I get up early, excited for the day ahead. The sun has settled over a pink sea of clouds, not yet risen to its apogee. I shower, get dressed, and head for Lucas’ room, where I gently knock. My knocking doesn’t elicit a response. Unsure of what to do, I sit on the floor outside his room, hoping he would come out soon. He exits the room several minutes later.
“Macie? What are you doing here?” He asks me, full of surprise.
“I was waiting for you to wake up. Good morning.”
“Good morning, Macie.”
“When are we heading out?”
“After we eat.” Lucas pats my head.
Breakfast is uneventful. Or maybe I’m simply not paying attention to the world surrounding me. I’m too busy thinking of the Cave Queen, the Twelvemonth Blossom, and whatever other nicknames it has. At the end of the day, it’s just a creature like the rest of us. I want to see it with my own eyes even if it’d mean I’d lose my sight.
We only packed two backpacks: one with provisions and a smaller one with two changes of clothes. I get to carry the smaller one. After we finish our preparations, we decide to visit Mary one last time before we leave.
She’s seated in the same position we left her, still as a rock. The silence between us is so thick that we can hear her puny breaths.
“Farewell, my love. I promise to return fast, and this time, I’ll secure your antidote.” He brushes his fingers on Mary’s cheek.
“See you later, Mary,” I mutter, reaching for her hand. I stop myself halfway through, yet Lucas grabs my wrist gently, encouraging me to hold her hand. I commit to my intentions and reach for her arm. She’s cold… Like snow. I stay still for a second, not daring to move any closer. Lucas sees my resignation and doesn’t urge me to get closer. After what feels like an eternity, I back away. The warm air hitting my hand surprises me in contrast to Mary’s icy hands, and I jolt in shock.
Finally, we set out on our journey. Lucas was right, today’s sun is more merciful than yesterday’s. The weather is pleasant. The sweet glow of the sun is caressing my face. Excitement grows in me as I think of the life I have ahead.
“We’re headed towards a small village down south.” Lucas looks at me as if seeking my approval.
“I thought we were going to the Cave Queen.”
“We’re taking a small detour. The path towards the Twelvemonth Blossom is long and tiresome, we can’t walk on foot. We need to borrow some horses. Don’t worry, I have a deal with a farmer there.”
We walk less than an hour until we reach the summit of a hill. From down there, a large town can be seen. The residential area is full of big houses, though not as giant as Lucas’ mansion. From so high above, I can barely see the town square. What I can see are rooftops that look new. It makes me wonder if this municipality was recently built or if the people are constantly renewing their buildings. Either way, this settlement seems more advanced than my people’s village.
We continue our journey, finally arriving at the town’s entrance. The city looks just as admirable from up close as it did from up the hill. The houses are made from pine and cedar wood, all beautifully decorated in rows of lurid paper stars. The town center is just as full with these decorations. There must be a festival here. The town’s center is filled with benches and green flora. Each corner is peppered with trees and flowers, all beaming with health. I can’t help but be impressed by their beauty.
A farm presents itself before us. Behind the cottage, there’s a vast land carpeted with grass as green as limes surrounded by an oak fence. An old man emerges out of the house. He’s wearing ragged clothes, speckled with patches of dirt, and ripped at the knees. He’s almost bald except for the few hanging locks above his ears going all the way to the back of his head, forming a crescent moon-shaped haircut. His skin is worn-out and saggy, as dark as the night’s sky. In some way, he reminds me of my father, though I can’t remember what he looked like.
“Ah, mister Wood! It’s a pleasure to see you again!” The old man’s expression changes from one of indifference to one of joy.
“I did say I’d return, didn’t I? I always keep my promises.” Lucas responds, matching the look on the man’s face.
The farmer notices me. He eyes me up and down with surprise tinted in his eyes. “I’ve never seen you around, little girl.”
I don’t have the courage to respond to the old man, instead, I cling to Lucas’ shirt. It’s soft to the touch.
“She’s not from the village, Maina. I brought her from a settlement that… Well, she came with me after her parents forsook her.” Lucas interjects, putting his hand on my shoulder.
“Oh! I see! Mister Wood is always so generous. The little girl is lucky to have such a kind guardian!” Maina smiles, looking at Lucas.
“My name is Mansurah,” I mutter. My annoyance at being called little girl begins to rise.
“Mansurah but we call her Macie.” Lucas pats me on the head.
Maina smiles again, this time wider, revealing his white teeth that contrast his dusky skin.
