It was morning ..the day was still young but the city was not like as usual as the road were rare and there were only a few people walking along the road .Weeks before the eclipse happened,all medias announced that there would be eclipse that happens only once in a hundred years..and it was hazardous to see the eclipse straightly since it can cause blindness.People can see through something...a sunglass or through water ,Fin didn't recall precisely,all she remembered was what happened to her when she walked along the pavement.She believed that it was not necessarily fear too much to go out ,as along as keeping the important point to not looking at the sky where the eclipse was there ...it is one of nature phenomenon. Well ,that would be rare views when you know it was total dark for some moments at daytime when it's normally clear..
Experts from all over the world came to observe..it was really important time for everyone then.
Fin walked straightly ..her eyes were wet ..and she began to sob as she realized none care ..none even look at her for a second...that's city people....so she knew that she could cry not only in her room but also outside ...even maybe if you yell out loud none will give a damn .
The pain was getting deeper when she knew she was really alone ..well..there must be God...
But does it ever happen,God helps at the moment one got a big problem?
She kept on walking ,it took about an hour or so to get the train station.lt saved a bit money and it's good to walk health...is it still good to walk under the heat of sun ? She didn't care ,she walk under heat and under big rain as well .
"Come again next week for the next level " said Mr Lim .
Fin knew he only buying time to make her come again . Actually he could make it in one go for the 3 or for tests .
People use people
People need people
Sure it is .
In a decent or indecent mean .
That's the point .
Fin walked more slowly ,taking a small paper note from her bag and looked carefully, suited the address..
Should she go backward or forward ? Well go forward..she made sure if she chose the right line..that one was odd number ...and this one was even ...
Ok..she found it at last ,with heart beating faster .. each time ones go for applying a job,it's a real challenge... whether ones have qualified enough to be accepted for the job or not ..but you must gain your self confidence while ...
She looked around ..yes ,that's the name which on the advertisement..
A waitress for massage needed ...
There was music played in the background.. such French romantic music .
An instrumental with title "Emmanuelle" .
Fin stepped one more inside .The room all pink ,there were some plants at the side walls..and flowers on the bar where a receptionist sat.
In the dim light ,she smiled at her.
"Good morning"
"Morning,what can l do for you? "
" I read on the ads ,here a waitress needed...l would like to apply"
" Ok ..wait ..l am going to tell the manager "
Not long after ,the boss came . A thin Chinese with white shirt .
" Yes ?"
" I would like to apply for the job in the ads that you put in the newspaper,sir "
"Ya , vacancy for massage waitress..what is your job now ?"
"I am a freelance teacher at secondary school,sir ,l can manage the working time as lm freelance or l can resign from the school so l can be full time work here "
The boss looked at her some moments with normal expression till almost unreadable.
" Do you have experience in massage service?"
Fin said no ."We need the experienced ones " That's all he responded.So it was obvious that he rejected her.she walked away after smiling and thanking him .That's all.What then ?Debt to school. If she could not pay soon she would lost her face ..she used the money of the students books and she had to return it to her workmate who asked her to sell and she got some profit but...well...she thought about suicide...many times since long but never dare to do it ...but is it time to make it ....?hellfire... desperation...No ! Think.."Hello...""Yes""Can l speak to the BBC manager ?""Ok ..wait "He sounded a bit doubt as surely you must speak English well if you want to talk to a native as the native possibly can not speak your mother tongue language but he did not ask whether she speak English fluently as it would be impolite to ask that ..sure she knew that she must speak English if she wanted to talk to the BBC manager.Fin waited ,she hold the phone .The evening radio progr
The house at the real estate complex was cute .All painted white including the fence .What made different of each house was the wood parts of doors and windows.But natural brown of wood color was favorable.Most of those com plex dwellers left it that way .They furnished their houses living rooms by various beautiful curtains and furniture.Fin wanted her doors and windows painted by pale blue .It reminded her of Yan' s fave color . Abdullah consented . Anything pleased Fin he would fullfil it..that's for sure .He loved seeing her sweet spoiled smile each time he say yes .. and ok to her request on something.Yes ,he hoped to have a child from this young woman whom he considered as motherly one from the beginning he met her .AbdulMalik drove her to the nearest store building and let her chose any materials she liked.It needs some more ceramics for the garage ,bathroom and for the maid room near the kitchen .They also searched curtain and furniture... rattan is nice then..well some fl
