“I'm deeply sorry miss. I thought that we could save your daughter but we couldn't. she gave up. I'm sorry but we tried all we could to save Eloise." The doctor said. I looked at him, he was wearing a small forwn but it wasn't enough to show condolence, was it?. Apart from the frown there was no other emotion playing on his face. I looked at Anderson, I saw him cleaning his tears. I wondered why my eyes were so dry. I felt guilty for not crying. After a while I was scared that if I didn't cry now, I might not cry after, I feared that maybe until I die, I wouldn't even cry and it made me feel like a witch. But I cried that night. I was laying down on the bed staring at the ceiling and then the death of Eloise seemed to take more life from the darkness in the room and it made my heart sore and bleed. I could almost see her when she was grown up, if she had been given a chance at life... I could almost smell her soft hands when she would have been done with playing in t
I had landed safely in Hawaii. It looked more different from when I had last gone. It looked more serene and tranquil. At night I was shivering like a lamb abandoned in winter. I had wrapped myself with the blanket but still I felt cold and freezing. When morning came I had stopped feeling cold but I felt terribly ill. I didn't hesitate to go to the hospital.“Have I caught an infection?." I asked the young doctor. " I'm afraid not, you didn't catch an infection. You just caught cold. “" But I didn't do anything that would lead me to catching cold. “" Did you just deliver a baby?. “ He asked me. I looked down at my feet and then at his, before I looked at his eyes." Yes, but I had given birth to her on the seventh month, she died. “" I'm sorry. “ He told me." Thanks. “ For some reason I was put in the maternity ward. They said that they would let me go before evening, they wanted to see if I would generate a cough but I didn't before evening and they su
In the morning, the nurse had come with the baby and she had brought him for his mother to suckle him. When the nurse had left and the baby was full. I stood up and I held the baby. She didn't want to let him go but I was determined.“When your husband comes, maybe he might not come but when you get home, tell him that he had suffocated the baby. The money in the envelope is enough pay you off for everything. ““The universe wants this, this is fate, I can't stop fate.“ She said crying. I saw her peek into the envelope. She held the big fat envelope to her chest, started to cry and then turned away. I held the baby to my chest and I left the hospital filled with happiness. Whoever the universe was or wherever it was, I thanked it cheerfully. Holding a living breathing baby felt very good. Holding a living breathing baby that was yours felt very dreamy. I kissed the top of his head and he purred like a small kitten. The woman that I had employed to nurse
“Why are you leaving, where are you going?." I shouted after him. I took my clothes from the floor and I chased after him. “What's wrong?." I asked him when I met him downstairs.“It's nothing. It's just that, I think you should leave."“Why?."“I don't feel like having you around."“I told you that it would put you off but you insisted on hear it, this is exactly what I feared would happen."“That was more than putting off."“Don't push me away."“I'm sorry."“But you said you loved me."“I didn't say that."“What?."“I said I didn't say that I love you." " Then what did you say?. “" I said that we could build a relationship. “" Aren't they both the same thing?. “" No, they're not.“" Asher, don't do this to me, why would you lead me on and then let me go. “" I didn't lead you. “" You did. “" I'm not interested in you Bridgette, I never was, I'll never be. “" Asher... “" Bridgette please, just leave. “" Who have you ever loved, your whole life, have you ever loved?.
From outside the pub I could hear the music playing, I couldn't pin down the lyrics, though. I looked to the windows and I saw streak of light escaping and fading off Into the night. I walked into the pub, dancing peoole were painted blue, green and red by the light. The strong lights…. It was almost blinding and the alcohol that hung in the air made it harder to breath. I knew that I wouldn't spend much time in the pub. I skimmed through the crowd of hormone enraged people to find the pretty lady from the other night. I caught sight of her and I felt my shoulders relax, a smile spread across my cheek and I felt lighter. She was at the corner of the pub serving some drinks. I watched her walking back to the bar when she was done with serving the table and I followed her.“Hey." I said and she spun around, a smile appeared on her face when she saw it was me.“Hi sugar. “ She said placing the tray on the counter. The bartender took the empty cups and I watched him replace
“Two hours have passed and I'm not seeing any money." She told me.“Two hours already?."“Yes sugar, I count the time, I've been counting it since I stepped into the house, it was twenty minutes after eight when I looked at the grandfather clock down stair . It's ten PM already.“" I didn't know that. “ I said standing up." Do you have twelve thousand dollars packed somewhere waiting for me?. “ she said jokingly. " I have thrity six thousand... In my suitcase. “ I brought the suitcase and I dropped it on the table. She opened the suitcase nervously. She gaspeed when she saw the money. She took some bundles and I watched her bring it to her nose and sniff it." Thank you. “ She said running to me and hugging me. “But we haven't spoken so much, I mean, I don't deserve this much money." She said. “Dalia, it's worth it, you don't have to worry, it's not so much of money for me."“It is for me, it's really huge money for me. To be honest, I don't think I've seen this amount o
