was in deep awe. It took him a minute before he could finally get his mouth produce some words in return. "Man. That's so deep! But how about the ink on his eyes?"
"Oh, yeah I almost forgot. The ink on his eyes symbolizes darkness. We may find it very rare to see men crying because they often hold their tears as much as they could, but believe me, they do always cry darkness. And I think that hurts a lot more."
Well was beginning to understand everything. The way the paintings were painted in the saddest colors existing, and the way the words came out of his new pal's mouth, he's starting to realize that it all had something to do with the concept of depression-of how it could possibly be involved in the life of Joross, and of how could he cope up with it without telling it directly to anyone.
Joross left Well unmoved in front of the cupboard and made his way into his room. "There's nothing much inside this boring room that you can see, but if you'd like to take a look, feel free to enter here," he said behind the half-opened door.
"I'll be there in a minute." Well responded. He was about to leave the cupboard too, but another painting had caught his eyes again and made him feel like he would die if he refuse to touch it.
"I'm starting to get chills everywhere." Well wasn't lying. He was holding a rectangular frame with both of his shaking hands, while staring on the image in it was considered the bravest act of the day. It was not just a painting, that's what Well had assumed. Analyzing the details of it, it was more like a Gehenna.
The painting contained six faceless figures, each one holding a bloody knife, while in front of them was a table filled with chopped body parts of an unidentified creature. Though it was completely disassembled, some parts were still visible, and clearly it had two long horns and an arrow-like tail, which would make a lot of sense if you'd say it belonged to Satan— or at least to a demon.
Well wanted an explanation behind the painting as much as he wanted the fear on his face vanish on an instant. But he couldn't help it. He just remained standing with earthquakes on his knees and a quiver on his lips. From then on, he was consumed by the painting, not missing a second without thinking of it.
"I know. Quite creepy, yes?" Said the voice that echoed from behind the almost but never closed door of the only bedroom in the apartment. "You wouldn't believe me if I tell you the story behind that art."
"Oh, for my peace of mind, please do tell." At last, Well was able to flit his eyes away from the cupboard. He turned around, and just as when he's about to enter the room, Joross came out and slammed the door behind him.
"I shouldn't be telling this to anyone. But because you just paid my bill for no justifiable reasons, I'll tell you everything as a cheap exchange," he said, tapping Well's shoulders as he brushed past him and walked to the kitchen. "By the way, story telling is no fun if we ain't got booze and a pack of cigarette." He clicked his tongue and opened his fridge occupied with beers and beers only. "Want some?" he offered Well a bottle.
"No and absolutely not. Mom's going to kill me if she knows I drink alcohol. Believe me, my Mom's warning is the kind of warning you would certainly keep in mind all the time," Well said superfluously.
"You just rejected a good friend's offer. " Joross smirked.
"Sorry. I just want to live longer," Well replied.
"When I drink, I feel like I'm living longer. When I smoke a stick of cigarette, I feel like I'm living longer, too." Joross opened a bottle of Gold Eagle beer with his ring. The sound of the oozing white and foamy bubbles was satisfaction to his ears. "See? How could you not drink it? The bubbles itself is already heaven. I don't want to ignore heaven. In fact, I want to live there," he said softly while pouring the beer on a glass.
"It smells heaven, it looks heaven, it tastes heaven. You think it's a total heaven but when you're so into it, it could drag you straight into hell," Well said in a very Gerard way.
"There you go. I haven't seen your Dad and I don't even know him. But I think you're now sounding like his legitimate son."
"I am his legitimate son!"
Well and Joross headed to the living room, and since the couch there wouldn't allow them to sit freely and comfortably, they decided to take the carpet instead. Joross placed his beer and his pack of cigarette on top of the round table, and the two friends went cross-sitting on the matting of animal print.
Joross quaffed his first glass of beer. "Now what?"
"I don't usually start conversations especially if I know it's leading into a serious one, but, how about you tell me everything you want to tell? I mean, it's like introducing yourself but in a different and wholesome level." Well looked away, his fingers were showing increasing signs of uneasiness.
Joross sighed. "I know where to start." He hurriedly stood up and belted his second glass of Gold Eagle. There was no time for him on explaining things, so he just grabbed Well by the wrist and led the way out of his apartment. They left the door wide open, causing the white lights inside to oppose the yellow fluorescence outside.
"What's with the hurry? Could you please tell me where we are heading?" Well was unconscious of what's going on. The only thing he knew was one moment they were sitting, and one moment they were rushing into somewhere he's unaware of.
"Room 011." Joross said, seconds after they got there. He took a key out of his grey underwear, again, and held it up in the air as he demanded for more oxygen. He's exhausted. It was only a minute of walking fast yet he already ran out of energy.
Well looked up. "Yeah, Room 011, I can see that. But why are we here again?"
"We are here to tell you a story." Joross opened the door. "Now brace yourself, you might die of chills if you are not ready." The door banged.
