Yuda lies in bed, his mind going back in time to the rehabilitation center. The same day as in the prison cell, cold and lonely. The reason his mother brought Yuda to a rehabilitation center was for mental healing for Yuda, who often had hallucinations. Another reason is that Yuda actually realized that his parents wanted to hide him from the world. After spending 1 year in a mental health rehabilitation center, Yuda followed all the orders of the doctors and nurses. All he wanted was to look good and go home. In the rehab center, Yuda is not just silent. Instead, Yuda is always looking for information about his friends at school, friends who are making his life miserable because of false accusations. A friend who makes the world seem unfair on his side.After successfully getting permission to return home, Yuda laughed inside. He met his mother and hugged her with love like other normal people who miss their parents. Yuda had a good day after being home, looking busy with studying

"Isn't it better for you to just die than to live to be such a fool," was the last thing Yuda said to his former classmate named Anthony when he was in one of the painting exhibition rooms. "Even he is dead, because of you," Yuda whispered in Anthony's ear.Anthony rushed to check his cell phone and got the news that Arkez, the man Anthony had been dating for 3 years, had died after jumping from the 4th floor of his hotel room. Anthony screamed hysterically.A friend who experienced sexual violence as a teenager, to make him choose the way of life to be transgender, so he can get out of his dark past and have a new life, now in front of Yuda.But no. Not that easy ..,Anthony used to be part of the volleyball team in high school, he looked dashing on the outside, but only Yuda knows Anthony's deviant life. Because there was a school in junior high school.That night... When Yuda was on his way home after studying together at Mario's house, he passed a friend's house to return the b

'Can I have a normal family, I want someone to protect me when I'm helpless, when I'm trapped in sadness, and when...' What was heard then was no longer his thoughts, but the sound of a heartbeat from the monitor in the operating room. 'Why are you doing this to me ....?'Yuda was lying in the operating room to remove two bullets lodged in his back. Fortunately, his life can still be saved.March 15, 2020, at that time...,After leaving the hospital, Yuda could only lie in bed. His body was not as strong as before to do anything.His mother underwent psychiatric treatment at the hospital so that she would not be prosecuted for shooting Yuda. All this advice from his father until finally the house was completely quiet. His father never returned to visit Yuda at home, leaving only a credit card for Yuda to use for his needs. The wind that blew through his bedroom window ruffled the curtains here and there. Cold air slowly filled the room. Yuda shed tears slowly, hurting himself repea

After being severely beaten by Yuda, his father collided with Yuda's remaining energy. Finally, the commotion brought the security guards to the area. Several people pulled Yuda's hand to stop him from hitting his father again."Bring him in!" his father ordered the two guards holding Yuda's hand, and Yuda was herded into the house. His stepmother and two stepsisters retreated in fear when they saw Yuda. They all went straight into the room.His father then tied Yuda's hands and told him to sit down. "Did you know that?" his father said, frowning and sharpening the knife in front of Yuda's eyes. "You lied to my mother, damn it!" snapped Yuda. "What am I supposed to do? She doesn't want a divorce, so this is all I can do, I hate stupid women who are always obsessed," his father said, pointing the knife at Yuda's neck. Yuda smiled, then kicked his father's leg with his foot until the knife sliced through Yuda's neck and blood slowly flowed out. Yuda smiled when he saw his father's

'Mom, I want you to die... sometimes... but I also want you to live... afterwards,' he said.Yuda came out of the room and immediately ran to his mother's room. He broke down the bedroom door, and sure enough, his mother was lying on the floor covered in blood. Yuda then carried his mother's body and got into the car to take his mother to the hospital. The doctor finally performed surgery to remove the bullet lodged in his mother's left chest. Yuda stood outside the operating room in panic and fear. Even though he repeatedly wanted to see his mother die so that he wouldn't be tormented in this life, he felt afraid as his mother died before his eyes.After 3 hours of waiting, the doctor and nurse finally came out of the operating room. His mother was then taken to the recovery room, and his father came in as a guardian after receiving a call from the hospital. His father looked away when he saw Yuda, then pushed Yuda's body so that he fell to the floor and became a spectacle for the ot