Having 12 family members in one house is not easy.
The fact that there are many basic human needs which must be fulfilled well physically and non-physically become very complex when each member who lives under the same one roof have burden on their shoulders ,along with their respective rights and obligations to carry out.
Small income can be triggers to yield jealousy on each others.
If Mr Fazan prioritizes one of the children for example ,Arkadevi is bought a raincoat jacket, then Gerina will ask for the same or another stuff ,but the point is that everyone demand for having the similar stuff at the same time .
If mother deals with it unfairly by giving unwise opinion and indulge any girl who complain ,l want shoes.Asfarina got what she asked ..why dad doesn't do the same for me ?"
And that's what often happens Mom ,instead of giving her understanding to give in and waiting for other time for dad to get his time ,she consoled her in a wrong way by indulgence.
Sugarcoating words is often useless and rubbish .
Why?because almost all of her opinions are based on favoritism.
Aby felt his father's sadness in facing that fact. One time he said to him ,
,,I want to help you .dad...I want to find a job to make you feel better .. more comfortable and peaceful ...,"
Dad just stroking his hair and gently put his head on his lap .
,,Don't you ever think of getting work now ,Aby .You only a kid and go to school.You already help lots of things in this house ..l know my dear ..Lev is the only one that make you happy."
,,You make me happy too ,dad .." he said while taking his dad 's palm on his cheek and pressed it to him .
His dad just staring at him and let Aby sleep slowly.
Whenever this happen and one of his sister passes and look at them that way , she gives an unpleasant grimace as if it is something silly or overwhelming.
The affection beetween the father and the son is like something weird and improper in their eyes .. because they keep the jealousy.They want to be treated the same way which is not possible as their age ...Aby was only 9 years old and at that age he behave decently ..unlike most of those boys .This treatment from his sister is on and on till he was at secondary school.
Flow ..glow
But best in its shape and fact is growing older ,dear sisters ..
Is it planted in deep soul,the seed of goodness at everybody heart ?
Is it watered by more idea of fertilizing,
Let the rain wet the ground and the dry barren earth started to emerge some trees with green leaves come for it.
Mud and little worms too.
That is compassion that grows..
Not only the beauty,
But also the fact of life in surroundings
that link to it .
"Dad..in the silence I hear myself speak to myself..
I think my eyes started to wet when
I aware
that many efforts l have done finally come to failures.
Many things happen because of the silence tears..l don't blame anyone for anything,dad ,l just don't understand why l never able to please them " said Aby one day to his father when they were planting some cassava and sweet potatoes in the back yard .
,,My dear ..tears Of pain that whisper in pray is the best you can do .
You know what you feel and try all the way comprehend all the situation..that's the time you find a meaning for any efforts you do .,,
,,When we know how fragile and powerless we are,
So ...l will think ,
Rethink and sensing everything.
Any wish and wills inside telling you where to go ..
You know better yourself and what is good for you to serve them as a good brother for
them..look at my example..l love all my children but what l do seem never good enough for them and they accuse me of being an unjust dad " .
, Involving you in every breath l take as you are ...,
,,I know the reason,dad ..."
"Do you ...?"
Asked his father in half belief .Did Aby know that his mother has such superiority complex..? Because of being an only child ? She loves to be treated specially indulgent..? Or her matriarchal side of hereditary cultural base ?
Magnetic ones.
The talk beetween the two .Even Lev hasn't understood yet on what they talked about,but usually he sat near them while playing and silently absorbed some experience and knowledge from it in a way of a little kid does.
,,When can l put on the uniform like that ?" Said Lev whilst watching Aby dressed up for school .
Before he could answer him ,Fetina called him with loud and commanding voice.
,,Aby !! Make my bed ! "
Aby did it with the risk of being late to school and has punishment for that ,beside the mockery of his classmates.
Lev stared at him in pity ..