Tim believed that life is life ..time passed and will go on till end .The rest of your life is the matter of what you plan to do from now on.How to make the 30 years of yours ahead to be happy .That's simple ...by trying hard to change when you want to alter something about yourself or someone you care about..Yes .. everything will be gone swallowed up by uncertainty and death ..but every minutes is count..Well, John Lennon was a legend.He said he could not live without Yoko..then he died long before his beloved wife ...Fin wondered..is human destiny cling to what the brain tell ? Does our intention effect what would happen in the future?It seems so .He had incredible fame as musician...Went to lndia to learn spiritual matters.One gave him expression of big praise that he was " a writer from the dark universe"Yah ,his words are full of mystery..you can say that. One day an insane admirer just shot him dead .The killer had been punished all his life.. behind the prison he sa
The second meeting at .. Hotel? Tim asked her to meet her there ? Wait..but ..All the questions of possiblity and impossibility whirled on her head .Beating heart..fast ..did he .. ? The meeting was at 6 pm..she should calculate..the best is on time ..She picked her batik ..the fabric was a bit shiny as it was new..dark blue with yellow traditional motives on it ..the skirt was similar with some buttons in the middle.it was long sleeves top ...she touched the fabric for a second and looking at herself on the mirror.Suddenly a feeling of guilty crept inside ..that material was one production of AbdulMalik batik factory.Maybe he would kill her right at the moment..she was wearing something that he product himself and she used it for a meeting with a young man...but..She believed that Tim would like feminine type ..and you know ..if you like a man you desire to show him that feminine side ..since woman love seeing manliness..His hairy chest that he showed intentionally opened the
You should realize that you need to mend something for better within yourself..Bida changed ..after she got managed to get a job.Not only Fin ,Vinny also thought so .She suddenly thirsty..so she pour some water from the jug made of clay ..the smell was so sweet and ancient..long ago people used this kind of jug for putting and saving the drinking water ..the word platonic love still whirled in her mind.She remembered Kahlil Gibran the Lybanist famous poet who had long distance lover in Egypt named May Ziadah..they loved each other,wrote each other letters but never met in person.He didn't want to..he said better that way because mountains look beautiful from a far ...Is platonic love more wonderful than ...she sighed...and shrugged her shoulders.Bida was raised by grandma .She grew up in ..a village with her elder brothers..her grandma spoiled her but the eldest brother on the opposite..he treated her hard and fierce ..that contrast treatment might like hot water pour into a glas
With blooming flower around the garden .The fountain water was in the middle altogether with a few wooden well furnished gazebos around it .. Vida took out some crackers from her bag while Vin walking there with long steps ,two fruity juice in both of hee her hands .She sat next to Vid who was watching the children play on the playground in front of the public park.,I think I know now for sure why many relationship faded away .. devastated, withers, deteriorating..cause at first stage both used ethics yet. Saying sorry ..then you may be right ..l was wrong ....after that both demanding it that way which turn to push each other .. those statements become so dear ..where then the self actualization..self fulfillment.." "Bad and good things repeating..both play in both minds..there something irrational in love but love isn't ratio , neither nor logic..you are jealous of his past or vice versa.. simplicity is luxury now..where people seem more mobile ...is it easy to find someone you w
Memories is like wine .the older the sweeter.Who said it? Aryadipa,maybe he quoted a writer or singer ,but one thing for sure ,it's said by someone who drink wine .For one who never drink it will say it's bitter ..well whatever,he made analogy of , anything happened in the past can be sweet and it always be kept in mind..it's like hidden treasures which is so precious..what about bad experience.. something that you want to forget..it's a relief that it had happened..not in your present time .The last lunch with Tim at the cafe left a bit distracted memory of a beautiful relationship.Both Fin and Tim had such unhappy childhood..a wished to commit suicidal act at teenage..means it's big fight to go through while both were able to carry on their maturity phase .That hard struggle if the past usually leave mark of hard and firm character in personality.Anyone who got hardship in the past ...yes ,will be hard too in coping their social life ..but strangely ,the ones with sort of spoili
Was life easier centuries ago?No,but wait ,in what way..before telephone, electricity,fast transportation, peoples communicate by doing long distance journey to carry out news ..telegraph was faster than letters ..were invented ...farming tools... things all done by cows , buffalos, horses,.woman milking the cows..keeping all their things in the barn..ones can fancy that kind of life on cowboy movies ..but till now there is always villages who still untouched by modern life where cars , factories , university available and people bring about hectic life ...life never easy .It's a challenge to survive in various way.Since evil born and will be always grow..Life always never that easy ..only change the form but the color is the same .say ..What is feminism anyway ., nowadays women work at offices or doing enterprisers,did women long ago did it , before the term of feminism term mentioned? Women at that time also worked..only in different way..See the youngsters.. after graduated fr