“I came here to cash in my favor, Maina. I only need two healthy horses.” Lucas says, grabbing my hand and walking past the old man. My guess is that he’s headed towards the stables.
“Of course, mister Wood. After everything you’ve done for our village, this is the least I can do!” Maina leads us to the paddock, where a multitude of horses are frolicking. The horses are nothing like I’ve seen before. They’re twice as big as my tribe’s horses, and they look so strong and healthy. Truly, this feels like I’m witnessing mythical beings.
I set my eyes on a black stallion with a white star between his eyes. The shade of his skin is so deep, that it shines like a gem. His mane is lighter, almost silvery. His eyes are like two pebbles of onyx, and so profound I could drown in them. Maina observes my admiration towards the stallion and approaches the horse.
“Hello, Morning Star. It looks like you caught someone’s eye.” He caresses the horse between his eyes, where the white spot resides.
“What a beautiful horse,” Lucas affirms. “If you want it, it’s yours.” He looks into my eyes.
“I’d like that.” My expression softens.
Lucas chooses the biggest horse in the paddock: a well-built brunet stallion Chocolate devoid of any colored spots. Maina gifts us two leather saddles, saddle pads, and bridles. We bid adieu to Maina, and we set out on our adventure.
“You know, I named most of the horses in that stable. Before I arrived there, Maina and his family used to name their livestock unpronounceable names. Those horses would be thanking me if they could talk.” Lucas laughs. “There was this beautiful mare that was named Cakulan. Can you believe that? They named a beauty like her something like that!”
I don’t find the name to be hard to pronounce, but I hold my tongue. My mind is focused on the favor Lucas mentioned. I wonder if I should ask about it, or I should just keep quiet.
“Is this your first time riding a horse?” He asks.
“No, we had horses back in the village, but they weren’t nearly as healthy as these ones. I’m quite used to riding horses.”
“I thought so. You seem very accustomed to being on horseback.”
“Thank you, Lucas.” I smile. He commands Chocolate to get closer to me and Morning Star, and he pats my head. I don’t think I’ll ever get used to him patting my head, but it is quite enjoyable. I free myself from his grasp and order Morning Star to accelerate. “Race you!” I say as I take off.
He follows me for a few seconds, but he stops in his tracks. “You’re going the wrong way!”
I turn to face him. He’s several feet away, pointing at a path hidden away by dried up branches and tree stumps. The path is sinister, full of nothingness but barren land. I can’t help but feel a sense of disgust.
“Is this really the Twelvemonth Blossom’s doing?” I ask Lucas.
“What else could it be? I don’t know if you noticed, but that creature is anything but natural. It takes so much from these poor lands.”
“I noticed.”
Our journey is quiet. What else could it be? We don’t have anything to say and the dead lands can’t speak. If they could talk, I’m sure all they’d do is wail. I thought I’ve seen barrenness before, but this is something indescribable. I feel surrounded by death. There’s nothing but vastness ahead of us, and the night is nigh. I can already see the sun hiding behind the horizon. We’ll have to camp.
“I don’t think I’ll be able to sleep tonight.” I declare, full of resolve.
“Don’t underestimate your tiredness, Macie. Nightmares are powerless when the brain is exhausted.”
“Why does Maina owe you favors?” I manage to build up the courage to ask.
“Everyone in that town does. You know, I am quite the generous sponsor; I offer building materials, resources, and even money to the village people, in return for so little. I only want to see them prosper. I can’t wait to return to that village. Maybe we’ll visit it again after Mary wakes up.” Lucas smiles.
“That’d be nice.”
We set up our camp and hide away from the world in our tent. Just as I thought, I can’t fall asleep. Besides me, Lucas snores. I stare at the tent’s ceiling, unable to do anything else. On it, my mind projects stars, and celestial corpses dancing on the universe’s stage. I follow each being and their elegant dances. Time passes while I let my imagination reign my mind. My eyelashes cloud my eyes, and before I know it, I fall asleep as well.
I dream of fog. Dark fog surrounds a decrepit house hidden away in the forest. Rain unleashes its’ teardrops upon the woodland while the fog engulfs the house until I can’t see anything but white. I run forward, hoping to reach the cabin, but it seemingly vanished. The rain starts getting more furious as the ground begins to get so muddy that I can barely walk in it. I run ahead, but I inevitably slip and fall. Now I’m fully covered in mud. Dirty and injured, I look up, where I find a baby doll sitting in the mud just like me. She looks at me with lifeless buttons as eyes, wearing an indecipherable expression. I try to touch it, but it backs away. A second try yields the same results. The third time, though, it allows me to grab her hand. She comes closer, and I embrace her with all my might.
