Zack stands outside the store, still reeling from an encounter with Mason and Sophia. He can’t believe what he just witnessed — his ex-crush openly admitting to cheating on his boyfriend and showing no remorse for it. And Mason, who has already given up on Celeste and is now fucking a cheater and a whore.
His mind is racing with questions. How can Mason do this? Is he really that desperate for Celeste’s attention?
But as Zack continues to mull over the situation, a loud commotion from inside the storage room snaps him back to reality. He rushes in, only to see a furious Mr. Thompson.
“What’s going on?” he asks breathlessly.
“You think I won’t find out?!” he yells at Zack. “You think you can get away with this?!”
Zack’s heart drops. He looks around frantically, trying to figure out what he is angry about. Did he forget to arrange something? Any missing stocks, perhaps?
“What is it?” Zack asks, his voice trembling.
Mr. Thompson storms towards him, his face red with fury. “I can’t believe you would do something like this!” he yells at him.
“W—what did I do?” he asks, panicked.
“Don’t play dumb with me!” Mr. Thompson booms. “I am not an idiot! I know you've just had sex here!”
Zack feels a lump form in his throat as he stares at his boss in shock and disbelief. He can feel himself turning red from embarrassment.
“It’s not me, it was Mason and his... girl, and—”
“Shut up! You’re fired!” Mr. Thompson cuts him off.
“What? No way!” Zack protests, his voice shaking.
“You heard me,” Mr. Thompson says sternly. “I have zero tolerance for this kind of behavior in my store!”
Zack’s mind races as he tries to come up with a defense, but before he can even speak, Mr. Thompson continues shouting at him.
“I can’t believe this is how you will repay me for giving you a job!”
Zack hangs his head in shame, feeling like a complete failure. How did things escalate so quickly? “But Mr. Thompson, it really is not my fault...” he tries to defend, but he feels deflated already.
“Mason doesn’t have a key to the back store!” he yells, pointing an accusing finger at him.
“But you left it open in a hurry earlier, that’s when they—” Zack tries to explain, but Mr. Thompson interrupts again.
“And now, you’re saying it’s my fault?!”
Zack feels like he’s drowning. He knows he didn’t do anything wrong, but how can he prove it when his boss won’t even listen?
“I’m sorry, sir,” he says instead, feeling defeated.
“I want you gone from this store today!”
He looks up. “But my last pay—”
“Your last pay will be used to clean up this place, and for all the damage you’ve caused during the robbery. You are even on the negatives with me!”
Zack cannot believe it, and even when he’s back to the cashier, he doesn’t know what to do or what to think anymore.
He is fired, and now, he is gathering his things like a meek little thing who won’t amount to anything. He walks out of the store with his head hanging low. Now, how will he explain this to Celeste and his family?
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“Zack! What are you doing up there? I’m hungry!” Celeste calls from outside his room, shattering his reverie.
Right, what was he doing? He looks around his tiny room. He is lying on his bed, holding his phone, while waiting for Mason’s reply. He is asking him to come visit so they can play some games, but he leaves it on seen mode.
It seems like, now that Mason has given up on his cousin, he has also given up on their friendship.
“Zack?”
He groans. Celeste just came from work. It’s the first time they meet after that robbery, and now, her voice is annoying him again.
“Zack?!” she calls again. This time, there is a knock on his door.
“Coming!” Zack shouts back.
He gets up from his bed. Besides, it’s their agreement that Celeste will take care of the bills while he takes care of the cleaning of the apartment and cooking for her. Basically, he is her all around servant.
He gets out of his room and sees her outside, her arms crossed against her chest.
“You look like a mess. What happened to you?” she asks, looking at his injuries.
“Nothing,” he responds as he walks past her.
She follows him to the kitchen as he prepares for their dinner.
“Hey, I want fried chicken tonight,” she comments as she watches him take out potatoes from the fridge.
He sighs and puts the potatoes back. “Okay,” he answers, reaching for the chicken instead.
“You should thaw them. I bought them yesterday.”
“Yeah, yeah,” he answers, trying not to sound annoyed. “Hmmm, we are missing ingredients. We don’t have a breading mix.”
“Seriously? But I specifically asked you to buy some yesterday!” Celeste exclaims.
“I know, but something came up at work and I forgot,” Zack explains.
“Why do you always forget things?!” Celeste mutters under her breath as she glares at him.
Zack can feel her disapproving gaze and it only makes him feel much worse. But he doesn’t say anything in return. What can he say? That he was fired because of a stupid mistake that wasn’t even his fault?
“Anything else you want to eat?”
She groans. “Just cook anything, as long as it is with chicken.”
He wants to groan in exasperation, but keeps it in. He obeys and continues the preparation.
“So whatever happened to your face?” she asks again. “Why do you look like you’ve been mauled by some beast?”
Zack freezes for a moment before continuing with his task. “I... there’s a robbery,” he answers vaguely, hoping she would drop the topic.
