It was morning ..the day was still young but the city was not like as usual as the road were rare and there were only a few people walking along the road .Weeks before the eclipse happened,all medias announced that there would be eclipse that happens only once in a hundred years..and it was hazardous to see the eclipse straightly since it can cause blindness.People can see through something...a sunglass or through water ,Fin didn't recall precisely,all she remembered was what happened to her when she walked along the pavement.She believed that it was not necessarily fear too much to go out ,as along as keeping the important point to not looking at the sky where the eclipse was there ...it is one of nature phenomenon. Well ,that would be rare views when you know it was total dark for some moments at daytime when it's normally clear..
Experts from all over the world came to observe..it was really important time for everyone then.
Fin walked straightly ..her eyes were wet ..and she began to sob as she realized none care ..none even look at her for a second...that's city people....so she knew that she could cry not only in her room but also outside ...even maybe if you yell out loud none will give a damn .
The pain was getting deeper when she knew she was really alone ..well..there must be God...
But does it ever happen,God helps at the moment one got a big problem?
She kept on walking ,it took about an hour or so to get the train station.lt saved a bit money and it's good to walk health...is it still good to walk under the heat of sun ? She didn't care ,she walk under heat and under big rain as well .
"Come again next week for the next level " said Mr Lim .
Fin knew he only buying time to make her come again . Actually he could make it in one go for the 3 or for tests .
People use people
People need people
Sure it is .
In a decent or indecent mean .
That's the point .
Fin walked more slowly ,taking a small paper note from her bag and looked carefully, suited the address..
Should she go backward or forward ? Well go forward..she made sure if she chose the right line..that one was odd number ...and this one was even ...
Ok..she found it at last ,with heart beating faster .. each time ones go for applying a job,it's a real challenge... whether ones have qualified enough to be accepted for the job or not ..but you must gain your self confidence while ...
She looked around ..yes ,that's the name which on the advertisement..
A waitress for massage needed ...
There was music played in the background.. such French romantic music .
An instrumental with title "Emmanuelle" .
Fin stepped one more inside .The room all pink ,there were some plants at the side walls..and flowers on the bar where a receptionist sat.
In the dim light ,she smiled at her.
"Good morning"
"Morning,what can l do for you? "
" I read on the ads ,here a waitress needed...l would like to apply"
" Ok ..wait ..l am going to tell the manager "
Not long after ,the boss came . A thin Chinese with white shirt .
" Yes ?"
" I would like to apply for the job in the ads that you put in the newspaper,sir "
"Ya , vacancy for massage waitress..what is your job now ?"
"I am a freelance teacher at secondary school,sir ,l can manage the working time as lm freelance or l can resign from the school so l can be full time work here "
The boss looked at her some moments with normal expression till almost unreadable.
" Do you have experience in massage service?"
Fin said no ."We need the experienced ones " That's all he responded.So it was obvious that he rejected her.she walked away after smiling and thanking him .That's all.What then ?Debt to school. If she could not pay soon she would lost her face ..she used the money of the students books and she had to return it to her workmate who asked her to sell and she got some profit but...well...she thought about suicide...many times since long but never dare to do it ...but is it time to make it ....?hellfire... desperation...No ! Think.."Hello...""Yes""Can l speak to the BBC manager ?""Ok ..wait "He sounded a bit doubt as surely you must speak English well if you want to talk to a native as the native possibly can not speak your mother tongue language but he did not ask whether she speak English fluently as it would be impolite to ask that ..sure she knew that she must speak English if she wanted to talk to the BBC manager.Fin waited ,she hold the phone .The evening radio progr
The house at the real estate complex was cute .All painted white including the fence .What made different of each house was the wood parts of doors and windows.But natural brown of wood color was favorable.Most of those com plex dwellers left it that way .They furnished their houses living rooms by various beautiful curtains and furniture.Fin wanted her doors and windows painted by pale blue .It reminded her of Yan' s fave color . Abdullah consented . Anything pleased Fin he would fullfil it..that's for sure .He loved seeing her sweet spoiled smile each time he say yes .. and ok to her request on something.Yes ,he hoped to have a child from this young woman whom he considered as motherly one from the beginning he met her .AbdulMalik drove her to the nearest store building and let her chose any materials she liked.It needs some more ceramics for the garage ,bathroom and for the maid room near the kitchen .They also searched curtain and furniture... rattan is nice then..well some fl
