It rained cat and dogs the previous night, causing every living thing to wish the day won't break so they'd still lie in bed even though they had somewhere they needed to be. That didn't apply to Dana as she had to take her exams that day. She was happy it rained the previous night because her Father had this superstition that whenever it rained before you go for an interview or an exam or something it meant something good was going to happen. Something good indeed happened. Emilie gave her permission to write the exam. Not that she needed it anyway.
“Hey, I’m taking the exam today” Dana whispered to Emilie at the breakfast table“Shhhhhh, Mom will hear you” Emilie whispered back“Whatever, I’m just so happy” Dana said as she drank her tea hurriedly. Rose had never seen her all excited before and was wondering what the sudden bright look she had on her face was about. The only time she was ever happy like that was when Samuel in her junior year who always got first place came in third and she second. She danced and danced for hours that day. Dana picked up her bag and ran out of the house surprising her even more.“What’s with that child today?” Rose asked Emilie“She was here just now so why didn’t you ask her yourself?” Emilie asked“What did you just say?” Rose asked surprised“I’m leaving” Emilie announced as she picked up her bag and walked away. She wasn't going to be pushed into saying 'she's taking the entrance exam today'.Dana got to the school and went straight to her classroom. Chelsea and Martine had kept to the time but Cathy was nowhere to be seen. They waited for several hours hoping she would show up but to no avail. The morning assembly was soon to begin and they wouldn't be let out of the school again after that time.“We can leave now right? I don't think Cathy is coming” Dana said“Wow….. You’re so serious about taking this exam” Martine said “And you’re so not serious about taking this exam” Dana threw back angrily. They kept going on and on without noticing the boy behind the class room.“What exam?” Benjamin asked. They nearly jumped out of their skins as his raucous voice rang out. Dana wasn't ready for any jump scares because she feared it’d make everything she read the previous night disappear from her brain.“Mind your fucking business” she said. Chelsea checked her wrist watch and concluded that Cathy wasn't coming.“Let’s go now” Chelsea said“Hey, if you leave school now I’ll report to the Teachers” Benjamin said. He was the punctuality prefect and was always trying to get everyone to come to school early and not leave till it was closing time. When he was in his junior year he raised a bill to the school board for students to come to school as early as 6.30am in the morning. That was just preposterous so the bill was rejected. It didn't mean it was rejected in his mind because he planned to present it again to whatever inopportune University he attended in the future.“If you dare say a word you’re dead” Dana threatened. They walked out of the class together, believing in the power of their leader's threats and if there was one thing Benjamin was afraid of, it was Dana's threats. She always kept them. He was suddenly reminded of when she told Lucas she was going to throw his bag into a toilet full of shit in the boy's bathroom and shocked everyone when she really committed the act of terror and ended up getting suspended for two weeks. Steven walked into the class jolting him out of his thoughts.“Why were they leaving?” He asked. She was going to kill him if he said anything and he wasn't ready to die yet.“Why ask me? You saw them right? You could have asked them yourself” Benjamin said. He had totally avoided spilling“There are going to see their boyfriends’ right?” Steven pushed. Benjamin was now mad. He was going to force him to say what would kill him. “Why didn't you ask them yourself? Stop asking me questions already” he said and walked out of the classDana and her clique completed the exam successfully but were faced with another challenge. The school gate was closed and they stood outside the walls thinking of how to get in. If the Police patrolling caught them outside school they would have to call their parents. It was okay for every other person since they had permission except Dana. Her Mom would murder her.