Arriving at the school gate, it has already closed. He had to wait another 20 minutes until the gatekeeper opened the gate. That was the rule, being late for half an hour of class equaled one hour of lessons which totaled 45 minutes in each subject. Then he would be questioned by the teacher what was the reason of being late, allowed or not to attend the rest of the lesson depends on the teacher strict ness. If he allowed him the whole class would laugh at him, ridicule him and brand him as undisciplined, naughty, or whatever they pleased. Or other sanctions, standing in front of the class like an idiot, looking around. Some are punished by having to clean the toilet.
that's so disgusting. .
At recess hour he comes out, waited by a group of school children and friends from other classes who mingled to his own classmates.
They were ready to shout at him with various ridicules .
,,Girl ! sweeping, cleaning, taking care of younger sibling, shopping at the market... haha...!"
,,And just earlier ..he just cleaned the school toilets... right!"
,,Step child ! step child ! step child ! ,,
,, Hey Aby...your shoes are gaping ..wanted to eat!"
,,Buy a uniform at a flea market!"
,, You eat rest of your sister food!, you can just get the rest of your sister dish !! ha ha if they eat all till finish,then he doesn't eat anything ..starving !"
Aby continued walking with a normal face, without any expression. One word of resistance could invite a fight. They might gang up on him. Aby never disturbs or harms any of them. Why do they bother him? Yes, hie clothes and shoes are indeed worn out. But he doesn't stink, because he maintains cleanliness.
Since Aby doesn't contradict anything to them and does not fight them so that they haven't found a way to hurt him hitting him .
What's wrong with Abby? Is poverty a sin? Is sweeping the floor and feeding his younger sibling a flaw or disgrace ?
So ,with such persistence and self esteem,he walked on, showing no anger, no offense, not even looked hurt.
Aby came home from school that afternoon, found the house rather quiet. Father was at work, of course, mom probably slept with Lev and his older sisters were still at school. Aby sat in a chair for a while, very tired, wanted to eat or sleep for a while. He thought about a few tasks he had to complete first. Alright, if he sleep for a while before eating it might not be a problem, he'll do his routine tasks after that.He tiptoed to his room ,avoiding in making any noise that can awaken anyone .He changed an started to close his eyes . Sleeping is the best way out for tiredness.Empty highway to dream .Where to go... memories of the late Grandpa and grandma..The old house with some trees around.Create peace and garden of eden in your own heart...again the memories coming in a various forms joyous ,palaver , strained and prod .They played to be queen and king .A kid sat in a piles of pillow so she could be higher than everyone then commanding this and that while the common people a
A few hundred meters from the house around the corner from the market, there was a business of refilling gallons of mineral drinking water. Aby came there that afternoon after school. "Is it still needed here a vacancy for a boy delivering the gallons of water ?" He asked someone there. The person pointed at a young man who was preparing gallons of water to the saddle of his motorbike."Oh, sorry," said Aby as he approached the young man.Whom he pointed at. He asked the same thing.The worker replied , "Maybe it's still needed. But just ask my boss." "Can I see him?,,,,Wait a minute, " Soon the young man returned.,, Incidentally the boss is in his workroom. Wait a minute.Later you will be called " ,Okay . Thank you" . Then Aby was called.,, Good morning sir ,,,, Morning..you want to work here ? Wait .. you're Mr Fazan ' s son ..right ? I think I saw you a few times buying some gallons of water here ""That's true,Mr ,"Well yes l still need one or two deliver boy here
A day to collect his wage would come tomorrow.lt was like a tonic water. Aby hoped to have some amount that enough to pay for the angry madam whose children' s toys were broken by Lev last time .What about if it's more ? Wow, that sounds great.He would buy something for mom and dad and if possible,for his sister and of course for Lev . Little kids need new things always . Actually the father of the kids thought that his wife was imprudent to force Aby to replace the broken toys .He even saw that his wife bungled the issue..and she was rather crabby .But she told him that Aby insisted to replace as a form of responsibility and also to make Lev got a lesson whilst playing .Aha.. it's more than the target. He can use his month's salary to buy some simple things. Not enough for himself, but he's happy because he can buy something for his family.After finishing his business with the madam, he went to the cake shop and buy a big size for everyone, and a special little cake for Lev. A
