I return to Lucas’ mansion to pack supplies for the trip. The living room is empty. My curiosity gets the better of me so I go to his room to check on him. There he lays, dormant and corpse-like, in his bed. I wonder if he’s asleep, yet I do not approach him. I let him sulk in peace while I get leftovers from the pantry. I pack some clothes, food, and feed for Morning Star. In my head, I’m debating whether to tell Lucas about the trip or not, but the chiefess’ words ring in my head. Maybe Lucas’ presence might upset the tribe since he’s not native to these lands, or maybe he was rude when Esme first took him to the healer. Who knows? Is it worth mulling over something I can’t know right now?
Before I depart, I go to the shed Lucas showed me. Inside, buried under a pile of tools, I find a bow and a set of arrows. Though I have never held a bow before, I take it with me, just in case I need to hunt for food… Or to defend myself.
I check on Lucas again to see if he’s asleep. He is. The sun hides between the horizon as I leave my new home. I follow the path marked on the map through something that looks like the remnants of a swamp. Though most of the land is barren, I can see glimpses of vegetation slowly rising out of their slumber. The lower parts of the shrubbery are greener than the top.
It doesn’t take long before I arrive at a dead end. A boulder as big as a house wedged between two unclimbable hills interrupts my trail. Unsure of what to do, I try to climb the rock, only to fall and hurt my ankle. Luckily, I can still walk on it. The only option left is to go around the hills. I walk until my vision blurs. That’s my cue to rest, yet my instinct tells me to keep going. By now, the moon has settled in the sky, dancing between the stars like a costume-less ballerina.
I notice a suspicious amount of greenery in the far corner of the hill, hidden behind small stones. I understand nature is beginning to thrive again, but I can’t help but think that doesn’t look natural. I advance toward the vegetation and dismount Morning Star. I carefully explore the surface of the plants, only to find the flora is plastic. I touch the fake plants, bending them to my will. Behind them, a small opening in the ground flickers. There must be something inside. I light the lamp I took from Lucas in order to see better. The brightness reveals to me that the hole is not as deep as it looks, so against my better judgment, I jump in. Luckily, it’s just about my size. An adult probably couldn’t fit in here.
The pit is no deeper than my height. Its’ interior looks like a chamber, or a personal office. It’s filled with furniture that looks like it belongs in an upper-class manor. To my right, there’s a bookshelf filled with all types of records, and to my left, there’s a black desk made from oak wood accompanied by a leather armchair. The desk holds a golden lamp. There are documents scattered everywhere. Curious, I search the environment, but all of the documents are in a foreign language. Despite all the negative emotions swimming in my head, I shove as many records into my backpack as I can. I mark this place on the map and exit the hole.
Outside, Morning Star is waiting for me patiently. The revelation of this mysterious office’s existence has given me the energy to continue my journey. My beloved steed seems to have rested as well. I resume my trip around the hill, where I finally find a path toward the red markings. The map leads me through a much healthier forest, seemingly unaffected by the powers of the Twelvemonth Blossom. The air is not as dry, and the hues of the forest appear more vibrant.
All of a sudden, a settlement opens itself before me. Surrounded by wooden fences as girthy as my horse, reaching my neck while riding Morning Star, an endless array of huts lines up before my eyes. They’re angular and simple, yet they seem comfortable to live in. Each house has its own backyard filled with various growing vegetables. I walk around the boundary until I find a massive gate made from oak wood and mud combined masterfully. It is too big for me to move on my own, so I resort to knocking. When no one comes to answer, I knock again, yet the same result presents itself. I suppose they must be sleeping. As a last option, I try to jump over the fence, yet Morning Star cannot manage to leap this high. Desolate, I set up camp outside the entrance of the village and wait. A blurry glimpse of the forest flickers before my eyes, and darkness begins dancing around my surroundings. The moon’s divine light gets dimmer and dimmer until nightfall finally steals me away.
Something tugs at my arm forcefully. Alarmed, I jolt awake full of vigor, skipping the half-asleep part of my routine. I take a quick look around: I’m in an unknown room, and Morning Star is nowhere to be seen. Out of a window, I can see the sun has already risen to its apogee. Next to me, an aged man, probably in his seventies, sits on a chair. The first thing he does upon my awakening is pat my shoulder comfortingly.
“What’s your name?” He coos.