“How are we gonna sneak back in?” she asked worriedly“The exam was shorter than we expected, I mean second period is just over and we are back” Martine said checking her wrist-watch“The Teachers would definitely catch us if we go back to the class but how do we get in?” Dana said biting her nails“Should we jump over it?” Chelsea suggested“Jump over what?” Martine asked“Duh? The fence of course” Dana said“Great idea, but we have no idea if the Teachers who noticed our absence are waiting for us behind the fence so when we get in, wham, we are caned to death” Martine said“That doesn’t make sense, no one knows we left school” Dana said“Well you’re wrong because Mr. loud-mouthed popularly called Benjamin saw us leave” Martine said“That son of a bitch. If indeed he sold us out I’ll personally squeeze life out of him” Dana said clenching her fists“You're doing it again. Martine said. Need I remind you, you cannot enter the Defense Academy with that anger of yours? Work on it” she added“Let’s jump the fence first before we think about squeezing life out of someone or working on our anger issues” Chelsea saidTogether, they jumped over the school fence and landed on their feet. Luckily, there were no Teachers around.“So, Miss harbinger of death, were we caned to death?” Dana asked Martine“And you Miss squeezer of life, did Benjamin sell us out?” Martine fired back“Whatever….” Dana said while they walked into their classroom majestically. Cathy rushed towards them worriedly. She had been asking around for them and Benjamin still feared if he told her who happens to be their friend of their whereabouts there would still be no change in Dana’s threat, so he kept shut.“Hey! Where are you guys coming from?” Cathy asked“The exam? The Defense Academy exam? Where the hell did you go?” Dana asked“I thought we were all going from home so I was already there. Did you guys wait for me here?” Cathy asked“Yes. We thought you weren't coming” Chelsea said“No. I took the exam as well” Cathy said“So, when is the result of the exam gonna be released?” Dana asked“Maybe like next year because you know it was a handwritten exam” Martine replied“Anyway, we’ll keep you guys posted when we hear from our Uncle” Chelsea added“You mean Uncle Frances is in the Military?” Cathy asked“The way you call him Uncle Frances is like you’re related to him” Martine said sounding annoyed“Well I can call him Uncle for as long as I want” Cathy said“But when did you get back from the exam?” Dana asked“A while ago before you guys came” Cathy answered“We jumped over the fence, how about you?” Dana asked“You know I’m on good terms with the security guard right, so I walked in majestically through the gate” Cathy answered as their Government Teacher walked into the class“During lunch we’ll talk some more” Cathy whispered to Dana as she walked to her seat while the Teacher began the lesson for the day. Coup d’état.Dana had written her finals and was a high school graduate. It was the season of Christmas and since her Dad couldn't come over, her family had to go see him themselves to celebrate together. She threw everything she could find into her traveling bag. She had a separate bag for her action figures which was weird for a girl. But since she still hadn't gotten her boobies yet it was fine. Her phone began ringing in her pocket. Cathy.
“Hey! How're ya doing bitch?” Cathy asked over the phone“Cool, you?” Dana asked suspending her packing“I’m fine as always, Cathy answered, so I was gonna ask if you've heard any news about the exam we wrote” she said“You would have dropped the exchange of pleasantries and just hit the nail on the head” Dana said“Yeah, it would be your head. But still any updates?” Cathy asked“Nah, I heard it’s gonna be released this month. Don't know the exact date though” Dana answered“Okay, thanks for the info. Hey why do I hear some noise over there?” Cathy asked“Well that’s me and Emilie packing our bags because we're spending the holiday with my Dad” Dana answered“Wow, but is it like you, your Mom and your sister?” Cathy asked“Of course dummy. It’s the entire family since my Dad isn't coming home plus Emilie's become a Nurse now so it’s kinda celebration all the way” Dana explained“Wow, that’s cool, but as for me, my celebration is me getting selected into the Defense academy” Cathy said“Yeah right, same with me here, I just hope those old Military officers with their annoying faces choose us” Dana agreed“Those officers, didn't they look suspicious?” Cathy asked“What do you mean suspicious?” Dana asked“Like they could kill for money, like they put down even their fellow comrades just for money” Cathy said“Have you been watching dramas again? Watching too many dramas will mess up your brain, but I can’t blame you because we are done with school like forever and the only thing we need is just the Military Training, getting the certificates and landing ourselves jobs” Dana said happily as she laid on her bed“Yeah right, but you know what? I kinda miss you guys because we can only communicate through our phones” Cathy said“Me too, and I wish we could keep this conversation going but it’s not possible right?” Dana said“Just a reminder, tell your Dad about the Defense Academy stuff so he’d talk to your Mom about it” Cathy said“I’ve already got it covered but anyway I’ll still remind him” Dana said“Dana get off the phone and come down stairs now, we’re about leaving!” Rose shouted from down the stairs“I’ve been reprimanded, gotta go now, I’ll call you when I get to Raseth and I'll also tell you when my Mom accepts okay” Dana said“Sure, have a safe trip, bye” Cathy said as she ended the call“Dana!” Rose shouted“Gosh, I’m on my way!” Dana said as she struggled with her luggage down stairs“Wow the view is very nice here” Emilie said as she got down from the car and walked into her Dad’s house. Dana had a hard time pulling the bags she had packed. There were so many one would think she was eloping. Nate, her Father walked out of the house to welcome his ever loving family. Rose completely ignoring, him dumped her bags at his feet and walked into the house. She was mad at him for not bothering to come home at all.
