The Suicidal Killer

Flashback ll

I got off the bus with a smile even though I was upset because of the man next to me, I still thought it was his money and then he also used my money, annoying. I hope he just returned my wallet to me.

But he returned my wallet, just in case he took our fare. It's annoying, I feel like I'm a scam in that part.

But even though that happened, I'm happy because I got down safely and arrived here in the town where my father leads, I heard that he is the one who leads here and runs this town, and I'm proud because my father did the right thing is about.

"Ale, where is the municipality here?" I asked a woman who was selling fish on the side, and she looked at me and then pointed the way to the municipality, I immediately thanked her and made my way to the municipality. My smile widened, even more, when I was in front of the municipality.

I observed the size and beauty of the design of the town hall where my father heads. I quickly straightened up my messy clothes and walked into the town hall. The guards even greeted me outside so I also smiled to greet them. I stopped in front of the Information desk and spoke to the woman present.

"Hello, good day. Can I ask a question?" I asked, it looked at me from head to toe then nodded. I think it's just my age.

"Where is the mayor's office here?" I asked, her eyebrow raised immediately.

"What do you need from the Mayor?" She asked so I took the picture in my pocket with a smile and then showed it to her.

"I'm here to talk to my dad," I said, I heard her weak laugh then looked at me seriously.

"Ms, there is no mental here in the municipality but if you want we will take you there." She said so I frowned.

"Huh?" I ask. She took a deep breath and she was annoyed with me.

"I said, Mayo is busy--"

"Arizona is my schedule full? You cancel everything." We looked at the speaker behind me and my heart almost jumped with joy when I saw my father holding a cellphone and a woman next to him, wearing a formal dress, and actually, the mayor was coming.

"Dad!" I called him with a smile so he looked at me and frowned as he watched me approach him.

"Dadd--" I didn't finish what I was about to say when suddenly two big men wearing black formal clothes stopped by, I looked at them both, they also had black glasses in their eyes and a wire connected to their ears.

"Mr. Mayor is not allowed to be approached." My lips quivered at what one of them had said.

"E-Excuse me? b-but he's my father." Their foreheads were wrinkled, their laughter could not escape my sight as if I had said something funny.

"What's going on here?" I looked at my father who was behind the two men in front of me.

"Mr. Mayor, she seems to be your daughter, she said." Laughing, one of them said so my father looked at me, even though his tummy grew and he looked mature, I'm sure he was my father.

Dad walked in front of me so I smiled and immediately took the opportunity to hug Dad tightly, finally. For the first time, I also hugged my dad whom I hadn’t seen in years. When I was young I always asked my mother where my father was, she always told me that he had a job in a faraway place and it would be a long time before I could go home and come back, but when I came to my senses I gradually understood that what my mother told me when I was a child was not true.

He just didn't want me to feel bad for my father because he had another family.

I don't feel bad for papa because I don't know what happened in the past, the important thing is that daddy is by my side and I hug him during these times.

"Dad, I've been waiting so long -"

"Get away from me." I was shocked when he pushed me away from him, I could see the disgust in his eyes and gestures. He even put alcohol on his hand in front of me and then glared at me as if I was a very bad person and I had done something wrong.

"Who are you? All of a sudden you're approaching me, don't you know that diseases are a trend now? Look at the dirt." It said that it made my mouth water.

"Mr. Mayor, I need you in the meeting room." The woman who had just arrived looked at me, I saw how disgust drew her, I looked at myself and smelled myself. I don't see anything wrong with me, I also don't smell bad so why are they just like that when they stare at me?

"Get her out of here, she's grabbing the attention of all the people here,"  Dad said to a man in uniform so my lips parted and I was immediately alarmed.

"But dad, I'm Erelah, Arizona's daughter," I said reason to stop him, he looked at me, and little by little the joy in my chest came to life because I saw his shocked reaction but it also disappeared immediately when I saw how his aura darkened as if I had said a name that he forgot for a long time.

"Leave us first," Papa said coldly to the people around us, although confused, they didn't just ask questions and immediately obeyed papa's orders.

"Follow me." He said coldly and walked so I immediately took my luggage and followed him. We arrived outside the municipality, he turned the road so I also turned until we reached the back of the municipality where there was no one but the two of us, I smiled when he looked at me but I immediately lost my smile when I saw what kind of stare he bestowed on me.

A stare where I could feel his disgust with me.

"Dad--"

"Don't call me 'dad' I don't have a daughter." He said coldly cause I was offended and bowed in shame, I felt like I was just embarrassing myself in front of him.

My tears flowed immediately because of what he said.

"But dad--"

"Don't you understand? I said, don't call me dad because I don't have a daughter, go back to where you came from." I looked at him, his disgust at me.

This is different from what I expected to happen, I hope he will accept me generously and greet me with big hugs but why is this? Why is this happening?

When I was young, my grandfather always told me not to show up to papa because it would only embarrass me, then I always tried to defend papa and say 'He is kind so he can't do that thing to me but now, grandpa is right. Dad embarrasses me.

"Go back to your mother, haven't I already paid her? We've already talked about, why you're here now?" He asked angrily, then took out his wallet and took thousands of his money, then slapped me in the face, causing them to fall to the ground.

"There, leave and don't come back, maybe that's enough." He said, I bent down and looked at the money below. I can't buy the love of a father. I want his attention and care so here I am, not his money.

"The next time you come back here, I'll put you in jail, do you understand?" He asked so I looked at him, he turned away from me.

"I just want to experience being with my father," I said so he stopped, he kept his back to me.

"I just want your attention and love so I'm here, I don't need your money." My tears flowed because of what I said, my grip on my bags tightened even more.

"Mom said, you promised me before that you would come back to me, mom and I but ---"

"Leave and don't come back." He said coldly and walked away from me.