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ones activate their minds in seeing things around.,but don't be like machines in producing same stuff each day..Gerina took her clothes which already ironed by Aby then picked one of them after about 15 minutes thinking about which would be the best wear to meet someone at a blind date ocurrance.She was going to meet him at a cafe just nearby the house .Still ,he need Aby to chaperone her .
,, Don't let dad know I meet someone ,ok ,, she said .Aby just nodded and followed her walking out .Human knowledge can be developed if it stuffed by more and more data in a insatiable curiosity.
Gerina have been known the man from social media .
She was thrilled by the first meeting in person after a few months chatting on phone .She must be careful in deciding to meet in person ..quite many bad stories happen on a date from social media. One day it return to the similar conclusion ,whether the friendship would be in good shape or on the contrary.But it cycle and develop on some steps before finding better conclusion.
Stagnant people will be stay in one point and return to the same point ,even time never stop and never go backwards.They who centered everything in their own ideas and keep the fear remain inside will not go further.
,,Just put the things in there. do not see him for long moments..ok ?" Said Gerina when they arrived at the cafe mentioned.She wanted Aby to be there before the guy appeared .
Again he was just nodded.People come and go . Some were sitting in relax vibes ,talking in low voice while sipping some drinks .
Gerina was just at her first term at the university.She placed herself as a big part of a great star in the family ,a shining person for a bright future to gain everything that everyone dream of..And all of her siblings will do the same for themselves...They who stay in their shells act like the sluggish snails.
Human can be mute physically but the mind do the blow ,wave ,fly ,kick ,jump, dance ,and run. ...It's amazing to be human ,to be youngsters..full of energy and dreams to reach out.The man she was just doing to meet hopefully as gallant as he look on the phone .. anyway she saw him on video call ..and as rich as she thought.. from the attire he showed and ...well shut up Gerina ..is that the guy ? She told him what clothes she would wear so he can distinguish her .. should she call first or waiting for him to do the first move ..?Good, submit the huge task to him ,to form a decent impression that she was a high class person .
The world always be giving free will.
Some ideas have been gripped by.....
,,Hi ..Gerina .." a voice distorted her daydreaming.She looked at the figure .Then they were sitting together, ignoring the astonished Aby who was standing in silence.
The guy looked at him as if seeing a boy who got down some health problems . Facing Gerina , the boy asked her in pain ,with his eyes wondering if he can go or not now .He was not dare to asked her verbally.He thinks that nothing he feels but getting rid of the illness .He doesn't know why suddenly he feels sick .
,,Who is he ?Ah sorry ...do you ..?" The guys stared at him strangely. then ?
Some torture crept in Aby feeling,as he seems to be at a wrong place .He stared at him the way he does to kids who live at those slum areas where the homeless and jobless ,education less exist.. usually crimes emerged as well.
So no space to breath properly now ,physically and mentally ill .Then other types of troubles...
Lack of attention ,friends as basic needs of normal human being.That's the way he treated Aby that make him uneasy.
Gerina learn that ,so ,she perform herself in a lively way and told the man that Aby actually a strong boy .
,,Ah..ok Ab..you can go now " .She didn't even tell him that he is her own brother.Better he thought that he just an errand boy .Many people become victims of their own ideas about self dignity just like Gerina.
She can not be performing more than that,because the power of having the real self esteem has gone ,robbed by the wrong idea about being a classy person.The guy doesn't care either .He thinks about the slum ,the handicapped area and the dwellers,starved caused by cruel the unpleasant condition.All of that is not his job...what is in his hand and mind can do to make the world a better place ?
Aby left them after doing things the man and Gerina ordered him to do ..he was just obeyed without a word.They have a pleasant talk and totally forget anything about Aby.Gerina let him think or maybe even sure that Aby was an errand as she knows that she can't be proud to have a brother like him .
She knows why..Many close relationship faded awayDevastated...withered ... deteriorated,Cause at first step ones often still need the best effect of each other concerns.
"Sorry.........Am l right ? ....."
You are right,Sure ."Then after that they were boasting by big words that seems so true ,after they fight and struggle for their own super egos.
Gerina talked about things she wanted him to see her .An honorable family ,never having financial trouble..and so did the guy ...
What will happen after they met,and at the end of the road what if they found out the real condition? Ah .. youngsters explore things by learning and experiencing ..till time tell .Aby just walked and seeing the right left of the road when he was crossing it.
Some dragonflies and collibris were rowing around and flying in the sky .
Father listened to his steps when he came in .
,, Where have you been,dear ? ,, He asked .Thin smile was on his face .
,,I just went out to see maybe some dew remain on leaves.."
His father giggled.They used poems as something normal for a chat .In relax moment.Aby could free himself from telling a lie by that ..
How simple and fun matters ,the universe in the child eyes....When the stars seems so tiny,even smaller than marbles...When they don't know,salt come from the sea just like whales .....Maybe there is beauty in every soulBut bad weather destroys it. Or atmosphere around.cause ...Filth of complaints in agony,Hatred in jealousy,Ignorance in ego,and Pride in self dignity.,,Have you got lunch ? I had something for you ..,, father said .He took out a piece of melon .He knew that Aby likes it a lot .,,Do you have a room for things like these? I mean in your empty stomach..."..then dad showed him things he mentioned.
Books ,vases, fresh flowers ,trays and candles .
Aby was wondering if dad get all that from a flea..He got all that for mom and himself.Forget about the symbols of compassion.
It is not just a symbol.
It's a wealth of human innermost.,,Put some more paint to that part of the wall to make it bright ..symbol of our optimism " said dad and gave a little can of paint and brush for Aby to mend some part of the leaking worn out paint of the wall.Aby took it happily,it will please mom and Lev ..a bright touch for the livingroom.Then he formed more pictures on it,to make the barren wall color vivid with some drawings of peacock and tulips.
The more he did all that, the more Aby realize it's not only symbol.Nothing in real.
Just thinking of how ones make home occupied by some other beautiful living things..Feel like making the atmosphere full of joy .
It will planned to be stuffed by lots of various matters and ideas .,,Then our language become one language.Not national regional or local language.Or international language..But language of emotionAngerHappinessNothingnessWill be processed Understanding By true ..True friends in life which is bondage whether by blood hereditary or affinity.Aby was almost finished his work when Mama came in after having quite long siesta .She rubbed her eyes ,staring at the difference athomosphere.., What a beauty! city views ,full of lights ..There the mute blueness standstill..Where the people come from?Before the buildings skyscrapers there ?.what they look for ?,,She said ,like a poet on stage.Dad laughed happily.That was a good cues ..If mom willing to gather on their vibes.Why don't they have it more lots of times, cause family life sometimes hindered by the wrongdeeds,mistakes,misleading conclusion ,folly,stupid decisions that are regretted after all.All their lifetime as unity they carry on all the things .. beside the same dreams and aims which heading to happy times. BecauseHuman knows things bit by bit ,Pieces by piecesBefore we realize we wanted the wingking pretty stars at night to come down. .Before we know they are huge their heat are unbearable.We let bad and good people do things to us before we know they are bad,so bad or good,so good ..who knows you better than your own family? Even , knowing does not always mean prudent and understanding.Beautiful hearts of beautiful personalities of each ..is great thing to have ...Mama want some piece of the melon .Aby cut it in two,then he served it on a little plate to mom ..Simple, nice and familiar act as fuel of necessary intimacy.Not serious quirky chat , road to laughter of joy .
,,By the way,where is Gerina ?" Dad asked.,,I want to give her something too" Both of Aby and Mama pretended not to hear Dad inquiry...
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