Tim believed that life is life ..time passed and will go on till end .The rest of your life is the matter of what you plan to do from now on.How to make the 30 years of yours ahead to be happy .That's simple ...by trying hard to change when you want to alter something about yourself or someone you care about..Yes .. everything will be gone swallowed up by uncertainty and death ..but every minutes is count..Well, John Lennon was a legend.He said he could not live without Yoko..then he died long before his beloved wife ...Fin wondered..is human destiny cling to what the brain tell ? Does our intention effect what would happen in the future?It seems so .He had incredible fame as musician...Went to lndia to learn spiritual matters.One gave him expression of big praise that he was " a writer from the dark universe"Yah ,his words are full of mystery..you can say that. One day an insane admirer just shot him dead .The killer had been punished all his life.. behind the prison he sa
The second meeting at .. Hotel? Tim asked her to meet her there ? Wait..but ..All the questions of possiblity and impossibility whirled on her head .Beating heart..fast ..did he .. ? The meeting was at 6 pm..she should calculate..the best is on time ..She picked her batik ..the fabric was a bit shiny as it was new..dark blue with yellow traditional motives on it ..the skirt was similar with some buttons in the middle.it was long sleeves top ...she touched the fabric for a second and looking at herself on the mirror.Suddenly a feeling of guilty crept inside ..that material was one production of AbdulMalik batik factory.Maybe he would kill her right at the moment..she was wearing something that he product himself and she used it for a meeting with a young man...but..She believed that Tim would like feminine type ..and you know ..if you like a man you desire to show him that feminine side ..since woman love seeing manliness..His hairy chest that he showed intentionally opened the
You should realize that you need to mend something for better within yourself..Bida changed ..after she got managed to get a job.Not only Fin ,Vinny also thought so .She suddenly thirsty..so she pour some water from the jug made of clay ..the smell was so sweet and ancient..long ago people used this kind of jug for putting and saving the drinking water ..the word platonic love still whirled in her mind.She remembered Kahlil Gibran the Lybanist famous poet who had long distance lover in Egypt named May Ziadah..they loved each other,wrote each other letters but never met in person.He didn't want to..he said better that way because mountains look beautiful from a far ...Is platonic love more wonderful than ...she sighed...and shrugged her shoulders.Bida was raised by grandma .She grew up in ..a village with her elder brothers..her grandma spoiled her but the eldest brother on the opposite..he treated her hard and fierce ..that contrast treatment might like hot water pour into a glas
With blooming flower around the garden .The fountain water was in the middle altogether with a few wooden well furnished gazebos around it .. Vida took out some crackers from her bag while Vin walking there with long steps ,two fruity juice in both of hee her hands .She sat next to Vid who was watching the children play on the playground in front of the public park.,I think I know now for sure why many relationship faded away .. devastated, withers, deteriorating..cause at first stage both used ethics yet. Saying sorry ..then you may be right ..l was wrong ....after that both demanding it that way which turn to push each other .. those statements become so dear ..where then the self actualization..self fulfillment.." "Bad and good things repeating..both play in both minds..there something irrational in love but love isn't ratio , neither nor logic..you are jealous of his past or vice versa.. simplicity is luxury now..where people seem more mobile ...is it easy to find someone you w
Memories is like wine .the older the sweeter.Who said it? Aryadipa,maybe he quoted a writer or singer ,but one thing for sure ,it's said by someone who drink wine .For one who never drink it will say it's bitter ..well whatever,he made analogy of , anything happened in the past can be sweet and it always be kept in mind..it's like hidden treasures which is so precious..what about bad experience.. something that you want to forget..it's a relief that it had happened..not in your present time .The last lunch with Tim at the cafe left a bit distracted memory of a beautiful relationship.Both Fin and Tim had such unhappy childhood..a wished to commit suicidal act at teenage..means it's big fight to go through while both were able to carry on their maturity phase .That hard struggle if the past usually leave mark of hard and firm character in personality.Anyone who got hardship in the past ...yes ,will be hard too in coping their social life ..but strangely ,the ones with sort of spoili