The lights were off. It was only sundown, but not a single ray of gleam from the good metro could pass through the thick curtains of the apartment's windows. On the corner of the wall, inches away from the doorway, Well was ready and steady. His eyes might not be able to see things because of the blinding darkness, but his right foot was one step forward and his hands were on combat position just in case something would jump in and attack him surprisingly. He wasn't in an action movie, but to him, it's better to be safe than sorry.
"You are being paranoid." Joross chuckled, reaching for the switch just above his scared pal's head.
When the lights finally lit up the place, everything inside went vivid. Obviously, it was a normal apartment-like Joross'-and like any other apartments on the second floor except for Well's. It' was clean and organized. Everything was in the right place as if no one was living in it for quite some time.
"Do you think it's okay to just crash in at someone's apartment without asking for permission?" Well asked in an escalating tone.
After staring at Well for a while, Joross replied a question with a question. "And do you think I would have a duplicate key of this apartment if I don't know the tenant here?"
"So someone actually lives here now? How come the door was locked?"
"Lived. Past tense. Someone I knew once lived here." Joross corrected, going straight to the television set to get two pairs of disposable gloves. He wore one pair, and tossed the other pair to Well. "For safety."
"We are wearing gloves because?" Well asked, head was about to burst in curiosity.
Joross tilted his head towards Well. With a little curve on his lips, and with an intimidating look on his eyes, he said, "Because we wouldn't want to leave our fingerprints on a crime scene."
Right after getting the answer he wanted, Well became quiet. His eyes grew big, and since the second after Joross released his words, his breathing went deep and rapid. Crime scene. He had never been in one. He had never witnessed any crimes, nor had he ever heard any stories related to them. He was a pure innocent in situations like this, and that made him a great overthinker. When he felt like things were getting out of hand, he could literally think a dozen of possible scenarios in just two shakes of a lamb's tail.
"Are you ready?" Joross sighed.
"I don't know what this is all about, but okay. I'm ready."
In the slowest manner possible, Joross opened the door of the only bedroom of Room 011. The lights were left on, and so everything were revealed right exactly when they landed a foot inside.
"Neat and tidy on the outside, a complete mess on the inside." Well said.
The bedroom didn't look like a bedroom at all. It was more of a disaster, like how crime scenes actually looked like. Books scattered on the floor, blood-splattered pillows were everywhere, fragments of broken lampshade spread out over the dirty brown carpet, and a lot more mess that would definitely say the place was indeed a venue for some sort of crime.
With gloves fitted on his hands, Well touched the square table next to the bed. "This thick dusts could tell that the crime happened a long time ago."
"Nice. I never knew you've got some investigative skills." Joross smiled.
"No. It's only basic observation," Well answered, moving next to Joross who had been standing for a while staring at the ensanguined bedsheet covering the surface of the bed. "I have a bad feeling that something's under the sheet." He gulped with a struggle.
Joross took a glimpse on Well. After three repetitions of his deepest exhales, he peeled off the blood-soaked blanket away—revealing strange stuff and crime scene evidences on top of the bed.
"Holy fuck! Joross, what are these things?" Well stepped back, his right hand covering his mouth.
"Now, I think it's time for you to know the story behind my paintings." Joross closed his eyes. With tears attempting to escape his eyelids, he said, "They are all connected to this. To my boyfriend's secret murder mystery."
“I wonder if you could ever make any friends when you’re there. I’m worried.” JH said, throwing pebbles one by one to the calm and placid ocean. The sun was setting down, and so everything that could be seen by the eyes were only orange and pink. The villagers were beginning to gather off the coast, for any moment by now, their fishing vessels would arrive with a huge amount of catch. Everyone was busy; some were preparing the nets, some were readying the basins, and some were working on their fishing boats to sail when the vessels arrive. But despite all the back-and-forths of the Coast Ville people, in the very corner of the sea wall, not so far away from the Smith’s Coffee Shop on the port, the two best friends JH and Well found themselves sitting on the fine and cold sands of the shore. It wasn’t their typical bond. It wasn’t their usual moment. But given the fact that Well will be leaving the next day, the two friends had no choice but to spend the remaining hours in whatever w
“Your—your boyfriend?” Sitting on the mattress where a bloody blanket was being laid, Joross replied in his trembling tone. “Uhm, yes. My boyfriend.” With his jaw jutting out into an underbite, he shot his gaze past Well to avoid seeing his eyes. It was a total awkwardness, the two could feel it. “Whatever it is that you’re thinking, it’s all true. You don’t really have to keep your words, though. You can say them if you want, I’m used to everyone saying the same thing anyways.” The dropping of Joross’ shoulders went in-sync with the shrinking of his lips. Well waved his hands rapidly before him. “No, not that I’m judging you. I’m just, you know, a little bit shocked.” He then withdrew them back. “We’re not the typical type of gay couple, for your information. We are unique. And I hate it. Only if we were not, he might have stayed alive today.” “I am so, so sorry for your loss. I really mean it!" Well sighed. He wanted to comfort his new friend, but he was a socially awkward pers
