Avoiding her was the only thing I could think of. I thought it was going to let me forget about her for the most part but I guess I am lying to myself. That isn't working. Did you believe she comes in my dreams too? When I eat I think of her, sleep, sit, lie, everything. I have been wasting lots of papers since writing a presentation. When I print it out, I see I wrote jargon. If not for the help of Karen this morning. My meeting with Mr Kings could have been effortless because of my inability to concentrate. My mind was occupied with something else other than work and winning contracts. My mind was home while I was at work. I admit I love Ella b.but I am no match for her. That's what's scaring me from making a move. What if I confess my feelings for her a

Not my confessions. My mood changed into a sour one as many thoughts ran through my mind. "What's wrong hunny?" Mum asked. She's the only one I have now and can confide in. Hilda could have been perfect but her number hasn't been reachable. I just hope she's fine. I will see her immediately and my treatments are over. That's in the next one month. How time flies. I am now very free with the addiction. I feel so free like a bird. My addiction is gone. Even if I didn't complete this treatment. I am fine already but I just have to. All thanks to Driller, he changed my life forever.  "I am bothered Mum"  "About what?" "W..what if he doesn't like me?" I said. Nothing scares me

"Don't you trust your mother anymore? It will work honey, just do as I say. You can act perfectly, right?” She asked and I nodded. “Then get to it already baby, he's here” she said and scurried away.  Gosh.   I hope this works.    Alpha Driller Shit.   I feel so tired and worked up.   These few weeks, work hasn't been easy. There's a lot of work to do in the office. More than five contracts have been awarded to us in just this week that we have to work in before next week.   I entered the living room heading straight to my room but something caught my attention.   “Luna Ella” I called as I rushed to her in fright.    She was lying unconscious on the floor.    What happened to her? 

HildaI woke up on the floor with my back aching, my eyes swollen and my nose blocked due to the tears.    I have been locked up here for a day and half now.    The cell was the least place I have ever imagined to be and now here I am.    I cried not because I want Luna Ella to have mercy on me but because of what I have done to her.    I was shocked beyond reasonable doubt yesterday when she said she has less of a chance of having a baby of her own.  Is the drug that powerful? Sincerely, I didn't know it was going to lead to that.   I never thought of that effect, the doctor that gave me those drugs didn't tell me about it.    Now I ruined her.   What will life look like without being able to have a child to call yours?I deserve more than being locked up here, e