Was life easier centuries ago?No,but wait ,in what way..before telephone, electricity,fast transportation, peoples communicate by doing long distance journey to carry out news ..telegraph was faster than letters ..were invented ...farming tools... things all done by cows , buffalos, horses,.woman milking the cows..keeping all their things in the barn..ones can fancy that kind of life on cowboy movies ..but till now there is always villages who still untouched by modern life where cars , factories , university available and people bring about hectic life ...life never easy .It's a challenge to survive in various way.Since evil born and will be always grow..Life always never that easy ..only change the form but the color is the same .say ..What is feminism anyway ., nowadays women work at offices or doing enterprisers,did women long ago did it , before the term of feminism term mentioned? Women at that time also worked..only in different way..See the youngsters.. after graduated fr
They walked out of the airport area and found a cafe to stay for a while before going to Fin house . Fin called the girls not to pick her up at the airport.. they knew that Tim already there to do it .He would fullfil his promise last time they met to take her home by his motorbike.Fin must get a helmet first .. Fortunately there was a street seller for helmets . Tim face was like a kid in a candy store when he knew that Fin had broken up her marriage since 5 months back .Tim told her how he tried 3 times to find her but all in vain and at last he got an important information from Praga .Tim also told him that she tried to call him but the the receptionist at the course told her that he was busy .Writing him a two full page letter also she did to contact him but all failed. ,Are you depressed ?' ,,For the first 2 months yes ...but then l know that's the best way out for me ,Tim . ,,Did you find someone suitable? ,,,No ...." ,,Me too..,,,,She looked at him affectionately..an
Fin called Lydia .,,Tell Laura to come here .l need to talk to her ..and you both ".,, Alright, Miss" ,,Laura ..l need to go for a week or two .So l delegate all these to you ..I know both of you are trustworthy, as we have gone for a few months before and you can handle this boutique when l was out .Now please do the same . I will contact you often and you can contact me too to the hotel I will be in " ,"Certainly,Miss ,excuse me for asking ,where will you go to ?",,I'm not sure yet , Lydia, maybe Bali ..Batam and Padang ...there are things I must handle.",,Great Miss , where will you go ? Tomorrow?",,Ya , tomorrow morning .Please check the flight to Bali first ,then see Padang " .__After more than an hour leaning on the tree waiting for her to come ..and none he could get ..Tim felt the frailty inside him .Then he thought about something.What if he try once again to get the info from Praga about Fin ? Even he showed the hardiness and secretive manner but there must be so
Primavera brows some articles about operational manager work ..which made Charlie looked so hectic.He come back home late sometimes then going out and having trip a lot intercity .Sometime he came in for lunch .Then came back to the office .Prima supposed that it's his way to respect her , accompanied her for lunch ,or there was something empty inside his soul that demanding an affinity .She recalled his problem with his past as ex marine ,his lost of his young wife ,his divorce with the second one,and the one betrayed him , a girl from Maduba who ran away to Germany after getting much money from him.He considered her as healer..so he always saw himself as a sick man .She knew that he got businesses links with several VIP s ,beside his position in the oil company.With these superiority...he was a man with serious problem.She wanted to understand him better, so it's good to imagine how busy he is .. browsing things related to it ..**The roles and functions of operations managers
Hazel was Leslie wife's name.She'a taciturn person . Her expression showed such despondency.It's contradictory to the boys .She seemed to have her own world , whilst Leslie was a happy go_lucky one . She accompanied the two boys at the little playground behind the boutique store which arranged by Fin to make convenient for customers.Having playground while the adults seeing the store .Hazel bought hosiery .She was an editor at the same magazine where Leslie worked .What work as an editor look like ?What made her look so mawkish..or ..not that .. serious? strained....does she work in tedium ? Ones wondered ..what if someone prod her ..will she resent ? They wanted to check out why ..so they look for some information from Wikipedia*responsible for planning and creating written materials. A few of the main duties of an editor are editing copy and improving on it, educate writers on best practices, identify ways to improve the flow of materials, and advise writers on content pieces.