Both Well and Joross couldn't believe what they just saw. A tongue? In a pouch? Tied with a white ribbon? Who in the world would dare to do something as gross as that?Well carefully placed the pouch down on the bed. Their faces were crumpled like wet paper; foreheads were creased at the center. The room became so silent that the thumping of their hearts could be heard from across the room. None of them thought of saying a word. None of them thought of moving a nerve. Only an exchange of stares took place between the two trembling guys; one was crying due to fear, while the other was grieving due to a sudden realization."That... That thing. There's no way it belongs to him, right?" Well asked. He swallowed every after of each of his words. He couldn't believe what he saw as much as Joross couldn't believe what he just realized.The sobbing boyfriend closed his eyes and squeezed them intensely, forcing the dwelling tears on the corners of his eyelids to drip down. "I— I don't know. I
Yes. The cops. Although they were treated by the many as bearers of justice and beacons of light, they were actually only as crooked as the suspects they were after for the entire time. The modest of the elites would think that the cops of New Bill would have been the greatest security personnel to ever exist. The close-to-perfect government would have thought of the same thing as well. But as for those people who surrendered their innocence in the face of atrocities, all of those godly behaviours showcased by all of those godly cops were only up for a show. CROOKS. When anyone from the fine line of poverty was asked how they would describe the national police of New Bill, that was always their answer. It never changed. It was always the 'Crook,' and often the 'Crooked.'"Would you mind if I ask for an elaboration of why you believe cops are the last person we should ask help from during situations like this?" Well asked. At this very moment, he was now at the edge of the bed. His as
Well couldn't help but think of the last statement that Joross had said. "Things are different here in New Bill. You need a lot of friends. And once you start your day at West Burge, you'll understand why." The way it sounded to Well, it seemed like it was some kind of a warning. Or a threat. Or anything that would really cause his heart beat to skyrocket. "All right, I will try my best. But I will tell you in advance, I am really not good at making friends," Well told Joross as they started to cross the pedestrian lane just in front of The Mansion building. "I don't even know how to initiate the first move," he added by the time they reached the other end of the road. "It doesn't really matter. You don't have to make the first move. Actually, you don't even need to say anything first in order to be discovered. You just have to be yourself, smile when other people smile at you, and then there you have it. The upclass are friendly people. More often than not, they are usually the fir
"Where are you taking me?" Well's eyes were a little too anxious to be in a crowd as full as where they were right now, but he had no choice but to tag along with his new friend, Joross. "Chill. Just trust me. I am only trying to give you a good tour of the place because you deserve it. As an old student here, it is now my primary obligation to make sure that the new students get the good service they deserve. And by saying good service, it also means a free tour of the city, of the school, and of the building where you will be staying for the next four years of your college life," Joross was saying it with great enunciation like he had been taking quite some time to memorize it. "Wait." He paused for a while, looking back to Well like he had suddenly suspected him of something. "Hold on for a sec. Are you trying to suspect me of kidnapping you?" Joross' eyes were like a pair of darts shooting through Well. They both knew that he meant it only as a joke, but it was too real to be dee
When both Joross and Well entered the room, a very warm welcome from their upclass surprised them. There are at least ten people inside the bar (which is technically a restaurant right now because it's still day), and all of them had this common but delightful smile plastered on their faces. You know, the kind of smile you would make once your favorite puppy was waiting for you at the door after a long and tiring work; or the one that just voluntarily blossomed on your face once your most favorite dish had been served on the dining table. That, sure enough, was one of some things that were common among all of them right now. Except for the colorful balloons, and the confetti, and the heavily decorated walls and ceiling, nothing else seemed normal. They had been preparing for this for a long time, that was a fact. "Hey," Joross said in the most awkward way possible. He looked like he was about to pass out but could not afford to because Well was with him and he had to let him know tha
"Hey, wait!" Daniel called Well as he tried to escape from his inevitable acquaintance. "You have not introduced yourself yet," he added as he tried to belt down the remaining liquid inside his bottle. "I said I don't have any plans of introducing myself. I don't even need some new friends, so yeah, that means I don't want to meet you as well. The rumors about me are true. Live with it.” Whatever it was that Well said, he meant it all. He was not here in this place to meet friends. He did not even want to go here in the first place, but he was left with no choice but to tag along because his new friend (the only friend he made so far) insisted him to do so. And since Well felt like his friend, Joross had been so open and comfortable with him so far, so he just did what he was supposed to do. After all the secrets that Joross had revealed to Well, it was really reasonable for Well to just follow him.“Wow, you are indeed a snob, they are right,” Daniel confirmed, but there was no sign