"Can I have your card now?" Jake asked when Sasha voice seemed to have failed her. He could notice that she wasn't herself. So many things had changed and some of them were noticeable. Like her pattern of breathing or the dilation of her eyes or the way she staggered when he moved away. All these led him to one conclusion. She was still in love with him. That conclusion made Jake to smile."Why are you smiling?" Sasha wished she could wipe such a smirk away from his face. It was his fault that he still had so an impact on her. And she hated it the most because she knew that he knew about it. What could be worse than that? She had tried so hard to be immune to him but she couldn't. She had tried so hard to not allow anything about him affect her but every night before she slept she found herself going through the Cash page to catch a glimpse of his life. She knew about the kidnapping, knew about the court case. She was even there when he was called out for questioning. She followed hi
Chris walked into Sasha's office and immediately noticed her sad countenance and he needed no soothsayer to tell him that something was wrong."Sasha, what's the problem?" He asked and took a seat without being asked to. But his urgent need to speak to Sasha was not enough for Sasha to snap out of her thoughts about Jake Swanson. She loved how much he was grown. She loved how much his bodily features improved. She could see him sprouting muscles that were not present the last time they met.And the way he spoke. It felt like honey and milk were sipping out of his mouth. It sounded so good and so perfect, it was hard to believe that he wasn't sent just to torture her."Sasha!" Chris called again and this time, he snapped a finger in front of her face. This jolted Sasha back to reality and she was surprised to see Chris sitting in her office. "Chris, what are you doing here?" She asked surprised."No Sasha, the real question is what in the world were you thinking about? You totally shu
"Are you even listening to me at all?" Chris asked and Sasha blinked her eye and nodded her head. Words suddenly became too heavy for her to speak and so she shut her mouth and allowed her body language to do the talking. She knew that soon, he would want to hear her voice. She couldn't totally refrain from talking and that was the sad part. "Chris, trust me. I am perfectly okay. Work is just stressing me out and I need to breathe." "Is that all?" He asked, skeptically. "Yes. I am fine," she said but she also knew that Chris didn't believe her. She couldn't blame him though. She didn't believe herself either. She wasn't fine and she doubted if she would be okay anytime soon."Okay. If you insist. Anyways, I wanted to know what you are doing for lunch. I wanted us to go out and get something to eat together." Everyday Chris always took her out for lunch. It was becoming a norm and she grew tired of normality. She wanted something new and exciting. Unfortunately, Chris couldn't give
"Go on, spill it!" Cassidy said immediately Chris left the room."Spill what?" Sasha pretended like she didn't know what she was talking about and went back to her work."Oh do not even pretend with me. I saw you heave a sigh of relief after Chris walked out of the room. What happened? Did you guys fight?" She asked."No, Cassidy. We didn't fight," Sasha said and silence fell in the room."So what the fuck happened?!" Cassidy asked again when she wasn't saying anything. "Look, nothing happened okay. I just turned down his offer for lunch because I want to have lunch with you instead and that is what is pissing him off." "Well, it's normal for him to pissed off because of this but it's not normal for you to turn down lunch with him. Tell me, what's happening?" She asked. "What makes you think that anything is happening?" "Because even on days when you do not want to, you always enjoy a nice and romantic lunch date with Chris. You have never said no before, so what is going on?" "I
"What the actual fuck? He poured coffee on you and he didn't do anything about it?" Cassidy reacted exactly how Sasha had expected her to. "Will you calm down? He didn't pour coffee on me. He spilled coffee on me and after that, he asked to pay for my bills but I rejected the offer." "Why the hell would you reject the offer?" Cassidy asked and Sasha sighed. It was impossible to have a very decent conversation with her when all she wanted to do was judge based on her emotions."If you would allow me to talk maybe you will know what happened." "Okay, fine." She raised her hand in surrender. "Say what you want to say." And she waited for her to talk."Okay. Look, I rejected the offer because I know Jake very well. He wants to use this as an opportunity to come back into my life and I won't let him. I have spent so long missing him and I know that if I allow myself to be back with him, I will never be free from this love." It felt good to finally admit the true feelings to herself that
Sasha looked confused. She had never thought this day would come when she would have to face the ghost of Jake Swanson again. She had gotten used to the man haunting her in her dreams and she was even close to getting used to seeing his face whenever Chris attempted to make love to her. She was fine with it, she was okay with not having to do too much or fight her demons in reality. But now they were right in her face. She had stood next to him and all she could think about was how beautiful he looked. Time apart from her did not hurt him in anyway. He had even improved more than she had imagined. Not that she wanted him to fail but the change was quite glaring and she never really loved lights blinding her eyes. "Sasha?" She heard a faint voice call out to her but all she cared about was focusing on her thoughts. She didn't want to entertain them but they were always too difficult to avoid. So she just gave in and allowed it define her mood. Thankfully, Cassidy knew her too well and
"Are you out of your bloodly mind?" Sasha yelled. "You want me to tell Chris what exactly? That the man who has haunted my dreams for years now is finally back and it's not my fault but feelings that I have tried to bury for so long are springing up? You want me to tell Chris that and you think that he won't skin me alive? I am not trying to die before my time, so no, sis. I am not telling Christopher anything!" Sasha said with a tone of finality but Cassidy was never one to back down without a fight. She didn't do it with strangers so doing it with her best friend was something that would never happen. "Are you listening to yourself as well? Do you want to continue lying to him? Do you not know that you are hurting that young man?" "What he doesn't know wouldn't kill him," Sasha said silently and Cassidy shook her head. "You have become exactly what you tried fighting all these months. What you are doing to Chris is exactly what Jake did to you." Sasha slammed her hand on the tab
"I think you should leave," Sasha said, disappointed that Cassidy wasn't having her back when she needed her most. "I am not going anywhere Sash. Come on, if I don't tell you the truth then who will? You need to know that what you are doing is so not fair to Chris and it's not even fair to you. Jake has proven time and time again that he doesn't love you but now, you have someone that truly cares about you and you just want to throw that away because of what? A married man!" "I don't want to do anything! I just want to be left alone!" Sasha felt like screaming, the thoughts in her head were too fucking loud and annoying. She needed a break from everything. "You do know that not saying a thing is also saying a thing. You need to tell Chris. You owe him that much after what you have put him through," Cassidy said and Sasha understood exactly what she meant. Chris didn't know that she continuously fantasized about Jake whenever she was with him. It was the only thing that helped her r