As a senior journalist who worked at new magazine ,Leslie made permutations in a list of things he would do orderly .He would start from big,medium or small businesses or vice versa as he could not estimate the measurements by physical build only . Sometimes big business appeared small or vice versa .Say family business.lt can be small ran out by simple person with simple management ,it also can be ran by big and complicated business doers .He can measure it after observation, interview and conclusion.The length of time also can be considered .But he didn't care too much about big or small ,long or begin ner ,main point was, it's attractive or not .The attraction points could be estimated by many factors,including what's the idea of the business,the vision it convey and how it established and facing the up and downs which come out from time to time.The magazines he worked also relatively new It's not longer than a year back .Leslie managed the interviews on businesses doers al
Fin let her body relax after the long trip .It need time to adapt again even it's her own home after leaving for a few months .Surrounded by those suburban people and her foreign colleagues,it was only 5 hours ago .Now she was back to her city life . Facing the hours to do this and that .Well ...shower will do her good ..she walked to the bathroom while singing , Antonius song by Michael franks..Antonio lives life's frevoAntonio prays for truthAntonio says our friendshipIs a hundred-proofThe vulture that circles RioHangs in this L.A. skyThe blankets they give the IndiansOnly make them dieBut sing the SongForgotten for so longAnd let the Music flowLike Light into the RainbowWe know the Dance, we haveWe still have the chanceTo break these chains and flowLike Light into the RainbowWe still have the chanceTo break these chains and flowLike Light into the RainbowAntonio loves the desertAntonio prays for rainAntonio knows that PleasureIs the child of PainAnd lost
,,I want a difficult woman .",,I ...want a simple but sophisticated one ,,,, Simplicity",Rich woman , Beautiful inside outside,,Motherly ..not working woman.,,Nice and interesting,,Sexy ,, IntelligentAnd that's what have been heard from the smoky room which now is clearThose chatters know that what they want maybe will never or will be come true .None can fulfill any dream...can't one ?Fin was burying some seeds on the pots ,picking some wild grass , some part to throw away other parts to be put in a vase to ordinate her room . She watched the beauty of it ...why people name only rose and jesemine or daisy for pretty flowers ? Wild flower can make your day even better ,if you know how to ...She remembered things randomly...in the classroom with Mandy...She asked some tricky questions..,,Tell me , each one of you ,name one of your favorite color and say 2 adjectives for what things made you feel about the color ..Melvin ,who always wore black suits said ,,, Black..str
Hey little hummingbirdStay with me in this cold JanuaryAre you waiting for something to happen ?Meeting the beloved oneOr better years ahead..Let's talk with me little beautiful birdWe got same story to chat . .People come and go .Who stay and who leave ? ,,God always give a much better days than yesterday..yesteryears seems more wonderful since we have no time capsule,no spaceships,no vehicle ,no bike ,to visit it except our memories..Put them well and safe and keep on walking...,,Sit on the stoneFeel all here..tree branches as roof ..Water as moving bed .And the grass as mat ..sleep here with cute ants and grasshoppers..Rabby..Each moment we witness Your Omnipotent powerTo make life goes on in pain and joyIn the balance of nothing and everythingWe shake as our soul breath in hope and despairRabbyWe witness how good and bad work in their own way find their process to endYou witness everyone deedSpreading justice in multiplying rewards and punishmentNone of us c
If the number of human being as many as salts or sands in the sea ..imagine it ..we live in a cluster..Having our own family and that's the destiny started it's path...Do you believe in natural selection..the Darwin theory whose hypothesis were poked by some and trusted by some others as it was one of the pages in the text books and what the highschool study to get good score at biology subject?About the strong and the weak .The winner and the loser .It's copied by agencies to get good models ,singers ,movie star etc..Started on competition...so are at companies.. people applied for job ..people apply for university admission...all is about competition.The winner takes all? Is that fair ?Life is often unfair ..for the losers .It is really a choler .Those elites are bestial .They are hooligans.They are godless.Hard hitting.They patter a game to make every doors open for them .They are impish.In long ago battles,kings went fight !Now ,kings and leaders sit behind the d