I wake up with my mind empty. I have already forgotten about my dream. Lucas has woken up earlier than me; he’s preparing breakfast from the provisions we packed.
After we eat and feed the horses, we begin walking again. The shrubs and dried-up branches begin getting less and less common, as the only thing that expands upon these lands is emptiness. The stallions are getting more agitated with each passing second. Soon, they’ll refuse to venture out further.
We reach something that I can only describe as a ruined city. There are several paths engraved in the ground, clearly made by humans. To our side, we can see houses dilapidated either by time or by the influence of the Cave Queen. There is rubble everywhere I look. We must be getting ostensibly close to the creature. This is our sign to ditch our horses here.
My eyes notice an immense dent in the ground, accompanied by a cave fenced by flame lilies. That must be it. This is the household of the Twelvemonth Blossom.
“Be careful. Flame lilies are highly poisonous. Do not worry, I’ll lift you up and throw you over the barrier.” His words do worry me, but the only response I give is a nod.
Before I can fully process his words, I’m thrown over the wall of flame lilies. I rise to my feet, surprisingly not injured, and wait for Lucas to jump over. He backs away in an attempt to gain momentum and masterfully jumps over the fence of flowers. Now reunited, he tells me:
“This is it, Macie. Are you ready to see the dreaded Cave Queen?”
“Aren’t you scared?” I am filled with curiosity at his reaction.
“I have nothing to fear. The mother flower is nothing but a big, brainless mortal. It can die, and it will… by my hands.” His expression looks solemn. This promise that he made to Mary must be extremely important to him.
We enter the cave where the Cave Queen resides. There’s no turning back from this.
The cave is emptier than I expected it to be. The entrance leads to a long hallway full of nothing. The walls are harsh to the touch. The darkness inside the cave isn’t anything similar to the darkness I’ve grown accustomed to. This one is raw, almost painful. My heartbeat quickens as my eyes meet the obscurity of the grotto. Lucas pulls out a match and lights it using the cavern’s walls. In turn, he lights a lamp with it. The blankness dissipates. Now that I see better, I notice the cave is not empty at all. It’s full of little flowers scattered around every surface. Lilies, roses, peonies, and daffodils surround me. They’re all conspicuously smaller than they’re supposed to be, and they look like they’re hanging on for their dear life. Their stems catch my eyes; they’re all tawny brown. There’s no tint of vibrance in their hue. I must admit I feel bad for the poor flora of this place. “I thought they were supposed to be moving.” I turn to Lucas, who seems fo
After we treat our wounds, we embark on the journey home. Though the difference is not noticeable, nature seems to be healing. The grasp of the Twelvemonth Blossom has loosened; now all that’s left is a space that will surely thrive…in time. On the outskirts of the ruined city, there waits Morning Star and Chocolate. Their eyes lighten when they see us. I brush my hand gently on Morning Star’s mane. Lucas does the same to his horse while smiling from ear to ear. The way home is serene, full of nothing but peace. On the way home, Lucas tells me stories about Mary. “Mary’s mother has never liked me. She always thought I’d be the downfall of her daughter.” His eyes lower. “But the father’s opinion is all that matters in our society, so I was lucky he liked me.” “Why didn’t Mary’s mother like you?” “She thought of herself as a witch. A witch who could foresee the future. She predicted that her death will be my culpabi
I return to Lucas’ mansion to pack supplies for the trip. The living room is empty. My curiosity gets the better of me so I go to his room to check on him. There he lays, dormant and corpse-like, in his bed. I wonder if he’s asleep, yet I do not approach him. I let him sulk in peace while I get leftovers from the pantry. I pack some clothes, food, and feed for Morning Star. In my head, I’m debating whether to tell Lucas about the trip or not, but the chiefess’ words ring in my head. Maybe Lucas’ presence might upset the tribe since he’s not native to these lands, or maybe he was rude when Esme first took him to the healer. Who knows? Is it worth mulling over something I can’t know right now?Before I depart, I go to the shed Lucas showed me. Inside, buried under a pile of tools, I find a bow and a set of arrows. Though I have never held a bow before, I take it with me, just in case I need to hunt for food… Or to defend myself.I check on Lucas again to see if he’s asleep. He is. The s