Today's decision may differ from yesterday or tomorrow,if ones activate their minds in seeing things around.,but don't be like machines in producing same stuff each day.. Gerina took her clothes which already ironed by Aby then picked one of them after about 15 minutes thinking about which would be the best wear to meet someone at a blind date ocurrance.She was going to meet him at a cafe just nearby the house .Still ,he need Aby to chaperone her .,, Don't let dad know I meet someone ,ok ,, she said .Aby just nodded and followed her walking out . Human knowledge can be developed if it stuffed by more and more data in a insatiable curiosity. Gerina have been known the man from social media .She was thrilled by the first meeting in person after a few months chatting on phone .She must be careful in deciding to meet in person ..quite many bad stories happen on a date from social media.One day it return to the similar conclusion ,whether the friendship would be in good
Lev is listening to the talk and doesn't catch what is it all about.Sometimes his sisters take him out and proudly telling them that he is their youngest brother.Cute ,smart. ...that's all the comments they got .So different from Aby .They never introduce him to anyone . Wanting more times to have nice talk with mom is not possible for Aby .It's seldom to have good time with her . Desara was just coming home from somewhere and asked mom and dad whether she could take Aby with her. ,,Dad is speaking to someone at the porch .You hear that ? Sound important " ,,Talking about making a business again maybe" They were laughing.,,Again ? What business? Doing business need enough money as a capital" ,, Forgive her for saying that mom " ,,Ask him about our financial issues.How to solute this ?Your career , one need a good base of education...and so does our social life. We need to have good position to be respected again ..like when our grandpa still have lots of land ". ,,Maybe
Lev wanted to join Aby playing .But his chummies minded it as Lev was too small to gather with them . Their sisters allowed him to go but dad forbid them .He said ,"What about when they enjoy playing,Lev is left behind and none aware of him ...he can be lost,,But Lev is a boy .It's good for him to play and learn with elder boys ...so he can learn how to be a man " said Milena theoritically.Yes it's a heyday time for him to learn whilst playing ". Said Gerina.Asfarina was masticating some food when she said something but none care as her words were bleary.Mama looked shocker by the disagreement among all of them.She heard the girls say those pontifical statements.It maybe derived from their academic education they bring to the houseWhereas their dad is a conformist still .Aby was standing in the corner, baffled.The quarrel seemed scaremonger.Mama saw the situation as inglorious thing.She always consider her family as philistine.But the quarrel seemed like all of them were s
Lizette,Milena pal at the vicinity neighborhood saw the boys group were heading along the south road.It's a spacial marshy site .Some of them cycled, some others rakish in laughter.Lizette met Milena about it at the porch . Hearing this,she widened her eyes, baffled.She prepared herself to scold Aby .He was 14 ,age of pubertyteenagers where they tend to rebel to show their being nomore little kid .But it's an odd thing to do for the obedient boy .She took Lizette hand to the living room and served her some frost water .Lizette sat and looking around the house which quite commodious in her eyes even it's old.Lev was crying unstoppablyMom came in with monstrosity of angerGerina masticated a bowl of toothsome mushroom soup when she came in and meddling on the rigmarole.She carried Lev who was crying intermittently.He was in the condition of abstemious vibes.Asfarina hard bitten herself in seeing all that .,,Aby is weird today.He is not himself.. what's going on?"She looked
