After few weeks, the animosity between my siblings and I seemed to have died down, but the tension was still there. We just pretended to ignore it. My father, also, had neglected to talk to me. Ever since our little trip, to town.
Besides him being at work, he was arriving late at night, especially when he thought we were all asleep. He didn't know that my spirit was lurking there watching with Ganuku who was teaching me everyone's secrets. The worst feeling was feeling neglected by my own parent. He could not even address the issues at hand, but he had been coming at home drunk all the time.He even ate his dinner in the morning, around 12:00am. My brothers were sure that he was attempting to destroy them, he was planning for their slow death, but the reality was far from that. Since he drowned himself in the bottle. I wished I didn't feel so sad about it, but my heart was breaking. Ganuku saw my reaction and he asked me what my issues were?"You always seem so sad when you look at him. What is the problem?" He asked."He has not addressed me since what I told him, my spirit feels so sad. Why did he bring me here if he was just going to avoid me and make me feel so parentless?" I asked Ganuku.He kept quiet and he looked at my father who was still staggering in darkness, in the kitchen. He was incredibly drunk, I could not even express how sad that made me feel."JAMES GAVE ME PSYCHEDELICS, NOW I SEE ALL THESE WEIRD THINGS." Father was blubbering. I saw Ganuku bulge his eyes in terror."What is happening?" I asked him."Let's hide, he will see us... We need to go outside." As he was still stating, father turned around and he looked at us. It was weird how it seemed like he could see us, but in reality we were in the spirit form. He wiped his face and did not see us because Ganuku had dragged me and we had hidden behind the sofa."Was that Ganuku with my son Clearance?" He wiped his eyes again. "I should stop taking drugs they affect my memory, shit that was weird. Ganuku was never my child, Vivian had conceived that bastard with a witch doctor. She thought I could not tell my own children? I just let her believe that we were together, but I was married to my wife. She killed my wife!" Father stated and I looked at Ganuku, I could tell that he was breaking, even in his spirit body. His eyes looked so sad, very sad and then they turned stoic. The shift in his energy made my blood run cold, It felt surreal to be able to get out of my own boby, but if felt even more nerve wrecking to experience fear. How could that happen?"Are you okay Ganuku, Ganuku?" I tried to touch him, but I felt the shock of electricity. It felt like death. My whole body was consumed with shock."Do not touch me!" He was bewildered. I recoiled with fear and attempted to run back to my physical body. That was when father's face appeared from above and he stared at us, from behind the sofa. His eyes locked with mine and he looked like he had seen the ghost, fear and terror was written all over his eyes."You are a witch, just like your family?!" He asked.'SMACK!!' I woke up and Simon was angrily glaring at me."Why did you slap me?' I asked."Because you were busy talking about a dead person in your sleep. Ganuku is dead, why did you call his name?!" He asked."I-I-I didn't, I -""Yes, you did!!! You called him to come and bewitched us?! You are a witch just like your mother!" He said.I felt dumbfounded with his foolishness, for a second I thought that father had caught me, doing the forbidden act..."You know what Simon? Fuck off!" I clicked my tongue and groped my blankets aggressively and covering myself. I went back to sleep."I'll tell father about this." He stated, but I still ignored him. He could do whatever he wanted for all I cared, but I I needed to talk to Ganuku.~After some time I found myself being lifted, my soul leaving my body and I astral traveled to a place where Ganuku was. It was like I could always sense his spirit and ironically he was in his old room. One of the backrooms. He was sitting on the floor drawing art. It was weird seeing a ghost doing some physical activity."That was a warning. If you always come to me through leaving your body, sooner or later you will get caught. There is a way to go about, we need to make a ritual. My soul will be able to enter your body and I will be able to fight your battles for you, your brothers would not even know anything." Ganuku said. He was facing his painting and not looking at me and it was interesting how he knew what I was going to ask, without me actually telling it to him. He even knew what I had told father and he was not even on the shopping center."Simon already called me a witch, he said I was calling your name in my sleep." I said. I was testing to see if he