The Narcist

The Fazan Family

Abyaz Adhigara is the ninth son of ten children. Above him are all the older sisters and one younger brother.

His father loved him and his younger brother very, very much, so that all of his elder sisters considered the two of them to be golden children while they were only copper ones.

On the other hand, their mother seemed to care more about her eight daughters. So it seems that the symptoms and tendencies of matriarchal and patriarchal seem to be fighting without weapons in the family.

When they were all small,they enjoyed playing a lot.Girls liked to play with girls ,boys liked to play with boys but sometimes they were mingling around and just having fun chasing cat and dog,,hide and seek or eating guavas at their grandma backyard house in the village .

There always rules in every games they created .

When one deceit ,others would yell and bullied him or her before starting again to be fairer..and telling each other with sort of serious menace " lf you cheat again..you must go out of the game..ok ?'

Then she or he would promise not to do it again.

Then they went on playing ..a bit ashamed for the deceiver but it would teach them to play better...What a wonderful time ...the childhood was !

Now what happen when the girls grow up ,when they are playing games to win ,in a way to get more materials they need to get more and more ..well..each one have to get a powerful one ...some seek it from the mother ,some other silently just thinking of having strategy to get it from the father .

The father tries to be justified in front all of them.Prioritizing things and put all matters in order . Basic needs including School matters , clothing,food and house maintenance.

They need more rooms in the house as they grow up.

Money always be one important thing in the world , but ones have to refrain when money become gods to overrule everything.

Children seems to have better rules in competition . Whereas adults have nomore fun to compete as nomore fair play there..

What matter left is the negative emotions of scare,anger and worry as being a winner become the only aim ,so that the natural fun and having the process before become unimportant.

That's why childhood is always unforgettable genuine moments.

Oh ,Dear.....

Let the good ones emerge from the crowd to win without defeating or fearing others .

They call him Aby .His Father named him to be an obedient and good person .All of the children have good and nice names..as all parents in the world wish them to be ,and ,there is always message in the names ,all in positive vibes.

They are all attach in quality of good deed about generosity, bravery,piety , respectable,beauty ,and prosperity.

Even in the matter of giving names, the older sisters were envious of him .

"Father gave him a great name. Honest and obedient, the meaning of Abyaz Abisatya ,right?"

Milena said with a sneer on her face .

,, So what does dad think about us ? Dishonest and disobedient, is that it?" Latina added while patting the cat that had been meowing all the time because it hadn't been fed by its owner.

Suddenly she shouted,

,,Abby ! Abby! come here ! "

Aby was washing Lev's sandals, shoes and socks and his own school uniform. He didn't hear Latina's screams as it hindered by the sound of the water showering those clothes he washed .

"Abbyyyyyy...!!!!" She shouted again, more irritatedly. Little Lev appeared, running frantically with his father's toy trucks.

"I don't call you Lev, play again! But uh... call Aby, honey... tell him to come here..."

Lev ran towards Aby .

,,Aby ....Latina calls you !" He said in low voice.

Aby washed his hands full of detergent before heading over to where Latina was.

After that, Aby took Latina's dirty clothes, helped by the little Lev.

,,Lev ! you're still small..just play there.!..no need to help Aby in everything, just let Aby does the washing ,.." Latina said while pressing the remote button and lying lazily in front of the tv.

,,Yes, you don't have to help me ,dear ..Just play, okay,, said Aby in a soft voice while ruffling Lev's hair for a moment ,before he got up to continue his work that was delayed earlier.

,Hear the softness of living in a harmony.. it's like the wind carresing those leaves on the branches which letting the birds leap from one to the other branch ,stay a while , chirping then fly away as if freely playing up above the sky .

Feel the peace ,that's what you always hear from wise books and wise people.

With that thought ,Aby does those tiring days smilingly.

,,Do you sometime

Want to erase ,if you can ,

The things happened in the past ?,,

,,Everybody does.,,

,,And the inevitable comings of tomorrow with it's mystery.,,

,,There are times we are tired of both .,,

,,Just to imagine that the days will be just the same !

But how can we run from both ?

Only by patience and understanding just like Aby perform all his life ?,,

,,Yes ,he keep on moving .Working on anything he has to do in his daily life as if he is tracing a pathway to an invisible somewhere.,,

That was a chat Aby heard one day when he was passing Milena room .. they talked about him .He knew it .

Well ,maybe new ideas will knit some new huge energy like a highway to heaven ,one day .

Nightmare of distorted ideas come at sleep but sometimes as a boy Aby also has pleasant dream about having games, toys and picnics .lt

colours the pages of his dream and wishes .

.. Why ones don't know the art of getting aside and giving in, then refraining ,

To let the better ones on stage ?he said to himself in his mini talk with the daily life he must carry out.

Lev makes his days.He thank God for having him as his only little brother .

Two colours combine..

Full colours mix..then a new and unique color show up.

Means that it is great if they can gather again just like when they all little kids ...a bit tiff ,serious only for some little time but then they forgive and forget almost at the next minute to play again in an endless joy .

Ah,just

Listen to the teaching of nature

Stones the solid, and water the fluid.

Work in beautiful Harmony...

Why one want to be a hero and heroine for their own games and party ?

Love and admiration! Both are sweet and pleasant.

But wait ..love themselves and hate others, who are not in their group? Nooo ...but..

It happens.

Aby wonders why his sisters can not be mixing with him ,seeing him as part of them now , unlike the past childhood where they used to play on the ground ,trees ,pond and everywhere .

Nature entertaining every corner of the world and whoever stay and live on it .It is up to oneself whether to accept it or ignore it .

Aby was ready for school,after doing all his routine works home .

Only Lev who stood at the door ,saying good bye with the missing look and eagerness to see him come back home .

Those of his elder sisters never do that .Their expression say ,Just get lost "

They seem happy seeing him out of their sight ..