The next morning is quiet. Too quiet. Lucas sits on the opposite end of the table, looking dully at his food. I try to speak, yet the words are caught in my throat.“You don’t realize how dangerous this forest is.” He mutters.“I do! There’s nothing but a barren world beyond this point!”“What if you got hurt?!” He yells quietly.“It would have been worth it! Now we know the true cure for Mary! We need to return to-““No, WE don’t! I’ll go alone. I made a mistake bringing you the first time.” He eats the last crumb on this plate and retreats to his room before I could protest. At least he’s willing to trust Sarki’s words. That’s somewhat of an improvement.As he gets ready to head out, I do the same. I don’t plan on staying home and doing nothing. Lucas mounts Chocolate and sets out, taking another path than the one we originally traveled on. I wait a few minutes then depart as well, walking on the original trail.After a while, Morning Star comes to a halt and begins examining a smal
Dazed and confused, I awake in my room. Well, not exactly my room, but the chamber Lucas offered me when we first arrived at his mansion. Panic seeps through me as I realize where I am. By my side, Lucas stares through my soul with his glossy eyes.“Thank goodness you’re awake! I was waiting for you to wake up so we can revive Mary together.” He coos.Scared out of my mind, I back away, which greatly displeases him.“Is this about Sarki? Because if it is, I was simply avenging my father-in-law’s honor.”“What?” I mutter, trying to wrap my mind around his words.“Sarki and Esme, my mother-in-law, used to be engaged before her family arranged a marriage with my father-in-law. Any decent person would break off the relationship, but she continued to cheat on her husband until Sarki got married to another woman.”“And you killed them both!” I lash at him, spitting fury against his dumbfounded face.“Macie…”“DON’T CALL ME THAT! MY NAME IS MANSURAH!”“Macie, Esme is a whore. If she can’t be
A barrier of rain engulfs the little village atop the mountains. All its’ inhibitors have found stability within their residences. There is only one creature outside during the downpour: a sobbing child. Or at least this is what the reflection in the puddle is telling me. My reflection is crying, yet I don’t feel the supposedly warm tears damping my skin. I guess the rainwater refuses to let my trembling body get any heat.I look down at my hands, their dark hue matches the rain cloud that hovers over me. My fawn-colored palms sit shakingly on my bruised knees. I can see my veins, they’re quivering too. Restless drops turmoil the puddles adjacent to me, yet I can still catch a relatively clear image of myself: my coily hair, once in neat puffs decorated with variegated clips proudly sitting atop my head, now disheveled, being stirred by the cruel wind who purples my skin. My nose is heavy with snot, and tears feel weighty in my eyes; they redden my sclera. My vision blurs more and mor
Night falls upon us like a soft blanket. The serenity of our surroundings puts me to sleep before I can even unfurl my thoughts. My lashes fall heavy, and before I know it, I’m asleep. My dreams are just replays of today. Today was full of silence, but not like the cruel silence from the village. This quietness was peaceful. For the first time in my life, I allowed myself to drown in tranquility. How quaint. I want more of the life Lucas is offering me. An unexpected loudness disrupts my otherwise harmonious sleep. I awake, full of contempt. Only now do I realize I’ve fallen asleep on the very pillow I’ve first seated myself on. The colorful one. My first instinct is to search for Lucas, who is nowhere to be seen. I arise to my feet and begin taking steps towards where I think the noise came from. I take a few steps forward, only to find Lucas behind a tree, with a dead boar in hand. The animal seems to have fallen into a trap laid by him. I wasn’t aware there
For dinner, Lucas cooked another boar. I could never get used to the unique succulence of these animals.The dining room is dignified. Filled with the allure of the upper class. I am seated next to Lucas, despite the table having enough spots to fit a congregation.“I’ve been meaning to ask you.” I shatter the quietness with my words. Despite the silence, there’s no hint of awkwardness or discomfort. “What material is the big doll house in my room made from?”“Plastic.” He looks at me confused. “I’ve never met a child so interested in building materials before.” His confused look gradually vanishes, being replaced with a hearty smile. “I’ll have to show you my shed sometimes. It’s full of all things under the sun.”“I’d like that.” I smile back.After dinner, I help Lucas wash the dishes. He thanks me, and pats me on the head. I’ve never been praised like that before, or I don’t remember it. Either way, I could get used to this cozy lifestyle.Next, I take a bath in Lucas’ guest bathr