“Hey Dad” Dana said embracing him. A message popped up on her phone. She took it out of her pocket and walked into the house with her arms around her Father's waist. The message shocked her. She turned off the phone and turned it back on. It was still there. It was real. She had been accepted into the Defense Academy. Cathy had totally jinxed the whole thing with her call. She threw the phone on the sofa and began dancing around the room. Her wish had been granted.“Oh my God, I can’t believe this!” Dana said repeatedlyNate was always concerned about the mental health of his daughters since his mother had been in a mental hospital when he clocked 12. Now, he was very worried.“What’s wrong dear?” he asked holding her“Aw, good things always happen when Dad's around” Dana said punching his tummy“Tell me already” Nate pressed “Here” Dana said handing him the phone to see the message. He was surprised. Dana was almost a dunce. He couldn't help but think she was pretending all these while for her to get accepted in the Defense Academy at one sitting of the exam.“Wow, I knew they’d take you in” he said patting her head. He had to break the news to the family himself like the proud Father he was.“Hey everyone, our daughter and sister here has just been accepted into the country’s Defense Academy” he announced. Rose felt a punch in her stomach.“What? You still went against my orders and took that exam huh?” she asked angrily. Nate took her by the arms trying to smoother her.“Listen dear, let’s go inside and talk” he said leading her into the kitchen“I’m happy for you kiddo, you did well” Emilie said“Thanks, oh I’ve gotta contact my friends to know if they’ve been accepted too” Dana said“Sure, go ahead” Emilie said “What a day” Dana said as she made to leave“Ah, that’s right; do you think that Dad might be able to convince Mom to let me go?” Dana asked“Yes, I’m sure about it” Emilie said smilingDana walked out without any fear or worry. She trusted her Papa to do a good job in putting her Mom under control. And she was right. By morning, Rose agreed to let her go. Emilie and Dana wondered why it took her all night to make a decision and why their Father looked so worn out.“Are you for real? Gosh thank you so much” Dana said “So do you know anyone over there? Rose asked“Yeah, my class mates are also attending” Dana answered“All of them?” Rose asked“No, just a few of us, Chelsea, Cathy and me, Martine didn't get in” Dana said“That's basically you and your metal head friends going there but you make it sound like there's a ton of you going. Don't you wonder why the entire class isn't going? It's because they want to be University graduates and not some stupid dumb Military Officer who specializes in cuffing people”“Plus, I don’t like those girls you call your friends” Rose said Dana was angry now. She had agreed to let her leave so why the insults on her friends and chosen profession.“Mom, they are my friends not yours and haven’t you heard the saying 'many are call but a few are chosen' huh?” Dana said“She’s right mom, not every one of them will graduate from that University” Emilie chipped in. Nate too had to support her.“This is a holiday for fun and not one for arguments, Nate said, Dana is going to the Defense Academy and no one is changing that so let’s have fun okay?” he added“Yes Sir” Dana said saluting. Her comrade was by her side unlike the one who birthed her.The huge bell in the training centre rang at the strike of 6.50 by the morning. The girls previously thought it was for a church service or something but it was for waking those who had the habit of sleeping in. An announcement on the kind of punishment given to the unfortunate person to come last to the field sent the dormitory in frenzy. To save time, Dana and the girls all shared the bathroom at once giving Jasmine the opportunity to see Dana's weakness. Her boobies.“Has anyone seen my lotion?” Cathy asked searching frantically for it“Yeah” Chelsea answered“Really, please where?” Cathy asked“In my nostrils” Chelsea said laughing hard. Cathy stared at her and wondered if the late coming announcement didn't send shivers down her spine. She was probably thinking her Officer Uncle would get her out of trouble. Ha!“Here it is” Jasmine said holding it up“Thanks, you are of some use today” Cathy said They hurriedly walked out along with other girls in their dormitory to the field.