“I’m Mansurah…”
“What a beautiful name. I am named Sarki.” He retreats his hand from my shoulder. “What were you doing outside this late?”
“Where’s Morning Star?” Realization floods my brain as I notice my steed is nowhere to be seen.
“Who?”
“My horse!” I yell, panicked.
“Oh, do not worry, Mansurah. It is in my stables. I had him fed and cleaned.” Sarki smiles at me with warmth in his eyes. His kind demeanor calms me. “Were you abandoned by our city’s gate?" He recommences his questioning.
“No… I came of my own volition. I’m here to find the chief healer.”
“You’re in luck then.” Sarki chuckles. “You just found him.”
I take a better look at him. He’s dressed in white garbs reaching his feet. His sleeves are long and flowy, decorated at the end with golden cuffs. His chest plate is colored green and yellow, forming a cubic pattern around his torso. His shoulders are adorned with sharp epaulets that lift higher than the upper arm, leaving the impression of horns. He wears a crocheted cap, covering his hair. His skin is as dark as obsidian, riddled with a surprising number of wrinkles. His eyes are small but profound, and his full lips are carved into a welcoming smile.
“Three years ago, or so, a family came to you with a cursed daughter.” I’m explaining the story so fast that I can barely understand myself. “You told them to seek the Twelvemonth Blossom and its’ lifeblood. Her husband did just as told, but she hasn’t awakened. There’s something wrong with your treatment.”
“Slow down, Mansurah. I believe you’re talking about Esme Abney and her foreigner family.” He enunciates with calm, miraculously having understood my rant. “Long ago, she visited our tribe with her husband, daughter, and son-in-law. She begged me to unravel the agony that has swallowed her child.” He pauses for a second, as if in pain. “Her daughter… She was cursed by something unbeknownst to the Tsakiya tribe, a tribe that has practiced healing alchemy since the beginning of times.”
“So you couldn’t heal her?” I ask, hoping for a clearer answer.
“I tried every remedy I had, yet to no avail.” Sarki covers his mouth with his creased hand. “The demon, or wizard, or entity that has taken ahold of the woman was too powerful for my competencies. In the end, my only option was to guide them to the Midnight Dweller, or Twelvemonth Blossom, as you call it, the beastly mutant that resides in the cave on the outskirts of the forest. Its’ milk is fueling her little society inside the cave; every single creature inside relies on it for life, so I thought it would help the girl too.”
“The milk? Not the blood?” I stare at him wide-eyed.
“The milk is the lifeblood of that cave. There would be no life without it.” Sarki tells me with a nonchalant flair. Though his calmness is infectious, I can’t help but panic at the revelation.
“Where can I find the milk?”
“It’s settled at the core of the great Twelvemonth Blossom.”
“So, the pistil?” I ask him, and Sarki nods.
“Affirmative, Mansurah. Once broken, the core will begin dripping with the milk.”
“That’s going to be a problem… We already defeated the Twelvemonth Blossom; except we took its’ blood instead of its’ milk.”
Sarki stares at me with eyes as wide as circles, surprised we managed to defeat the mutant. After a moment of silence, he opens his mouth:
“I doubt that will be a problem. You can just return to its’ lair and collect the milk. If you need help, I can send someone to escort you.” Sarki smiles tenderly in an attempt to comfort me.
“I appreciate it, but there’s no need. I should probably return home before Lucas finds out I’m gone.”
“Do you still keep in contact with Esme Abney?” He asks me with a tint of embarrassment in his voice.
“Actually, I’ve never met her. All I know about her is from stories.”
“Ah, that’s unfortunate. She’s a kind woman. I must admit I’m quite worried since I haven’t heard from her for quite a while. I assumed you knew something about her.”
“Uhm…” I stutter. “I’ve heard she lives in an old mansion. She got separated from her husband.”
“That’s good to hear. Her spouse is quite the bastard.” Sarki laughs to himself. “If you ever meet Esme, tell her Sarki misses her.”
“I will, sir! Thank you for everything.” I head for the exit.
“At least stay for breakfast.” He pleads with me, but I turn down his offer. I must be back home before Lucas awakens.
Sarki leads me to the stables, where Morning Star is grazing peacefully. I gather all my belongings and mount my steed, setting off towards Lucas’ mansion, but not before greeting Sarki and thanking him again.