The commotion was spreading to the street. Lev was frightened by wincing with tears while he pleaded to be carried, his father immediately hugged him. " See what's going on, son," he said to Aby.Aby immediately went with careful motions. He opened wide his eyes and ears. There he saw many people running here and there it seemed derived from t T -junction. The atmosphere was suddenly very chaotic.Some children running in terror."Get out of the way!!", a child shouted at him but eventually he was not a child, he was just an adult who has the size of a kid. At the intersection standing there, on the corner of the street there was a big house. It seemed they wanted to go inside there in effort to looking for some safety .That magnificent house has long been abandoned by its owner, none knows who was the person . The house has had its doors removed.Aby looked at everything around him and tried to understand what had happened there.All he saw in front of him was so confus
Aby shared all the gifts to his pals at the site and the staffs who kept on showing their happiness to have him there again with different situations. Aby now was a mature man with such respectable appearance inside outside. But his appealing personality was still the same . Humble,respectful , attentive.All was thanking him for the gift they held on their chest while kissing her cheek and forehead .They have a party to welcoming him . Everyone was proud of him .Then privately to his dad and said ," This one is for mom ..."Where is she ?"Huskily his dad said ," Your mom is in hospital,Ab".Aby gasped and shocked .His eyes widened in terror." Hospital? What sickness she has ?"" Stroke and ...larynx tumor ""Let's go now ..dad ..l will ask Lafthan to drive us there ..maybe Oghan and Norine too .."" We have hard time to decide ,Ab.. whether yes or no having the surgery... Asfarina can not help more to pay the fee".With his tender look ,Aby hugged his father just like he did when
Near Aby's room there were piled boxes of gifts for him to take home. They asked over and over again if he would come back to the clinic and join them again . Abi said he needed time to think about that but if it was just a visit why not. The answer relieved them ,At least, that would not be the last time they saw him ." Friendship is for ever " said Nevan .He knew that everyone miss him . Everyone wanted him to be around."We don't know what happens now in his family .Maybe someone sick or having accident..his mom or dad ..or anyone.. so his presence will matter a lot " .said Lania." Your pal .. does not tell you what happens?" Ask Frine." Sometimes parents don't want to bother their children who live far away ..you know , once my sick grandmother,before she passed away ,told my mom not to let me know that she was sick at the hospital as she didn't want me to grief and she worried if the news would distract my work ..."said Risa.Everyone was silent listening to her story ." It's
I used to see through the window train when it moved fast .My younger dreams scattered in the rice fields, among the trees and small rivers.My imagination ran freely to the fog and sky and the machine vibration.Some passengers looked poor and dirty.The childhood pages have not been finished.There are missing links beetween each phases .How to break the unwanted parts? And add some more which ever possible,?Do you believe that wildness is a lucky draw for anyone who brave to break the rules ?I remember my yesteryear schooldays.I was crazy about a song of Sam Cooke.Please peruse the words.It was my imaginary schoolmate.If only some one felt that way in me ..In fact ,l had no friends..then l create an imaginary one .A kindhearted pal who always with me ,talking and did many different things with different places to go .At highschool this imaginary peer saying this ..*Don't know much about historyDon't know much biologyDon't know much about a science bookDon't know much about the
Mr Fazan thought about how possessive Greghardt was till Asfarina lack of time to visit her mom more often .If he counted,she only did it twice since Labida was ill. Would he allow her to give special time for her own mother without trying to control or judge her as not present at the available according to his schedule or willingness to let her devoted a bit more ...he emotionally will say that the kids needed her a lot and her devotional manner will affect them now and then.He will also talk about the internal family frame ...why Asfarina? Labida has other more children,why not press them to do it ?of course it's such natural questions and nothing was wrong with that..” They tell the client we are actively listening and would like to dig deeper.Greghardt was such a powerful and active person.Sometimes Milena asked Asfarina “Do you feel your relationship with him is failing?” The questions seem negative and potentially blocking her internal frame of reference to answ