The huge bell in the training centre rang at the strike of 6.50 by the morning. The girls previously thought it was for a church service or something but it was for waking those who had the habit of sleeping in. An announcement on the kind of punishment given to the unfortunate person to come last to the field sent the dormitory in frenzy. To save time, Dana and the girls all shared the bathroom at once giving Jasmine the opportunity to see Dana's weakness. Her boobies.“Has anyone seen my lotion?” Cathy asked searching frantically for it“Yeah” Chelsea answered“Really, please where?” Cathy asked“In my nostrils” Chelsea said laughing hard. Cathy stared at her and wondered if the late coming announcement didn't send shivers down her spine. She was probably thinking her Officer Uncle would get her out of trouble. Ha!“Here it is” Jasmine said holding it up“Thanks, you are of some use today” Cathy said They hurriedly walked out along with other girls in their dormitory to the field.
Examination had finally arrived and the trainees were scared they weren’t ready to write the theoretical aspect of what they taught. They were confident in perfecting the practical aspect but not the theoretical. Some of them had smuggled bombs into the examination hall hoping to set it off when the instructors weren’t looking. Now these weren’t actual bombs, there were what people knew as expos or tap-me’s. “Write as many answers as possible and no cheating. Good luck” Swart said and turned to the chalk board. The trainees didn’t wait for him to turn around completely before they began to ask questions. Like Cathy.“Hey Dana, what's the name of that explosive that makes a loud noise when going off?” Cathy asked“There are a lot of explosives that makes loud noises when going off” Dana replied“No, I'm talking about the one you read bout yesterday” Cathy insisted“C4?” Dana said“Yes, thanks”The exam was a success as none of the trainees failed when their results were posted. Their
Three years laterSwart had climbed through the ladders in the military and had banged the position as the Minister of Defense. He still remained friends with Philips even after their bonding experience back at the now desolated training center. He had his plans to remove the likes of George from the military after getting into that position but from the looks of it, it wasn’t going to be easy. “Congrats honey, you deserve to be the Minister of Defense” Hannah said patting Swart’s shoulder“My friend, congratulations” Philips said shaking hands with Swart“Thank you for coming” Swart said“The pleasure is all mine, I have to go now since the President summoned me” Philips said“Sure, thank you again” Swart said“Minister of Defense, Swart. Don’t you think what we did three years ago was worth it?” George saidHe was now a retired Army General and already old and wrinkly but he was like the godfather in the military. He still controlled the President like he was a pun on his ch
Philips, oblivious of the fact that his entire family had been murdered, ran into the State CIA and began to rant out everything he knew about the incident. He as then directed to the Captain of the CIA agents who happened to be George’s son. He was an upright CIA who always worked with facts and the truth. And he was ready to help the friend of his Father. “Here, this is Elisa’s number, but someone that calls herself Nada called me with it and said some things I didn’t really understand” Philips said “What were these things you said you didn’t understand” Adan asked“Something about three years ago, but that’s not important right now. I need you to save my wife because this Nada said they already killed Thelma” Philips said quivering a little“I know what to do with this” Adan said as he took the phone from Philips“Get the agents ready and get SWAT to come along too!” he ordered as he walked into his office with Philips phoneAdan dialed Elisa’s number and it was answered on the s
“Captain, these are the files you requested for” Stephany said walking into Adan’s office.“Okay, thanks” Adan said “What are you doing Sir?” Stephany asked, looking into Adan’s laptop“Just something I’m working on” Adan replied still focused on his work“Huh? Why are you going through the gas explosion of three years ago in Danima” Stephany asked“You know about that incident?” Adan asked surprisedHe thought just a few people knew about it. Especially since Swart and Philips covered up everything. No one talked about the gas explosion and even he didn’t know of it. Though he too was serving as a trainee for the CIA at that time the explosion happened but he didn’t hear any news of it. It was almost as if people spoke about it for only one day and then forgot about it. “Yeah, I lost my cousin, Daniel in the incident, remember?” Stephany said“Yeah, yeah I do, was he in that incident too?” Adan asked“Yeah, he was. It was very suspicious for 355 persons to be wiped out at once wit
