The night after the storm was calm. For some people, this is the perfect moment because they can drink coffee with pleasure while accompanied by snacks. For some, it is the same night as any other, a night of cold, loneliness and emptiness."So Rey, who is Katia?"Fading all my imagination, I who was daydreaming in an instant was surprised to freeze. I was on my way home, next to me, Mrs. Rika was driving with focus. The distance from here to the House might be about three more kilometers, but Mrs. Rika drove slowly, she did it like she had a certain intention."Why suddenly discuss her?""This is important, I want you to tell me the truth and tell me everything about her with nothing to hide!" strictly speaking.Why is she so suspicious of Katia? Is it okay to talk about everything we do?'No, no, I can't imagine what Mrs. Rika will do next!'"If we talk about her, we really only met and knew each other yesterday. She's the new clerk at the store I used to go to, and yeah ... she's
In my life, all the things I want are always away from life. I told my mom once."Mom... why is it that the things I want are always so far away and so hard to get?"I said it when I was heartbroken that my childhood friend was dating the person she liked, which was our senior a high school student. It was a past I wanted to forget, just remembering it always made me feel sick somewhere.My mother simply replied, "That's life Rey!""What do you mean? Can you explain it to me?""Ah ... I can't answer that now Rey!"say it with a gentle smile.Until her passing, she had not given me that answer, only the feeling of loss was overwhelming when I saw her buried in the cemetery.Indeed it was my fault, since entering high school and afflicted by various problems, I closed myself a little from my mother, I closed myself because the problems I faced were so heavy that I could not say it because it could embarrass my parents, even though the truth was just slander.I couldn't give her anything y
"Criminal!" "Rapist!" "Stay away from me, trash!" "You'd rather die damn it!" "Bastard!" Those words rained down on me as I walked through the school gates. Seeing the student in front of me paving the way while avoiding me, I felt like I was walking in an empty hallway and silence filled my body. I know that look, that look of disgust, condescension, intimidation, and anger. Then when I walked into the school ... the paper waste from the students was thrown and hit my shoulders one by one, accompanied by the students' harsh words that did not subside. I didn't care, because I realized... whatever I say, whatever I do now it will be useless. I entered the classroom, and I saw a girl sitting at my desk. "Kringg-kringg...." The sound of the alarm woke me from sleep. "Ah... that dream again." Back to remembering my past dream when I had given up and resigned myself to the situation, not knowing what to do, like falling into an abyss. Yes, I used to experience it, I was lik
I will repeat again. There's one thing I've always believed in. "If you make the wrong choice, your life will be filled with dark clouds." Yes... just from a wrong choice, it can turn into a 'vicious' circle. Words are "killing machines", and many people don't know that. "One word can destroy a person's life and one word can change a person." They don't know... if the words they spoke to me, would echo in their heads when they closed their eyes to sleep. I've come to think that "sleeping is torture" and "waking up is the worst." Before going to sleep, the words 'they' always stabbed into my head and when I fell asleep, the nightmares of my past always haunted me. It's all I go through every night, and honestly... I can't get used to it, because... I'm just ordinary people. If we consider the nightmare "rice", I have eaten it every day and lived it with resignation. Until one day I met .... • • • • My eyes opened and looked up at the ceiling of the house that I was used
"Let go of your hand Rein! The problem is only smoking, right? Besides, I think there are a lot of students out there who smoke too, and you have to understand when it comes to Rey!" Rein let go of his hand and exhaled as if removing his emotions, I was silent then thought 'hey why should I? Didn't I just smoke? And there are a lot of students out there who smoke?' But this muscle-brain is mindlessly challenging me and always commenting on everything I do, I'm so sick of this bastard. Do you remember what I said when I was with Katia? 'If the super student has hatred, in the future whatever the ordinary student does will look wrong in the eyes of the super student' Yep, that's what I'm experiencing. "Ok, for now you pass." Rein turned around and seemed like he was going to sit down, hearing his words, I, who was fed up and angry with this bastard, said the words that I had been hiding for a long time. "Yeah... it's up to you, damn muscle brain!" Indeed, after I said that I f
Evening turned into night, like shifting a curtain into silence and darkness, the night breeze that I felt made me realize how calm this atmosphere was and then healed my heart and soul for the heavy things that happened today.Right now, I'm in front of a girl ... which this morning we had made an appointment to meet again in front of this minimarket at 18:00, yes ... I promised Katia. This time Katia's appearance was really relaxed, she only wore training pants and a sweater, then her ponytail hair when wearing a hat, now flowing beautifully when the wind blows on her. "Yo... good night." "Good night, too." "By the way, what things do you carry that many?" I asked while looking at her hand which was carrying a lot of things. "Ah this ... we discussed this this morning right? It's today's discount eggs and I bought a little more, you can take a box, take it!" Her hand took a box of eggs, put it in a spare plastic bag and handed it to me. "Eh... even though I intended to buy it
I walked alone in an endless tunnel, as far as the eye could see all I could see was a long hallway. Puddles of water filled my ankles, but I don't think this is water because the sensation is thick. "Where is this . . . and what is this fishy smell?" Curious about what was pooling this, I then squatted down and looked at him clearly 'eh is this blood?' Suddenly someone appeared lying from the pool of blood, when I looked again wasn't it 'Mother?' I see a scar on my mother's stomach. "Mom... hey mom why are you here?" I immediately ran to my mother, but I fell. Then one by one the paper fell from above on my back, there was a disdainful laugh filling this empty tunnel, I was familiar with these voices, these were the voices of stupid pigs all over the school. I caught one of the papers, and when I opened it it said 'you'd rather die, crook'. "What the hell is this bastard!" I tore it up then threw the paper away, the laughter suddenly disappeared. I saw that my mother had d
"Ahhhh, why is it so hard to sleep!"I mumbled then looked at the clock on my cellphone, and the time showed 03:23.Actually my body is tired from yesterday because I've been working, but because of overthingking... sleeping is really hard for me.Running away from home, changing places of residence and also changing places of work, I did all of that to protect myself. The world is cruel, especially for a woman. If I easily trust someone, then I will easily break and fall too. Therefore, until now I don't trust anyone.The only one I believe in is myself.I kept trying and trying to close my eyes hoping to fall asleep, but my mind didn't let me sleep that easily. Until without realizing it, it was already 05:38."Oh my... why? I just want to sleep and rest!"I woke up and tried to calm my mind, but my mind couldn't be calm without sleeping. I thought ... the only way to calm my mind was to smoke, but I'm out of cigarettes."Hah! Looks like I have to buy it at the convenience store and