..............Huh? Where was I- Oh...I blacked out, didn't I... Well, that's just great. And judging from the burning pain and fatigue I was feeling throughout my body, I'd guess that I was probably also running a high fever just to put the icing on the metaphorical shit cake.With my body not really listening to me as I laid in silent agony, I didn't really know what else I could actually do beyond letting my mind wander again. That, or try and divine just what the hell was being done to my body as Lace assuredly tried treating me to the best of her abilities.Let's see... My last thought from earlier was poisoning... poisoning... Radiation poisoning? Was it even possible? How the hell would Lace even treat for something like it? I sure as hell didn't remember; my only recollection of it
"How long do you think we have?"Time was relative inside a mindscape. Or, at least that's what I hoped was the case. It could've been minutes. Hours. Hell, maybe even days since I've found myself sitting in front of Ica bathing in the woman's warmth and presence. A part of me relished the feeling; that I was free to do absolutely nothing in the presence of someone that knew me in an absolute sense. No pretentious bullshit of hiding my more fucked up quirks and weird-ass tendencies."Who knows?" Ica off-handedly responded, her eyes not straying from the book that seemed to have just magically materialized in her hands not a few minutes ago. "It will all depend on how your body responds. I'm sure you're sturdy enough to survive, however."Sturdy, huh... "How so?"Ica slipped a thumb over her lips as she turned a page on
I gave up. Wasn't that the inconvenient truth..."It doesn't take a rocket scientist to realize that you've been... how should I put it... gimping yourself, Master."Ignoring the colorful choice of words, the thought Ica was trying to get across still hit its mark as I found myself falling back into my chair. The world around me felt like it was melting at the seams as I hunched over the table, my mind struggling to render the truth that was plain as day to see for anyone except for me."You failed one too many times, you couldn't handle the pressure anymore, and you gave up on yourself."*thud*The hefty thud of a book slamming shut echoed straight into my ears as I heard Ica get up from her seat. I felt her moving around my general vicinity; her heat far too obvious and apparent for me to
Ica wasn't one for games.Being a literal embodiment of her Master's untapped abilities, the phoenix hadn't expected to mold herself into this demeaning approximation of her Master's... preferences. She was power. Pure Essence made manifest. To think that she'd stoop to lower herself simply in a vain attempt to knock some sense into the idiot that was her host?Inconceivable.And yet, as Ica watched her Master reabsorb each and every page of her repressed memories, she couldn't help but roll her eyes at the lengths she had undergone for this event to even happen. Creating a human analog of herself had been the first step, despite her host already being able to understand her through her sheer thoughts. Next came the complete overhaul of the mindscape, which would enable her Master to better understand the place that was her own mess of a mind.
Questions... the fundamental building blocks of curiosity. Any child would have these in spades, as would any other OCD-riddled adult that just refuses to accept any answer at face value. Of course, it wasn't that easy to seek the answers to any question, especially during the late-age information era when the very concept of the truth had been distorted and mangled by those that wished to control it. Anyone with a narrative had their own set of truths, as would those that simply had their own beliefs and principles. Unfortunately, the hivemind that was society had a tendency to spit out those that went against them, and as such, thinking for oneself became radicalism."Crimson?"Radicalism, in turn, becomes extremism. After which would come the gradual degradation of rational thought and basic common sense. Now that I think about it, I think even I, myself, wasn't immune to i
Okay, let's think this through...I apparently have an ability that's supposed to be exclusive to Numerators. I already have access to my missing memories because of Ica. Ica explained that the reason I blacked out was that I was reabsorbing the lingering Essence still present in this abandoned village..................Fuck me, I don't understand how I'm supposed to spin this."..Yeah..." I found myself hesitantly agreeing to Love's comment, her eyes oddly judging despite knowing that their owner wasn't as such. "I did say that...""How did you know then?"I grimaced as Lace presented the fucking question. Of course, I wouldn't be able to dodge this thing forever. But did that mean that I couldn't buy
A few minutes had passed since I had a nervous breakdown when I had decided that I was back to being a presentable person again. The twins were back in the old, dilapidated room that we were staying in; our dinners being cooked by the bafflingly dangerous campfire they've somehow set up on a floor made of wood. I would've questioned them on this, but I honestly couldn't give a shit anymore as this day just kept on getting longer and longer. I couldn't even tell if it was already past midnight already at this point. I was just surviving through sheer conviction and the potential guilt that would well up inside me if I put this thing off for tomorrow.Not that that was out of the cards, however. I could still drop unconscious out of sheer fatigue at any point in time."So, I have a theory..." I started off the discussion, my eyes probably still red from earlier as the twins look
"Focus."Focus, huh... Such a nebulous term, at least in my opinion. Forcing one's mind to remove all distractions just to solely aim at one subject, focusing is a vital skill used by both adults and students alike in their everyday lives. Whether as a learning tool or to simply get shit done in as quick and accurate a fashion, the amount of time one can stay focused can dictate whether or not one would be successful in their chosen field. It will always take a certain amount of focus to-*SLAP!*"Oww!"The stinging sensation of a wooden plank hitting its mark threatened to break my skin as I rubbed my reddening arm. My eyes opened in an instant, the visage of Love holding a whacking stick looming above me from where I sat. Was it unwarranted? Was it premature? I don't really know. Then again, I guess I did ask for this