Nada walked into the apartment and let herself fall to the sofa. The living room was well furnished and spacious, filled with various monitors recording everything going on in the Police department and State CIA as well as the hospital where Hannah was admitted.Mini walked out of a room with her gun in her hands and stared suspiciously at Nada before she let go of the trigger.“Did you think I was intruder? A thief, perhaps?” Nada asked“Yes! How can you walk in without making a single sound?” Mini asked“Forget making sounds. I’ve got it” Nada said “Got what?” Fae asked as she too stepped out of a room“Duh? The info we need against Swart. I even added one of Fae’s toys to her cell phone” Nada said“Really? Your acting skills are better than I thought” Mini said“I’ll take that as a compliment then” Nada said and shut her eyes“So, you’re gonna to tell us what you got from her or are you gonna make us beg first?” Blesse asked“Beg” Nada said“Seriously?” the four girls asked at onc
Nebula danced to the deafening music like she was crazy. She pushed the other members of the 5 aside and kept screaming at the top of her voice. Her drunken attitude had kicked in and Blesse kept using her eyes to curse Nada for insisting on them coming out in the open. Nada was the leader even though Blesse was the eldest and she didn’t see anything wrong with that because Nada was a better fighter than she was and was perfect when it came to leading an operation but where she had a problem with her was dealing with things that required using common sense.Nada and the other girls lived their lives recklessly because they didn’t have the hope of returning back home after the scars the bombing at the training center left them but Blesse wanted to return. When Katherine took the girls in and trained them to become ruthless criminals, she only accepted because she was new in Horki and she needed to survive but the other girls embraced the new life Katherine gave them. Especially Nada.S
The 5 were now down to 4 if you don’t count Blaze since Mini decided to leave because to her Nada gave her no good reason for making her kill her uncle and then coming up alone with the decision that Swart and his family got to live. Nada wasn’t going to apologize for that because she knew one way or the other Francis was going to be put down by one of them and in her opinion if she was Mini she would have been thrilled she got the opportunity of killing Francis. To her, Mini got them into the whole Defense shit and then her uncle who they all worship decided to turn into a suicide bomber so Mini had to take responsibility.She was in the van with the girls who still considered her a leader when she got Macleod’s missed call. They were parked in an abandoned area, monitoring the President’s house. She dropped the phone on the dashboard and turned to then girls.“You guys, it’s the President’s house we’re going to be storming and not just a random place. It’s gonna be packed with secur
George had been eliminated and no one in the precinct knew of it because the wander didn’t conduct his rounds in George’s room. He was ever so grumpy and abusive towards the other inmates and wanders to the extent he had to be isolated because of his insolent behavior. From Blesse’s calculations it would take a number of four days before people at the precinct notice his corpse or sooner if Adan who rarely paid his Father a visit decided to be a good son and come see his old man.The 5’s hit list had begun to reduce; only two people were left on Nada’s list. Swart whom she had cornered, and the President whose backbone was George. When Fae was much younger, her childhood dream and the top thing to do on her bucket list was to assassinate a President. She was happy the dream was finally going to come true.“So who’s next?” Blesse asked“The President of course” Fae said“I’m asking because Swart is also on the list” Blesse said“The correct question Blesse should be what’s next?” Nada
Nada was elated that she had succeeded in getting Stephany to work with them. All she had to do was release him and let him continue her carnage in Adan’s life. Adan would think she let him go because she made a mistake when she kidnapped him and then, he would lead them to George for the finishing touch. At the moment, she needed to hear what Swart had to say to her. Unlike Adan, he had figured out her trickery to listening in on everything they were planning because that explained her ability to always get them en-roped. Swart planned on telling her the truth even if seeing her one on one was the biggest mistake he could be making. But he was willing to bet everything he had; his family and his life or telling her the truth.Blesse and Nebula went ahead of Nada to make sure the abandoned training center was secure for her to go in. For all they knew, Swart could be working with Adan and they were laying an ambush for her.Nada drove at top speed with her motorbike to the meeting poi
George sat in the dark interrogation room, handcuffed to the chair like a criminal offender. He couldn’t believe he was back in an interrogation room. The last time he was there was when he framed the Army General back in the 90’s. George didn’t just start out as an Army General, he was just like Adan, a mere CIA agent who got involved in a top secret mission and after seeing what the Army General of that time was going to benefit from a mission which wasn’t supposed to hold in the first place, he conspired with the political opponent of the President at that time and together they impeached the President and executed the Army General. Slowly, with the help of the President he put on the seat, he got to the position where he was. The position where he had the say on who got to live and who had to die.Now, he was called into an interrogation room by his own son, the one who he thought was trying to save him from the 5. “What do you think you are doing?!” George asked“I’m saving your
