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2024-10-29 19:42:56Aby came home from school that afternoon, found the house rather quiet. Father was at work, of course, mom probably slept with Lev and his older sisters were still at school. Aby sat in a chair for a while, very tired, wanted to eat or sleep for a while. He thought about a few tasks he had to complete first.
Alright, if he sleep for a while before eating it might not be a problem, he'll do his routine tasks after that.He tiptoed to his room ,avoiding in making any noise that can awaken anyone .He changed an started to close his eyes . Sleeping is the best way out for tiredness.Empty highway to dream .Where to go... memories of the late Grandpa and grandma..The old house with some trees around.Create peace and garden of eden in your own heart...again the memories coming in a various forms joyous ,palaver , strained and prod .They played to be queen and king .A kid sat in a piles of pillow so she could be higher than everyone then commanding this and that while the common people acted as good for nothing but to obey the commands..,,Hey you ...Gerina...get me a plate of crackers and candy..you ...bring me some water ..."
Lev was still in mom belly that time ..he wasn't born yet.Aby was so little that time..only 3 or four years old.He had not understood well everything yet .Yes,this is not what they have now.The biggest real good time of joyous brotherhood project in our life..,,and my friends....they seem happy only when they are having time to insulate me .." that's what Aby had in some part of the siesta." No worse thing than hypocrisy.Even it is sweet.But sweet is nice .No uglier face than hypocrites.They mask their demons face by angelic sugarcoated expression.Wrap their evil by good deeds like...but actually not really good .
After managing everybody eyes by the devilish
Magician works,they rob rape their followers rights...to live ,to have dignity even to be oneself..That's what
colonialist do to other state,That's what nasty regime do to their own people..to the citizens who make them live in richness and luxurious lifestyle....they use people backs to be at the crown then kick them all after .... "By that words ,Aby woke up in sweat .Ahh..that's a drama speech on tv ...
"Aby !Aby ! Wake up ! "
Mom shook his back.He was shocked, then sat up and rubbed his eyes. He slept for more than an hour. His consciousness was not full at all.,,Where is Lev ? I thought he was with you !",,I thought the same ,mom ..."
Not waiting for his mom to say anything,Aby jumped off the bed and went out .
He searched Lev to some places he might be there.
Three houses around the neighborhood,have been sought and searched where Lev usually plays with the neighbor's children of his age.Aby looked for him there and everyone said they didn't know, didn't see Lev .Aby was getting scared and worried. "Lev.. where are you ...," he whispered and then he started calling him.
"Lev...!! Leeeeevvvvvv.." he kept on calling until his voice was hoarse and dry. He didn't care about his being hungry anymore. He was willing to exchange anysufferance at that time, as long as Lev can be found .,, Ah .. Thank God ",he whispered softly, when finally he heard the little voice that he knew very well .. but he was crying.
"Aby... Aby.....I'm here."
Aby immediately ran fast to Lev who was crying on the porch of Mrs. Hani's house."Lev..I'm here...why are you going alone? Mama's looking for you" ..When Aby was ready to hold and carried Lev, Mrs. Hani looked at him
sharply and angrily.,,He just had a fight with Mini and Ricky...Lev broke their toys...and l hope you know, they are their favorite expensive toys! "Aby looked at the madam in fear. She took Aby's hand into her children's playroom. There were indeed strewn glass shards of broken dolls and plastic spreading on the floor .
"Lev ..Really you broke it ? asked Aby gently. Aby rubbed Lev's forehead affectionately.. he knew that Lev would tell the truth. Father always taught him to ask first and never judge and brand someone as a guilty one whom might make some faults.Lev nodded . Aby kissed him .
"It's okay, Lev. I will try to replace it.and get the new ones to change them..Now ,you apologize to madam and Mini..and Ricky too."Lev obeyed. He apologized to them.
After Aby said something to madam, the two of them
went home .,,How can you get the new toys to change what l just broke ? ,,
,, Don't think about it.l can make it " .
Arriving home , everyone relief and happily hugged and welcoming Lev without looking at Aby who just had a thrilling experience.
None care of Aby when he silently went to the kitchen to get some food, except his dad .
He hugged him tightly to his chest and said ,,,My poor Aby ... thank you dear ..." .
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