As I exit the town, it starts to rain heavily. Multiple dark clouds hover the region, but a particularly atrocious congregation of angry clouds sit menacingly above Sarki’s home. The deluge seems to grow stronger the more I back away. This rainfall reminds me of the one from back in my village. Unsettled, I command Morning Star to speed up and slowly leave the tribe in the distance.
Morning Star seems quite happy after the night he spent at Sarki’s stables. He has no problem speeding up more and more until it seems like we’re flying. At this rate, we’ll arrive home faster than anticipated. I follow the path I took to reach the tribe, yet it seems to be blocked by fallen branches. With all the momentum he gained from running so recklessly, Morning Star manages to jump over the collapsed branches, but in doing so, he injures his hoof. We are forced to camp out in order to rest and treat Morning Star’s injury. Before we can continue our journey, the sun has already set.
We return home at the apex of midnight. Lucas is sitting on the porch, on a rocking chair, wearing a tired expression.
“Where the hell were you?” He asks angrily.
“I visited the Tsakiya healer! He told me where we went wrong! Please listen-“
“How dare you sneak off like that? Don’t you realize how worried I was?!” He yells at me with a voice I’ve never heard before. “Just go to your room. We’ll talk tomorrow…” Lucas clenches his fists so tight that I can see small drops of blood dripping from his hands.
Not wanting to anger him further, I do as I’m told and head to my room. I don’t see this as a punishment for my room is so elegant and large, yet I feel as if I deserve to be penalized for angering Lucas. I get dressed in my pajamas and seek comfort in my bed. Before I know it, my consciousness departs to the land of sleep.
“You’ll have to excuse Lucas…” Mary’s soft voice rings out throughout the room. “He just… gets like that sometimes.”
“I don’t like it, but I feel like I deserve it.”
“You do, but we’ll always love you, no matter what you do.” She coos.
“Did your mother know Sarki?” I ask her, hoping she has the answers I’m looking for.
“Who? Oh, the healer! My mother used to gush about him when I was little. They truly forged a special bond. They bonded over their love for witchcraft. That’s as far as my knowledge of their relationship goes.” Mary pats me on the head. “To be fair, I don’t know much about my mother and her affairs, but I know that Sarki was special.”
I don’t remember anything about my mother either. She’s nothing but a blurry figure in my head. I regret this, yet I don’t know if there’s any way to fix it.
“Have you ever met him?” Mary asks me.
“I have today. He seemed like a kind man, maybe a little too old, but kind.”
“Too old?” Mary bursts out laughing. “Ah, you really are adorable. There’s no such thing as someone being too old. The ones that live to these ages are lucky.” Mary takes a break from laughing. “I wish I met him too. I was asleep when mother and father took me to him for a consult.”
“You’ll meet him one day! Now that I know what went wrong with your treatment, we can wake you up!” I enthusiastically cheer.
“I do hope that happens… And I do hope mother was wrong about her prophecies.”
The next morning is quiet. Too quiet. Lucas sits on the opposite end of the table, looking dully at his food. I try to speak, yet the words are caught in my throat.“You don’t realize how dangerous this forest is.” He mutters.“I do! There’s nothing but a barren world beyond this point!”“What if you got hurt?!” He yells quietly.“It would have been worth it! Now we know the true cure for Mary! We need to return to-““No, WE don’t! I’ll go alone. I made a mistake bringing you the first time.” He eats the last crumb on this plate and retreats to his room before I could protest. At least he’s willing to trust Sarki’s words. That’s somewhat of an improvement.As he gets ready to head out, I do the same. I don’t plan on staying home and doing nothing. Lucas mounts Chocolate and sets out, taking another path than the one we originally traveled on. I wait a few minutes then depart as well, walking on the original trail.After a while, Morning Star comes to a halt and begins examining a smal
Dazed and confused, I awake in my room. Well, not exactly my room, but the chamber Lucas offered me when we first arrived at his mansion. Panic seeps through me as I realize where I am. By my side, Lucas stares through my soul with his glossy eyes.“Thank goodness you’re awake! I was waiting for you to wake up so we can revive Mary together.” He coos.Scared out of my mind, I back away, which greatly displeases him.“Is this about Sarki? Because if it is, I was simply avenging my father-in-law’s honor.”“What?” I mutter, trying to wrap my mind around his words.“Sarki and Esme, my mother-in-law, used to be engaged before her family arranged a marriage with my father-in-law. Any decent person would break off the relationship, but she continued to cheat on her husband until Sarki got married to another woman.”“And you killed them both!” I lash at him, spitting fury against his dumbfounded face.“Macie…”“DON’T CALL ME THAT! MY NAME IS MANSURAH!”“Macie, Esme is a whore. If she can’t be