“What were you thinking?." He shouted. I shifted in my place and I removed my eyes from his and I placed them somewhere else. I didn't want him to see that I was sacred so I decided to go and take a seat in one of the couches." Now I'm the one that's the bad guy?. “ I said adjusting myself so I would feel more comfortable “Everything that happens you shift it and make me be the bad guy and you've been doing this for years and I just had it figured out, I'm not the one that's meant to be apologizing, you are, you're angry at me for catching you having sex with another woman and you expect me to remain calm?."“Are you crazy?." He asked me.“What do you mean by that? Are you still trying so hard to make me seem bad for catching you cheating on me, you should be begging me." " Leave my house. “" I can't leave, I'm your wife. “ He started to laugh. He laughed harder than I've ever seen him laugh my entire life.“What did you just say, you say you're my wife?."“Yes." I said stiff
I was waking up, I could smell something sweet in the air. I opened my eyes to see Kai dropping some plates on the dinning. As if smelling me he looked up from the table and his eyes met mine.“You're awake, good, I was about to wake you up, breakfast is ready."“ Their mother walked out of one of the doors and she stood there, resting her body against the frame. She didn't look a day over thirty, she looked like she was their sister and not their mother. She still had the darkness of her hair, she still had a nice figure. She turned to me and then she smiled." Good morning. “ I told her." Hope you slept well. “ " Yes, I did. “I told her, she smiled some more and then she turned to Noa that was walking into the house." Hey baby, how are you?. “ She asked him." I'm fine. “ He said, he turned to me and tuned to Kai. I watched him take a seat at the table. " Come on, the food is getting cold." Kai told me. Nobody spoke till we had finished eating." Your food tastes great. “ I
It was morning. I woke up a little after dawn. I went out for a run and when I got back, everybody was already up. We were in my house in New York... All of us. My mum, my little brother, my elder brother Kai, my lovely Ará and me... All of us. “Good morning." I said to my mum.“Where's Ará?." I asked nobody in particular.“She's preparing breakfast." Kai said. I headed for the kitchen.I saw here there, handling some pots.“Good morning." I said to her walking into the kitchen.“Good morning." She said Smiling. “I woke up and I didn't see you, I figured you must have gone out for a run." " I did. “" Why don't you join me in making breakfast.“" Are you sure you don't want to have a cook or maybe just a house keeper and the house keeper can employ people to come and do some stuff. ““Remember what happened with Rosé..., Remember?." " I remember. ““ I don't want something like that to repeat itself and plus, I'm able to do these stuff on my own. We can just call peopl
It was late afternoon already.“You're my mother..." I whispered to myself, I figured that if I wanted anybody to hear me, I had to speak louder but I couldn't find my voice. “My mother's name was Bridgette, was it her you gave... Was I the baby?." I asked her..., My mother, my real mother. Looking at her I didn't know what to say, we all didn't know what to say. We all looked ashen and spooked. I wasn't the only heir after all, I was the child of a lovely affair. Something in me spurred, gave life to light. She was my mother... I felt as if I was another person entirely, I didn't feel like my name was Darwinson Charleston Andersons.... No, I didn't feel like I had a name but I felt that I had a past a, strong past and there was a strong love that brought be to the world... Not the strange type Bridgette and Anderson had, finally I could call them by their first names... I whispered it out “Bridgette Andersons and Anderson Cooper Andersons." It sounded good to my ears. Noa is
Once again I was making lunch while Kurtis spoke to Solo. To keep my mind away from what was happening, I decided to bury myself in poems, poems that nobody had heard.'I know but I don't want to believe, that there is no such thing as love, I know it's true that love dosent exist but If believing in it is being foolish, then I want to be foolish, if being foolish is being happy, then I want to be foolish it's not everytime in your life that you have to be wise, sometimes you know what happens next, so why not close your eyes and fall blindly into love even though it comes with heartbreak(s), at least you were once happy, at least you were once foolish. ''I have the mind of a ninety year old but the heart of a three year old, I love desperately and I care quietly, I miss calmly and I wait patiently, I want truly and I think fastly, I think deeply, I listen, I understand truly, I judge with reasons, I'm calm, my heart is stupid, my mind is mature, I won't compare myself to a lonely fl
