There were flowers as far as the eye could see.
Flowers of different colors, different shapes, with different leaves, and different petals. They were all beautiful.
I was somewhere in that heavenly garden. There was no end in sight. Everywhere, it was just flowers and flowers. Nothing more, nothing less, and nothing else, except for me.
I was lost. I didn't know where I was.
I was surrounded by such a beautiful sight but I wondered why I was feeling so sad. Somehow those flowers in full bloom filled my chest with pain.
For me just existing in this world felt like a sin.
I shouldn't be here. I don't belong here.
But there was no end in sight.
But I had to go. I had to leave. I needed to search for a way to get out of this cruel paradise.
I took a step forward. Many flowers got crunched and destroyed under my feet. But I didn't care. I was searching desperately for a way out.
I hurried on as I continued trampling on
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