Aby received some emails..they felt comfortable to unload things they wanted to tell .Being an active good listener made him considered as good as talking to a counselor or even better.Anyway he immediately will be a big clinic owner .He was a gifted person to be good at counselling..to heal and giving support..He read an email from someone he knew so well ..Later on he should not notice too much about whose letter was it . Privacy.Sometimes ones want to be unknown but still it's part of sign that what ones need is sympathy for the issue they have.. "Even though he was nomore than a great businessman with great life and great education.For me it's not great anyhow.l saw him only as another existence of possibility and bravery.Have l seen the light after this darkening days ?and drawn a breath after that sickening times?I have a long story.About changes and stagnation." A world without virtues ..when modernity create insanity'' she said on one occasion.Then she went on , as that'
It's a bitterness of surprise when existence of ones matter.Understanding become a shock .Some people said that marriage is a transaction.So ,it's not only about amity and affinity but also including businesses.Rich ones marry other rich ,or bondage of relatives ..cousin marriage caused of keeping the wealth not to go to other bloodline..so there still culture of arrange marriage.Even when they were babies or still fetus inside their wombs ,the parents arranged the cousin marriage.The culture was rooted since pharaoh ..So ,that's one of the insanity cues of how human love wealth .Comfort zone .That's the term that mentioned for prime position as accordingly in social class.So many hurting facts happen on earth .One of Lania patient came to her and told her that even having babies for them was only an obligation.They didn't understand the meaning of physical intimacy .Hating each other by the arranged marriage but couldn't do anything about it .Some traditional rooted in certain
"Life and death are same precious matters for they who trust the good the better and the best.. everything has its value" "What we see in Umar as a lover of the poor and the weak ,he was a true believer and leader.He said " ,lf there is a sheep starved in this country,l will be the one who is responsible in the Day of Judgement ""Well .. what you think about my note ..listen ,ok ?l don't like the answer..Or my question is indecent ?Is fact equal to trueness?What is the truth in a treeSeed ,root ,leave ,stem ,twigs ,Branch ,the soil or the sun ? Where is the fact ?Tree is the truth ,not part of the truth But the truth ...Well l don't knowNot willing to switch ..To alter The possibility to reality The wild bush invite a few butterfliesTo play ,make some wind blowing There is a move even you stayBecause your child go , see them reach their wills..Things cycled They were tiny in your hands when you looked after them Now you are older weaker..do They take care o
Anyone who expect Lev to change his attitude are frustrated.To behave well ,more studious,he would laugh and mocking .. better let him go? It was not necessarily more favorable either.He felt free to do and say whatever he likes and whomever he likes.Means he didn't hear what ever his parents or teacher or lecturer told him .Never willing to listen to anyone. He got all the bad habits.From gambling to bite nailing fun , breaking promise,don't pay his debt , irresponsible ,no compromise ,no critics no rules that's what he wants."And the group who are with him get ranked according to his satisfaction.""See ?The term choice overload was first coined by futurologist and entrepreneur Alvin Toffler, in his book Future shock analysed the effects of “too much change in a too short timeframe” on society and the human psyche – and for the first-time, dealt with the theme of “freedom of choice” becoming the opposite, unfreedom, as a direct result of having too many choices."" Dealing wit
Aby thought about how it's like yo be to come home.Lania allow him to pick any clinic he want to own for himself...was it great to have the one around his city? Having several options was not easy at all ..well ,he didn't have to be hurry.He still had time to think .Lania had a feeling for him ,he knew it and she was not happy with her husband.But that's nothing to do with that .Aby himself didn't show any special interest to any woman and Lania noticed it .She just wanted to make him in better shape and condition . That's all .What's wrong to give a valuable gift to someone valuable to her ? Was it unconditional love ? None knows.. Aby was a loyal and devout person.Reliable and Lania was sure that she handed over one of her clinical to a good hand ..Aby' s mind still unfixed.His soul seemed to be cut into more than one forms.His soul left in another soul who saw him as a precious one ..none in his lifetime,a mature woman treated him that way ..neither his mother nor his sisters