“Robbery?!” she exclaims, slamming hard at the table. “You should have told me!”
“But I—”
She groans. “I will call your parents!”
“There’s no need, I—”
“Shut up!” she says, and then she’s gone. She’s probably going to take her phone or something.
Zack groans again and continues with his task of preparing dinner. This is the reason he doesn’t want to meet her while his injuries are still healing. She will start being a pain in the ass.
After a while, Celeste returns to the kitchen. “Here, your mother wants to talk to you. In the meantime, I will just take a bath.”
“Yes?” he asks on the receiver.
“Zack? QuickFix has been robbed?”
“Yes, ma, but I am okay.”
There is a pause on the line and then his mother says again, “You might want to consider moving out and finding a place of your own? You’re becoming a burden to Celeste.”
‘The robbery is not my fault!’ he’d like to say, but he keeps mum.
“Zack, your cousin can’t support you forever. I heard she also buys your groceries, pays the rent and your utilities. You’re already too old to depend on her.”
Zack’s heart sinks as his mother’s words hit him like a ton of bricks. He knows she’s right. He can’t keep depending on Celeste for everything. But where will he go? What will he do? How can he support himself? He doesn’t have enough money to pay for rent and bills. And now he’s fired.
His mother sighs on the other line. “I think it’s time for you to start being independent. You’re already twenty-five and you’re still living with your cousin.”
“I know. I will figure something out,” Zack promises, even though he has no idea how.
“You better do,” his mother replies before ending the call.
Zack stands there for a moment, feeling helpless and lost. What can he do now? The job market is tough, and he doesn’t have a degree or any special skills that could land him a decent paying job.
He shakes his head and continues with dinner preparations. After a while, Celeste comes in.
“Is the dinner done?” she asks.
“Yes,” he answers, placing the food on the table while Celeste waits eagerly in her seat.
“Hmmm, that smells good,” she says with a smile as she takes in the aroma of the food. “Ah, right! I almost forgot to mention. I will be on vacation for the coming weeks. So, you will be alone for a while. You don’t need me to buy additional groceries right? You can buy them once you get your salary.”
Zack freezes as he looks at her, processing the information. Celeste is going on vacation? That means he will be left alone in the apartment for a few weeks. Panic starts to settle in as he thinks about how he will survive without her. There are groceries, but it won’t last him for over a week, and he doesn’t have any salary.
But before he can even voice out his concerns, Celeste continues, “And don’t forget to clean up after yourself. I don’t want to come home to a messy apartment.”
He nods absentmindedly, still trying to think of a solution. He can’t let her know that he’s worried about being left alone and unable to take care of himself.
“Remember,” Celeste says sternly, interrupting his thoughts once more. “I don’t want any wild parties happening here while I am gone, okay?”
Zack nods quickly, not trusting himself enough to speak without revealing his worries.
“Good,” Celeste says with a nod. “Now, I can’t wait to eat!”
It is a hot day as Zack lies on his bed and stares at the ceiling, doing and thinking nothing. Suddenly, his phone buzzes. He automatically picks it up, thinking that it’s Mason, and starts the call.“Mason?”“Brother? Zack?” she starts, her voice trembling. It is his sister, Trina.“Hi, Trina, how are you?” he asks.“Zack, thank god! I finally reached you!”He scratches his head. For the past few days, he is not answering any calls from them. He knows what they want — more money. And it is something he doesn’t have. He doesn’t even know how to survive the following weeks. He tried to look for work, but none were asking him to come for an interview.“Zack, are you still there?” she asks.“Yes, I am still here.”“My tuition is due, and if it’s unpaid, I won’t be able to graduate.”His gaze sweeps across his tiny room. What can he even do? He can’t even fend for himself.“The fees are due next week, Zack,” she continues, her voice filled with desperation. “If I don’t pay, I can’t take my
Zack scratches his head as he stares at the emails on the computer that Celeste allows him to borrow. His eyes scan through dozens of rejection emails, each one a punch to his gut. He rubs his temples, trying to ease the tension building up.He glances at his tattered leather wallet and takes another heavy sigh. His phone lights up and he reads the message from Trina. It is the amount of tuition he needs to pay and how to pay it. And now, his situation presses him down further, making it hard to breathe.Feeling defeated, Zack continues to search for job posts, his desperation creeping in. Finally, he comes across an advertisement for an online loan facility. He hesitates for a moment, but then clicks on the link. Maybe this is his last chance to make enough money to pay his tuition and survive until Celeste arrives and he can look for a new job.“Hello, Borrower,” a flashing marquee greets him as the website loads. “We’re here to help you with all your financial needs. What can we do