could tell everything that I was witnessing. "He threatened to tell father about it." I finished."Simon is the least of your worries right now." He said."Why do you always dismiss the fact that he is a threat to me?!" I asked him with annoyance on my voice."I need to show you something..." He grabbed my arm and we flew to a local tarven. I noticed it since it was the only place that sold alcohol, locally . I wondered if was he trying to make us steal alcohol or something?He stood and he stared at some people who were conversing. It was my father. I could hear his voice, sluring. I thought that his words meant nothing. I knew that he was drunk. Until I noticed what he was saying to his other drunk friends."My son was hallucinating the other day. He said that he saw a ghost, you know his mother's family had a witch. Maybe they are casting spells on my son to see weird things. I do not know what to do man?" He asked his friend."Send him to church with his brothers." The man said."I wish that was a good idea, you do remember what they did to Ganuku?" He asked."Who is Ganuku, you mean your dead child?" The man asked."Yes him, I was told he was called a sin and was constantly cleansed they advised Ezra to baptise him with hot boiling water." He said."That is weird man and did she do it?" The man asked. Father kept quiet for a long time."Did she do it?" The man asked again. Father nodded his head, but you could tell that this was hurting him."We need to leave." Ganuku stated. I wanted to stay and listen more, so I tried to ignore him."Now!" Ganuku stated firmly.We traveled back home, when we got there I saw my body was moved. I was placed in the kitchen on Ganuku's sponge. It was weird. I was on the same sleeping position I was in from when I left my body. I panicked, they probably thought that I was dead or they were playing a prank on me. Were they trying to murder me? All these thoughts came crashing into my head, from that one gesture."Do they know? Do they know, that I had left?" I asked Ganuku."Yes, but we have to act quickly, before they tell your father... Get inside your body, we're doing this thing today." Ganuku stated. I did not know what he was really suggesting, but I complied to his demands. I got inside my body. He grabbed me with the shirt and he made us open the door. It was dark outside and I felt the breeze of the cold night hit my skin, like a deep freezer. I was really scared of leaving with my body in a human form.He made us walk until we reached the gate and then we walked towards the road."We have to act swiftly.
"Wake up, wake up!?!" I was father's voice. I looked up at him, I was back on the kitchen floor on Ganuku's blankets and sponge. I really did not know how I got back home, but from the horrific stare my father was giving me, I knew something was wrong."Who did this to you?" He asked.I did not pay attention, I was thinking about last night, about how I nearly died. So many things had happened yesterday. Me and Ganuku's had traveled to Evalon graveyard, we performed a ritual. Something had happened to me last night because I only remembered collapsing inside his grave, although it was weird, almost like witchcraft. My soul felt like it was traveling again, but it also felt like I was reborn. Ganuku had made me chant about giving him access to my temple, I did not know what that was about, but he was able to enter my vessel. His soul was now mysteriously living in my body, with me and I could feel its presence. It felt like I could feel him and he could take over. His soul felt stran
"Why did you lie on us and where did you find the blood that you had poured on yourself?" Samson asked."I always used to protect you, but the stunt you pulled on us is mean and unacceptable. From now on I will let Simon do whatever he wants to do with you!" Abraham added."Well first of all, both of must be sick in your head if you think there is any help I need from you. Go to aunt Rosina and learn some morals!" I told them not holding back my rage. In that moment I was thinking of the events that had happened when I was still alive, living in my own body."You do not sound like a real innocent Clearance that we know, you sound like crook from hell. That's why that blood was all over you? You are reeked off evil, I can smell it on you." Samson added."Well at least you can just smell it, you performed it. Now you need to learn your morals. Maybe aunt Rosina will teach you a thing or two about them." I said. These were my greatest bullies from the time I was still alive and reliving t
