In the morning, the nurse had come with the baby and she had brought him for his mother to suckle him. When the nurse had left and the baby was full. I stood up and I held the baby. She didn't want to let him go but I was determined.“When your husband comes, maybe he might not come but when you get home, tell him that he had suffocated the baby. The money in the envelope is enough pay you off for everything. ““The universe wants this, this is fate, I can't stop fate.“ She said crying. I saw her peek into the envelope. She held the big fat envelope to her chest, started to cry and then turned away. I held the baby to my chest and I left the hospital filled with happiness. Whoever the universe was or wherever it was, I thanked it cheerfully. Holding a living breathing baby felt very good. Holding a living breathing baby that was yours felt very dreamy. I kissed the top of his head and he purred like a small kitten. The woman that I had employed to nurse

From outside the pub I could hear the music playing, I couldn't pin down the lyrics, though. I looked to the windows and I saw streak of light escaping and fading off Into the night. I walked into the pub, dancing peoole were painted blue, green and red by the light. The strong lights…. It was almost blinding and the alcohol that hung in the air made it harder to breath. I knew that I wouldn't spend much time in the pub. I skimmed through the crowd of hormone enraged people to find the pretty lady from the other night. I caught sight of her and I felt my shoulders relax, a smile spread across my cheek and I felt lighter. She was at the corner of the pub serving some drinks. I watched her walking back to the bar when she was done with serving the table and I followed her.“Hey." I said and she spun around, a smile appeared on her face when she saw it was me.“Hi sugar. “ She said placing the tray on the counter. The bartender took the empty cups and I watched him replace

“What were you thinking?." He shouted. I shifted in my place and I removed my eyes from his and I placed them somewhere else. I didn't want him to see that I was sacred so I decided to go and take a seat in one of the couches." Now I'm the one that's the bad guy?. “ I said adjusting myself so I would feel more comfortable “Everything that happens you shift it and make me be the bad guy and you've been doing this for years and I just had it figured out, I'm not the one that's meant to be apologizing, you are, you're angry at me for catching you having sex with another woman and you expect me to remain calm?."“Are you crazy?." He asked me.“What do you mean by that? Are you still trying so hard to make me seem bad for catching you cheating on me, you should be begging me." " Leave my house. “" I can't leave, I'm your wife. “ He started to laugh. He laughed harder than I've ever seen him laugh my entire life.“What did you just say, you say you're my wife?."“Yes." I said stiff

“No."“What do you mean by no?."“We're not calling the nanny back you're going to take care of Kai, you're quitting your job."“Solo, look at me, I like this job, we actually need it, one gig is not enough to keep the family going, imagine I'm earning and then saving the money and you're providing more, we will be able to put Kai in one of the best schools, we'll get a better car, a nicer house, it's like a win win..."“The both of us know that ever since you started working in that company you've been different."“Different, in what way?."“All round."“I don't believe you, you're just trying to make me feel bad and guilty Solo but it's not going to work, I've been the same, I feel the same only that I feel happiness and joy and peace... aren't you glad I'm looking better?."“You no longer pay attention to me." He said.“What do you mean, it's not true, that's not true, I give you attention." “When was the last time we had sex? ."“Christ, solo, you can't be serious."“I'm serious.

I opened my eyes and saw that morning had come. I looked at Solo, he was still sleeping, he looked peaceful now, like a child. He was laying naked under the cover, so was I. I shifted in my position before I finally decide to lay flat on my back. I looked at Solo again, he had stirred and touched the bed till he found me and he drew me closer to him, I thought that he would wake up, but now he was going back to sleep. He felt warm, his grip on my body was strong but bearable. I closed my eyes and I tried to envision my life from here. What would the future hold, would I ever get a job, ever again?. I had quit my job just to settle the fight that I and Solo had. I had to give up. He felt threatened, he felt his family could fall apart and when a man like Solo sees a threat he won't stop till he eliminates the attacker, even worse when they threaten his family. I didn't remember when I had opened my eyes, they were now open and I had been staring at the thin air bu