“I will extend my vacation for a few more weeks.”Zack rereads Celeste’s text message for a hundred times. Since then, days have turned into weeks with no luck in finding a job. He stares at the overdue notice from the loan facility. His money is quickly depleting. He has been trying so hard to find a job, but it seems like every door is closing on him.“I can’t believe I missed the first payment,” he mutters to himself.He begins to feel desperate as he realizes that he won’t be able to pay next month as well, if he won’t get a job soon.He sits on the couch and stares blankly at the TV, trying to distract himself from all his worries. Suddenly, there’s a sound coming from the door. Zack gets up just in time to find Celeste standing there with a big smile on her face.“Hey Zack!” she exclaims, holding up a shopping bag filled with goodies. “I’m back from vacation!”Zack forces a smile. Seeing her again, he feels relieved, but at the same time, he feels annoyed.“That’s great,” he mutt
“Why are you so slow?!” Celeste scolds. She meets him by the door and snatches the bag of groceries that she asked him for. “It’s painful, ugh! I need my pain reliever since an hour ago.”She takes what she needs and leaves him by the door. She moves to the living room, not even noticing the beating he has just endured just because she went away and been very happy while on her vacation!She turns towards him and snaps, “Hurry up with the other groceries, Zack! What are you standing there for?”“I-I’m sorry,” he stammers weakly, trying not to show his pain.Celeste rolls her eyes and shakes her head before returning her attention to the bag.“Do you need anything else?” he asks, trying to sound helpful.“Just my pain reliever… Where is it…” Celeste grumbles as she rummages through the groceries. “And probably some snacks.”“Here you go,” he says, handing her the pain reliever.“Hmm, you’re not as useless as I think you are,” she says and snatches the medicine from him.Zack flinches wh
“What happened to him?” “He was beaten up. Someone saw him in the alley and called for help to get him here.” Zack groans as he blinks and tries to focus on the voices around him. His eyes slowly adjust and he sees two figures standing over him. He immediately recognizes one of them as Celeste. He tries to sit up, but pain shoots through his body and he groans again. “Celeste?” he whimpers. “Are you now ready to tell me what’s happening with you?” she asks, a scolding tone in her voice. He grimaces as memories of the beating flood back into his mind. He winces in pain, trying to sit up again. He was beaten up more than he thought. “You’ve been badly beaten up, Zack. You need to rest,” the male nurse says as he places a hand on Celeste’s shoulders. “Be kind, Celeste. I will leave now, but if you need help, just tell me.“ She nods and when the nurse leaves and closes the door, Zack fears the incoming admonishment. She didn’t speak immediately though, but she moves closer and check
*********** TRIGGER WARNING: Self harm and Suicide. Consider yourself warned. ************ Zack hunches over in the corner of his room in Celeste’s apartment. He returned from the hospital yesterday and he hasn’t left his room since then. He is afraid to come across the loan sharks again. Thankfully, Celeste is too angry to request things from him. He shifts his attention to the window, which is covered in blinds, not allowing any light to flicker inside his room — or Celeste’s room, since she is the one paying for the entire apartment. “Useless,” he whispers in the darkness. He already knows it. He is fucking useless, but Celeste should have been more gentle about it, even if it is true. How can she dismiss his struggles with such callous indifference? He is also her family. Besides, it is also partly her fault, right? And now, he has hurt her, too. He scratches his head and hides his face. He doesn’t want to hurt her like that. He just wanted her to see his worth. That’s all he
Zack’s consciousness flickers like a faulty bulb of light, thrusting him back into the realm of the living with a jarring dissonance. His eyelids pry open, his gaze fixed on the bland ceiling. A sterile scent mingles with antiseptic as he realizes that he is back in the hospital again. He can even hear the sound of a machine beeping in a steady cadence. Zack sits up, but his body is aching. He feels weak and there are some tubes connected to him. He is about to take it off him when a voice says, “Easy now.” He shifts his attention to the voice and finds the same male nurse who acts more than a friend to Celeste. He snorts. He is about to say something when he realizes that he feels exhausted. “You are in a hospital, Zack,” he says. “Do you remember me?” He looks away. “The man Celeste is fucking,” he says. His throat is raw and dry. “Oh, you are still jealous,” he says, chuckling while giving him a glass of water. “She’s my cousin. I am not jealous.” “Just angry, huh?” he asks.
Zack freezes as Celeste wraps her arms around his neck. He doesn’t know how to respond. She is crying and trembling and the arms around him are getting tighter. “Zack, please let me help you,” she offers again. “You’ve been adrift for far too long.” His throat tightens. The walls he has built around himself are beginning to crumble under the weight of her words. Rather, her words feel like a lifeline tossed to him. Should he really grab it? Will his pride allow it? But he has been receiving her help for quite a while, right? It’s just a matter of finally admitting it. When he doesn’t respond, Celeste says with her voice trembling, “Why do you hate me so much?” Her initial anger, hot and bright, begins to wane, replaced by anguish and pain instead. “I don’t hate you,” Zack finally replies. “I think I just... I envy you.” She continues to cry, his shoulder getting wet with her tears. In truth, Zack wants her to hit him instead, rather than her, hugging him like this, trembling, as i