A barrier of rain engulfs the little village atop the mountains. All its’ inhibitors have found stability within their residences. There is only one creature outside during the downpour: a sobbing child. Or at least this is what the reflection in the puddle is telling me. My reflection is crying, yet I don’t feel the supposedly warm tears damping my skin. I guess the rainwater refuses to let my trembling body get any heat.I look down at my hands, their dark hue matches the rain cloud that hovers over me. My fawn-colored palms sit shakingly on my bruised knees. I can see my veins, they’re quivering too. Restless drops turmoil the puddles adjacent to me, yet I can still catch a relatively clear image of myself: my coily hair, once in neat puffs decorated with variegated clips proudly sitting atop my head, now disheveled, being stirred by the cruel wind who purples my skin. My nose is heavy with snot, and tears feel weighty in my eyes; they redden my sclera. My vision blurs more and mor
Night falls upon us like a soft blanket. The serenity of our surroundings puts me to sleep before I can even unfurl my thoughts. My lashes fall heavy, and before I know it, I’m asleep. My dreams are just replays of today. Today was full of silence, but not like the cruel silence from the village. This quietness was peaceful. For the first time in my life, I allowed myself to drown in tranquility. How quaint. I want more of the life Lucas is offering me. An unexpected loudness disrupts my otherwise harmonious sleep. I awake, full of contempt. Only now do I realize I’ve fallen asleep on the very pillow I’ve first seated myself on. The colorful one. My first instinct is to search for Lucas, who is nowhere to be seen. I arise to my feet and begin taking steps towards where I think the noise came from. I take a few steps forward, only to find Lucas behind a tree, with a dead boar in hand. The animal seems to have fallen into a trap laid by him. I wasn’t aware there
For dinner, Lucas cooked another boar. I could never get used to the unique succulence of these animals.The dining room is dignified. Filled with the allure of the upper class. I am seated next to Lucas, despite the table having enough spots to fit a congregation.“I’ve been meaning to ask you.” I shatter the quietness with my words. Despite the silence, there’s no hint of awkwardness or discomfort. “What material is the big doll house in my room made from?”“Plastic.” He looks at me confused. “I’ve never met a child so interested in building materials before.” His confused look gradually vanishes, being replaced with a hearty smile. “I’ll have to show you my shed sometimes. It’s full of all things under the sun.”“I’d like that.” I smile back.After dinner, I help Lucas wash the dishes. He thanks me, and pats me on the head. I’ve never been praised like that before, or I don’t remember it. Either way, I could get used to this cozy lifestyle.Next, I take a bath in Lucas’ guest bathr
I get up early, excited for the day ahead. The sun has settled over a pink sea of clouds, not yet risen to its apogee. I shower, get dressed, and head for Lucas’ room, where I gently knock. My knocking doesn’t elicit a response. Unsure of what to do, I sit on the floor outside his room, hoping he would come out soon. He exits the room several minutes later. “Macie? What are you doing here?” He asks me, full of surprise. “I was waiting for you to wake up. Good morning.” “Good morning, Macie.” “When are we heading out?” “After we eat.” Lucas pats my head. Breakfast is uneventful. Or maybe I’m simply not paying attention to the world surrounding me. I’m too busy thinking of the Cave Queen, the Twelvemonth Blossom, and whatever other nicknames it has. At the end of the day, it’s just a creature like the rest of us. I want to see it with my own eyes even if it’d mean I’d lose my sight. We only
The cave is emptier than I expected it to be. The entrance leads to a long hallway full of nothing. The walls are harsh to the touch. The darkness inside the cave isn’t anything similar to the darkness I’ve grown accustomed to. This one is raw, almost painful. My heartbeat quickens as my eyes meet the obscurity of the grotto. Lucas pulls out a match and lights it using the cavern’s walls. In turn, he lights a lamp with it. The blankness dissipates. Now that I see better, I notice the cave is not empty at all. It’s full of little flowers scattered around every surface. Lilies, roses, peonies, and daffodils surround me. They’re all conspicuously smaller than they’re supposed to be, and they look like they’re hanging on for their dear life. Their stems catch my eyes; they’re all tawny brown. There’s no tint of vibrance in their hue. I must admit I feel bad for the poor flora of this place. “I thought they were supposed to be moving.” I turn to Lucas, who seems fo