I woke up the next morning to find the bed empty. I went to the sitting room. Solo was already dressed and he was drinking coffee.“Hey baby, why are you dressed so early?." I asked him." Mr Kurtis called. He's going to have a meeting with us today. He wants us to be there earlier today. “" Okay.... When will you be back?. “" In the afternoon. “" Good bye. “ I told him and he dropped his cup on the table." I love you sweetie, take care of Kai and yourself.“ He told me. I watched him leave.I went to the bathroom, I brushed my teeth and I had my bath. I was still dressing up when I heard the knock on the door. Did Solo leave anything in the house that he should have carried. I tied a towel around my chest. I went to the door, I undid the locks and then I turned the door open, standing there was Kurtis. He walked past me.“Jeez, Solo just left, what if you met him here."“I saw his car leave, I knew he just left, I was outside."“ For how long?." I asked him.“N
I woke up and made breakfast for Solo. While Solo was still asleep, the phone rang.“Hello." I said into the phone.“Hey baby." Kurtis's voice cut through the phone.“You called this early." I said above a whisper."I've been awake since dawn, I didn't know if would be so early, I'm sorry. ““You don't have to be, I was just worried that Solo might have picked the call." " How are you doing?. “ He asked me. “I just made breakfast... I'm good, how about you?."“I miss the hell out of you." He told me“I miss you too."“How about I come and pick you up today. My yacht is out in the ocean."“I don't know about today..." I started to say but he cut me off.“Solo is going to be done with his work soon, in two days time. I can't hold him here, surely he's going to get any contract, I can arrange that but I don't know how valid that plan would be, we literally don't have time on our hands, I've been thinking about it for so long and it's chewing me up. “" I thought about it too. “" I
I went home. As if Ana smelt it... As if she knew that I had done the abominable, she smiled a very fake smile.“Gael, you're back." She said to me. It wasn't Mrs Garcia or Miss Gael, it had changed to Gael, only Gael. But I felt good, I felt alive, I felt in love again almost reborn... I was born again. Gone was the old Gael and come was the new one. Not that they both of them had too many distinct features they didn't, they had too many in common, but this new me was the manifestation of the reborn Gael, the one that was formerly lost in being loyal... The one that had to quench her fire to fit in a type of lifestyle. “Yes, I'm back. “ I told her... My voice seemed foreign to me, it was much more bolder than the former, I was much more confident. “Hey Kai, how are you doing?." I asked Kai. “Momma." Kai said giggling. I took him from Ana.“Thank you Ana.“ I told her. She walked out of the door without saying anything. I was still in the bathroom having
The next day, after Solo had left for work. I took out those boxes, sat there in Kai's closet and I tore them. Toy train and cars that could moves with remotes... There were too many toys in the first box, too many that I wondered how Kai would play with them, all. Then in the other box were jewelries... How would I explain how I got them. I knew that I would have to come up with a new lie. If Solo asked who bought them, I would say that my colleague, Marietta gave them to Kai... She had a rich uncle no, I wouldn't say she had a rich uncle, I could say that she had a rich brother and she had a wealthy family too... And she loves Kai, should add that she also has a daughter or maybe I'll say she has a son. When Solo had come back, he had met me sitting in the living room with the two boxes on the table.“Jeez babe, what are those, the boxes are huge."“The boxes are huge aren't they... Let me tell you, come and have a sit. Do you remember Marrietta, my colleague, the funny lad
I heard the knock on the door. I wondered who it was. I was in the kitchen setting the things I would use to prepare dinner. I turned the locks, opened the door and I saw Kurtis standing there with two huge boxes standing beside him. When he saw me, he bent and he carried the both of the boxes and they seemed heavy. “Good afternoon." I said and he walked past me.“These boxes are heavier than they look." He said to me laughing. He dropped it on the table." I wasn't expecting you. “ I said to him." I know. “ He said walking to Kai's bedroom. " I was just in the office and I thought I'd come and surprise you and Kai. “ He said touching Kai's face." What's in the boxes?. “" Toys, mostly and the other things are just for you.“" For me?. “ " Yes, I picked them today myself. I'm sure you'd love them. “" Thank you, but what are they?. “ I asked him." You'll find out when you open the box. “ Kai was awake so they were playing together while I was cooking in the kitchen
“I'll be back soon." I told Ana. I turned the door and I walked out of the house. I went outside and I saw a different car, but it was black. And sitting behind the wheels was the same driver.“Hi." I said to him. He smiled at me. It didn't take long before we reached the beach. I climbed down from the car. The sun plastering on my body. The wind scattering my hair and my dress, kissing me everywhere. “Mr Kurtis will be waiting for you in the boat right there.“ The driver said pointing to a boat. It was the only boat that was there and it was big. Written on the body was 'Aqua-Marine'. I liked the name, very much. I walked to the deck and I turned around, the driver had started to drive away. This time there was no body to lead me. I saw Kurtis standing there when I was on the deck. He smiled at me. I turned to the ocean then to look at him.“Eyes like the heart of water." I told him. He laughed and stretched out his hand to me.“You look beautiful."“Than