Adan sat on the ground beside the dead bodies Nada had left. She had done her usual carnage and his Father was going to end up like Hannah and Daisy. He had his hands in his hair wondering what his next step in life would be. Lankan, one of the CIA agents who still had a little courage within them to face Nada, tapped him on the shoulders to draw his attention.“Sir” he called“Don’t Sir me you good for nothing!” Adan yelled and brushed him off“Leave them be Adan” George said. He heard his Father’s voice and lifted his head, thinking his ears were playing tricks on him but George was indeed standing in front of him. Nada didn’t kidnap him like he had thought“Dad! You’re here. How did you….. She didn’t take you?” he asked“No, I don’t think she even knows who she’s after” George said“What do you mean? I definitely saw her take someone with her. Who was it then?” Adan asked“Stephany, Sir” Lankan said“What? Why would she do that?” Adan asked“Well, Stephany was protecting your Fath
Nada left Clybin Park to meet the girls but Macleod and Adan remained, engaged in a heated conversation. Macleod fully believed that his Daeva was indeed assaulted by Nada and Adan’s claim that she was Nada was nothing but bullshit, a means to push the blame on someone. He was trying to handle his family problems as well as getting Daeva to be in a relationship with him but after he had disturbed her when she was at work, Adan decided to add fuel to the fire by accusing her of being a murderer.Adan however, was so sure Nada was Daeva. Even if the only proof he had was the fact that she talked like Nada sometimes. Like the way she called everyone sweetheart or sugar and the whole vibe she gave off. He was sure she was the Nada everyone in the CIA dreaded. The CIA agents had begun to whisper amongst themselves about how they were going to back out from any plan Adan presented them in a bid to save his Father. After seeing how Nada worked and how scared Adan was to move and do anything
Daisy and Hannah had begun to recover from their injuries but they had their doubts of ever going back home. Hannah at some point hated Swart for getting involved in such dirty activities as joining to kill young children when he had children of his own. She wanted to see reasons with Nada and the girls but they were killing innocent people as well. Like Elisa and Thelma, they didn’t take part in Philips’ dirty work but Nada killed them and was about to do the same to them. Worse, Daisy’s savage tongue wasn’t helping their situation.“Mom, are we ever gonna leave this place?” she asked“We might, if you try to keep shut and not anger Nada” Hannah said. The girl in the room with them had an AK-49 in her hand. They thought Nebula was a monster but they hadn’t seen anything then. Holding a pistol and holding an AK-49 was two different things. One was slightly monstrous and the other, monstrously monstrous.“Is Dad even looking for us? Is he really guilty of those things Nada said he did?
Nada highlighted from the taxi in front of Portier’s international airport. She had gotten the information she need and now she was to return to Horki and set the place ablaze with it. She couldn’t believe she was going to have to go after Adan now that he was a relative to Robertson. Her plan was to finish Macleod off along with Swart if the next man wasn’t a diehard criminal like she had confirmed but now she had to put their execution on a hold and add Adan to the list. But since he was literally a fool for her it was going to be easy to get him.As she made to open the sliding door and board her plane, she saw the man she never had on her list. Francis. Was he the one Katherine was talking about when she told Nada to be careful of her own? He was from Bunya so technically he was her own and he had betrayed her and the girls or was he about to do it again?”“What’s he doing here?” she wondered and placed her voice modifier on her throat the pulled her hoodie over her head and walke
Adan was outraged at Swart. He felt he was trying to drag his Father into his mess. If not that why then would he mention him as an accomplice? He paced about angrily and turned around to give Swart a punch. Swart stumbled and fell and the agents had to hold Adan back. They thought he seemed to have forgotten that Swart was the Minister for Defense.Macleod held onto Adan as well, he was annoyed that his Mother and sister weren’t returned to them and they were being shot at and treated like dogs in front of the CIA and there was nothing they could do to help them.“What the hell do you think you’re doing?” he asked“How dare you mention my Father as one of your accomplice? What the hell were you thinking?!” Adan yelled and tried to hit Swart again“Your Father is the cause of all this!” Swart said “You see this building? He was the one who suggested it’d be brought to the ground even though they were children in it. I was only trying to protect my family back then little did I know t