After we treat our wounds, we embark on the journey home. Though the difference is not noticeable, nature seems to be healing. The grasp of the Twelvemonth Blossom has loosened; now all that’s left is a space that will surely thrive…in time. On the outskirts of the ruined city, there waits Morning Star and Chocolate. Their eyes lighten when they see us. I brush my hand gently on Morning Star’s mane. Lucas does the same to his horse while smiling from ear to ear. The way home is serene, full of nothing but peace. On the way home, Lucas tells me stories about Mary. “Mary’s mother has never liked me. She always thought I’d be the downfall of her daughter.” His eyes lower. “But the father’s opinion is all that matters in our society, so I was lucky he liked me.” “Why didn’t Mary’s mother like you?” “She thought of herself as a witch. A witch who could foresee the future. She predicted that her death will be my culpabi
Dazed and confused, I awake in my room. Well, not exactly my room, but the chamber Lucas offered me when we first arrived at his mansion. Panic seeps through me as I realize where I am. By my side, Lucas stares through my soul with his glossy eyes.“Thank goodness you’re awake! I was waiting for you to wake up so we can revive Mary together.” He coos.Scared out of my mind, I back away, which greatly displeases him.“Is this about Sarki? Because if it is, I was simply avenging my father-in-law’s honor.”“What?” I mutter, trying to wrap my mind around his words.“Sarki and Esme, my mother-in-law, used to be engaged before her family arranged a marriage with my father-in-law. Any decent person would break off the relationship, but she continued to cheat on her husband until Sarki got married to another woman.”“And you killed them both!” I lash at him, spitting fury against his dumbfounded face.“Macie…”“DON’T CALL ME THAT! MY NAME IS MANSURAH!”“Macie, Esme is a whore. If she can’t be
The next morning is quiet. Too quiet. Lucas sits on the opposite end of the table, looking dully at his food. I try to speak, yet the words are caught in my throat.“You don’t realize how dangerous this forest is.” He mutters.“I do! There’s nothing but a barren world beyond this point!”“What if you got hurt?!” He yells quietly.“It would have been worth it! Now we know the true cure for Mary! We need to return to-““No, WE don’t! I’ll go alone. I made a mistake bringing you the first time.” He eats the last crumb on this plate and retreats to his room before I could protest. At least he’s willing to trust Sarki’s words. That’s somewhat of an improvement.As he gets ready to head out, I do the same. I don’t plan on staying home and doing nothing. Lucas mounts Chocolate and sets out, taking another path than the one we originally traveled on. I wait a few minutes then depart as well, walking on the original trail.After a while, Morning Star comes to a halt and begins examining a smal
I return to Lucas’ mansion to pack supplies for the trip. The living room is empty. My curiosity gets the better of me so I go to his room to check on him. There he lays, dormant and corpse-like, in his bed. I wonder if he’s asleep, yet I do not approach him. I let him sulk in peace while I get leftovers from the pantry. I pack some clothes, food, and feed for Morning Star. In my head, I’m debating whether to tell Lucas about the trip or not, but the chiefess’ words ring in my head. Maybe Lucas’ presence might upset the tribe since he’s not native to these lands, or maybe he was rude when Esme first took him to the healer. Who knows? Is it worth mulling over something I can’t know right now?Before I depart, I go to the shed Lucas showed me. Inside, buried under a pile of tools, I find a bow and a set of arrows. Though I have never held a bow before, I take it with me, just in case I need to hunt for food… Or to defend myself.I check on Lucas again to see if he’s asleep. He is. The s
After we treat our wounds, we embark on the journey home. Though the difference is not noticeable, nature seems to be healing. The grasp of the Twelvemonth Blossom has loosened; now all that’s left is a space that will surely thrive…in time. On the outskirts of the ruined city, there waits Morning Star and Chocolate. Their eyes lighten when they see us. I brush my hand gently on Morning Star’s mane. Lucas does the same to his horse while smiling from ear to ear. The way home is serene, full of nothing but peace. On the way home, Lucas tells me stories about Mary. “Mary’s mother has never liked me. She always thought I’d be the downfall of her daughter.” His eyes lower. “But the father’s opinion is all that matters in our society, so I was lucky he liked me.” “Why didn’t Mary’s mother like you?” “She thought of herself as a witch. A witch who could foresee the future. She predicted that her death will be my culpabi
