I thought that life is so unfair. I even hated God for letting all of this happen. I only loved one woman in my life, but why did God allow me to be the reason for her sufferings? I hated God so much that I tried to kill myself. I feel like, my mere existence is the cause of the suffering of many people. The suffering of the people I love. They said when you don’t understand, you just need to trust God. I failed to do this. I failed to trust Him. One thing God has proved to me was, that He is still in control. He did not let me die, instead, He gave me what I longed desire, and that is Ellie. I can’t believe that she asked me to marry her. It felt like a dream. I can’t believe that I am here on the altar waiting for her to walk down the aisle. Today is our wedding day. Our family and friends were delighted when they found out that Ellie and I will get married. The twins cried with happiness. They have been praying for this to happen, day and night. I can’t stop my tears from f