chapter 156
Author: Blackrose
last update2023-04-08 17:01:35
Never before had Nathan noticed how time is so much like water; that it can pass slowly, a drop at a time, even freeze, or rush by in a blink. The clock says it is measured and constant, tick tock, part of an orderly world; the clock lies. The past three days had passed like thousands of camera frames per second shown one at a time. In this slow time-bubble the birdsong was louder, coldness was colder and colours were brighter. All the while his insides felt as if there was nothing there, nothing to need feeding, nothing to have need of anything at all.

I told you I love you and that makes me unlovable. I said that I care and that makes me the target of your hatred. I brought you gifts, poured affection into your life and you attacked me over and over. You leave me with insides contracting, cold. You leave me with a heart that explodes in my chest, clammy skin and hyperventilating as I lean on a wall. I would still be your friend if you would extend your hand, but I know that you won'
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