Ganuku P.O.V. :"Okay." Clearance said with understanding. I knew I could count on him when it mattered the most. "Can I enter my body now, just in case father gets back?" He asked looking at me. I nodded, although I did not feel like that was a wisest idea. ~When father came back from his mini vacation of air, I could not help but think that I needed to also get rid of him, if I had to accomplish all of my missions. My brothers were now out. It was then time to make my guilt and shame his potion for putting me through that struggle of being humiliated and the neglected. I had endured so much from him. I had not forgotten about how he let me experience the wrath of his late vengeful wife and I knew that she sometimes visited my other brothers and him, from time to time.I needed to occupy his dream with nightmares, he would think that he was being haunted."What are you planning now?" He asked as he entered the room, that all his sons used to sleep in, including Clearance. I did not
Ganuku P.O.V. :I could not sleep, I was not a sleeper and I could never sleep. I yearned for my justice. Vivian had been left to rot in jail ever since I had died. She was the only person who came for my defense, stabbing that well deserving mother monster, who had happened to be a mother to her five demonic children. The hurt they had put me through? When I was still alive, it could not be subdued with a slap on the wrist, everyone had to pay for their crimes. I despised and hated each and everyone of them.The one memory that still haunted me the most was the moment when Abraham was instructed to test which of my private organs were working? He inappropriately touched me when I was only a child, on my previous body, when I was still a human being. I cried out to father during those days and fought him from touching me inappropriately. Father came rushing in our bedroom to see what was happening. When I told him that Abraham wanted to molest me. He became so rigid and he blamed me
Ganuku P.O.V :He might have thought that he had escaped my wrath, but it was far from over. The was so much I was planning. He had to learn a harsh lessons. Everyone had to pay for their wrong doings, that they had created. He was scared to death after seeing me, but I knew I had to do worse. "Why are you doing this to me Ganuku? I am sorry I did not know what to do in those moments when they hurt you. I wish I could go back and change it, but It was out of my control." He tried to explain again, wiping his eyes. After sometime when I did not respond, he opened his eyes. He did not see me anymore, although I was still there, but invisible. He sighed heavily. He covered himself in blankets, hoping that what he just witnessed was not real. I went back to Clearance's room, my heart filled with rage. I was hurt, my own father had abandoned me because he felt my reality was a nightmare to him. He addressed me in a way that I could never get used to. At least when I was alive, on my pre
"I am becoming more of myself." I told him with a smirk. I knew it was his worst nightmare witnessing any of his boys acting suspect. He was high on sexual morals and gender roles. Like if you could not conform to his moral standards? You would have gotten disowned right then and there. (I hid the bottle Clearance was in, in a sock, as he was still distracted with my appearance.) "Since when?" He asked confused. In a movie where he thought that he was a hero, I was most definitely a villain. And if he thought that he was a villain, I was double that villain. I really wanted to piss him off."Since the day you stopped becoming my father. Yesterday we agreed on your boys going to live at aunt Rosina, now you want me go fetch my bullies and bring them back to this house and then go and live on a shed like some dog? Fine, I might as well take an identity of my late brother, Ganuku. I might as well fight for his justice and since I am someone who is made to live in his shoes." I told him.
Ganuku P.O.V. :"You know we are going to start beating you up after we are finished eating here, right? We do not tolerate gay boys here." One boy said."After doing that poisonous thing in front of my face, what makes you think I might spare you?" I asked them and they all looked at me as if I was a crazy person."We will beat you up, even God does not like things like you?!" The other one said clicking his tongue."Which God are you referring to?" I asked."This boy is sick, you should be running before we start hitting you!" The second boy said laughing. It seemed like being bullies seemed like the most common thing that they glorified. Another act that created so much rage inside of me."If you are referring to the god of the colonists, the food you are eating will turn into termites and it will start eating you from within." I stated. It seemed like what I had said had no effects on them and they started approaching."We are referring to the one true God of the Bible." Another s