The cave is emptier than I expected it to be. The entrance leads to a long hallway full of nothing. The walls are harsh to the touch. The darkness inside the cave isn’t anything similar to the darkness I’ve grown accustomed to. This one is raw, almost painful. My heartbeat quickens as my eyes meet the obscurity of the grotto. Lucas pulls out a match and lights it using the cavern’s walls. In turn, he lights a lamp with it. The blankness dissipates. Now that I see better, I notice the cave is not empty at all. It’s full of little flowers scattered around every surface. Lilies, roses, peonies, and daffodils surround me. They’re all conspicuously smaller than they’re supposed to be, and they look like they’re hanging on for their dear life. Their stems catch my eyes; they’re all tawny brown. There’s no tint of vibrance in their hue. I must admit I feel bad for the poor flora of this place. “I thought they were supposed to be moving.” I turn to Lucas, who seems fo
I get up early, excited for the day ahead. The sun has settled over a pink sea of clouds, not yet risen to its apogee. I shower, get dressed, and head for Lucas’ room, where I gently knock. My knocking doesn’t elicit a response. Unsure of what to do, I sit on the floor outside his room, hoping he would come out soon. He exits the room several minutes later. “Macie? What are you doing here?” He asks me, full of surprise. “I was waiting for you to wake up. Good morning.” “Good morning, Macie.” “When are we heading out?” “After we eat.” Lucas pats my head. Breakfast is uneventful. Or maybe I’m simply not paying attention to the world surrounding me. I’m too busy thinking of the Cave Queen, the Twelvemonth Blossom, and whatever other nicknames it has. At the end of the day, it’s just a creature like the rest of us. I want to see it with my own eyes even if it’d mean I’d lose my sight. We only
For dinner, Lucas cooked another boar. I could never get used to the unique succulence of these animals.The dining room is dignified. Filled with the allure of the upper class. I am seated next to Lucas, despite the table having enough spots to fit a congregation.“I’ve been meaning to ask you.” I shatter the quietness with my words. Despite the silence, there’s no hint of awkwardness or discomfort. “What material is the big doll house in my room made from?”“Plastic.” He looks at me confused. “I’ve never met a child so interested in building materials before.” His confused look gradually vanishes, being replaced with a hearty smile. “I’ll have to show you my shed sometimes. It’s full of all things under the sun.”“I’d like that.” I smile back.After dinner, I help Lucas wash the dishes. He thanks me, and pats me on the head. I’ve never been praised like that before, or I don’t remember it. Either way, I could get used to this cozy lifestyle.Next, I take a bath in Lucas’ guest bathr
Night falls upon us like a soft blanket. The serenity of our surroundings puts me to sleep before I can even unfurl my thoughts. My lashes fall heavy, and before I know it, I’m asleep. My dreams are just replays of today. Today was full of silence, but not like the cruel silence from the village. This quietness was peaceful. For the first time in my life, I allowed myself to drown in tranquility. How quaint. I want more of the life Lucas is offering me. An unexpected loudness disrupts my otherwise harmonious sleep. I awake, full of contempt. Only now do I realize I’ve fallen asleep on the very pillow I’ve first seated myself on. The colorful one. My first instinct is to search for Lucas, who is nowhere to be seen. I arise to my feet and begin taking steps towards where I think the noise came from. I take a few steps forward, only to find Lucas behind a tree, with a dead boar in hand. The animal seems to have fallen into a trap laid by him. I wasn’t aware there
A barrier of rain engulfs the little village atop the mountains. All its’ inhibitors have found stability within their residences. There is only one creature outside during the downpour: a sobbing child. Or at least this is what the reflection in the puddle is telling me. My reflection is crying, yet I don’t feel the supposedly warm tears damping my skin. I guess the rainwater refuses to let my trembling body get any heat.I look down at my hands, their dark hue matches the rain cloud that hovers over me. My fawn-colored palms sit shakingly on my bruised knees. I can see my veins, they’re quivering too. Restless drops turmoil the puddles adjacent to me, yet I can still catch a relatively clear image of myself: my coily hair, once in neat puffs decorated with variegated clips proudly sitting atop my head, now disheveled, being stirred by the cruel wind who purples my skin. My nose is heavy with snot, and tears feel weighty in my eyes; they redden my sclera. My vision blurs more and mor